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my boss walking into my office: hey i know you’re really busy today, do you have a moment?

me who’s been reading fanfiction for the last 4 hours: uhhh i think i can spare a few minutes

I will not be silenced.

Okay this is just a place to talk. Okay - picture this. Girl, 22, super depressed. Can’t find anything to give joy. But she is super into fanfiction of all sorts. Decides to give this long ass fanfiction, 500k words, a shot. Main character is a depressed mess, utterly destroyed, doing everything they can to kill themselves without having the blame. I understand that. I am that. 100k words in, character starts to get better in their own way. There’s a lot of ups and downs, good days and bad days. Wrong decisions, fucked up decisions, wrong turns. They’re a whole mess AND a half. But they don’t give up. They keep making it to the next day until they are better. They are still broken, but it doesn’t mean they’re ruined. They get better. They get happy. The bad days are still there but the bad days are easier. Jesus has a fanfiction ever hit you SO hard it makes living worth living? I mean Jesus. It was a gorgeous story. I’m not even DONE with it. There’s a whole other segment to the story. It’s a three part series and I’m not even done with part 2. I forget how powerful writing can be, even on AO3. I don’t know how to reach this author and beg them to never stop writing. It was perfect.

for him. ♡

SCHITT’S CREEK (2015-2020) 1.01 THE CUP RUNNETH OVER

Fyodor Dostoyevsky // Alanis Morissette

chubby looks good on tons of people! just not you and me<3 stay skinny besties~

“Do these clothes make me look fat?” The clothes themselves are fine but they look way too tight on you. What size are you in anyway? 3XL? XXXXL? Maybe you should lose weight before buying clothing again. You are definitely too fat to be wearing clothes made for thinner girls.

- me anytime i’m trying to buy new clothes

I am begging internet denizens to LET GO of No Children. There are SO MANY other TMG songs that will absolutely rip you apart in even harder ways.

David Duchovny and Gillian Anderson, 1997 - photographed by Mark Seliger for US Magazine.

A vote for Fox Mulder is a vote for Dana Scully. (Please don't separate them, they start chewing furniture.)

Eternal Sunshine of The Spotless Mind 2004 | dir. Michel Gondry

In my slut era (wrapped up in a blankie with a cup of tea, reading a romance book and fantasising about love)

It's so amazing how sometimes people feel like home too.

i hate that i still listen to some artists just because you once told me they were your favorites. i like and enjoy their music though. i really do, they're great after all. but sometimes it hurts to listen to them because they will only remind me of you —i wish they didn't so i can enjoy their music in peace.

He's a ghost from my past that will haunt me forever.

Elysian101

In my head, I still have new conversations with you. In my head , I change some conversations we've had. In my head, that's the only place I can find what we've lost. In my head, that's the only place I can fix what's broken. In my head, that's where I'll find my closure. In my head, that's where I'll have to leave you like you left me. So I can go on living life like you went on living without me.

up the wolves - the mountain goats

of course, I feel too much, I'm a universe of exploding stars.

I watch shows and movies

I hear songs and poems

but I can never feel what I crave

I’ll never know unconditional love

Not from my mother, not from my closest friends, not from my partners

Is it me not accepting love or is it me never being loved?