Getting Started Is Always The Hardest, Especially When You've Given Up Everything And Have To Start From

Getting started is always the hardest, especially when you've given up everything and have to start from scratch. I just lie on the bed and stare at the ceiling. I want so many things, but I always hit walls when it comes to practical implementation. I want to get out of bed and start going somewhere. I did this when I was young, I set out and wandered around the city aimlessly, I didn't go home for days, and I met all kinds of people. I accepted that I was transgender, in the beginning everything just happened naturally, but I always found myself on the street, in bars, in all kinds of dubious places, at parties, where they just took me because I was good for decoration, and then they left me on the street in the morning like a beaten dog, to go where I want. No one has ever given me anything and I have never asked anyone and I never will. Even today, I don't know exactly what I should do for my dreams, but I don't want to wander aimlessly around the city anymore, I just lie on the bed and stare at the ceiling…

Selfie in the bathtub

I've been taking selfies all the time lately. But maybe I could take some sellable photos if I put a little effort into it. Believe it or not, I used to be a model among many others, but my insufferable nature doesn't make me suitable for serious work.

Two selfies

An old video with low quality

Once there was a street party in Budapest, and I and a guy climbed to the top of the Freedom Bridge. Balancing on the thin edge of the bridge, I wanted to spin and jump all the way up to the top, but I was afraid that I would fall. Dance in the street! Kick the trash can! Run on the road between the cars! Draw nonsense on the walls! Climb to the top of the bridge! Make love in the park, don't be afraid if they see you! Be like me when I was young!