Crying Is Not Enough I Need To Jump Off A Cliff Myself

crying is not enough i need to jump off a cliff myself

听我一曲破阵

boy(friend)

I read little mushroom in a day and bawled my eyes out so here’s some of my favorite parts in a desperate bid to get people to read it

An Zhe creating a perfect sex doll replica of the most feared man in society and facing it away from him as he sleeps

An Zhe interacting with others and monologuing about how Lu Feng isn’t a bad guy saying shit like “he seemed very considerate” and then actually interacting with him again and thinking “no actually fuck this guy”

The parallels between the main characters as both of them are viewed as fundamentally not human (An Zhe actually isn’t human whereas Lu Feng had to sacrifice so much of his humanity to keep people safe)

The one line between Lu Feng and the doctor where he says “I’ve thought about what you’ve asked me. Who he is to me.” And he stares of into space before going to An Zhe “he judges me” and the way this references not only that he views An Zhe as a moral and human guideline but also with his job as the arbiter being to decide if people are human. He lets An Zhe make the judgement of him, even knowing he isn’t human. The question fundamentally becomes “how important is he to you” and Lu Feng places him at the highest authority “he judges me”

Mpreg kink??

“I am a law-abiding mushroom”

Lu Feng fixing An Zhe’s tap while the world is slowly crumbling around them

Lu Feng giving An Zhe his gun, his mark of status that he is never allowed to lose or give away.

Free my boy he's innocent😭