jam-eaters-llc

Faithless Bacchant

boy, he/him. Hobbies include listening to you talk about your day, and doing your taxes for free.

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"There She Blows!there She Blows! A Hump Like A Snow-hill! It Is Moby Dick!"

"There she blows!—there she blows! A hump like a snow-hill! It is Moby Dick!"

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3 months ago

I don’t know why this part broke me, but this part broke me:

I think that there’s something so stubborn and childlike about it, and in the previous chapter (“the symphony”), Melville describes:

“the step-mother world, so long cruel—forbidding—now threw affectionate arms round his stubborn neck, and did seem to joyously sob over him, as if over one, that however wilful and erring, she could yet find it in her heart to save and to bless.”

And the way Starbuck speaks to him is almost like a young father to a child, not trying to reason with him but to appeal to speak to his best self; the self that retains agency and control over inexplicable desires that are so very human of us, and certainly not foreign to him:

Oh, my Captain! my Captain! noble soul! grand old heart, after all! why should any one give chase to that hated fish! Away with me! let us fly these deadly waters! let us home! Wife and child, too, are Starbuck’s—wife and child of his brotherly, sisterly, play-fellow youth; even as thine, sir, are the wife and child of thy loving, longing, paternal old age! Away! let us away!—this instant let me alter the course!

I think it is perhaps the desperate outpouring of emotion that arises precisely because this is the point of no return. This confession is not something they will have to live with, or live down.

A childish and stubborn and truthful train of thought, one I think we’ve all experienced to some extent: I want, I want, I want—without knowing how, or why.

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jam-eaters-llc

3 months ago

screenshotted tweet from Night Vale podcast @NightValeRadio. text: NATURE FACTS: Nature will kill you and then make new things from you.

screenshotted tweet from wolf pupy @wolfpupy. text: i am going to lay completely still on the forest floor until either things start going my way or i disintegrate into nothing

photo of a glowing blue-purple silhouette of a person, with flowers at the base of their neck. text to their left reads: i am not my body i am beyond this world i am vibrating energy i am more than skin and bone and internal organs i am the universe personified

drawing of an underwater sea beast with a huge gaping mouth. the beast is captioned "me".

a photo of rory gilmore from gilmore girls. she has long reddish hair pulled back with a headband and is holding a bowl full of some sort of food. subtitle: i can't. i have to study.

drawing of a boy wearing sunglasses and a backwards snapback. he is giving a thumbs up. he is surrounded by a shark, bubbles, a rocket, and some sort of robotic limb. the background is very stylised. overlay text: we are about to commit an act of hubris we may not survive.

screenshotted tumblr post from @normal-horoscopes. text: YOU WERE A MIND ENSLAVING FUNGUS WHOSE SPORES I WOULD GLADLY INHALE AGAIN NOT A DAY PASSES WHERE I FEEL THE DIVOTS IN MY SKULL FROM WHICH YOUR HYPHAE BURST AND DO NOT REMEMBER YOU FONDLY

screenshotted tumblr post by @disabilityhealth. text: Me: [ smiles politely at a stranger passing by ]
Me: Well, that was my socialization for the day.

screenshotted tumblr post by @foresthumanoid. text: disrespect the forest and i'll eat your spine

Shitty Biologist aesthetic: what do you call body horror if it seems like the person in question is genuinely pretty chill about it? body delight. body acceptance. body be not afraid

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3 months ago