I Had A Dream One Night. But I Wasnt An Object In The Sky, On The Ground Or In Some Random Shop. I Was

i had a dream one night. but i wasn’t an object in the sky, on the ground or in some random shop. i was me. and you were there. and you were you.

we were laying on this field of grass and i watched you draw pictures with the night sky. taking stars to make your own constellations, dipping into the colours of the galaxy to add your splashes of colour and using the warmth of your hands to melt it all together.

it was beautiful.

i turned to you and asked. “what did it feel like?” you didn’t say anything, except smile as you continued making your art. and i continued to be in awe of it.

“like something more than anything we would ever be allowed to know.” you whispered into the dark.

“like love.” i whispered back.

excerpt from home (love, vds)

as a writer, there are countless times i have cringed at what i’ve written and constantly wish i had written something better. and it’s really hard for me to re-read my work (hence my amount of errors lol) because i am just never satisfied with the outcome.

but sometimes i decided to stumble upon some excerpts again, to remind myself that “hey, maybe i can write.” and i surprise myself a lot- i forget some of the beautiful things i have written.

hehehe. i wanted this fic done after my semester in uni but i finish in the next four-ish weeks and i’m not even halfway done :( i wish i wasn’t beating myself up for it because i love writing but brain go sad mode sometimes

been like six weeks and i’m still not done chapter one of the jens season but the playlist is really good and i’m going to c r y

yall remember when moyo said that jens’ type was “romantic and girly” and he immediately went “no no no”????

like how do we dismiss that whenever we discuss bi!jens?? like excuseeee meeee but??? forget the “it’s chill u like guys” thing he said to robbe mans really said his type isn’t girly and romantic

ok i’m so sad because school has officially taken over and the jens szn fic is going to be done much later than i’d like :( i’m not even done 5/10 of the chapters but hopefully i can eventually get it done before xmas :,)

i cannot wait for my uni sem to be over because i wanna make more vds content again that aren’t just fanfics

pic crew versions of me in case anyone was interested in a depiction of me <3

credits to all the lovely artists! i did these pic crews a while ago and they were stored in my camera roll for a bit so unfortunately i don’t know the links for them anymore 😭 but i take no credits on making the art for them at all!

note: yes these depictions are very femme but pls do recall i go by they/them pronouns!! <3

‘there’s never been a love story like ours’