Iammialua - Daydreaming

[xo, kitty spoiler]

Dae is the reason.

And yet to be decided between Yuri and Min Ho whom is the season or lifetime relationship.

I will forever stand by the hc that Regulus stayed behind to keep his parents from going after Sirius and Sirius died thinking he never wanted to leave

What I think (tbh, hope is the right word) is gonna happen in XO, Kitty S2:

◇SPOILERS below

◇ Biased towards my favorite ship, sorry ;)

• First of all, Kitty is obviously going back to KISS with Yuri's help;

• Dae will be back too, not sure if because they're going to excuse his 2nd place (it's way too stupid for a scholarship to demand 1st place every single time) or if they're gonna find out that Florian cheated/Florian will tell himself;

• Probably not the first option, or else the whole drama will be for nothing;

• Also, whatever happens, Florian will stay at KISS, even if there are new complications regarding his parents or the fact he cheated;

• I think Florian and Q are going to break up at some point, maybe Q will even have a new love interest, but will probably end up with Florian;

• Dae, too, will have a new love interest (most likely a "definite" one) and their main drama will be about him getting over his past with Kitty;

• On this topic, I really hope Dae and Kitty's friendship solidifies and that they're able to overcome the awkwardness of their break up;

• Now that Juliana is back, I think she's gonna share dorms with Kitty;

• Unless Yuri decides to stay at the dorms too, to be closer to Juliana, then she will be the one sharing dorms with Kitty (her mom won't allow her and Juliana sharing the same dorm);

• Juliana will notice how close Yuri and Kitty are (specially if they share a dorm), she's gonna get jealous and will break up with Yuri;

• Yuri will realize she has started to develop some feelings towards Kitty;

• Kitty and Yuri will notice their feelings for each other soon after;

• They're gonna date and we will have some very cute scenes but, in the end, they'll break up and realize they're better off as best friends, just as how their moms were;

• And part of the reason for the break up is because Yuri is still in love with Juliana, while Kitty, once again, fell for someone else;

• If it wasn't obvious before, I'm talking about Min Ho here;

• Taking off from the last episode, he and Kitty will kinda ignore his confession, not forget it completely, they'll just try to act normal and keep bantering with each other, but there's also gonna be somewhat of a tension between the two of them;

• Not sure if they're gonna show much of Kitty in the US before KISS, but, either way, I don't think they'll see each other during the winter break;

• So, as soon as they're all back to KISS, the awkwardness of the confession is still kind of lingering between Kitty and Min Ho, and Q is the first to notice ofc;

• Then it's Dae, and that will result on some drama between the two boys, with Q in the middle not knowing what to do;

• But it'll all work out at the end, and we'll be able to see more of the boys' friendship;

• Then, as times passes, Kitty and Min Ho get closer and closer, and she starts to fall in love with him too;

• But she just started dating Yuri, and she likes her, so Kitty does her best to act like nothing changed;

• Until the moment Yuri notices that Kitty and Min Ho's relationship dynamic has changed, and decide they have to break up;

• And they do, and there's a little bit more drama, but we end the season with Yuri and Juliana as a couple again (or working towards it), and Kitty and Min Ho realizing they relaly fell for each other;

• Which gives way to a third season, paralleling the three movies for TATBILB;

◇Some extra notes:

• I hope Jina divorces Yuri's father;

•Also, that she, Yuri, Alex and Prof Lee get closer, like a real family;

• We're going to found out more about Simon and, idk, maybe he's the reason why Eve Song always told her daughters not to go to college while dating someone?

• Also, maybe a quick appearance of Lara Jean and Peter, please

Anyways, let's see how much (if any) of it is going to actually happen :3

yuri and kitty make sense. it did not come out of nowhere. the rom com meet cute? all of the tension while yuri was “dating” dae and how easily that tension transfers to romantic tension after kitty’s dream? that doesn’t come out of nowhere. kitty and yuri in the beginning of the show are two people who are at odds but don’t really want to be at odds. once the dae situation is mostly resolved, they become fast friends, which it’s foreshadowed they can be in episode 1. moreover, kitty has been with dae since she was 12. she clearly has been focused on him and not herself, and her interest in yuri is allowed to flourish because she is not with dae when it begins. she does not think she will be with dae. and she is in fact actively looking for someone to kiss. moreover, even if it was out of nowhere (which it isn’t) kitty is 17 (16?). at that age, crushes appear out of nowhere all. the. time. and while it might not have been the best idea to tell yuri about her feelings, kitty thought she would never see her again. sometimes the right thing for you, the thing that will let you keep going, is going to hurt someone else. doesn’t make it okay, just is. and on top of that, she didn’t fully confess anyway. and kitty’s not known for making good decisions, since literally the first tatbilb movie. it’s up to yuri now to decide what to do with this information. she clearly has wanted juliana to come back, and it is unlikely she will drop juliana because of kitty’s aborted confession. additionally, the few times we’ve seen juliana have been 1) the flashback, 2) the kiss in the janitor’s closet (neither of which reveal much about her), 3) the phone call in the tent, 4) the phone call in kitty/yuri/q’s room, and 5) the scene at the airport. in 2 and 3, juliana seems to have resigned herself to a life without yuri, and seems honestly shocked that yuri cared enough to go to such lengths to find her. what does that say about what juliana thinks of the relationship that yuri is so invested in? in 4 and 5, 4 explicitly, juliana is worried about yuri’s friendship with kitty, and jealous of it, and pushes the fact that she doesn’t quite trust yuri’s telling her the truth about the platonic nature of their friendship. to be clear, i have absolutely nothing against juliana. i am interested and curious to see her as a full character in season 2, and i do, in fact, desperately hope that they do not villainize a black queer female character. on the other hand, black queer women can be toxic partners. limiting othered people to only heroic, savior-like, positive roles, is also not great. and exhibiting jealous and mistrusting behavior already when we have so few, brief scenes of her is to me an orange flag. i’m not worried about it yet, but i have noticed it. and often, people who imply that they don’t trust their partner not to cheat, have already cheated themselves. once again, i hope this is untrue, i hope i’m wrong. finally, kitty was not in the right to almost confess to yuri, but it is not the cardinal sin some people are pretending it is. yuri and juliana may continue, they may not. whatever happens, it won’t be kitty’s fault. it is not inherently homophobic if you don’t ship kittyuri, or if you ship minty. it is homophobic to perpetuate this idea that the ship came out of nowhere simply because you don’t ship it and have refused to see what the show is explicitly showing.

in this same vein, min ho and kitty make sense. it did not come out of nowhere. and while min ho might not have had the best timing with telling kitty his feelings, he did in fact wait until he had confirmation that she was no longer with dae. he might have said something further had the PA not interrupted, but he did not appear to expect anything from her in return after he told her (just as kitty did not appear to expect anything in return from yuri when she almost confessed). kitty is shocked, but very clearly not upset about the information. to us, it is clear that min ho has liked kitty for a while, probably longer than he knew or let on. sometimes so called “hatred” for someone is genuinely that, but as demonstrated in xo kitty, it is often the exact opposite. (i am of course talking about disliking someone interpersonally for muddled reasons, not disliking someone for genuine reasons, i.e. they’re a harmful person.) dislike for someone is often based on someone protecting themselves for whatever reason. based on all that we know about min ho, he has a lot of family related issues, and a lot of reason to put up walls in order to protect himself. he is initially “anti-kitty” because he thinks dae should explore his options with someone he is in the same country with and then because he thinks yuri is a better option. a lot of this quite clearly stems from the way he was raised, the fact that his father is on wife #3, and the classism that very much exists in korea (as it does in many places) and honestly probably because kitty is half-white (i am not saying there is racism against white people, there isn’t. i’m saying that there is often unfortunate biases against mixed kids from both/all of their communities). in the chuseok episode, he says “my parents thought they were true love, and then had the messiest divorce ever” (or something to that effect). that line is so telling: min ho doesn’t believe in true love, or maybe even love at all. he looks at it as transactional, what can i get from them and what can they get from me? it’s evident in his failed (i think?) tryst with the k pop star who’s name is escaping me, and in his situationship with madison. but spending so much time around kitty specifically changes his mind about these things. slowly, at first, and then much more rapidly. he’s still cocky, arrogant min ho, but he chills out a lot over those first few episodes. i think he appreciates that kitty actually responds to his teasing and one ups him oftentimes. and when he calls her his saesang, it’s so funny bc he is so clearly the one obsessed with her at all times throughout season 1. also, the dream happens after the chuseok episode, where they noticeably get closer. there is buildup! he thinks she’s beautiful when she enters his party, and is actively trying to resist his crush on her (because he thinks he shouldn’t have a crush on his friend’s girlfriend) when he reacts to it being her. he respects that he thinks she and dae are still into each other and moves his attention to madison. he knows her order in the detention episode. he is upset for her when he finds out yuri and dae lied. he saves her from the fireworks. he does not fight back against dae after dae attacks him because he thinks dae has the right to. he looks visibly shattered when kitty says min ho isn’t the one she was talking about. also, min ho would not have made the effort to sweet talk some flight attendant to find kitty’s seat and sit in coach because of nothing. 

with both kittyuri, and with minty, they are one sided crushes (at least at the moment) with potential to be reciprocated, and i think people are misinterpreting them because of that. neither of them came out of nowhere, neither of them are toxic, and neither of the two ships involving teenagers include characters who are morally bad.

in conclusion, let people ship things. ship things yourself! and most of all, do not take things that seriously. shipping should never be a war. even if you personally don’t like a ship, it is shitty to go and actively hate the ship, especially if the ship is not doing you any harm, especially if you go into the positive spaces for that ship to spread your hate. if you don’t ship something, do not interact with content for that ship. it is not that hard. it is 2023, not 2013. ship whatever the hell you want.

tw: mentions of abuse (walburga and orion a+ parenting)

the tragic thing about his parents is that, despite the abuse and the neglect, regulus loved them.

he loved his mother's intelligence, the way she knew how to answer most of his questions and how she could tell him the origin of each word, whether it was greek or latin or such.

he loved his father's wit, his sharp humour, those brief moments when he'd look at regulus with compliance, those fleeing seconds when his father would grant him a knowing, complicit look.

and their expectations, oh, he loved them and he hated them at the same time. they expected the best because they believed he could give it to them — and yet, what a wonderful suffering if he didn't live up to all those expectations. what an outstanding suffocation, trying to meet them all the time.

not to mention, regulus felt a little guilty about how much he loved their satisfaction once he gave them what they wanted. yes, the burden was a heavy one. yet, what a relief to feel the gentle stroke of his mother's hand on his cheek or to see a pleased smile on his father's lips.

and regulus can't forget about the times his mother called him his 'good son' and about how his father told him that 'he didn't disappoint' — it wasn't the same as saying he was proud of him but, to regulus, it was close enough.

sometimes, the good outweighed the bad (until it didn't). that was what sirius wouldn't understand.

they were good to him, as long as regulus didn't disappoint them. so, he just needed to be good, did he? he just needed to be the good son, he just had to avoid disappointing them, he just had to bear it and they would, maybe, finally love him.

sirius couldn't understand how he could love them.

still, regulus did. and it broke him more than hating them ever would have.