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pairing: song mingi x reader

summary: #201, and 203 with Ateez Mingi?

warnings: mentions of self deprecating thoughts, reader feels hopeless, depressive episodes, vague mention of suicide but also kind of obvious please be careful while reading. 

201. “I never want to hear you talking like that again.” / 203. “If you die, I die.”

You had been lying to him for weeks, he could tell. At first he thought the obvious: you were cheating on him. After all, he was halfway across the world on tour right now, it’s not like it would necessarily be hard for you to do it. 

But then he started to notice things. Whenever he called you, you always took a little too long to answer. When you laughed or smiled, it never quite reached your eyes. If he called you out of the blue, you never actually showed your face. You were always wrapped up in a blanket or a hoodie, and if he didn’t know any better, he would say that your eyes were wet. When he asked if you were okay, you always changed the subject, never answering his question. 

He never actually added it all up until he was on the way home from the airport, and he tried calling you, only for it to go to voicemail. He had frowned, something wasn’t settling well with him, but he let it go for the moment. Surely, if something was wrong, you’d call him right? He was on the way to your place anyways, he was probably just looking too far into it. 

Except he wasn’t. 

When he walked through your front door, he called your name, but he didn’t hear anything, the apartment was completely silent. He frowned at that, looking around for you. He eventually made his way to you bedroom where he found you, laying on the bed motionlessly. he could tell that you were awake, when you blinked and shifted slightly when you heard the door creak open. 

“Baby?” He felt uneasy as he walked into the room. You looked like hell, like you hadn’t showered in ages, or like you had been hit by a truck. Dark rings circled your eyes heavily, and your skin was paler than he remembered. You looked sick, and when he finally got you to roll over and look at him, you seemed as if you were looking right through him. “Oh baby, what happened?”

“Mingi?” His name left you in a croak and you winced as you tried to sit up, breaking his heart. It didn’t take a genius to realize what was happening right in front of him, and he felt so fucking guilty for ever thinking that you would cheat on him. 

He knelt next to you, moving to brush some hair back from your face. “Yeah, sweetheart, it’s me.”

Your eyes squinted in confusion. “You’re not supposed to be home yet.” It was only the twentieth, right?

Instead of answering you, he dropped all his stuff. “Alright, baby, hold on to me.” You didn’t have time to react to his words before he was picking you up and carrying you to the bathroom. “What are you doing?” Your voice was so raspy and timid, Mingi could feel his heart fall as he sat you on the countertop. “I’m taking care of you.”

Your eyes widened as if you were panicking. “No, I can’t ask-”

“You’re not asking me to do anything,” he said gently but firmly, hands moving to gently cup your cheeks. “I’m taking care of you because I love you, and you’re not okay enough to do it by yourself at the moment, and that’s alright… because I’m here for you.”

He kissed your chapped lips quickly, before turning to start the bath. While waiting for the water to get adjusted, he turned back to you before tugging your shorts down your legs. “You’re going to take a bath, okay?”

You didn’t speak, just watched him as he moved around. Once you were bare, he double checked the water temperature before picking you up again, placing you in the bathtub. He spoke softly as he worked, helping you to wash your hair. He told stories about what happened on tour, random things he noticed, or even just how much he loved you, while you watched him silently. He didn’t stop until he was drying you off with the fluffy towel, and you interrupted him by asking, “Why?”

“Why what, beautiful?” He asked, moving to grab the clean shirt he had grabbed for you. 

“Why do you love me?” 

“Well, that’s easy,” he chuckled, gently pulling the hem down over your head. “I love you because you’re you. You’re gorgeous, intelligent and you mean the entire world to me.”

“You love me like I deserve it… like I deserve to be here.”

His hands froze as he reached the next article of clothing he had grabbed you. He wanted to ask what you meant by “here”… but the answer was obvious. You were sitting right in front of him… thinking that you didn’t even deserve to be.. He found himself turning around to grab your hands and gently shaking them so that you were looking into his eyes. His voice was final as he spoke to you, despite the tears in his eyes. “I never want to hear you talking like that ever again, you hear me? You deserve absolutely everything beautiful in this world and more. You are not allowed to give up. Do you understand?”

You opened your mouth, but he wasn’t done. “You are the love of my life, without you I have absolutely no purpose. You are the most important person in my life. If you die, I have nothing. If you die.. I die. Because I love you.” You were sobbing now, and he pulled you into his chest, holding you like you could disappear any minute, one hand cradling the back of your head as you cried. 

“I know you’re used to be alone,” he muttered in your ear, the tears finally falling down his face, “But you’re not alone anymore. You don’t have to carry the weight of the world on your shoulders, because I’m here to help you, and when you struggle a little, I’ll carry your share too. You never have to do it alone ever again, you’ll always have me.” He kissed your head. “You’ll always have me by your side.”

THIS IS SO GOOD HOLY SHIT #CANYOUHEARMESCREAMING #ILOVEIT!!!

Hiii! I love your work and congrats on over 100 followers!! Could I get Seonghwa childhood friends to lovers au? Im getting a little fluffy, jealous Hwa confessing his love and then some serious smut based on how long they've known (wanted) each other. As far as kinks go, appraisal, Taller hwa size kink, and to be a little rough. Not too serious but Maybe some hickies, hair pulling, spanking, etc. Thank you! You deserve every one of the followers!!!

thank you lovely! 💜💜

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wc: 2k

note: can you tell i had fun with this? also i added a some college au because it helped it flow better.

“it’s not like i’m an unapproachable bitch, hwa. i really don’t understand why i can’t keep a boyfriend,” you groaned to seonghwa, who currently sat across from you in the cafe on your college campus. 

you had met seonghwa in the sixth grade, when your parents moved you and your siblings to a completely different city. you were the typical shy kid, too scared to approach other students to make friends. children could be cruel, you learned that from your previous school, so you decided to keep to yourself.

it was your first day at that unfamiliar school. you sat on the edge of the grass as you watched the other children have fun, sun shining down on you. you desperately wished you could join to remedy your loneliness, but you were scared of the judgemental eyes that glanced over at you every few minutes, small hands hiding their mouths as they whispered into each other’s ears. you stared down at the grass, maybe then you could be invisible.

a pair of skinny legs entered your vision, making you glance up. your eyes met a boy’s, you recognized him from your class. seonghwa? you thought that’s what his name was.

“hi,” he tilted his head in curiosity, “you’re new here, right? what’s your name?”

you blinked, “y/n.” your voice was quiet, the sound barely reaching his ears. you weren’t sure if you could trust him yet.

“do you wanna come meet my friends?” he saw you frown, kindness from your peers was not something you were used to. “i swear they’re nice! it makes me sad seeing you lonely,” he reached a hand out, “come on.”

you pondered his offer, then finally decided to take his hand, “okay.”

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This is adorable and one of my dream dates so in conclusion Doyoung is perfect boyfriend/husband material and your writing is AMAZING!!! 

Could I request a fluff scenario about waking up in the morning next to Doyoung with #5, #10, and #13. Also I love you writings💕💕💕💕💕💕

Okay, before I start this I wanna say that I am totally in love with your screen name. I laughed so hard that I started crying. 😂😂😂 So thank you for that. Also, I hope you love it. ❤️

Request #'s:

#5 • You're comfy. - FLUFF

#10 • I think I love you. - FLUFF

#13 • Your bed head is really cute. - FLUFF

Winter in Korea. You would describe it as a winter wonderland every year. Big, quarter sized snowflakes, quiet air since no one was outside with the blisteringly cold weather, and your boyfriend Doyoung sitting next to you. You both loved winter. From the tons of blankets that you used for movie nights to the cups of warm hot chocolate that you'd drink while reminiscing about memories with each other, you both adored it. It's almost like it gave you more time together since it was so cold, because no one could go anywhere since it was snowing all the time. It was quite literally a perfect storm.

Currently, it was about 8:45 in the morning and it was really coming down outside. The snow was piling up to about 8 inches on your balcony railing already and it was showing no signs of slowing down anytime soon. You smiled because that meant Doyoung got to stay home with you today and enjoy some much needed down time. He had been working so hard lately with promotions, interviews, and recordings, so he needed some rest to recuperate before they went on tour again. But, who knew what that was going to be because of COVID-19. All the more reason to stay inside and cuddle.

Turning over in your spot on the bed, he was facing you as he still slept. On the rare occasion that you did wake up before him, you always liked to watch him sleep for a little while. His hair would stick up in all different directions, lips still a cherry red color, and his face lined with marks from the pillow. He always was a really heavy sleeper.

Bringing your hand up to his face and brushing your thumb over his cheek, you heartbeat increased when his hand came to rest on yours. He still gave you butterflies every day, and you lived for that feeling. He smiled lightly as he kissed your palm, finally opening his eyes to look at you.

"Morning." he said quietly. You always loved how raspy his voice was in the mornings. It made your mind race constantly.

"Morning handsome."

Smiling at him, you leaned over and kissed his lips lightly, then rested your forehead against his as he played with your fingers.

"I don't wanna leave today." he said sadly, looking up at you.

"Well, good news for you because you don't have to. Look outside."

His eyes peeked over your shoulder to look out the window, his eyes lighting up and a sigh of relief leaving him.

"Thank god. I want to stay right here all day long. Warm, lazy, and cuddling with my girl." he said, hugging you to him.

You wiggled out of his grip a bit to readjust yourself, about a foot from his face now.

"Your bed head is really cute." you smiled, running your hand through his hair to try and tame it, but giggling when it shot back to sticking straight up.

"It's been like that ever since I was little. I even tried sleeping with a shower cap on my head one night and nothing. I hate it." he scruned his nose up at the thought of how he looked right now.

"To me, you look so adorable right now." you looked at him fondly, smiling when he leaned over to kiss you again.

"What do you want to do today?" you asked him.

"Exactly what we're doing right now. Nothing." he chuckled.

"Well, we have to eat at some point. And we both have to take showers too. You never took a shower yesterday when you got home from practice because you were too tired. You're smelly." you said.

"Wow, I felt the love in that statement." he looked at you, feigning offense as he put his hand over his chest.

"Tell me I'm wrong." you bickered.

"Honestly, no you're not." he laughed, pulling the covers back to get up and go shower. You followed close behind him to shower with him.

You both loved showering together. Not only was it a way to save water, but it was also a way to be completely and totally vulnerable with each other, not able to hide any of your flaws. For him, you were the most beautiful woman he'd ever been with. He loved that you were so into skinship and so into loving all over him. Even though he may not show it all the time, he was always weak for you when you would crawl onto his lap and fall asleep on him while he did something like play a game. He would play with you sometimes when you would go try to kiss him. For example, he would tighten his lips so you wouldn't be able to kiss him properly, and he would try to turn his head up and away from you. When you got upset and began to walk away though, he would always pull you back to him by your arm and blow you off your feet with the kiss that he gave you. His lips were the best for kissing.

For you, you loved that he played and poked fun at you like that. It kept things interesting. A day in the life with Doyoung was never uneventful or boring. It was only ever that if one of you was sick or the other needed sleep from an exhausting day. When you first saw him, you felt your heart rate increase and you tried to avoid eye contact with him. If it weren't for him coming up to you and introducing himself, you would've never even dreamed of being where you are right now. He was, hands down, the most attractive man you'd been with. And very... well endowed, if you didn't say so yourself. He was gifted in every way imaginable, and you thanked god that he came into your life. He added some spice to it that you didn't know you needed until you finally had it.

Showering with him, you both got out and dried off. After you were done in the bathroom, you went into the kitchen to see what you were going to cook for breakfast. He came up behind you and hugged you, kissing your neck as you smiled and craned your neck to give him more access.

"You're making it really difficult to make breakfast." you sighed, closing your eyes as he kissed up and down the expanse of your neck.

"Which leads me to my next question. Do you want to go get donuts with me? There's that place right down the street from here. It won't take long." he said.

"That sounds wonderful. Do I have to wear a bra though? It's the weekend and I don't wanna." you whined as he laughed.

"No you don't have to. Just wear a coat over your shirt. I don't want people seeing what's mine." he grabbed your breast as he kissed your neck again.

"Well okay then." you sighed contently again as he bit your neck lightly before smacking your ass as you walked to change your clothes.

Going back to the front door, he was waiting for you with keys in hand.

"Ready?"

"Yep." you chirped.

Walking out the door and shivering at the cold, you ran to the car as he unlocked it. Driving carefully to the donut shop, you both went inside and ordered. Getting back into the car, you drove home and ran back inside. All in all, it took no less than about 45 minutes. Piece of cake.

Undressing from your coat, you took off your boots and went into the kitchen to grab a plate. Opening the box of donuts and the bag of donut holes, you felt like your heart was melting because of how good it all looked.

"This is an obscene amount of donuts babe." you giggled, grabbing what you wanted out of the box.

"Yeah but for one, we'll have leftovers for tomorrow, and two, you only live once." he laughed, stuffing his face with one as he walked back to the bedroom.

Getting into bed with him, you looked through your assortment of board games on the floor and saw Monopoly.

"Wanna play Monopoly with me?" you asked.

"That's how we'll end up broken up. You making me go bankrupt because you bought all the damn train stations like you did last time." he argued, glaring at you like it was rubbing salt on a fresh wound.

"Well, if it happened last time and we're still together, I'm willing to chance it again." you giggled, going to grab the game and set it up.

Spinning the dice first, you got 5, so you moved your pawn 5 spaces forward. As you got to 4, Doyoung slapped his forehead as he laughed.

"God. Dammit." he groaned as you laughed deliriously. You landed on a train station.

"I may as well just give you my money now."

"Don't give up yet! You haven't even rolled your dice yet." you said, wiping tears off your face from laughing so hard.

He picked up the dice and rolled it. A 10. You began laughing again since he landed in jail.

"I have horrible luck in this game. This is bullshit!" he screamed while he had a mouthful of donuts.

You went back and forth like that for a while until it was right at the end. He ended up with 2 of the railroads, the boardwalk, and the park place. You had the other 2 railroads and a handful of properties that you upgraded. You had a hotel on Indiana Avenue, which meant that each time he landed on that spot, he paid $1,050 to the bank for rent. It was his last turn before he went bankrupt, and he knew he was going to lose. He rolled it and got a 3, moving him right to your hotel. He took the money he had left and threw it at you as he tossed himself back on the bed.

"It's official. My title in Monopoly is bankrupt." he laughed, covering his face with his hands as you laughed with him.

"It was a valiant effort, I'll give you that. You stole two of my railroads." you said, poking his stomach as you cleaned up the game.

"Yeah, but it took an offer of $3,500 to get you to sell them, then you never landed on any of them! How was that a win on my end exactly?" he asked, peeking at you through his hands.

"You tried, that's the important part." you giggled.

Putting the game up, you got back under the covers with him and snuggled some more while the snow was still falling outside.

"Still, I think I love you. Even if you beat my ass in Monopoly." he chuckled, coming to kiss your neck again.

"Mm... I love you too baby. More than I love kicking your ass in Monopoly." you laughed as he bit you.

Taking out your phone, you scrolled through your Facebook as he watched from behind you. He always loved seeing what your family was up to and how they were doing.

"Ugh... Look at my mom. She is so lucky she's in Bora Bora right now. I wanna be there. In the water and the sand with the sun beating down on me. I miss the sun." you said, continuing to scroll.

"When it gets warm enough, I promise I'll take you there." he kissed your cheek.

"But for now, you're comfy, so I guess you'll have to do." you said, turning your phone screen off and turning around to lay on his chest.

"Wow... I can still feel the love. Thanks baby." he grumbled.

"You're welcome. I'm glad I could help." you giggled, hugging him to you as you snuggled again.

At the beginning of this quarantine, many people joked about having to spend this much time with their significant other. You and Doyoung were actually hoping for it because you loved spending time with each other. It was so refreshing to have someone be as into you as you were into them. Yin and Yang is how you would describe it in a corny way.

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“you look so beautiful, sweetheart,” felix whispered into your ear. you were completely naked, legs spread wide and a pretty black blindfold covering your eyes. you were completely at his mercy. you loved how you didn’t know his next move, loved putting your full trust in him. 

you felt his hands move from behind your head, and your head hit the pillow behind you. his touch left your burning skin and you heard a rustle of clothing and sounds of him rummaging through some kind of box or drawer, you weren’t entirely sure. shivers of anticipation ran down your spine.

you felt felix rub a dildo up and down your slit and you whined, gripping the sheets below you as you waited for him to insert it. you released a surprised moan when it started buzzing against your clit. your eyes widened behind the blindfold. it was a vibrator. he only brought that out when he wanted to torture you, to bring you so close to the edge before yanking you back from it.

you were so fucked, quite literally.

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Aaand I’m on the verge of tears #not shocking #imnotmadaboutittho

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pairing: jeong yunho x reader

genre: established relationship au, angst, fluff

wc: 1.1k

summary: “i just want to be numb, i don’t want to feel anything.”

warnings: none

note: today i got sad and started writing so this is a little unplanned surprise! yunho is giant cuddly teddy bear and that’s exactly what i need right now

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you were overwhelmed.

maybe it was the schoolwork that seemingly never ended, the expectations your parents and friends forced upon you that you never wanted, the shadows that hid in the deepest crevices of your minds that occasionally reared their ugly heads. maybe it was all of those things, you didn’t know. all you knew was that you were suffocating under the crushing weight of your emotions.

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