"but, Isn't It A Blessing To Have Someone Care About You?" Your Voice Was Soft But Your Words Weighed

"but, isn't it a blessing to have someone care about you?" your voice was soft but your words weighed heavy on bakugou's heart.

it was nearly ten o'clock. due to your rampant text messages you sent to bakugou ten minutes ago, he stayed up past his normal bedtime in order to figure out what exactly was your issue tonight.

you were rested on the bench that was outside of u.a while bakugou was reclined on the bench, his legs sprawled out in front of him. there was a mere sprinkle that surrounded the area around them, a slight breeze also forcing you two to sit closer together to bask in each other's warmth.

bakugou was unsure what to reply with. where did your random outburst even come from. what did you really want him to say?

bakugou didn't particularly understand love and he damn sure didn't know how to express it. maybe that's why he was okay with it at first— you deserved to be with someone that could make you happy. he knew that he wouldn't be able to live up to your standards. he lacked all the aspects for a healthy relationship.

but when you got together with that stupid guy you met at a coffee shop eight months ago, he felt like an idiot for not pursing you. he noticed all of your tired eyes, insecure smiles, and passive behavior. it was only then when bakugou realized he could’ve done so much better than he thought.

you took his silence as an opportunity to continue. "someone who worries about your happiness and wants to always be by your side?"

yes. bakugou wanted to scream. yes, you fucking idiot. were the words that burned his throat. why couldn't it come out when he so desperately wanted it to?

did you decide to be blind of his feelings towards you? bakugou had thought he'd shown you that he'd go to hell and back for you, but still, you couldn't discern the fact that he was so infatuated with you? he was so in love with you that he would wait for you at the bottom no matter how long it took.

he hated this feeling. why did it have to be you that caught his eye? the only girl he was drawn to, no matter how many times he tried to escape your aura, the path always lead back to you.

he doesn't know why he would sit with you while you ranted about your relationship problems. maybe it was because he didn't want it to be anyone else other than him or because he cared about your well-being most of all. maybe it was both.

either way, he fucked hated it. why couldn't it be the other way around? why couldn't he be the one on the receiving end of your love? bakugou knew for sure he wouldn't do half of the shitty things that your lover would do. he hated that you stayed with worthless dick-face of a man you call your boyfriend. did you not know that with your personality and beauty that you could find someone that was worth millions?

"you know... i like to think someone cares for me that way." bakugou didn't have to look at you to tell there were tears prickling your eyes. water threatening to spill out. it was a usual thing whenever you'd ask him to lend a ear to your venting sessions. he wanted nothing more than to grab your face and kiss your tears away.

bakugou didn't understand love. not in the slightest. but bakugou understood regret. and his biggest regret came in the form of you. if only bakugou had enough courage to tell he that he loved you years ago when you two first met, then he would be the person on the receiving end. he would be the guy who would always be by your side. to be the guy who truly cares about you.

for however long you stayed with that asshole of a boyfriend, bakugou was aware his chance with you was as close to zero.

and he was fine with that.

because even though it pained him to hear you talk about another guy, bakugou would rather have some of you than none of you. he didn’t mind having to swallow his feelings that tugged at his heart if it meant you were happy.

he dryly laughed. "there is," his eyes suddenly finding comfort in the wet cement below them. "just someone who fuckin' sucks at showing it."

bakugou didn’t just not understand love. he hated it. he despised love because it always fell into the hands of the wrong person.

-

yes the quote is from fruits basket, i couldnt help it.

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hi! do you know a fic that talks about robin's addition to the monsters and her relationship with them? tysm for your recs 🙏

From Nora’s extra content (here and here), Robin Cross joins the foxes as a freshman post canon on Andrew’s recommendation, becoming a goalie and part of Andrew’s tight-knit monsters. She is generally headcanoned to be particularly close with Neil and Andrew.

If you’re interested in a deep dive into Robin’s traumatic past of being kidnapped and held captive as a child, check out the true crime podcast au ‘Red Rabbits: Season 2’ here (now complete; accompanying art by @bloodydamnit here and here). -A

Also see

‘The Cartographer and the World’ here

‘Black as is the Raven, He’ll Get a Partner’ here

‘Red-Breasted Fox’ here

‘when i'm falling (i'm at peace)’ here

‘Skin Comes Apart (Angel in Lothian)’ here

‘Watchful Eyes’ and ‘transience’ here

‘don't wanna be lonely (just wanna be yours)’ here

‘the memory of burning’ here

‘cheers to the dead mothers club’ here

‘Runaway Train’ here

‘All I'm sayin' is if you don't love me no more, then lie’ here

‘Sliding Doors’ here

‘Worth the Trouble’ here

‘the name of the game’ here 

Teaching a caged bird to fly series by Charcoalll [Rated T/M, Collection with 5 complete works, Updated Dec 2021]

Part 1: Sunrise over Home [M, 7870 Words]

Robin Cross is regretting ever signing with the Foxes more and more every day. But when a disastrous day at court leads to emotions culminating, she has a much needed talk with her coach. Turns out her recrutation wasn't as random as she thought, but why would Andrew Minyard off all people have an interest in her?

No matter what, it all ends on that cursed roof at midnight.

tw: violence, tw: negative self talk, tw: bullying, tw: panic attacks, tw: implied/referenced csa

Part 2: Guilt, Fault and Blame [T, 9093 Words]

Robin begins driving with the monsters from practice and suddenly everything changes.

tw: anxiety, tw: recreational drug use, tw: alcohol, tw: implied/referenced csa, tw: implied/referenced rape/noncon, tw: implied/referenced kidnapping, tw: implied/referenced murder of a child

Part 3: Never felt Safer [T, 3465 Words]

Robin finally earned Andrew's attention. Now she's standing in front of the biggest changes her life has seen, but as it seems it's only for the better.

tw: violence

Part 4: Secret Privacy [M, 15790 Words]

5 times Robin saw the emotions others seemed blind to, and 1 time it was painfully obvious.

Or Andrew and Neil through Robin's eyes.

tw: alcohol, tw: blood, tw: panic attacks, tw: violence, tw: implied/referenced rape/noncon tw: implied/referenced child abuse, tw: implied/referenced self harm, tw: homophobia

Part 5: You've found your people, haven't you? [G, 5335 Words]

Robin takes Neil and Andrew home to her parent's for Thanksgiving

tw: anxiety

Afterthoughts by wesawbears [Rated T, Collection, Complete, 2017] 

Chapter 37: Andrew and Wymack- Robin [488 Words]

Chapter 57: Robin- First Season [244 Words]

Soulmarks Bind Ravens And Foxes Alike series by sam_sational [Rated T/M, Collection with 2 complete works, Updated March 2023]

Part 1: Fate Is A Meddling Bitch [T, 39848 Words, Complete, 2023] 

Neil doesn't swing, so he has no soulmark.

Andrew doesn't touch people, so he doesn't have to worry about his aversion to the concept either.

Unfortunately fate is a meddling bitch.

tw: homophobia, tw: implied/referenced murder, tw: implied/referenced child abuse, tw: implied/referenced rape/noncon, tw: heavily referenced self harm, tw: references to suicide, tw: flashbacks, tw: violence, tw: implied/referenced kidnapping, tw: implied/referenced captivity

Part 2: Speak Up, Little Fox [M, 14071 Words, Complete, 2023]

Five times Robin defended Andrew. One time Andrew spoke up.

tw: homophobia, tw: implied/referenced murder, tw: implied/referenced child abuse, tw: implied/referenced rape/noncon, tw: implied/referenced kidnapping, tw: implied/referenced captivity, tw: anxiety, tw: negative self talk

Show me the places where the others gave you scars by wangxian_234 [Rated T, 3369 Words, Complete, 2021]

Andrew has a past just as fucked up as Robin's, but he seems happy with Neil. Robin has questions. 

or: a slightly ooc discussion of how sex is effected by trauma

tw: implied/referenced csa, tw: implied/referenced rape/noncon, tw: implied/referenced self harm, tw: implied/referenced kidnapping, tw: implied/referenced captivity

Grains by Preludeno3 [Rated G, 993 Words, Complete, 2022]

Don’t say stupid things” Andrew growls back. His arm crawls with the contact and proximity, he’ll have move soon or he’ll have his own meltdown on his hands. “It gets better”

tw: implied/referenced rape/noncon

pick up all the pieces (and what’s left of my pride) by poika [Rated T, 4637 Words, Complete, 2020]

robin cross is interesting. and andrew doesn’t think that often.

an exploration into andrew and robin's relationship, featuring andrew's scathing running commentary, emotional growth and making a friend along the way

tw: implied/referenced kidnapping, tw: implied/referenced captivity, tw: implied/referenced rape/noncon

my one, my dear by Mercey [Rated T, 18478 Words, Complete, AFTG Mixtape Exchange 2023]

Five years after graduating from Palmetto State University, Kevin's pro team decides to sign freshly-graduated Robin Cross. According to their friends it simply makes sense for the two ex-foxes to move in together, and while Kevin's intensity and Robin's unflappable nature pair well initially, what will happen when their darker things come to light?

tw: implied/referenced kidnapping, tw: implied/referenced captivity, tw: implied/referenced alcoholism, tw: implied/referenced murder

Neil Fights the Foxes by This_Witch_Writes [Rated T, 24142 Words, Complete, 2022]

Times that Neil got into fights and arguments on Andrew's behalf.

tw: homophobia, tw: transphobia, tw: implied/referenced rape/noncon, tw: implied/referenced self harm, tw: mania, tw: suicidal thoughts, tw: violence, tw: blood, tw: car accident

Stay With Me by Lostintheuniverseslies [Rated E, 21072 Words, Incomplete, Updated April 2023]

Part 3 of Healing, find part 1 here

They spent the first year after everything healing. Now they have to learn how to navigate being away from each other while Andrew is off playing in the pros and Neil is still at Palmetto finishing his fifth year. Things aren't easy. They never seem to be for them but they're fighters. And they always come out on top.

tw: explicit sexual content, tw: homophobia, tw: negative body image

From Dungeons by JuiceGremlin [Rated E, 8561 Words, Incomplete, Updated May 2022]

“I haven’t played Exy in years.”

“Brush up. Prove to me that you can be trusted. Miss Malcom will fill The Butcher’s position until a decision can be made about you.”

tw: graphic depictions of violence, tw: implied/referenced rape/noncon, tw: murder, tw: blood/gore, tw: implied/referenced torture, tw: gun violence, tw: implied/referenced animal abuse, tw: vomit, tw: implied/referenced self harm, tw: implied/referenced child abuse, tw: implied/referenced kidnapping, tw: implied/referenced captivity

didn’t know I was lonely (‘til I saw your face) by outofbookshelves [Rated M, 6671 Words, Complete, 2022]

Neil hadn’t expected Andrew’s first year in the pros to be easy. But he’d be fine for the next few months, until he saw Andrew again on Thanksgiving.

He turned out to be wrong, though – it wasn’t fine.

5 times Neil missed Andrew (and didn't realize it) and 1 time he didn't have to anymore.

tw: graphic nightmares, tw: implied/referenced torture

Five Years to the Day by emmy (emmy7) [Rated T, 5045 Words, Complete, 2021]

Neil's final game as a Fox with some big feelings, sappy thoughts, and a whole lot of hugging.

it's rotten work (not to me; not if it's you) by Awesomenessatrandom [Rated G, 8868 Words, Complete, 2021]

Part 1 of when is a monster not a monster? (when you love it)

three times Neil couldn't take care of himself and one where Andrew lets himself get taken care of

It begins the summer directly after King's Men and progresses chronologically.

tw: implied/referenced torture, tw: violence, tw: anxiety

thumbs up by tropicalblend [Rated G, 5268 Words, Complete, 2021]

Robin's on her period and her cramps are tearing apart her insides. She thinks she can push through practice and knock out in her dorm, but her body said, no lets black out during practice.

Kevin, Andrew, and Neil try to help in little ways.

tw: menstruation

All We Ever Knew by OrdinaryVegan [Rated G, 1317 Words, Complete, 2017]

Robin comes to Neil for life advice, and he is surprisingly helpful.

A Quick Stop Before Breakfast by AnniGrace [Rated G, 1163 Words, Complete, 2017]

Blah blah blah Nora says they never get married but...

Some Tumblr Bits

…then you remember baby Robin Cross exists meta by @jostenjorts [Tumblr, 2022]

Neil and Robin on the cover of vogue; a spiel by @chronic-optimistt [Tumblr, 2022]

Robin is Andrew and Niel adopted daughter for me this is a fact hc and  Niel teaching Robin / Niel teaching any of the other foxes fandom fun post by @chacha462 [Tumblr, 2021]

Robin Cross headcanons by @yolkylemon [Tumblr, 2021]

Art

Her fist day at the locker room after her Eden’s Twilight trip comic by @crows-and-crumbs

my new Robin Cross obsession comic by @two-wizards-in-a-trench-coat

When Robin meets Renee and Allison, agents of chaos, and ur hand in marriage pls ma’am art by @yolkylemon

I’ve never smoked before and neil and robin are besties art by @poikas

Robin Cross art by @redskiesandsailboats

Robin brain rot hours and More Robin Cross hours art by rei_ko__ on instagram; also here, @rei-ka-ko

Lil Robin Cross moment art by @truthforatruth

✝️Robin Cross✝️ art by drewthesapphic on instagram, also here on twitter

meet Robin, Foxes’ goalkeeper by shtormlen on instagram

any fic recs of Andreil where they're parents (from ao3) thanks!!!!

Hi!

If you haven't seen it previously then you might find something you like in this post, look for the "Andrew and Neil with kids" section

And here are some new parents andreil fic recs!

Call the doctor ( I may need help) [ 23k ] and its series

what now? [ 9k ]

The Manny [ 57k ] and its sequel

Forming a Family; Forging a Future [ 16k ]

Arlo Minyard-Josten Series

Eighteen Wheels And Three Beating Hearts [ 82k ] and its sequel

Andreil's Adventures in Parenthood series

Say You'll Stay [ 4,6k ]

A House Of Rainbows [ 29,9k ]

Noah Minyard-Josten [ 51k, incomplete ]

We’ll Both Be Fine [ 117k, incomplete ]

"this is cool but not scary at all"

A drawing of some leaders of some Groups of Interest from the SCP universe.