I'm Outside My Body

I'm outside my body

and out of my mind

I'm being punish for leaving the 'oh how sweet these pills are'

my stomach is still cold like the water I drank

and I don't recognise my surroundings anymore

like I know

but at the same time I don't

nobody told me that trying to get better can be worse than not

i do things in the meantime of waiting for your response

why you never call me?

apocalyptic nightmare

you were standing still

your eyes barely looking at me

and my heart burning like a candle

and while you were waiting for her

preparing a long term poem that she'd never heard

ignored the words

of a soul who only belonged to yours.

that astro shines for everyone but me

if he looks at me, it's just to kill me, burn me, and throw me away

I'm so lonely

sitting on the couch watching tv

thinking about what I used to be

a concerning black shadow

it's hanging upon me

again, I'm so lonely

haven't seen my friends for a while

if I still have one

still, very lonely

consumes every inch of my being

rips my soul

making a hole

for my fears to come in.