Isisalchemy - The Whore And The Holy One.

sex in the physical is the densest form of sacral driven energy exchange.

When Fate starts knocking on the door, in dreams and symptoms, then a ritual may evolve out of an inner demand. The sense of carrying a load that no longer needs to be carried becomes increasingly unbearable. What was, is finished; what lies ahead is unknown. Compulsive personalities do not turn energies around easily, even when they recognize that their habitual rituals have become sterile. They have immense psychic energy invested in one object or person and letting go of that, taking up a new orientation to life without substituting another false god, is no easy task. It cannot be done unless the individual recognizes that the regressive energy has become destructive and needs to be redirected into new creative outlets. Going back into the womb to annihilate the ego is one thing; going back to attend to the seeds is another. It is the difference between infantile regression and what Jung called reculer pour mieux sauter—a step back, the better to leap forward. The walk on the tightrope between compulsion and creativity is always precarious because the source of both is the same.

Marion Woodman, The Pregnant Virgin: A Process of Psychological Transformation

i'm willing to take on an identity and then burn it to the ground when it's no longer necessary OR no longer sustainable. sometimes the fear of being perceived stems from an attachment to parts of us that have resisted the necessary sacrifices associated with curated facades typically based in survival. many times we find ourselves in cycles because we resist change. we resist nature. but the BODY always keeps the score.

by the time you hear this I will have taken on another form.