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I just want to be soft

Why am I so angry, so harsh, so violent, so destroying.

It’s unfair

I still make the same stupid mistakes

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i am excessive when i love someone and i am cruel when i hate someone. i want to be gentle. i don't want to be this way.

"you deserve good things" okay... so, where are those good things?

i just wish someone told me

despite everything.

i’ve noticed a lot of patrick troughton simps on my dash recently so

i’m throwing these pictures out like a bag of french fries to a lot of hungry seagulls

no matter what i do im still lonely

The pain is always worse at night.

I'm alone, I'm unwanted, I'm annoying, no one wants me. No one ever will.

i just wish i wasn’t unlovable, this shit hurts so much idk if i can handle this anymore

i don't want to ruin it. not this time. but i feel like i don't deserve it. i don't deserve anything nice. so i ruin it. i ruin it when i know damn well that i could have had something nice for once. but i don't feel worthy. what is wrong with me

it’s so frustrating that i have to take fucking pills every day in order to “function” like a normal human being

and it’s still not enough, my brain will never change the way it works and i hate that

I wish I could wake up and this would all be a bad dream.

I'm such a burden to everyone who loves me. I wish I wasn't so mentally ill so they could love me right

I want to start heavily drinking so I can stop feeling anything

I am so fucking alone

I wish I deserved to be cared about.

am i the abusive one?

am i the reason so many people leave?

i am arent i?

i’m the problem

i always have been the problem

i’ll always be the problem

i'm sorry for being dumb, i'm sorry for being pathetic, i'm sorry for being ugly, i'm sorry for being ME, if i could be anyone else, trust me i would be anyone but me

sometimes i wish id die in a freak accident because im too cowardly to do it myself

bpd is hating yourself for being the way you are even though it’s not you who made you like this

we are all born to die right? so is it wrong of me to speed up the process?

how to get rid of fp without taking critical damage ??