BLINDED BY LOVE!

ೃ⁀➷ BLINDED BY LOVE!

━。゜✿ all it takes for niki is to date his ideal girl, hwang eun, to realise that he actually prefers her calmer younger sister, hwang yn.

PAIRING : nishimura riki x fem!reader (ft. niki x oc!)

WARNINGS : swearing, kys jokes, ur mom jokes (a lot of them), little bullying, potential blackmailing, mean people, and many more. (all i can think of at the moment) — warnings listed on each chapter!

GENRE : fluff, angst, girlfriends-sister trope, popular x unpopular trope, forbidden love, falling without realising

FEATURING : ISA as HWANG EUN, HAERIN as HWANG YN (for visual purposes), YUNJIN from LE SSERAFIM, WONYOUNG from IVE, JO from &TEAM, JONGSEOB from P1HARMONY, HIKARU from KEP1ER, rest of ENHYPEN, and other idols mentioned.

STARTED : 15 jan —

EI’S NOTES : first smau kinda nervous… also, using canva templates for your headers >>>

TAGLIST IS OPEN!

PROFILES : the IT girls | major losers | popular bs

01. nishimura rizzki has entered

02. she has a sibling?

03. meet & greet

04. oh (in a good way)

05. you WHAT

06. slice of life w/ yn

07. “iTs JuSt A pHaSE”

08. delusional is what you are

09. accidental (on purpose) encounters

10. a simp

11. he’s actually fine asf ngl…

12. the break-up

13. SINGLE AND READY TO MINGLE TF😍

14. im actually emo

15. hanging out

16. lets be fr rn guys

17. larry DUPE

18. coffee shop hang-outs (dates!!!)

19. roblox gf and bf

20. #yniki captain at it AGAIN

21. eun posted?

22. she makes me happy

23. did he just-

24. so approval accepted 🙏

25. WHY HER WHAT

TAGLIST — @judeduartewannabe @simjakeissohot @gfksn @calijimenez @trsrina @ksnu @keikeu @arizejkt19 @adajoemaya @txtbrainrot @nomurahayami @kyanmeai @rikimylove @lcv3lies @ahnneyong @enhas-injangiee @myjaeyunn @sserafimez @singforyoursupper @aspaia @s0ye0nswife @catsyoon @miercerise @cosmicwintr @yuhjoeyuh @wonyoungsvirus @ddazed-lhs @voidbeomgyu @luvhyun3 @catryu @diestheticu @shota-pop @heewonzz @vixensss @urszn @ixomiyu @jhopesucker @tinie03 @bearseulgs @s4turnsl0ver @silcry @annoyingbitch83 @curly-fr13s @darly6n @ctrl-haerin @chaechae-23 @cherryunie @luvvsjungwonn @pretty-pretty-ela @nishik1

TAGLIST 2 — @.1yeonna @.cutiejseong @.phsmloves @.j-wyoung @.viagumi @.pkjay @.kpopsbabe @.whippedforbeomgyu @.imasimplol @.im-yn-suckers @.jksecret @.iea-tsand @.ilovewonyo @.luvistqrzzz @.ramenoil @.end0rchans @.ohmyhuenings @.soo0mi @.smg-valeria @.rikizm @.silvsie @.yajw @.k1ttylvr @.yumilovesloona @.miukityy @.hehet-ateez @.stariszn @.gigiramirezsblog @.articxari @.a-l-i-y-a @.lazy-miya @.thesassy-mia @.yourmyst4r @.teddywonss @.sloobydooburmomjungwon @.angrybananapolice @.gyumatcha @.vianna99 @.ibedreaminghighupinthesky @.chaewon-slays @.heart4hees @.r1kitti @.smollquokka @.j1nniee @.jungwonzlvr @.h-hazwie @.m111nho

@ byuqi 2023

you’re hired! → nishimura riki.

— synopsis: the idol life? definitely not for you, but you’ve quickly become one of the highest ranking choreographers in korea. what happens when the multinational entertainment corporation ‘HYBE Labels’ invites you for a quick meeting at the company?

— genre: high school au, social media au, crack, fluff, includes some written chapters!

— pairing: idol!riki x fem/choreographer!reader

— featuring: ENHYPEN, eunchae (lesserafim), haerin + danielle (newjeans), rei + liz (ive), taki (&team), jongseob (p1harmony), kyujin + haewon (nmixx)

— warnings: swearing, bickering, inappropriate jokes (older members), y/n and riki are very very very oblivious, |<¥$ jokes

— author’s note: i gave up on my other smau lets hope i don’t do the same with this one…

— start date: 230629 (ongoing) | taglist: OPEN!

— updates: every few days <3

profiles:

1 (decelis) | 2 (enhypen) | 3 (extras)

chapters:

01. BACK OFF LIZ

02. single ladies unite!

03. who is hybe

04. why riki kinda..

05. we’re on a mission

06. my heart did a thing

07. you’re hired

08. a little surprise

09. i will fart on you

10. this jungwon boy kinda cute!

11. he’s a fanboy

12. someone like me?

13. click the accept button

14. don’t miss her too much

15. rikiyn agenda

16. i want your number

17. i have a crush

18. SHE LOVES DUCKS

19. i think i’m in love

20. you owe me 50 bucks

21. SHE ALREADY HAS PLANS

22. sleep with one eye open tonight

23. blabbermouth

24. IS THAT NI-KI FROM ENHYPEN???

25. like crazy

26. liz wants her ex back

27. no we are not dating

28. WALK OFF A BRIDGE

29. engenelover3000

30. i like you

31. date and stuff

NEW ROMANTICS!

in which…

y/n continuously struggles to contain her growing feelings for her crush (and longtime friend), lee heeseung.

PA!R!NG : heeseung x afab!reader

❥ GENRE : short smau (10-20 chapters), highschool au, childhood friends to lovers, literally zero angst… whole thing is like fluff, pining

!WARN!NGS! : profanity, food/eating, y/n is a literal Nerd (jk she just likes tswift and reading), kissing, one too many your mom jokes, jokes abt kms/dying

FEATUR!NG : nam y/n as minju (ex. iz*one), enhypen, wonyoung, yunjin, chaewon

≫ D!SCLA!MER !! in no way am i trying to sexualize any idols! nor am i saying this accurately depicts any idols. this is purely a work of fiction!

TAGL!ST : closed! thank u for being interested!

☆ YENQA < new smauuu!! “yen it took you so long to finish mtwy-“ shut Up. and i will Never let go of the ripped paper

STATUS : finished! april 20th, 2023 to july 25th, 2023

PERM TAGL!ST : @jwnghyuns @ja4hyvn @trsrina @redm4ri @badmuni @yeokii for boosting, please send an ask or comment if you want to be added to the smau taglist.

profiles! ⁀➷

major swifties!! + the mentally ill.

001 : the song lover

002 : Not a help fr moment

003 : invisible string wc .6k

004 : open your front door

005 : hanamaki?????

006 : geniuenlly

007 : uhh about that

008 : BC YOURE LIVING IN DELUSION

009 : you Freak

010 : shy smiles wc .49k

011 : maybe

012 : hallucinations r becoming real

013 : favorite girl wc 1.0k

014 : y/ns boyfie

015 : who said 🤨

016 : he only smiles at other girls so u should break up

epilogue : the time heeseung failed to propose (and the time he did) wc : 1.3k

end.

yenqa © do not copy, steal or translate.

LIFEGUARD - MASTERLIST

> pairing : Nishimura Riki x Female Reader

> genre : college student AU! , Pool Lifeguard AU! , smau , fluff

> warnings : SLOW BURN!! , swearing , bad humor jokes , kys jokes (die etc) , kissing , semi verbal bullying (no violence) , reader! injuring herself by accident , missing parent figure , drowning (not to the point your dying)

> synopsis : Excited to become the new lifeguard in the campus as your part time job to pay off your rent. Until you noticed one particular person who keeps coming during your shifts and stays until it ends - Nishimura Riki. Non of you exchanged words but it all starts with mini smiles and eye contacts. Will both of you remain trapped in your silent world? Or to find the courage to talk to each other, that would lead to more than just unspoken interactions and drama..

> side characters : Enhypen, NewJeans Hanni, StayC isa, p1won’s intak, the boyz sunwoo, zb1 Ricky.

𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐓𝐔𝐒 : 𝐎𝐍𝐆𝐎𝐈𝐍𝐆

𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓: 𝐎𝐂𝐓𝐎𝐁𝐄𝐑 𝟐𝐍𝐃 , 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟑

𝐄𝐍𝐃𝐈𝐍𝐆: 𝐓𝐁𝐀

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© filmofhybe on tumblr — do not copy , translate or share.

𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐅𝐈𝐋𝐄 : 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝟕 𝐭𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐝𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐟𝐬 | 𝐬𝐰𝐢𝐦𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐬𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐦𝐬

> 𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟏 - YOU GOT THE JOB?

> 𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟐 - SHOULD I GO BACK TO HER?

> 𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟑 - UH HE’S IN THE KIDS POOL

> 𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟒 - I FELL AND HE CAUGHT ME

> 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟓 - YOU HANG OUT WITH “MY GF” ?

> 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟔 - HE FOUND ME..

> 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟕 - A MESSAGE FROM ME TO YOU

> 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟖

(a/n: btw I have no clue how many chapters there’s gonna be in this series, since I only planned out the first 4 and obviously more is gonna come. But for now I just wanna give a heads up that is more likely to be a slow burn typa story so if your not into slow burn I suggest reading my other written work instead🫶)

Attention, Please!

main masterlist

PAIRING(S) | rival Jake X rival female reader

GENRE(S) | smau, fluff, crack, rival to lovers, angst, High school au

WARNING(S) | profanity, my humour is kind broken, your mom jokes, bully, mc dislikes jake, slow burn, name calling, pranks, jake has one side beef with new student, simp jake, ignore timestamps!

SYNOPSIS: You and Jake had one thing in common with each other, being number one in your class. It was something none in class cared about, except you two. It was been going on since middle school till your last year in high school, but what happens when the new exchange students set their eyes on you.

When the bickering between you and Jake stops, your attention is somewhere else. rather on someone else. Sim Jake is set on getting your attention back. One way or another he will get you, none can stop him.

STATUS | on going

TAGLIST | comments to be at/ or send ask

Schedule | Every friday

Profiles

01. Phineas and ferb fan club

02. 50 shades of stupidness

03. bibble studyclub

CHAPTERS

001: ‘I hate Sim Jake’

002: ‘Heeseung slandering’

003: ‘New kid on the block’

004:’Five ways to die’

005: ‘Life is unfair’

006: ‘I don’t like her! i think?’

007: ‘I tripped’

008: ‘🇨🇦 vs 🇦🇺 ‘

009: ‘Yoi cult’

0010: ‘Punch me with your lips’

0011: ‘She is cute’

0012: ‘He is a weirdo’

0013: ‘Matthew 😍, J*k* 🤢’

0014: ‘Sending prays to her’

0015: ‘Stuck with HIM!’ 🖊️

0016: ‘Not bad but not good’

0017: ‘Hang out gone wrong!’

0018: ‘She denies, he doesn’t.’

0019: ‘Two can’t keep a secret.’

0020: 'Please hate each other again,'

0021: ‘She admits? Kinda, off’

0022: 'What are we doing here?'

0023: 'Locked up AGAIN?!'

0024: 'Please look away.'

0025: 'Blink if you need help.'

unreleased chapters names could change

attention, please

now playing :정원이 로그 ↻ ◁ II ▷ ↺

∞ ↺ synopsis // what happens when the person you cherished the most betrays you and unknowingly forced you to vanish into thin air, attempts to return into your life with a goal in mind - to win you back ? it leaves you with one too many moments that you wont appreciate ( or would you ? ).

pairing // ex bff !jungwon x female ! reader . ft sunghoon

genre // angsty, a bit fluffy

warnings ! contains curse words

a/n ! this is quite literally inspired by “attention, please” and the writing style is kinda inspired by @iuwon ‘s <x > ( LITERALLY MY FAV WORK RN GAWD IT HAD ME IN TEARS. PLEASE READ IT)

>>> happy birthday our beloved leader,, yang jungwon <3

wc ; 10.4k

all works here are strictly mine. please do not translate or steal them without permission. © kyyuri

[masterlist ] [teaser ]

say what you want and look at me

you were taught to speak your mind. “speak now or forever hold your peace.” somehow you could never bring yourself to do the latter. if only you knew how deep a scar this habit of yours could leave you. if only you knew how painful it was to watch everything you built collapsed into nothingness and walk away, being unable to do anything about it. it left you often wondering, if you had the chance would you ever risk it all again ? the tears shed, the memories left in the abyss of darkness. could anyone ever return all your efforts back to you ? you watched every sunset with jungwon and then all you could do was watch jungwon. then, all you could do was leave, just as he did.

you dont exactly remember how things started to turn sour… but truthfully, did you even wish to remember it ?at the beautiful age of 16, you learnt that all it took was one person, to strip you of everything- everything you worked for. everything you cared for.

i stopped being indifferent. i want everyone to want me, especially your heart among all.

⋆·˚ ༘ * PRESENT : three years. that was how long it took for jungwon to enter your life once again. it wasnt easy at all, considering the part he had played at the age of 16. as he stands before you on the first day of university, the painful memories you had hidden at the back of your mind started playing. the countless of unanswered questions that broadcasted through your mind like a broken radio suddenly stopped. it was dead silent. it felt like for a moment your world stopped along with it too. facing the very same yang jungwon, you decided that for a change, you would forever hold your peace.

jungwon’s mouth drew agape. even after running countless of simulations in his head, he still managed to miss out on this scenario. one where jungwon would one day meet you again, all ready to hold you in his arms once again. when his mind finally decided to cooperate with him, you slipped away just like you did three years ago. now it was his turn, to feel the pain and watch you leave.

↺ replaying : memory vlog 001

you had known jungwon ever since you were a kid. it was practically unavoidable that the two of you would become the best of friends considering the location of your cosy home. it was also very much unavoidable that you would fall for the one and only yang jungwon.

he was the popular kid. and you ? the invisible one. who wouldnt have loved jungwon ? being brought up by his grandparents instilled many lovable characteristics and charms in him. ones that even you would fall for . you knew him as the type to never leave anyone feeling alone. that was exactly how he was. he was always one call away. just one call. nothing more.

“yn ! lets go get some drinks from the snack store !” a cheerful jungwon jogged to your desk. “…not.. today wonie.” you managed to let those words slip through, even in your horrible state. “oh… its one of those days, isnt it ? here, take my water first. thank god i chose to bring hot water today. ill be right back okay ?” cold sweat trickled down your forehead as the blurry sight of jungwon slowly vanished.

you dont know how long you have knocked out for, but you do know that by the time your eyelids fluttered open, he was right infront of you again.

“yn ! i got you some pain killers and heat pack. oh ! and some chocolates too ! my sister always said that they helped a lot !” using the sleeves of his uniform, he wiped the dripping sweat off your face. “thanks wonie.”

was it then that you fell for him ?

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i’m only looking at you

⋆·˚ ༘ * PRESENT : helpless. thats what you were right now. it irritated you to bits that jungwon was placed into the same orientation group as you. was god always this cruel ? the situation with you were now in was far worst than the previous. a group of seniors, freshmans and bottles and bottles of soju. you quietly took a sip of your soju as you witness the female seniors make the same mistake you once did - fall for yang jungwon. you chuckled softly as the scene before you unfolded. how ironic.

“jungwon, have you ever dated anyone ?” a tiny smile crept onto his face, only for him to shake his head as a response. funny. you were sure jungwon had landed a girl after your departure previously.

“then… is there perhaps anyone that caught you eye already ?” the senior twirled her hair around her fingers, leaning in close as if it was the cheat code to making him choose her.

at that very moment, your phone let out a buzz and his eyes landed on you.

: ̗̀➛ hoon : you look like ure about to strangle him

: ̗̀➛ hoon : need an escape plan ?

you smiled before typing your response, something jungwon could not miss. “yea. there’s someone.” jungwon answered.

“what a lucky girl. yn looks like she has a special someone too.” heeseung, a senior wiggled his eyebrows. you politely refuted his comment, saying something about it being merely platonic. but jungwon knew better. or at least he thought so.

“damn, im not someone special ?” sunghoon popped up from behind, giving you a little scare. jungwon was clearly unamused. you chuckled lightly, hitting him on his arm before excusing yourself to take a walk with sunghoon. and all this while, jungwon couldnt take his eyes off you. he wasnt a fool but there and then, this unsettling feeling rose in his chest. when did you get this close to sunghoon ?

“shouldn’t you be thanking me for getting you out of there ? that cold tension gave me shivers.” sunghoon threw his arm around your neck. “give me a break. i never thought i would see him here, trying to major in perfumery.” “maybe its because of you. you did make your annoying love for perfumery very evident back in our high school days. i can only remember how annoying it was.” “right. i supposed people can change. after all, we used to be enemies.” you replied. “is this our enemies to lovers trope ?” sunghoon joked, trying to lighten the mood. he knew that jungwon was always going to be a sensitive topic for you. no matter how many years have gone by.

↺ replaying : memory vlog 002

career day. everyone dreaded it, but you ? you loved it. it gave you a chance to ramble on non stop about how much you loved the perfume industry, always hoping to make it big in that field one day. jungwon on the other hand was no different from the majority. he hated having to think and worry about the unknown, something that was uncontrollable.

“you still have your heart set on perfumery, don’t you ?” jungwon slumped into his chair.

“of course ! what about you wonie ? haven’t you figured out what you wanna do yet ?”

he groaned in annoyance, “no and thats the problem. “

“what about perfumery? we could continue to stay close to each other even if university if you pursue the same career path ! cmon, i can show you how interesting it is !”

your enthusiasm didn’t seem to faze jungwon at all. “i appreciate the effort ynie, but strong scents usually give me a throbbing headache that i cant easily rid of.”

it was evident. jungwon hated perfumes.. and so you never wore any near him.

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look at me who’s the popular kid.

⋆·˚ ༘ * PRESENT : jungwon is confused. he has been staring at your empty spot ever since you left with sunghoon. what happened in the past three years he missed out on ? answers. that was all he wanted from you, but was that too much to ask for ? jungwon downed another cup of soju. “ trouble in paradise ? whats with the drinking. calm down a little.” heeseung tossed him a bottle of water , hoping he might sober up. “just doing some thinking thats all.”

↺ replaying : memory vlog 003

sunghoon wasn’t the nicest person jungwon knew of. how unfortunate for the both of you, that sunghoon happened to be in your class.

“can the two of you pda somewhere else ?” sunghoon sneered at you and jungwon. your cheeks flushed bright red, only managing to snap out of it after a while. “what is your problem ?” you raised your voice.

“its getting annoying watching the two of you play mind games with each other. just confess or leave it. jungwon has a line of girls waiting for a chance and youre just hogging him like that.” sunghoon commented as the rest of the boys in the class chuckled.

humiliated. yes thats what you were. jungwon didnt know that you had feelings for him, and you don’t wish for him to find out so soon either. “can you just shut up ?” you slammed the table, you had to stop sunghoon before things get out of hand. jungwon stood up and pushed past sunghoon, “stop talking nonsense. i dont have feelings for ynie. neither does she for me. back off dude.”

your face fell, perhaps it wasn’t evident to jungwon, but it was clearly evident to sunghoon. ( but you didnt need to know that )

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⋆·˚ ༘ * PRESENT : jungwon couldnt stand it anymore. he got the attention of every female in that room, all except yours. and now you were out there in the open field with sunghoon doing god knows what. excusing himself, jungwon made a beeline towards the door. he knew what he was going to do. he knew what questions he wanted to ask. he just didnt know how you’d react. ridiculous. he had known you his whole life, how much could change in a mere three years right ?

“yn.” jungwons voice sounded through the cold night air. you turned around, spotting jungwon from a distance. the you from three years ago would be flustered, heart beating quickly. but the you now ? indifferent. “ can we talk?” he eyed sunghoon. “privately.” you sighed, signalling to sunghoon that you would message him later. jungwon took that as a sign to pull you to a corner, making you grab onto the jacket sunghoon placed over your shoulder. the sight of you with any item belonging to sunghoon triggered something in him. he didnt liked it.

“why you’d disappear for three years ? its not like you to do that.” jungwon commented, breaking the lingering silence.

you chuckled sarcastically, rolling your eye in the process. “ what DO you know about me ? you’re just the popular kid and im just the kid that got framed.”

running his hand through his hair in frustration, he said “ cant you just let it go ? its been three years. i know i messed up but im trying my best here yn.”

you think you’ve heard enough. enough to know that jungwon hasn’t changed since the day he betrayed you.

“if you think it’s that easy for me to let go after three years, then why don’t YOU let me go. im not even sure what you’re doing in this major. you clearly didn’t think things through. stop trying to reach out to me.”

and with that, it was your turn to leave yang jungwon in the dark.

i dont have the courage to approach you first

⋆·˚ ༘ * PRESENT : needless to say, jungwon didn’t dare make another move on you for the rest of the week. the line you drew between the both of you left jungwon feeling like a lost puppy. he didnt mean to make you upset, not three years ago and definitely not now. he figured you might need some time to cool down - and he was hoping that he was right ( he couldnt be so sure anymore after the fit you threw that night.)

tempering with the apparatus in the perfume lab, jungwon crossed out every single scent on his list. the project was to create a special scent that reminded one of their special someone and present it to them. based on their feedback as well as the professor’s remark and quality of the product, they will be assigned a grade. jungwon wrecked his brains hard. his special someone was you and yet he didnt know exactly what you want or what you liked. mentally cursing at his past self for always refusing to go perfume shopping with you, he stepped out of the perfume lab, needing a break as the throbbing headache caught onto him.

↺ replaying : memory vlog 004

its been two years since you left the school. jungwon doesnt know why and when he tried to visit you in an attempt to seek an answer, he was left face to face with a big red sign reading “ ON SALE.” plastered all across the place he once considered his second home. for two years straight, jungwon goes to the yard of your house and lay there for hours, hoping that your family might one day change your mind and you would run back into his arms.

maybe he realised his feelings far too late. what a fool. only appreciating things once they were no longer his. once they were gone.

everyday in school felt like hell. with sunghoon constantly getting on his nerves as a form of revenge for your departure, he couldnt find happiness at all. jungwons head was now always angled towards your empty seat by the window, the sunlight glaring in his eyes in return. you used to block the sunlight from reaching him, choosing to be his “sun” instead. he took it for granted. no one knows when you would return, not even the teachers to his dismay.

it was career day again. this time, jungwon decides to take it a bit more seriously. it was his final year in high school after all and he needed to get his act together. “figured out what major you like yet ?” arin asked.

“ i think i did.” jungwon surprised himself as the words slipped out of his mouth unconsciously. “im going to choose perfumery.”

the class went pin drop silent.

sunghoon slammed his hand on the desk before marching over to jungwon. “you better not be choosing this because you think this would grant you a chance to see yn again. its your fault she left. take responsibility and stop trying to find her.”

and that was when jungwon realised, he had fallen… for you.

that very day, yang jungwon decided he would take up perfumery regardless of whatever challenges and misfortune he might face. he would do anything just to get a glimpse of your face again and hear the sweet whisperings of your long forgotten voice.

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⋆·˚ ༘ * PRESENT : jungwon leaned against the railings. he hated it. he hated how much you resented him and how desperate you were when you asked him to stop looking for you. how could you make such a cruel request ? he hated how everything was going for him. but most importantly, he hated that he was going to lose you once again. a door swung open and for some reason, he felt the absolute need to hide - as if he was doing something wrong by wanting to take in a breath of fresh air.

“whats up with you and him ?” a voice started.

“me and who ?” jungwon could recognise that voice anywhere, it was you.

“you and jungwon duh ?”

“ i dont know what you’re talking about.” his heart drops.

“oh come on. im not stupid. i used to major in psych before i transferred to this major. theres something going on between the two of you.”

he hears you chuckle, “ so what does it look like to you ?”

“ a lost puppy being rejected by its owner.”

jungwon wondered if he would ever be able to pass you his perfume, if he would ever be able to stay near you again.

but i hope you’ll figure out my feelings for you

⋆·˚ ༘ * PRESENT : “let me get this straight.” sunghoon looked at you dead in the eye. “you were… confused ? and so you wrote down his name and now you’re going to fail this semester because you cant bring yourself to pass the perfume to him.” you nodded, regretfully. “cant you just change the name ?” “you think i didn’t think of that ?! professor said we cant make changes once we submit. im doomed.” you sighed.

“so… why him ?”

↺ replaying : memory vlog 005

“ynie ! it’s valentines day ! i got you a gift - purely plantonic though !” and from his bag, he whipped out a box of chocolates and your favourite tulips from his grandmothers flower shop.

“thank you ! but how did you get the flowers ? grandma yang lives in another town.”

jungwon flashes you a bright smile, “i cycled there after school yesterday so that they would be fresh ! i stayed overnight and cycled back today morning !”

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“yn. apologise to arin. now.” you could tell jungwon was angry.

“no ! i didn’t do anything wrong. why won’t you believe me ?” hot tears rolled down your face.

“yn, im not kidding.” you could feel the whole class whispering about you, judging you.

“im not either jungwon ! you’re my best friend. you’re supposed to believe me ! you’re supposed to help me…”

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⋆·˚ ༘ * PRESENT : “i don’t know why i chose him, okay ?!” you tugged at your hair in frustration. “let me grab my wallet before we go for break.” sunghoon followed you into the communication lab, only to spot a bouquet of tulips and you favourite childhood snack place nicely on the table. it doesn’t take a genius to figure out who did this. yang’s flower shop. you pretend you didn’t see the tag that reads : im sorry. i can’t let you go again. my heart hurts.

you tossed sunghoon the snack, right in front of jungwons face. “here you can have this.” you watch as jungwon tried to suppress his sadness into a small pitiful smile. you shouldn’t care. you shouldn’t care. why did you care ?

everyone is staring at me

⋆·˚ ༘ * PRESENT : what crappy luck. jungwon just had to be seated next to you in the conceptualisation lab. you could only blame the gods, as well as sunghoon ( he decided he wanted to get more snacks right before your next lecture.) everyone was busy calculating the formula for their product despite the absence of the lecturer.

“yn… would a ratio of 5:1 be better or 5:2 ?” jungwon whispers to you. you shut him out. you didn’t see a reason why you should help him.

“ynie, should the flowery scent stand out more or the woody scent ?”

“jungwon. shut it before i stuff that annoying bouquet of tulips in your mouth.”

“i thought you liked tulips… they’re your favourite…”

“WERE, my favourite. i hate it now. can you leave me alone now ? god.” you mentally cursed yourself, there’s no way jungwon would offer you his opinion about the perfume you were supposed to make for him after this.

the awkward silence between the both of you didn’t last long. “yn. what do you think about this ratio ?” that was your last straw. “what’s your problem ?! i told you to leave me alone right ? why do you keep asking me questions as if i’m the person you’re making it for ?! ask that person yourself ! you chose this course. you made your bed now sleep in it.” and with that you stomped out of the room to take a breather, stepping on the bouquet unintentionally on your way out.

everyone was stunned, staring at jungwon in pity. “she has no clue it’s her you chose, does she ?” sunoo, a student in that class asked. jungwon smiled sadly, nodding.

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“grandma ! grandpa ! im back !” jungwon gave the elderly a tight hug. “my wonie has grown up well. are you here to stay ?” “for a night. i want to get some tulips fresh and bring them to school tomorrow.”

“school ? your university is even further away from here than your high school was !” grandma yang looked at jungwon like he went insane.

“i know. its alright grandma, i cycled here so i can cycle back tomorrow before school starts.”

“it’s for yn.. isnt it ?” jungwon nodded silently. of course his grandma knew.

“she’s back ?” grandpa yang dropped the newspaper he was holding onto.

“yea, shes studying the same thing i am !”

“don’t lose her again, won.”

“i won’t.”

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popularity and love, i want to have them all

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jungwon was the popular kid in high school. everyone wanted him, that doesn’t exclude you or arin. “you think you own the school just because jungwon is your friend ? how dare you look down on me ?! i may be a transfer student but that doesn’t mean i deserve jungwon lesser than you.” arin snapped at you.

“i never looked down on you ! stop spouting nonsense. i never said you deserved jungwon any lesser. all i said was that you cant force jungwon to reciprocate your feelings ! he is his own person. shouldnt it be purely his choice whether or not to like you ?” you replied back.

arin giggled like a maniac. “oh yn. you little fool. i’ll show you just how much control i have over jungwon. just watch sweetie.” you stared at her in pure confusion. had she officially lost her mind ?

without another second of hesitation, arin threw herself of the flight of stairs. you stared in horror. what kind of psychopath is she ?! “ahhhhh ! yn ! how could you ?!” arin shouted in pain, drawing the attention of everyone near by. you looked around in panic. who was going to vouch for you now ? the whisperings started. it definitely looked like you were the one at fault considering how arin is at the bottom of the stairs, clutching her legs in pain while you stood at the very top. “let me through.” jungwon pushed past the crowd.

“what happened ?” he asked arin.

“she - she pushed me. she said that you belonged to her and her only.. and t-that because i was close to you i deserved the worst p-punishment ever. i didn’t want to lose my only friend in this school after my transfer so i said i wouldn’t distance myself and and she pushed me… oh jungwon … it hurts so much…” she cried in his arms.

“yn. apologise to arin. now.” you could tell jungwon was angry.

“no ! i didn’t do anything wrong. why won’t you believe me ?” hot tears rolled down your face.

“yn, im not kidding.” you could feel the whole class whispering about you, judging you.

“im not either jungwon ! you’re my best friend. you’re supposed to believe me ! you’re supposed to help me… i didn’t push her ! she threw herself off !”

“and why would she do that ? she would be crazy to do so. you’re probably just jealous of her, she’s prettier and smarter too. she deserves jungwon more than you do but that doesn’t give you the right to hurt her just because you have a crush on jungwon !” a classmate chimed in.

the room went dead silent as you slowly backed away from the crowd, proceeding to make a run for your bag then home. “yn ! wait !” jungwon called from behind. you didnt care anymore. no one believed you, not even jungwon and now your secret is out. tears trickled down your face as you dashed home. you could never show your face again.

“great call jungwon. yn was always hogging you. you finally have some form of freedom.” the classmates cheered him on. he had messed up. he didn’t mean to get angry at you. he didn’t know why he didn’t believe you either. carrying arin to the nurse office, jungwon thought deep and hard about what he should do next. knowing you, you would probably shut him out.

when jungwon returned back to class, he was met with an angry teacher. “ where on earth is yn ? and where on earth is sunghoon ?!” jungwons head immediately turned towards sunghoon’s desk. where was he ? jungwon most definitely remembered seeing him right before the incident but that isn’t important. what’s important is how he was going to win you back.

sunghoon ran after you. that jerk, yang jungwon. sunghoon might not be your friend at the moment but he knew for sure that you were too kind to even do such a thing. pushing someone because they had a crush on jungwon too ? how ridiculous. he knew you could barely even bring yourself to talk openly about that topic so why would a transfer student know more than anyone in the class ? when he finally reached your house, he panted from exhaustion. you were small for your age but you could sure run.

“yn. come out. its sunghoon.” he knocked repeatedly.

you opened your door slightly, giving sunghoon a glimpse of your tear stained face and swollen eyes. “look sunghoon, i dont really need you to make fun of me right now. im upset enough already..” it broke his heart how someone as innocent as you had to deal with this kind of treatment.

“im not here to make fun of you, yn. im here to tell you that i believe you. i never saw you as the type to do such ridiculous things. i also never meant to present myself as hateful towards you. jungwon just gets on my nerves sometimes. but thats not why im here, im here to comfort you. because i refuse to allow someone as nice as you to cry alone after being falsely accused. so please let me in and embrace you. ” you dropped to your knees and broke down once again hearing such nice words come from the one and only park sunghoon.

it took hours for sunghoon to comfort you once and for all. “sunghoon, promise me something.”

“anything. just name it.”

“dont tell jungwon im leaving tomorrow.”

sunghoon sat up immediately, a frown drawn across his face. “what do you mean you’re leaving ?”

“im moving tomorrow. i was going to tell jungwon today but with everything that has happened, i dont think i will ever get to tell him. that doesn’t mean i want YOU to tell him. please keep it a secret from him. i dont think i can face him anymore after this. i’ll tell you where im going so you can always find me but please dont tell him.” sunghoon nodded upon hearing your desperate pleas. “ok yn. im going to miss you.”

once sunghoon made sure you were okay, he decided it was time to take his leave. “call me if you ever need anything. dont you dare disappear on me. lets keep in contact yn.” he reached his hand out. you finally smiled today, shaking his hand you said “lets keep in contact, park sunghoon.” and with that he left.

as sunghoon trudge home, he noticed a figure walking towards the direction of your home. yang jungwon. “why are you coming from her house ? what were you doing?” jungwon threatened once he spot sunghoons figure. “doing what you couldnt do for yn. dont visit her. youre the last person she wants to see. trust me on that.” but did jungwon heed that piece of advice ? most definitely not.

“yn. let’s talk. please.” jungwon knocked endlessly on your door. no reply. “im coming back tomorrow. and the day after. and the day after. im going to keep coming back until you let me in and we have a talk.” jungwon turned and left, not knowing that was the last time he was going to see you again for a while.

needless to say, jungwon came back the next day to a surprising “on sale” plastered all across your house and thats when it finally hit him. he lost the one person he cared about. the one person he loved.

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⋆·˚ ༘ * PRESENT : the perfume needed to be perfect. maybe then will you finally be able to bring yourself to forgive jungwon for his silly mistake from a few years ago. scrolling through his contacts, jungwon finally found the person he needed. “hey arin ? its jungwon. you major in product design right ? thats great ! i need your help with the design of a perfume bottle. when would you be free ?”

meanwhile, you slammed your head onto the table of thr school cafe. “yea there’s no wayyy you’re passing after what you did to jungwon. it was like you’re practically asking to fail.” sunghoon chuckled as he made a quick sketch of the bottle design upon your request. “dont worry yn. once jungwon sees this design he would be heads over heels for you once again. have some faith in the best design major student.” you groaned. picking yourself up, you noticed two figures walking into the cafe. yang jungwon and … ahn arin ?! you immediately hid your face from their view.

“what’s wrong with you ?” sunghoon questioned, you beckoned him to lower his voice. “6 o’clock. my worst nightmare.” sunghoon turned around. oh. “what are they even doing here ?!” you freaked out. “yn… its a weekday, they have school too. besides im sure arin is just helping jungwon with the perfume bottle design just like i am with you.” you looked at sunghoon in horror. “why didnt you tell me she enrolled in this school ?” “i didnt even know she was in my major until a few days ago. trust me, im not having fun either.” you quickly packed your things and hinted at sunghoon to do the same, making sure that your exit would look as smooth as possible.

unbeknownst to you, arin already caught a glimpse of your figure. a smirk grew on her face. “so whats with the sudden need of help ?” “its a graded project and i need to produce a bottle of perfume from scratch for someone special. its… not easy.” “ah.. so thats why sunghoon was with yn ! she probably made it for him just like youre making it for me ! they make such an adorable couple.” jungwon’s eyes turned dark. “she’s with sunghoon ?” he stood up immediately, ready to run after you. “where are you going ? if you leave now, i cant promise i would be able to make time for you subsequently.” jungwon sat back down. it doesn’t matter if youre with sunghoon, he supposed. what matters is that he wins you back and pass this project with flying colours. this is the start of his redemption arc and there was no way he was going to give up easily. the day you left, jungwon beat himself up endlessly, swearing to himself he was going to find you again and love you till the end of time. popularity and love ? jungwon wanted them all. but mostly, he wanted you.

oh, no ! i dont know what to do

⋆·˚ ༘ * PRESENT : the design majors flooded the conceptualisation lab. it almost felt like it was a collaboration between both departments. this also meant that sunghoon could stick around you far longer than jungwon would appreciate. “i feel… someone shooting daggers at me with their eyes…” sunghoon whispered to you. “its probably just one of your fangirls. now focus.” you replied, unamused. you mixed around the formula and you think you finally got it.

“hoonie ! i did it !” you gave him a tight embrace. the both of you jumped in excitement as you poured the solution into the glass bottle sunghoon spent hours assembling. recording down the progress on your report, you smiled with pride - you’ve came so far. jungwon slumped into his chair. seeing your reaction earlier hurt jungwon more than he would dare admit. it shouldve been him you were hugging. “won ! i think im done with the bottle design ! i like this one best.” arin proudly shoved one of the glass bottle into his face. he sighed, “arin, i said i preferred the second one.” “isnt it for me ? shouldn’t my opinion matter more ?” arin whined like a little child. popping a lollipop into his mouth, jungwon made a beeline towards the door, making sure to let arin know that she better stick to what he said.

it was at times like this jungwon wished you stayed. the old you wouldve comforted him and told him that everything would be alright. that the stress he felt was although not very valid but definitely necessary for him to progress in life, to grow as a person. you were the reason he was able to get his act together throughout his life. you were the reason he didn’t fall into any addiction for smoking or drinking. you were the reason. his reason.

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“im so stressed” jungwon ran his hand through his hair in frustration.

“its just mid years wonie. theres no need to be so hard on yourself. you still have time to catch up !” you cheered him on.

jungwon laughed sarcastically, “i wished i was of legal age right now. i would love to have a smoke now.” you look at him with eyes full of worry, “dont get addicted to nicotine. its not good for you ! besides, you cant handle strong scents without getting a pounding headache within an hour, you’re going to suffer so much !” reaching into your bag, you pulled out a bag of lollipops. “ here ! try these as an alternative ! i heard sugar helps with stress levels. just promise me you wont turn to smoking in the future.”

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⋆·˚ ༘ * PRESENT : seeing how jungwon hasn’t returned from his little breather in a while, arin took this as a chance to mess with you. if you were her enemy since day one, you will still be her enemy till the very end. “hello yn. its been a while.” you tense at the sound of her voice. you never imagined that she would ever interact with you after framing you. “who did you make that perfume for ?” she grabbed the box you picked out for the perfume bottle. “garden’s truth. by yn. to… yang. jungwon.” arin read aloud. “first of all, thats a horrible name for a perfume. secondly, i cant believe you havent moved on from him yet. what a loser. if youd like to know, jungwon didnt make his for you. so dont get your hopes up.”

your heart dropped. you always knew that there was a chance jungwon still didn’t reciprocate your hidden feelings but hearing it with your very own ears was far more painful than anticipated.

“i think you’ve done enough arin. leave.” sunghoon glared at her in pure anger. “okay.” she smiled. grabbing one of her failed glass bottles, she aimed it at you, causing to the glass to shatter upon impact and leave cuts all over your legs. you stood there stunned. “WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU ?! WHAT DID YN EVER DO TO YOU ?!” sunghoon grabbed her by the collar, “ be thankful i dont hit girls.” the commotion definitely reached jungwon as seconds later, he came bursting through the door. “yn ! are you okay ?” you stood there bleeding but still unable to comprehend what had happened. picking you up, jungwon rushed you to the sick bay as arin screamed “ she pushed me off the stairs three years ago !”

gently placing you on one of the empty beds, jungwon began his search for the first aid kits the nurses usually leave lying around. he kneeled before you once he found what he needed, ready to tend to your wounds. “jungwon. i can do it myself. you can leave.” you attempted to grab the first aid kit only for him to stop you by placing his hands on top of it. “you’re going to get an infection if you dont clean it right and knowing you, youd skip the disinfection part because it hurts a bit more.” you sulked.

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you sat on the bed of the sick bay across jungwon, leaning in real close to clean the wounds on his rosey cheek and the corners of his lips. “you should stop fighting.”

“and you should start standing up for yourself. otherwise im going to keep putting this black belt of mine to good use.” jungwon shrugged. your bullies definitely did back off after jungwon landed a few kicks to their face, but that doesn’t mean that jungwon could escape unscathed. he was always the first one to stand up for you whenever someone made fun of you, saying something about how it was his duty to protect you.

“if you keep fighting, your pretty rosey cheeks are going to lose its charm.” you muttered sadly. he giggled at your reaction, “okay, ill do whatever you say and if it makes you happy, ill stop fighting. unnnnlessss your bullies come back again. then i wont hesitate to do this all over again.” you placed a plaster over his wounded cheeks. “aren’t you going to kiss my boo boo ?” he pouted, pointing to the freshly placed bandages. “will you ever let me live down that day ? it happened so many years ago.” “nope ! kiss it.” you leaned in and placed one right above the bandage you placed. it was almost tradition for the two of you to kiss each other’s boo boo after you first did it years ago.

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my twisted dreams (let’s go ! )

⋆·˚ ༘ * PRESENT : you stared at jungwon stupidly. how could you even let this happen ? “i can feel you staring at me.” jungwon stated out of the blue. you turned away quickly, embarrassed at the fact you were caught. “you should leave.” you muttered quietly. “hmm… let me think about it. no.” jungwon leaned in, about to kiss your “boo boo” but you were quick to notice, resulting in you flinching away from him. a hurt look plastered all across his face.

“you dont get to do that, jungwon. not anymore. ”

“why not ?”

tears threatened to spill from the corner of your eye. “because i said so ! can you stop being so stubborn ? we aren’t close enough for you to keep pulling stunts on me. i’ve tolerated you for long enough.” you shouted in frustration. you witness jungwons calm demeanour falter for a quick second before he regained his composure. “yn. im trying my best.” “well its not enough. is it ?” you stood up, ready to leave him behind once again. he grabbed you by your wrist and pulled you back onto the bed. “sit. im not letting you leave again.”

the tension in the room thickened. you were practically shooting daggers at jungwon. “look yn, im really sorry about what happened in the past. i dont know why i didn’t believe you right from the very start. it was really hard going to school and not being able to see you at all. i tried searching everywhere for you but no one knew where you went. i was miserable and only then was i able to realise how much you mean to me.” jungwon could feel the hot tears streaming down his face but he didnt care. he only cared about you. “please… yn. let me back into your life… i want to be able to care for you again, to be close to you again. i dont care about stupid arin. i dont care about her at all. i… just… i just want you back yn.. because because i love you.. it took me so long to realise my feelings for you but im aware of it now and i really can’t bear to lose you again.” you remained emotionless at his sudden confession.

“jungwon. i liked you. but back then you couldn’t trust me as much as i trusted you. and now, i cant trust you as much as you trust me.” you stood up and this time, jungwon lets you leave.

you wondered if you did the right thing and jungwon wondered the same.

attention please ! everyone pays attention to me. completely pays attention to me. get it, get it

⋆·˚ ༘ * PRESENT: the day you dreaded came by quickly. submission. with your face planted into your pillow, you shouted your frustration away till your heart’s content. you turned to face the perfume bottle thats sitting on your desk. “im going to repeat this semester.” there was absolutely no way you could bring yourself to give this to jungwon.

dragging your feet to the door, you opened it only to find sunghoon blocking the way. “oh good ! youre up! i wouldve broken down the door had you stayed inside for another five minutes.” you looked at him suspiciously. “what are you doing here ?” “making sure you dont chicken out on submission day !” he teased, “besides, i wanna see jungwons reaction when he sees my well thought our design.” you knew sunghoon was just trying to calm your nerves by being there for you today, something you were especially grateful for.

when you arrived at school, you were shocked nonetheless by the ongoing commotion. there were girls everywhere in the hallway, giggling as they hurriedly touched up their makeup. “hurry up yena! jungwons coming !” “didn’t you hear ? jungwons giving a girl the perfume he made from scratch for his assignment !” “its totally for me ! move aside !” you sighed. this wasn’t exactly what you were expecting to deal with at all. but you couldn’t exactly say you’re surprised. after all, you’ve seen many jungwon fangirls in this life time. them falling for jungwons cute personality and looks was definitely something you were very used to. “curse jungwon and his pretty face.” you swung open your locker door to see a bottle of perfume there.

“you think im pretty ?” jungwon said from behind. you froze. “i left the feedback form inside the box… i worked really hard on it ynie… im not good at perfumery since i get headaches often but i tried my best with what i had !” your eyes remained focused on the bottle. “how.. how did you open my locker ?” you looked at jungwon with tears threatening to spill from your eye. “i tried my birthday and it unlocked…yn… cant you just accept it ? i promise i wont bother you anymore after this…” slamming your locker shut, you went home without hesitation. even sunghoon was left stunned, but knowing you, you would need space to process all this first.

: ̗̀➛ hoon : go rest. ill tell sunoo to let the professor know.

: ̗̀➛ hoon : ill visit you after school

jungwon stared at your closed locker in defeat. he didnt care if he was going to have to repeat this semester. he just wished you wouldve opened the perfume box and at least tried the perfume. heck he didnt care the perfume, he just wanted you to read the letter he snuck inside. “it was still her all this time, huh ?” arin scoffed. “arin, it was never you.” he replied calmly, walking to class as the news of jungwon’s rejection spreaded across campus ground.

but why, just why, did you pretend you didn’t see me why did you pretend you didnt see me again

⋆·˚ ༘ * PRESENT : truthfully, you have no clue where you were right now. your feet took control of your whole body the moment you left the eyes of many. you have one week to get the feedback form and perfume to jungwon in order to pass. you kicked the ball in front of you in frustration, earning a bark from the puppy near by. you watched as the white furred creature ran towards the ball and brought it back to you. you bent down to pet it, “you look a lot like someone’s puppy… like jungwons… you look like maeumi.” “that’s because its name is maeumi, yn.” standing before you was the one and only grandma yang. “would you like to come over for tea ? it’s been a while since i last saw your pretty face.” how could you say no to the sweet lady ? handing the leash to you, she brought you to her home, reminiscing together with you.

“yn ? i haven’t seen you in ages !” grandpa yang greeted. preparing you a cup of tea, grandma yang signalled for him to unleashed maeumi and you towards the stairs. “let’s meet in jungwons room.” you try not to show any discomfort, after all they did treat you like you were their granddaughter too during your younger days. you looked around the room. everything felt so right. on his desk was many framed photos of you together with him. from the corner of your eye, you noticed a box under the desk. opening it up, you were surprised to see the many letters you wrote for jungwon neatly placed inside, alongside many letters he had written to you in response only to remain undelivered. you took the one that looked the most recent, curious about what may be inside it.

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yn !

i haven’t written to you in a while, but that’s because i was busy ! im sure you know i managed to try for the same degree you are… although i dont think you’re too happy about it :( i am very happy though ! it felt refreshing being able to see you again after waiting by the door of your previous house every day. i must admit, it is really selfish of me to try to get closer to you with every chance i get… im sorry if i made you uncomfortable. but being next to you felt like something i was made to do.

im having a hard time in class truthfully. the headaches only get worst the longer i stay there but i get to see you in exchange so thats all i really need. i came back to grandmas house today for a reason ~ i wondered if you would still like tulips… i planted some before the semester started and grandpa has been helping me take care of them ! they turned out really great so i can’t wait to see the smile on your face return !

it’s not easy trying to stay away from you :/ trust me when i said i tried my best. when will you see me as your friend again ? i love you so much i dont even care if you wont ever love me back… being your friend again would be enough for me. its ok if i cant replace sunghoon the way he replaced me… let us just hold a conversation in peace at least once without me having to make you feel horrible about yourself.

i changed a lot in during the time you werent around. i tried to become better and hoped you would one day be able to see the results. im sorry that the results were as satisfactory as i imagined it to be.

grandma says she misses you… and im forever sorry i can’t bring you back to her all because i was foolish. i always wished you would never see the cowardice in me. yet i let it all out in a moment of weakness when i was supposed to be your strength. i believe you, yn. i believe you not because you were my friend. i believe you because youre you.

when im done producing the perfume to the best of my abilities, i will gift it to you. it pains me to see you still affected by my mere presence so i was hoping my final gift to you would bring me enough courage to finally let go of the thread i so i desperately hung onto.

i love you

i dont know if these words would ever reach you. but even if it doesn’t, your everlasting happiness is far more important than the words i wish to express to you. im letting you go soon, love. im so sorry.. im so sorry. i cant even bring myself to end this letter… it feels like im ending us too… i wont sign off… im not ready to let you go just yet. but if the future situation requires me to do so for your sake, i will do it. i will find strength in me. thank you yn. for being the best first love i could ever ask for.

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⋆·˚ ༘ * PRESENT : “ why am i crying ?” you laughed softly to yourself. you quickly wiped your tears away once you heard a knock on the door. “yn ? i have something for you.” you opened the door to see a cup of tea and a box in her hands. “these were the pictures from jungwons film camera. he always wanted you to have it. by the time they were printed out, jungwon came here crying saying that you left. feel free to stay the night, its getting dark. you can leave tomorrow morning. if you need spare clothes, jungwon left a set for you in his drawers. he placed them here not too long ago saying that he would bring you back here one day.” you thanked her courteously.

you hate jungwon. you hated how much he still cared for you. you hated how his little actions still affect you so much. you pulled open the doors of his closet to see your name stuck onto a cute bag containing the teddy bear pjs you once remembered admiring from afar. quickly changing into it, you looked through the many photographs inside it. mostly containing your candid pictures and a few that you recalled taking of jungwon. there were so many of them. ranging from photos he took when he brought you to your first carnival, to the ones he took at the concert he bought you tickets to with the pay he got from his very first job. every little moment you once cherished but stored at the back of your mind seemed to be brought back to life again. laying down on his bed, exhausted from the overwhelming emotions, you fell into a deep slumber.

panic panic

⋆·˚ ༘ * PRESENT : by the time your eyes fluttered open, it was already another day. your phone was ringing nonstop. “hello ?” “well hello miss yn. WHERE WERE YOU ?! WHY DIDNT YOU ANSWER MY TEXT ? DO YOU KNOW HOW WORRIED I WAS ?” “shit sorry hoonie. im at … my grandmas house. ill be back in the afternoon.” you lied. you knew sunghoon would react unnecessarily had he known your actual whereabouts. “you better be there this time. see ya.”

you packed your things, ready to head out after your stay. “yn sweetie come have breakfast with us ! we made your favourite porridge!” “coming !” opting to leave the perfume here, you placed it on jungwons desk before rushing downstairs. placed right in front of you was none other than the porridge you always ate as a child. “thank you.” then there was silence again. “ill wash the pjs and have it returned to you soon.” grandpa yang laughed, “there really is no need to, yn. jungwon bought it specifically for you. he buys a new one to place it there whenever he visits. he thinks you’ll grow out from the size he bought previously all the time. such an adorable boy.” you felt your heart crack. why is he so foolish ? “i take it you slept well ?” grandma yang asked, earning a nod from your part.

“thank you for the meal. i’ll head out now. it was nice seeing you again, grandma and grandpa yang.” you bowed. “come over again soon, okay ? we miss you a lot during your absence.” you agreed, unable to break the hearts of the two lovely elderly by telling them the harsh truth.

⋆·˚ ༘ * PRESENT : when you reached home, you were surprised to see sunghoon by your door already. “didnt you attend class today ?” “hey, i can skip school too you know. now open the door, ive been here for hours.” he whined. you let him in and threw a bar of chocolate towards his direction. “now that ive proven im still alive, what exactly more do you need before i can send you on your way ?” “well arent you eager to get rid of me. i came to give you this.” he tossed a small box to you. jungwon’s perfume. “submission for feedback ends on monday according to sunoo. dont do jungwon some injustice.” and with that he left.

you stared at the box in your hand. a reminder of the letter he wrote to you appeared in your head, you really shouldn’t do him injustice. “he deserves to at least not need to repeat this semester.” opening the box, two pieces of paper fell out together with the perfume. you recognised the first one being the feedback form, but the second one was unrecognisable. opening it up, you realised jungwon finally had the courage to deliver one letter to you. “ im not gonna cry im not gonna cry.”

spraying the perfume onto a tester paper, you realised it smelt rosy but smoky. something you once remembered mentioning in the passing to jungwon. you open the letter next, ready to shed a few tears.

┌──────┐

yn !

i thought long and hard about what i should write to you. i only have one chance and i dont want to screw this up too. maybe i should introduce the perfume to you first. the name of it is second wind of february. 2nd february was the day you left… anyways, i used a bit of rose notes as well as some smoky ones because you love flowers. that’s why grandma likes having you over. you also mentioned before how you disliked very overbearing perfumes so i used some smoky scents to tone it down a little. i made sure that the design of the bottle was as minimalistic as it could be, something to your liking (hopefully).

now, onto the real reason why im writing this. it’s because im selfish. because im greedy. once i had you back, i didn’t want to let go. it pains me to think about the three years i spent without you by my side. for three years, i couldnt find anyone worth receiving flowers from me. for three years, i celebrated my birthday alone because the people who wished to celebrate it with me aren’t you. so when i finally made it to perfumery, i was beyond excited. i didn’t take your feelings into account at all… i didn’t realise quickly enough that my presence would hurt you. i was only thinking about myself all these while… im really sorry. this was meant to be my last gift to you and this time i mean it… im very painfully letting you go. because letting you go would hurt me more than you and thats way better than seeing your pained expression. i might fail this semester because of this project. i dont blame you of course ! it’s because im still not very good at this perfume thing and also because i want you to enjoy your time here. ill take a year off so you will be able to succeed in this path and not need to face me as often. i hope this washes away all your fears and anxiety. please dont feel guilty, ill be spending my time wisely at my grandmas flower shop.

happy early birthday, early youth day, early easter, early halloween, early christmas ! i wont ever forget you, my first love and last love. take care yn. ill watch you from afar so dont worry about me. thank you for giving me such trivial happiness.

yang jungwon.

└──────┘

⋆·˚ ༘ * PRESENT : “grandma ! grandpa ! im here to visit !” jungwon shouted as he threw his shoes aside. the two elderly came rushing to embrace their grandson. “where’s yn ?” “what do you mean ?” a look of confusion plastered across everyone’s face. “i thought you made up with her. she came to visit a few days ago and stayed the night.” upon hearing this, jungwon rushed to his room. he looked into his closet to see the pjs he left gone. “so it is true…” just then he noticed an unfamiliar box sitting on his desk. garden’s truth by yn. “oh my god. she chose me…” gently unboxing the perfume, he sprayed it on a jacket he found near by. it smelt exactly like something he would love. something not overbearing enough to the point he would get a headache. jungwon was sure you’re getting an A for this. he was going to fill in the feedback form to the best of his abilities and get it sent to the professors office by monday.

standing at a crosswalk (standing here ) i cant move an inch (please save me ) im at a dilemma (at this rate ) im afraid ill lose everything

⋆·˚ ༘ * PRESENT : you didnt know that jungwon had visited his grandparents the very same week you did but the moment you saw him walking towards you, you knew what had happened. he found the perfume. you were prepared for him to confront you only for him to walk directly into the professor’s office behind you. oh. what were you even thinking ? “WHERES THAT BITCH.” an angry arin was not something you felt like dealing with on the first day of a brand new week. rolling your eyes, you ignored her presence. tugging at your bag, the sudden force causes you to fall over.

“you think you’re better than me now ? cause he gave you a damn perfume ? HA ! you must be delusional. i stuck by his side for so long and you left like the pathetic loser you are. what are you up to this time ? trying to win jungwon back ? we’ll see about that. its not going to happen on my watch.”

the moment jungwon left the office, she grabbed your bottle and poured water all over herself before shoving it back into your hands. “yn ! what did you do that for ? i already said im sorry for helping jungwon with the project ! i know you hate me but you didn’t have to go this far !” she cried. you didn’t care. “jungwon !” arin cried. you mentally cursed yourself for falling into arins trap once again. “cut it out arin. i dont believe you for one bit and i wont believe you again. cmon yn, lets go. your clothes are getting wet thanks to this good for nothing.” he pulled you by your hand towards his locker. “here you can wear my hoodie for now. im sorry she played a part for my project.”

you were at a lost. you didnt know what to say or do. “ im sorry i couldn’t keep my promise of staying sway from you. im sorry i couldnt stop her.” “wonie, stop saying sorry.” “sor- wait. you called me wonie again ! im wonie again !” he cheered in delight. you’d be lying if you said your heart didnt swell in adoration. “does this mean i can be your friend again ?” you paused, he could see the fear in your eyes. his face drops. “i mustve crossed a line…” “no ! its just… im just scared. im afraid ill lose everything by being your friend again. im afraid ill lose you again… i dont want to lose you again.”

he looked you dead in the eye. “then dont be my friend.” he paused, “be my girlfriend instead. please? ill do everything, anything. please ?” “okay.” you answered softly. embracing you in a tight hug, he spun you around. “thank youuuu ! lets go visit grandma and grandpa together this weekend.” “lets do that.”

BONUS !!

⋆·˚ ༘ * PRESENT : “grandma ! grandpa ! look who i brought !” the two elderly peered from the kitchen . “yn sweetie ! you’re back again ! go have a seat in the living room, we will be right with you. wonie darling can you lend a hand ?” dragging jungwon into the kitchen, the two interrogated jungwon. “yes grandma i will treat her well.” he reassured. “so who asked who out ?” grandpa yang asked wiggling his eyebrow. “i asked her.” he smiled with pride. “YN HONEY, FROM NOW ON WE ARE NO LONGER GRANDMA AND GRANDPA YANG YOU CAN ADDRESS US AS YOUR GRANDPARENTS.” grandpa yang shouted at the top his lungs. you giggled at the warm welcome. jungwon jumped onto the sofa to give you a hug, “they love you so much. but not as much as i do.” “ i know .”

: ̗̀➛ hoon : congrats on your relationship

: ̗̀➛ hoon : we couldve had an enemies to lovers

: ̗̀➛ hoon : just sayin

: ̗̀➛ hoon : see ya on monday

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