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All For You

tags: Fluff, reiner's pov, modern au, no specific p/n’s used

You had the roughest day yesterday, falling into his arms the second you stepped through the door, burying your face into his chest. It was a bit of a downer on his part, having planned a nice date night for the two of you but deciding what you needed was a night in, curled up on the couch and watching reruns of your favorite show. Reiner hated to see your spirit dampened, the glow from your face dimmed and somber from the actions of other people. He wanted to shield you from that, like a parent protecting the innocence of their child.

Even though he knew it would be best for you to quit your job or transfer to a different office, Reiner didn't want to put the pressure, you were an adult who could make their own decisions. That same night, while curled up in bed after nearly falling asleep on the couch, you quietly mention wanting to spend a day in nature, walk through sprawling gardens of flowers and sit in a thick forest of trees to clear your mind of everything weighing you down. That's where he got the idea to take you to the arboretum, buying tickets from his phone once he swore you were asleep.

He woke up earlier than usual the next morning, bringing you coffee in bed and shying away from your prying question, insisting he always does things like this for you, which wasn't a lie, Reiner's life might as well have been centered around you, his love and dedication driving him. And how could he not, you were his person, the other half of his heart and all things good, making it less of a challenge to fall more and more in love with you.

The morning was expectantly slow, curled up back in bed with you after taking a few sips of your coffee, head tucked under his chin and arms wrapped around his neck. He would've stayed like this all day, but there was somewhere the two of you had to be.

"Where are you going?" Hearing your whine that made him pulling away feel like a villain.

"To get dressed." Kissing the tip of your nose and watching your face turn to pondering.

"It's Saturday, our day off."

"Yea, but I'm taking you somewhere today."

A litany of question followed, eager to know where he was taking you, following him into the bathroom and into the closet. Gently he brushed them off, telling you the surprise would be ruined. That seemed to work, watching you turn giddy with excitement Time slowed as he tried to focus on getting dressed, distracted with watching you get ready, the detail you put into your appearance and just how much he loved the little things about you. And there were so many he could spend days listing them off to anyone who dared to listen.

He had your things ready to go by the front door, handing them off to you and interlacing his hand in yours for the short walk out the front door to the car. The drive was lengthy, but not horrible as Reiner got to listen to your ramblings, relieved the previous bad day at work had been overcome quickly by you.

A man at the gate scanned the tickets from his phone, directing him where to park. You were busy texting someone to notice where you'd arrive at, and Reiner was kind of glad, adding more sweetness to the surprise outing today.

"Where are we?" Asking as you walked beside him in the parking lot, hand in hand, swinging his arm back in forth with yours.

"The arboretum." Answering with a smile, swelling with adoration at your soft gasp and falter in your steps.

"You were listening?"

"When am I not?" Stopping to squeeze your hand and give a quick peck to your lips, hurrying you along so you could spend all the time you wanted in the botanical gardens. The woman who scanned the same tickets handed you each a brochure highlighting the different areas. The magnolia grove was first on your list, dragging Reiner along in excitement and him happily being dragged.

A canopy of trees shielded the paved path, familiar white blooming flowers with dark green leave blowing in the wind. Reiner hadn't noticed how sweet these flowers smelled, heavy with an odd trace of lemon that pulled him into memories of when you'd get home from work before him and was wiping down the kitchen counters. From the moment he talked to you before mustering up the courage to ask you on a date, he knew you loved flowers and not just bouquets to put in a vase, no you had a passion for the delicate beauty of nature.

Steps lingered in the grove, Reiner watching you take pictures of the trees from every angle, smiling from a distance and wondering how he got so lucky. You were pure, full of passion for the things that took your interest and unabashedly expressed your love for the things that caught your eye, Reiner just so happened to be one of them.

"I saw there was a Koi pond, let's go there next." Suddenly standing in front of him, concluding your photography session with the Magnolia trees.

The arboretum was expansive to the point it could take all day to explore every area, and he knew you would want to. The Koi pond was unfortunately on the other side of where the Magnolia grove was, with plenty of areas to stop by on the way to the pond.

"We can stop by the rose garden and butterfly greenhouse on the way to the pond, if you want." Suggesting, seeing you nod idly while looking over the brochure while walking down the paved path. You were focused on planning out your sightseeing, brows slightly pinched and lips pursed.

"Let's go." Grabbing his hands and picking up the pace in your steps, weaving in and out of the other people walking the other way, set on making it to where he had suggested.

Elegant roses of nearly every color filled the flower beds of the enchanting garden. There were people sitting in the eloquent spiraling benches, taking in the scenery or reading a book they had Brough for ambiance. Reiner felt entranced, never seeing roses look prettier than they already were, glancing in your direction to see you examining the flower. He came up behind you, softened when you looked back at him with a gleeful smile, like a little kid living out a fantasy and that stirred something in Reiner.

Seeing you happy made him swell in his chest already, but to see you guileless and almost innocent just reestablished how lucky he was. God he loved you, swore he loved you more than the average man loved their partner, with the way you always brought a genuine smile to his face at just a mere glance.

"I wish I could pick a few, maybe dry out some of the petals, press them into a journal." Saying to no one, but still catching Reiner's attention and having him look to see if there were any signs that instructed patrons to not pick the flowers.

Guiding you away, further from where majority of the people say on the benches, he did his best to look unsuspecting for what he planned to do. Confident both of you were out of view, Reiner bent down close to your ear.

"Which color?"

Your head snapped to look at him, almost immediately with how close you nearly collided with his face.

"What?" Whispering through your teeth in a hiss, not believing what you were hearing.

"Pick a color, hurry." Digging around in his pocket for the small pocket knife he carried, weighing his actions by moving this wallet to the opposite back pocket from where it was to ward off suspicious eyes, if there were any.

"Peach or the yellow red tipped one."

Giving a nod, bending down at the knees, balancing his weight of his feet, he slide the blade of the pocket knife right under where the flower bloomed, handing you the peach colored one first. The yellow red tipped one was in close proximity, repeating the method again and handing you the second one, flipping his knife closed and shoving it away.

It was a stroke of luck that it was slightly chilly enough for jackets to be worn, watching as you carefully placed two heads of roses into your inner jacket pocket, giggling when you casually took his hand to walk away.

"Thank you."

"All for you." Kissing your cheek as he pulled you by the hand into his side, headed towards the way you came into the rose garden.

BEST-FRIEND!HOSEOK who always greeted you with a hug. the day only started when Hoseok saw you; when Hoseok met you on the street or at home, it was more than guaranteed that a big, long hug would greet you. holding you in his arms, protecting you from the world for a few seconds, Hoseok hugged you with the happiness of the sun. your hearts synchronized their beat in a little symphony of pure love and trust — you felt so safe in your best friend’s arms. “hi, my butterfly! how was your night? i’ve just arrived in the city and i’m exhausted. do you mind if we go to my house?”

BEST-FRIEND!HOSEOK who does the ghost photoshoot with you. autumn is a beautiful season of the year; colorful leaves cried from the various trees, flowers tried to understand if life was still worth living and the sky became nostalgic for the loss of summer. and it was on these colder and more colorful days that you and Hoseok would wear a white sheet with a pair of sunglasses and go to parks and gardens taking as many photos as you could. it was a tradition that came from childhood and was certainly a tradition that would last. “i passed a small garden that still has some green bushes. do you want to go there and take some photos? i kept your sunglasses, don’t worry, you don’t lose them.”

BEST-FRIEND!HOSEOK who has a snoopy t-shirt and gave you a woodstock one. as soon as Hoseok saw the two t-shirts next to each other, you immediately came to his mind. snoopy and woodstock, you and Hoseok — two best friends from the beginning of time to the end of time. it was more than predictable that Hoseok would buy him the snoopy t-shirt and what is snoopy without his woodstock? of course you also had to have your own t-shirt. “what can i say? they created snoopy and woodstock with us in mind. we are the inspiration of best friends.”

BEST-FRIEND!HOSEOK who made you sign his sneakers. whenever Hoseok buys a new pair of sneakers that have the color white decorating them, Hoseok would bring the shoes to you and ask you to sign them. it was a superstition that arose before he became an idol: when you signed his white sneakers that late afternoon before Hoseok’s audition, you didn’t think that you would spend the rest of your time signing sneakers. it was Hoseok’s lucky charm. whether for everyday walking or for wearing on stage, any sneaker with the slightest white detail contained your name and a small heart that flooded Hoseok with pure hope and confidence. “i’m going to wear these sneakers to the show tomorrow and i need you to sign them urgently. i need some of your magic for tomorrow, please.”

BEST-FRIEND!HOSEOK who teaches you his choreography and only laughs at your failures. Hoseok loved your company and it was in your company that Hoseok felt free; so, when a new choreography had to be learned, he would ask for your company to encourage him to give a little more of himself. between Hoseok’s awkward first steps and the perfection of his movements was your support: your voice echoed around the room and brought smiles from Hoseok that he couldn’t hide. and when the choreography had already been learned and memorized, Hoseok would invite you to try dancing with him and, oh, how it was the highlight of Hoseok’s day; whether you danced well or had more difficulty, Hoseok was always ready to laugh at any and all mistakes you made, recording these little memories that would last forever on his phone. “no, no. first you stretch your leg and only then you look back. if we continue doing this we will end up in the emergency room. oh my god! enough for today. you’ve already done a lot.”

BEST-FRIEND!HOSEOK who rents you a cabin every summer. once a year, Hoseok had to decompress, forget all the hustle and bustle of the city and his work and enjoy some of the tranquility that nature could offer him; and all his rest was only complete when shared with you. so, every summer for four or five days, Hoseok would rent a small cabin in the middle of nowhere where he would spend the days in pure relaxation and happiness in your presence. a little friends vacation that brought so many memories and love that you both knew would always be repeated in the coming year. “i swear my heart only finds peace when it’s with you.”

BEST-FRIEND!HOSEOK who confessed to you when you were watching the stars on a summer night. endless stories were being reflected in the vast sky, illuminating that warm night. several stars danced in the dark sky, adorning the entire world with an eternal cloak of beauty and destruction. and moved by the beauty of the stars, completely surrendered to the cosmic destruction of those stars, Hoseok spoke to the sky. Hoseok confessed to you, but he spoke to the sky, wanting his words to be saved by the various stars for when you were willing to repeat them to Hoseok. “i like you, you know? every night i wish your love for me would turn into something more. every night the stars know that i just want to give myself to you.”

SECOND-CHANCE!JIMIN who meets you by chance on the street and his whole heart screams for you.

SECOND-CHANCE!JIMIN who didn’t know if he should go talk to you. you hadn’t seen him yet. or... did you see him and pretend you didn’t recognize him? no. you weren’t capable of putting whole years of pure love and devotion behind you. yes, Jimin was confident that you hadn’t seen him yet. so this was Jimin’s chance to remake his entire story. but… would it be wise for Jimin to walk up to you and act like you guys don’t have a long shared love history? would Jimin be able to walk past you without acknowledging your existence when you were the carrier of all of Jimin’s essence? it was the first time in forever that Jimin had met you. you looked so… well. it was like you had never loved Jimin. how could you be okay when Jimin cried every night for you? how could you have forgotten everything you and Jimin went through? how could y—

SECOND-CHANCE!JIMIN who has never felt so nervous when pronouncing your name. no. you certainly still felt something for Jimin, even if it was the longing for your complicity that had sprouted long before any feelings were involved. therefore, Jimin took a deep breath, stole all the courage that the clouds held within him and approached you with uncertain and trembling steps. there was no turning back. when Jimin said your name, he swore it was the first time since you were gone that he was able to speak. your name was the only word that really made sense to say. and that afternoon, in front of the bakery, your name was enough to destroy all the progress Jimin had made trying to forget you.

SECOND-CHANCE!JIMIN who risked everything and invited you for coffee. but if he was already talking to you, if he already lost himself again in your bright gaze and your cordial smile, what else did Jimin have to lose? for old times’ sake, Jimin filled his chest with audacity and courage, the nervousness that was pounding in his heart covering up all his thoughts. but Jimin spoke. when the first awkward words were exchanged and that eerie silence hung over you, Jimin risked everything and simply invited you. the worst that could happen was that you would refuse. there was no longer any way to destroy Jimin’s heart, your refusal would only shake the small fragments of the heart that you had already broken. yes. Jimin would invite you. there was nothing left to lose. “i know it might not be ideal, but i would really like to buy you a coffee. for old times. do you want?”

SECOND-CHANCE!JIMIN who declared himself to you again at the end of your coffee. it felt magical the way your conversation flowed once you sat on the park bench sipping your hot drinks. it seemed like you and Jimin had never lost touch and that you continued to be that duo that made so many people jealous. for long minutes you talked about everything: what was new in your life, updates about family and career, little stories that made each other laugh or simply smile. on that park bench, between the comfort of hot drinks, you and Jimin spoke as if you had never lived an eternity without each other. on that park bench, between rescued smiles and regained laughter, you and Jimin had forgotten all the days alone and were completely involved in the present, in the now. and wrapped in this happiness, deceived by the false sense of security, Jimin spoke without realizing it, without being able to contain himself. “i have not forgotten you. i tried, i swear. i tried to forget you this whole time. but it seems that with each day spent away from you my love grew even more. it’s like missing you made me realize how much i really love you.”

SECOND-CHANCE!JIMIN who hugged you for an eternity when he heard your confession. you repeated the same words. you confessed to Jimin that you still felt love for him. you asked in fear for a second chance. you apologized for everything you did and didn’t say. you loved Jimin. you missed Jimin. you wanted Jimin, almost as much as he wanted you back. oh what a divine day that Jimin heard your words. on impulse, driven by days and months of need, Jimin just took you in his arms, pressing you against his chest, making you feel his heart that only beat for you. “what a relief i feel. it feels like i can breathe again after being drowned in a sea of heartbreak for months. how i love you. how i always loved you. how i will always love you.”

SECOND-CHANCE!JIMIN who will love you forever. finally, you returned to Jimin’s arms, and Jimin was determined to never let you go. living all those months in your absence, without knowing anything about you, was like experiencing purgatory without any hope of escaping. but now none of that mattered. now you returned to Jimin and Jimin entered paradise again. in your arms, bathed in your love, sprinkled with the beauty of your soul, Jimin lived each day as if it were the last time he could love you. in words, actions, silence and smiles, all the love that Jimin felt for you was shown without fear or regret, laying you down eternally on a long bed of pure love and devotion. “and may god be my witness that there will not be a day on this earth that i will not love you.”

i know it's over and it never really began but in my heart it was so real

bitting my fist ripping my hair 😩 for @kimtaegis ♡