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What happens once you kill yourself? Because I'm ready to go.
You wanna know what happens once you kill yourself? Your mother comes home from work and finds her baby dead and she screams and runs over to you and tries to get you to wake up but you won’t and she keeps screaming and shaking you and her tears are dripping onto your face and your dad hears all the screaming and runs into the room and he can’t even speak because the child that he loved and the child that he watched grow up is gone forever and finally your little sister runs into the room to see what all the fuss is about and she sees you dead. The person she looked up to and loved. The person she bragged about to her friends, the person she wanted to be just like when she grew up, the person that made her feel safe. But she’s never really going to get to grow up and smile and laugh and love because she’ll always be consumed with this feeling of missing you. And now there’s something missing from your family and they can barely look at each other anymore because everything reminds them of you but you’re gone and hurts more than anything. and you think that your mom never cared because she was always busy and yelling at you to finish your homework and clean your room and forgot to say I love you sometimes but really, she loved you more than anything and she doesn’t leave the house anymore, she can’t even get out of bed and she’s getting thinner and thinner because it’s too hard to eat. Your father had to quit his job and he doesn’t sleep anymore, every time he closes his eyes he sees his baby dead, and the image never goes away no matter how much alcohol he drinks. And at school your best friend sees that your seat is empty and she gets this sick feeling in her stomach and that’s when she hears the announcement. You killed yourself. And suddenly she’s screaming and crying in the middle of class and no one even bothers comforting because they’re all busy sitting there staring at your empty seat with tears dripping down their cheeks and all she wants is for you to hug her and tell her it’s gonna be okay like you always did, but this time, you’re not there to do it, everything is dark now that you’re gone and her grades are slipping, she barely goes to school anymore and she ended up in hospital after taking too many pills because she wanted to see you again. the girls who used to make fun of the way you dressed feel their throats get tight, they don’t talk to each other anymore, they don’t talk to anyone, they’re all in therapy trying so hard not to blame themselves but nothing works. and your teacher who always gave you a hard time stares blankly at the wall, she quits her job a few days later. And then your boyfriend hears the news and he can’t breathe, he still calls you a lot just to hear your voice and he talks to you on facebook but you never message him back, he can’t fall in love again because every girl he meets reminds him of you, he’s never going to get over you, he loved you and he cries himself to sleep every night, hating himself and slicing his skin because he couldn’t save you and he’s never going to hold you in his arms or hear you laugh again. Now everyone who knew you, whether they were a big part of your life or someone you passed in the hallway a few times a week, they carry this aching feeling around inside them because you’re gone, and they miss you, and they don’t know why you left but it must’ve been their fault and they should’ve stopped you and they should’ve told you they loved you more and that feeling is never going to go away. And so you killed yourself
but you killed everyone else around you too.
Took me legit three hours🤦🏼♀️❤️ https://www.instagram.com/p/COxoVZbnDprYOXJPKMUtnXO89bI3--Y-1qT0PY0/?igshid=263wqtysthsj
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Beautiful - K.Bokuto
Meeting Bokuto Kotarou was one of the best things that had ever happened to her.
He had saved her from the loneliness that would befall upon her in her high school years had they not befriended each other. He approached her like a bolt from the blue, and swept her off her feet.
For him she was the breeze that relaxed him everytime her touch was blessed upon his skin. She laughed at all his silliest jokes when no one else did and cried with him on his bad days.
She was the breeze that always stayed.
He made her feel appreciated like she never had before. He made her feel his love in ways one can't possibly describe in words. He made her feel the kind of love she hadn't ever felt. The kind that kept her head in the air but feet on ground, he'd always hold her hand and pull her closer to him as if she was going to drift away the moment he let go.
He treated her as if she were a fragile butterfly.
He felt that it was okay to be his usual, loud self when he was with her. He felt this strange comfort that he had never felt before, like the feeling of an embrace around his body. And he felt utterly safe, like she wouldn't judge him even if the entire world was against him.
She was his safe haven.
He gave her his all, his efforts and his love.
Bokuto Kotarou loved Y/n L/n more than love itself.
He was his best version when she was with him, haha, maybe that's why his teammates usually urged her to come to their matches on a frequent basis.
She was like a second nature to him, a need in life, one that he couldn't live without, like the oxygen needed by a human being. He couldn't ever stand being apart from her for any longer than 10 minutes, god knows how he got through his classes without her in them.
She was thankful for the time he had spent on her, loving her, making her put down her walls for him, and staying with her throughout the three years they had spent in their high school and for the many years they would spend together in the future.
He wanted to be with her to the end of eternity. He just loved her so fucking much. And he wouldn't ever let her go.
People that surrounded the two lovers would always whisper the same thing over and over again,
"So beautiful. They are so beautiful."
Beautiful.
A belated Valentine's day oneshot.
Finally got to start my anime journal, took the whole damn day for just the cover tho😅 https://www.instagram.com/p/CNz1Kq5lnboaPt-MFfEc5b_5ctaLcuVnsCFT5U0/?igshid=60s3puvkh3hq
Fucking cute!🥺
IMAGINE IF YOU GUYS HAD A BABY!