All This Time I Hid From The Sun. It Never Evaded Me. I Evaded It? I Denied It? It Was Always There.

all this time i hid from the sun. it never evaded me. i evaded it? i denied it? it was always there. haha. it never quite let me slip out of its grasp. the beauty of a detriment sun. once you step into the light, the light is yours. the darkness is equally yours. you come into harmony with the sun. the blending of polarities. designed to reside in the grey area.

“She was a storm. Not the kind you run from. The kind you chase.”

— r.h.sin

A cervical orgasm happens when your body profoundly softens, the inner seals unlock, and the light of the divine showers your organs with clean chi that washes away old stuck trauma. some women were born with an easier access to their cervical orgasms and their trauma is locked up in other areas of their body. But for most of us, our trauma is locked into our hips, belly, pelvis, womb, cervix, and heart/breasts, and we have to learn to let go in order to experience the full floodgates of a cervical mystery gush our entire body into alignment. A cervical orgasm can feel like you are about to die and to be honest, parts of you do, every time. For most women, the work is to de-amour and re-sensitize your body and develop trust and safety in yourself and if you have a lover, with your lover so that you can feel the depths of a benevolent thrust but your body doesn't tighten up and register it as a kind of harm or trauma. When we tense up during lovemaking, it is an unconscious response to trauma and other calcifications. The female body must open wide and wider but often what happens is that when the sex feels really delicious, she tightens up unconsciously and cut off or slow down the energy flow. some of closing up is due to the "good girl" programming inherited. When you consciously use your breath, make real unusual grown woman sounds and relax your face, tongue, lips, and jaw, an energetic circuit reveals the cosmos through your matter. Heaven onto earth. Permitting your body to make big sounds and experience big emotions outside the bedroom helps. You may need to approve of yourself moaning in real ways, breathing sensually, or making loud sounds and vocal tones outside sex in order to feel comfortable doing so during sex. sound helps to move and circulate higher wattages of energy throughout your female body so that you naturally begin to experience higher levels of intimacy and quality of orgasm. Permitting your body to make big sounds outside the bedroom helps like real excitement that your homemade biscuits tastes so delicious. You may need to approve of yourself moaning in real ways, breathing sensually, or making loud sounds and vocal tones outside of sex in order to feel comfortable doing so during sex. sound helps to move and circulate higher wattages of energy throughout your female body so that you naturally begin to experience higher levels of intimacy and quality of orgasm. -India Ame'ye, Author

7:17am. just watched the sunrise. rubbing my feet together in bed. about to eat an orange. waiting for my 10AM pole dancing class. life is worth living. there's magic in the mundane. magic is in the present moment. nowhere else. magic doesn't elude you...it's right...here. remain present. remain anchored in your body. it's right here.

true beauty consumes your entire state of being when experienced. not in the way that feelings do but in the way the ocean does as you swim into its abyss.