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About Zayne's loneliness.

Sometimes I wonder what an angry Zayne looks like? I mean, NOT angry at MC/you but maybe angry at Astra and/or his fate for putting him in such difficult and unfair situations.

Zayne loves MC deeply, with his whole being, but loving her makes him be 'selfish', to want something for himself, to seek his own happiness alongside MC when it seems that his fate was always to serve others before looking after himself.

It's like he himself said in Master of Fate's Myth: "When emotions and desires are involved, selfishness is bound to exist".

In Master of Fate, he's deemed as a Siming which in Chinese mythology, is a kind of deity in charge to allocate humans' life spans, and according to Wikipedia:

"Siming's special concern (and power) is the balancing of yin and yang (Hawkes 2011 (1985), 109). Of particular relevance here is the relation between yin and yang balance and human health, and the importance to individual human health of such balance, as articulated in traditional Chinese medicine. Siming has the power to balance or unbalance yin and yang, and thus to lengthen or shorten human lifespans, or to provide health or prolong illness".

Siming could decide to provide health to a person or to prolong illness, in that way, having an important role into deciding people's life spans. It's interesting cause Dr Zayne and Dawnbreaker pretty much do the same.

Dr Zayne does his best to cure and take care of people, thus stretching out their life span, while Dawnbreaker gives them a merciful death to avoid them to live as walking corpses, thus shortening their life span.

Unlike Master of Fate or Foreseer, at first glance it could look like Dr Zayne and Dawnbreaker have no God-like power, thus have no control over destiny or fate, yet they still do.

It's actually Foreseer the one who lacks some kind of jurisdiction about people's lifes and fates; he could still glimpse at their destiny, being aware of what awaits people but wasn't allowed to intervene in any sense and most of all, he wasn't allowed to glimpse at his own fate.

In any case, until now, all Zayne's lifes have always been about taking care of other's destiny but what about him? When describing gods, Zayne is actually quite humble, saying that gods maybe are just like humans, except that they had the chance to do a bit more.

Zayne is quite selfless. He's not the kind of man who would blame his destiny for all the things that have happened to him and yet... They're still unfair.

Foreseer once said: "My destiny is to disappear from the annals of history... For someone who wants to remember me, it certainly feels wonderful".

At some point, Zayne's duty isolated him in every life time. He lived alone and caged in a Tower in Foreseer's Myth, he lived alone in the Mountains as Master of Fate, and he lived totally alone as Dawnbreaker. His only companions were Jas/Bai but no other human being.

Dr Zayne is actually the only one whose duty has brought him some kind of recognition, admiration and appreciation (and well deserved, of course), and hasn't isolated him from society, but funnily enough, he has this condition with his evol that sometimes turns him into a treath, which makes him keep others at arms length, especially MC. As for Master of Fate? Foreseer? Dawnbreaker? They all have to move the threads behind backstage in a lonely duty, being Foreseer the most severe case. It doesn't help that in the Foreseer timeline, Zayne is even explictly prohibited to be with MC.

Zayne's fate was always to look after other people's fate but like I've said before, MC was always the exception of every rule in his book because she was the one who made him yearn for human warmth and closeness with someone else and because of that, he'd break the rules to ensure she lives a long happy and safe life, even if is not at his side... Unironically.

In Foreseer's Myth, it is said that Astra prohibited him of being with MC in this and his other lifes because Zayne was a tool. At first, Astra's severity at punishing Zayne looked more like a senseless tantrum of a prepotent god and while that might be true, it seems that Zayne not being able to be with MC in every life time is simply because she would never allow him to fullfil 'his destiny' and to make matters worse, she's a "variant" (We don't know exactly what this entails, we just know that is something threatening, I have some assumptions about it but let's keep it like this for now) . That's why, unlike Rafayel and the other LIs, it seems that he doesn't keep memories of his previous lifes or previous experiences with MC, yet he said once that if souls truly existed, then he was sure that his soul recognized MC before his memory did. MC is this person that always reminds him that he's not just a "tool", a means to an end, but an individual being that is also deserving of something better.

Zayne's love for MC often reminds me of that Córtazar quote: "You were always my mirror, what I'm trying to say is that, in order to see me, I had to see you"

I wonder if there's one life time where Zayne will be allowed to have happiness and company without having to pay a high price for it.

ughghgh hes such a cutie i wanna bite

xavier

What is this outfit choice, my guy 😭😭

I think I like Rafayel from LND because he's the trickster type of character. He makes it so easy to forget that 1) he killed ppl, 2) he's basically the last god of the sea, 3) his behavior in nest, 4) this man has A MASSIVE BOUNTY on his head and I doubt it's because he's a painter tbqh.

Rafayel lies often, he hides often, exaggerates often, and he has MASSIVE REASONS for that. The whole Lemuria falling? MC never remembering him? Being bonded with MC thru reincarnations? He has such understandable trust issues and issues with believing in MC or that things can get better because of his experience. The continuous fear that he'll be forgotten? Because that's ALWAYS something he talks about: the hospital scene, the misty invasion card, the several 4* cards. It's all about "remember me". For Zayne it's 'stay alive', but for Rafayel it's 'remember me'. I think it hits so hard.

Because, in reality, are we truly alive if no one remembers us?

I also think that Rafayel is genuinely /the/ shadiest out of all LIs in LND, moreso than Sylus. Why? Because Sylus is not hiding who he is. He's quite open about his scheming nature, his job, etc. But Rafayel? No. He doesn't open up, he hides himself best because of both being a Lemurian but also because of past experiences. I just love this dramatic artist man. I love how genuinely complicated he is and how it's SEEN that he is struggling with MC in a way that others don't. He has the potential to become bitter, and it shows, he bites and he hisses (metaphorically ofc, I know he's a fish man lol). I

t's just the 'possibility' and 'realistic circumstances' that make me really admire his flawed character. Because, god damn, he IS flawed. Openly. So brightly in your eyes with his exaggerations, with his lies/deceit, with his distance, with his behaviors. And I love it. Holy shit do I /love/ that type of complicated characters. And I'm not even touching on the complicated relationship with Lemuria as a god who basically led it to 'ruin' in a sense. Good lord.