To Inhabit A True Holy Place, You Must Surrender To The Unlearnable Knowing. You Never Know What You

to inhabit a true holy place, you must surrender to the unlearnable knowing. you never know what you may discover. you never know what you will aguishly be called to dig up. you do it anyways. you discover more of what you don't know anyways. you dig that shit up. you remove your bleeding insides just to look...before you throw it in the boiling pot of whatever else plagued you. the power within your shadows is not meant to be love and light. the power within your shadows is meant to be alchemized into an unintelligible essence.

true beauty consumes your entire state of being when experienced. not in the way that feelings do but in the way the ocean does as you swim into its abyss.

Your visions will become clear only when you can look into your own heart. Who looks outside, dreams; who looks inside, awakes.

-Carl Jung

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The Dark Feminines Domain : Mama Saturns Roleplay As The Masculine.

So a lot of people don't know this but Saturn's energy is really more feminine than it is masculine. Why do I say that?

Lets start with the symbolism of capricorn being the sea goat, having its head above water while its tail is still below the sea.

This means they are capable of balancing their watery emotions with the world and being able to come back up form the water and fulfill its fate by climbing up the mountain. It is as if they are everything at once, and nothing at all.

They are given the strength to keep going, even when it feels like it should stop.

While yes, their energy could be a bit heavy at times, it is a force of transmutation to say the least. Giving their all into something while being brought up with nothing is a story that a lot of saturn dominant individuals know all to well.

Having to fend for themselves and survive in a world that told them they wouldn't be anything. Having to learn the ins and the outs of their bodies, their emotions, their mind, their worries, what spooks them, so early on in their life.. and by the time they get older to truly be on their own they have already mastered the arts of their emotions and the human psyche long before their peers.

There is a theory that they are old souls but in truth they just learned quicker than others and sometimes it wasn't suppose to be that way, it just happened. They became the older sibling, the caretaker, the provider, the one who has it all at a younger age than most because that emotional state was harder for their caretakers, the authorative figures, the people that were suppose to have their back at their developing age so they learned how to pick themselves up before they fell again and again and again.

Why I say this placement is more connected to the divine feminine because her force is so powerful you would think it is masculine energy. But there is still a softness and admirable effect that it has that most never truly know what is beyond the surface. Masculine energy is in your face, this one not really.

The powerful feminine energy that saturnians carry is one that is mystique in its own right.

They are capable of holding their own while also feeling the need to be helped. They do not express this side enough but they shouldn't worry, there is someone ready to help them with all that baggage. They do not need to carry it alone.

Mama's saturn is the one that teaches us to flow in this long journey that we embark in.

It is a special energy because once you understand her, you will know that it is her magic that is teaching you the game so that you can grow and master your sense of self.

So that anyone that walks in your path won't be able to say they have also walked in your shoes.

Because it takes two to tango and it was only you and your soul in the end of the journey.

How bout' it.

Blessings <3

A cervical orgasm happens when your body profoundly softens, the inner seals unlock, and the light of the divine showers your organs with clean chi that washes away old stuck trauma. some women were born with an easier access to their cervical orgasms and their trauma is locked up in other areas of their body. But for most of us, our trauma is locked into our hips, belly, pelvis, womb, cervix, and heart/breasts, and we have to learn to let go in order to experience the full floodgates of a cervical mystery gush our entire body into alignment. A cervical orgasm can feel like you are about to die and to be honest, parts of you do, every time. For most women, the work is to de-amour and re-sensitize your body and develop trust and safety in yourself and if you have a lover, with your lover so that you can feel the depths of a benevolent thrust but your body doesn't tighten up and register it as a kind of harm or trauma. When we tense up during lovemaking, it is an unconscious response to trauma and other calcifications. The female body must open wide and wider but often what happens is that when the sex feels really delicious, she tightens up unconsciously and cut off or slow down the energy flow. some of closing up is due to the "good girl" programming inherited. When you consciously use your breath, make real unusual grown woman sounds and relax your face, tongue, lips, and jaw, an energetic circuit reveals the cosmos through your matter. Heaven onto earth. Permitting your body to make big sounds and experience big emotions outside the bedroom helps. You may need to approve of yourself moaning in real ways, breathing sensually, or making loud sounds and vocal tones outside sex in order to feel comfortable doing so during sex. sound helps to move and circulate higher wattages of energy throughout your female body so that you naturally begin to experience higher levels of intimacy and quality of orgasm. Permitting your body to make big sounds outside the bedroom helps like real excitement that your homemade biscuits tastes so delicious. You may need to approve of yourself moaning in real ways, breathing sensually, or making loud sounds and vocal tones outside of sex in order to feel comfortable doing so during sex. sound helps to move and circulate higher wattages of energy throughout your female body so that you naturally begin to experience higher levels of intimacy and quality of orgasm. -India Ame'ye, Author

Angela Carter, from The Lady of the House of Love in “The Bloody Chamber and Other Stories”