This AU Has Probably Been Done A Million Times Before, But I Love The Idea Of Bill Being Trapped Inside

This AU has probably been done a million times before, but I love the idea of Bill being trapped inside Stan’s head after the finale.

I’m calling it the “Still Bill” au

#stillbillau

i just needed them to be a little happy after the last ep

I am going to join the masses as we give flowers to Lou Wilson and Danielle Radford.

The devastation and denial from Whitney Jammer, refusing to look at and then refusing to look away from his best friend.

The panic and fear from Sam Britain, completely lost on what to do but desperately wanting to bring her best friend back to life.

Jammer and Sam have cared so deeply for Evan since day one.

And watching him die before their eyes broke them.

And dare I say, it genuinely hurt Lou and Danielle too.

Hi!😄💗✨

the responses to grief this episode. it's such a perfect encapsulation of these characters and what makes them compelling.

evan, dying and reaching for his shadow, not from a pure sense of want but from the obligation to his friends, from his need to be useful and protective, from his deep down desire to be loved and wanted but not relying on that. only pursuing the mission to anchor himself. shadowing sam and connecting with her as the one who could still look on him in her grief. asking for the answer to the perfect question with a restatement in the answer and getting a book that could erase all of his existence and everything that shaped the world as it is now.

jammer, compartmentalizing. holding it together. doing cpr, and when he can't get the body back up, finding a means of getting evan back. taking 30 seconds to weep with every ounce of grief and then getting on with the work. achieving a pinnacle of magic and channeling it into his connections with others and the fact that he is a lynchpin. that he is always giving to his community. having to be forced to rest and feel by an embodiment of truth within the universe.

sam, seeing evan die on her and feeling her way through it. feeling the grief. the only one to look at evan in his shadow and accept it. sharing her doubt in herself and the persona she wears even as she uses it to get them moving again. being the first to reach out to the coli, as she always is. wording her question so carefully to get the answer she needs because she does not have time to be tricked, whether by an entity or by her own mind.

k, breaking their wand and it still not being enough. never disconnecting from the network even as evan dies in front of her. going small and quiet, not acknowledging their part in the violence, nor ignoring it. feeling the resentment and anger directed towards her but not having the time to process or defend it. asking for a way to save everyone, save everything, as they turn their eyes toward truth, toward the truth of the coli, with a sense of wonder, of curiosity that has always driven her actions.

The acting in this opening scene. It’s phenomenal. You expect it in a way because they’re so all so fucking talented but then you watch it happen. Like these actors are portraying grief and portraying it each differently. Not a uniform caricature of sadness. Jammer reacts differently than Sam. K’s sudden silence hurts. Danielle’s crying. Lou’s voice is wavering. It feels so authentic. Their friend Brennan is right there and perfectly fine. But their characters’ friend Evan is gone. Gone. And our brains aren’t great at differentiating real life and make believe sorrow. Emotions in make believe are still emotions and they’re making up feel it all. Damn they’re so incredible. Aabria leading them through it all is amazing too. Her tone is perfect. It’s just perfect.