Jayde-jots - Jayde Jots!

genuine tip for any tumblr newcomers: block literally whoever you want for any reason. even if you've never talked to them. they don't even need to be "problematic" or whatever. that person posting the worst takes imaginable in your favorite show's tag? block em. that person who runs a blog dedicated to a ship that makes you want to gouge your eyes out? block em. that person you've never interacted with directly but they left a comment on a post you saw and they just seem like a dick? block em.

the block button: it's free, it's easy, it's the key to a peaceful tumblrina life

Character reduced to a single gag/favorite food

maybe there's nothing to your character besides a dedicated trivia section and the fandom went wild. maybe in your short time in the spotlight you had an amazing bit but people think that's your ONLY bit. whatever happened, you are no longer a character. you are a beast suffering withdrawal for a snack in fanworks or you've interrupted a ship's kiss in the name of badly timed comic relief. your own story arc? keep dreaming.

hi. i made a uquiz

I think your art is amazing! I may not know much about 3D modeling, but what you do is amazing! You make such high-quality stuff, it's like your on a whole other level to be dealing with us plebs. You are amazing, your personality is so humble and cute, your talent and dedication is something I wish I could have, you are close to everything any artist could only dream of! You are marvelous, you are brilliant, you are incredible, you are wonderful. Don't let any words that people don't tell you get in your head, because everything you do speaks for itself, what words could you possibly say to skill and commitment such as yours that hasn't already been said before in fear of sounding like a broken record. You are a joy, you are everything great and splendid to your craft and beautiful people with hearts of gold everywhere.

I’m sick of complaining on twitter so I’m posting this here since I have barely any followers here anyway and just need to get it out but god I’m so fucking lonely I’m so alone I’m so isolated and no matter how many times I reach out I feel like nothing ever happens. I’ve been drawing and making 3D models in hopes of maybe getting peoples attention and then maybe they’d want to talk to me more but it hasn’t been working. Idk if I’m just not a good enough artist and if art just isn’t good enough to bribe people anymore. I used to give people money but I don’t have that anymore so my only option is drawings or models and I try so hard and I want people to maybe notice but they never do and I’m always left alone and wallowing in my own isolation. Im so sick of being alone im so sick of not having anyone to talk to im so sick of trying so hard to get peoples attention and nothing coming of it. I’ve been suicidal for the past few weeks and I keep trying to pump out more art and models thinking “oh maybe this time people will notice” but if they do it’s only briefly and I have to bust my ass to make something new again just to get another brief interaction. This isn’t any way to live and it’s doing horrible damage to my mental state. I’m already so unstable and it’s been so hard to consistently take my pills to help at all and I just keep spiraling more and more and I want it to stop so bad I just wish it wasn’t like this. I wish I never went crazy. I used to be so good before my mental break, I used to have so many friends and be so happy. I haven’t been the same and I never will be the same and it’s so hard to accept that because living like this is so painful and lonely and miserable and I just wish with all my heart things could go back to the way they were I wish people liked me I wish people weren’t afraid of me I wish I wasn’t alone and crazy and in so much pain I wish there was literally anything at all I could do about it

What a fun month Feb is going to be! I went to the Newport railway museum, I went to the Melbourne museum, I'm going on Puffing Billy this Sunday, and on the Sunday after I'm gonna go to the Diamond Valley Railway. The Diamond Vally was another railway I remember going to when I was younger, I remember shouting and screaming with the other kids when we went through the tunnels, I also remember the horse field they had nearby. I'm gonna go to that one and see if they also have a little workshop or museum you can visit. It's weird, I remember going to Puffing Billy and to Diamond Vally especially multiple times, it's weird to look back on these memories and only really give a care about them now. But I guess it might be a way of coping with my grans passing and a way to get closer to my pa. He apparently loves museums and all this sort of historical stuff. I'm gonna keep looking for more railway stuff, maybe see if they let pedestrians near the yard at Epping.