Immediately What I Thought When I Saw This Picture Of Hyunjin. I'm Crying

Immediately what I thought when I saw this picture of hyunjin. I'm crying 😭😭

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FROZEN MARMALADE: a Christmas special. ☆before.

A/n: these drabble don't affect the plot in anyway, just here to give you some insight on things.

1st drabble; part of the MARMALADE series.

Brother's best friend jk, fuckboy jk, college student reader.

Pairings: fuck boy jk x fem reader.

MARMALADE series

You begged your brother if you could join along on the fun he was going to have with his friends at a Christmas party. And since you didn't have anything to do, all your friends had left to their families and your brother being a good brother and not wanting you to be alone on Christmas decided that it'd be okay if you joined him.

You knew that you were probably gonna meet some people you know from campus but not any you care to talk to.

So you put on your best winter party outfit you could find and grabbed your bag to meet your impatient brother in his car.

"Do you have to take so long" he asked  but you ignored him telling him..

"Just drive off"

You watch the little snowflakes fall as you and your brother wait for the traffic to clear. The little Christmas Carols coming from the radio soothing your thoughts.

"Bro are you gonna be here sooner? " you hear a loud and impatient voice speak through your Brother's speakers.

"Yeah I'll be there soon, I'm caught in traffic"

"Boooooo" you hear a second male voice speak, the music in the background blocks you from hearing their voices clearly.

Your brother chuckles.

"Hoseok have you already been drinking?" Your brother asks as the hoseok guy responds with a loud...

"YEP!"

you hear some shuffling on the call, sounds like hoseok doesn't want to move away from the phone.

"He's a light drunk" the first male voice speaks, after being able to push hoseok away.

"...how long are you gonna be?"

"Not long if the traffic moves quickly" your brother tries to move his head out the window to check for any progress. No progress at all.

"Alright be quick... we need you here" he pauses "more like hyung needs you here"

Your brother chuckles understanding as he glances at you staring out the window.

"I'm bringing my sister though" he turns back to the road and your ears perk up at the mention of you.

The person on the phone hums in acknowledgement.

"Oh okay that's fine" he says voice softening "the more the merrier"

"Get here quickly though"

-

"You're late" you watch a guy approach your brother, dark hair brushing against his forehead as he walks to you both. You do recognise him. He's one of your Brother's friends, jungkook.  How did you not recognise his voice earlier.  You've seen him before and even talked to him before, you slapyour forehead mentally for forgetting. Guess you couldn't hear over the music that was playing and now that you're here you hear the loud music and it plays sharp and clear through your ear drums.

"I know, the traffic took longer than I thought" your brother defends.

Jungkook, you're pretty sure that's his name, turns to look at you and nod his head at you.

"How Are you? " He asks and you get kinda nervous.

"I'm good thanks" he seems to have noticed your nervousness when you respond.

"Don't get shy with me like you don't know me" he tries to lighten your mood. And it's kinda worked.

"I'm not shy, it's just that I don't know anyone here" you confess, fingers playing with eachother in your sweater pocket.

"Well you know me, that should be enough " he laughs as you feel reassured by his words and warm eyes. You've never seen his smile until now, you actually haven't even paid attention to his face the way you're paying attention to it right now.

You give him a smile back. "You wanted to come so you can't complain " you hear your brother say and you roll your eyes, when did you ever complain.  You aren't even complaining. He likes to make you take responsibility of your choices, yiu understand his point of view but its getting irritating. You scoff.

Jungkook watches you as you roll your eyes and finds it amusing how he's never seen this bratty cheeky side of you. He's hasn't interacted with you enough to know you well but he never thought you'd be the cheeky type. He thinks it's quite adorable.

You hear someone, a girl, rush to your brother and pull him away.

"I'll be back" he says but you know he won't be back until you have to go home. They never come back.

"I guess it's just you and me" jungkook says turning back to you after watching your brother rush away with some girl he knows but you don't.

"Let me get you something to drink" he turns and you follow walking into a more crowded part of the party. Its a house party, those houses with a large spiral staircase and a large glowing chandelier in the center and by the look of the house you wouldn't be surprised if those were real diamonds. Who the heck owns this house? And would let some people play around in it. You definitely wouldn't but maybe that's why you don't have such a house.

Jungkook takes you to the backyard and immediately you're there you're met with a beautiful view of the sunset. The open landscape with the trees accessorised with fallen snow really fits into the Christmas holiday house aesthetic.

Some trees are decorated with Christmas lights, the ones closer to civilization. You never knew a place like this existed, so it can't be a holiday house unless its some rich man's holiday house. Music beams through every wave in the air as jungkook guides you to a seat near a fire and you reluctantly take a seat. You don't want to act like some awkward introvert, you aren't quite that but this place is kinda intimidating.

"I'll be back with your cocoa in a bit" cocoa? Are you some baby, he better be joking. You didn't come to a Christmas party filled with twenty year olds, and you being one as well, to come drink cocoa.

"Here" he says handing you a steaming cup of cocoa. You look at him for a minute to see if he's joking but he's totally serious. You take the cup and slowly take a sip as the warm steam hits your face and your once frozen nose warms up.

When you take a sip you're taken back a bit, it taste just like cocoa simple plain cocoa.  What did you want it to taste like?

You kinda hoped it was mixed with something, like a spirit, knowing the youth nowadays you'd expect that.  But it's not, it's simple plain boring old cocoa, but you won't let jungkook know that. So you put on a smile to show him your gratitude. Maybe your brother told him not to let you drink.

"Is it good?" He asks grin in show and you can't bring yourself to tell him you wanted something strong, maybe it's for the best.

Hum. "It tastes very good, thanks" you smile truly grateful he took the time to find you a place to sit and get you a drink when he probably has something else to do. Something better probably.

"Great. Cause I made it myself" he sounds proud of himself,  he definitely is. For a while people have been telling jungkook that his hot cocoa sucked and he's glad you're the first one to tell him he's cocoa tastes good. Since he's been practicing and shit, nothing serious.  Its very serious actually especially when he has to look it up on YouTube for ways to make he's cocoa fancier and pretty. In taste and appearance.

He smiles. "I appreciate it" you share a moment of silence as jungkook stares at you and you've never been so anxious to know what a man was thinking. What is he looking at, it's not a creepy stare in anyway. It's more of a I'm in a deep thought and you're what I'm looking at and I can't turn my ears away cause the thought is so good kinda stare.

You don't mind cause you've done that before but you on the other hand don't look as attractive as jungkook does when he's doing it. You probably look like a deer in head lights while jungkook looks like a star in the limelight.

"Jungkook you're needed by the bar" you here someone yell from a distance and that finally breaks him from his trance.  What was he thinking of?

Don't know. Maybe about the fact that he's glad you're the first one to try his new and improved hot cocoa and that his glad you liked it. Maybe or maybe not that's what he was thinking of.

"What's that you gave to her" a small female hand stops jungkook by the chest.  Jungkook looks at the hand already knowing who owns but she doesn't push it when he stares at the accessorised limb and then at the owner.

"Just some hot cocoa" he tries to walk away but she keeps her hand firm on his chest,  not allowing him to move. He could simply shove her away and walk past but he isn't like that.

"Can you make me some kookie" he cringes at the nickname that doesn't sound so good coming out of her mouth.

"Sure" he says not sounding so enthusiastic and just ready to be out of her presence. And so he does, he walks past her as soon possible leaving her to take in his scent as she watches you sips your cocoa in peace, watching the scenery. You're just his friend's sister she thinks to herself, it's nothing.

You place your now empty cup on the ground still stuck on your seat not planning on moving anytime soon.  Even though it wasn't what you expected,  the cocoa did make you feel warmer and more comfortable, maybe that's what jungkook was going for. Going head on with liquor isn't so good anyways.

The sweet and creamy taste really made you fall into an unknown nostalgia, reminiscing on moments you've lived in your life and your Christmas boyfriends. You honestly wouldn't mind going for another cup of it, it might just be better than alcohol.  Cause its able to do everything alcohol can do and more without the bad effects. Jungkook's little concoction, that's what you're gonna call it cause you've never tasted a hot cocoa that can make you feel so many things, maybe you're being dramatic. You're not.

"Hey" a voice speaks next to you and when you turn you see jungkook's friend from earlier...

"It's hoseok" you knew that but the assistance is appreciated. You give him a warm smile contrary to the cold air. He takes a seat next to you making himself comfortable.  He doesn't look as drunk as before.

"Why are you sitting by yourself" maybe cause you don't know anyone and your guide left you.

"Nothing just enjoying the view" by this time the sun had already set and the only view being the twinkling lights and your phone screen.

"Let me keep you some company" he nudges himself against the seat making himself even more comfortable.

"There's no ne-" You're about to protest and tell him to go have fun and not let your boring ass keep you here but he stops you.

"Don't say no. I have nothing to do and I thought I'd help you feel a little more comfortable" you nod and hum. Couldn't hurt cause you are bored of the endless scrolling on your phone.

You stay silent for a bit not knowing what conversation starter to use.

"Who owns this house?" You finally ask the burning question on your mind, hoping hoseok has the answers you're looking for.

"Yuri." He says looking at the sky filled with tiny little stars. "You must know her, you're at the same college" you've definitely heard that name and seen her around, but you haven't spotted her here. You heard her family was rich. But you never knew  she was this rich. You turn your neck admiring the place for the hundredth time. Hoseok notices and chuckles at that.

"Nice isn't it?" He also looks around at the large landscape and building.

"Very"

"Thanks to jungkook, we were able to have a party here" he informs and your ears peak at the information. "She was a little difficult but jungkook got her to warm up to it"

So jungkook's the reason for this party, not surprised but at yuri's house, how did he even get her to say yes. Bet she had to beg her parents real hard.

"Are they like-" you don't want to finish your sentence and seem nosy, so you hope hoseok is quick to catch your drift.

"Dating?" He asks if that's what you're asking and you nod.

"Jungkook says they aren't but yuri says they are" jungkook's dating. Its not confirmed.

"But to be honest.." he leans in as though about to gossip, "yuri is kinda delusional, we all know jungkook doesn't get into relationships"

He doesn't. Sigh.

"So if you want the truth believe jungkook" you nod not asking anymore questions. You're not going to believe anyone there's nothing to believe, you just wanted to know. It doesn't even matter what the truth is to you.

You go silent still unconsciously pondering on what hoseok just told you. You wish you didn't ask now you've disturbed your mood. Why do you even care.

New year's resolution

1. Learn to kind your own business.

"Are there any drinks?" Now you just wanna clear your mind. The comfort and warmth from the cocoa has now faded away and is now out of your bloodstream.

"Glad you asked" he springs up and stretches his hand out to you.

"Wanna go grab some." You nod taking his hand.

"Sure"

....

You've taken a few cups and you are feeling the hit but not too much, but enough to have you giggling at hoseok's silly jokes. You'd never laugh like this if you were sober. But you're still able to function. You haven't seen your brother seen you first entered the party.  Honestly you don't want to see him, not while you're like this.

"You shouldn't be hanging out with hoseok" Jungkook's voice speaks and you both turn to it. "You'll  get drunk" he finishes eyeing you.

"Isn't that the point" hoseok mumbles.

"Come on let's get you some water and something to eat" he say guiding by your shoulder. The main reason you're even going with him is cause you're kinda feeling hungry and really want something to eat.  Drinking alcohol on and empty stomach isn't such a good idea after all.

"Is my brother putting you up to this?" You say leaning against the counter watching him pulling something out of the fridge. Such a beautiful fridge.

"No." He doesn't say too much.

After removing the sandwich from the microwave he hands it to you.

"First a grilled cheese sandwich" you take it still a little skeptical.

"Its mine so you dont need to worry about it" He reassures as you take a bite into it. He watches your hands wrapped around it as you look down whilst taking a bite. He watches the way your lips move to chew the food, your cheeks puffing up with each movement. He thinks you look so cute right now. He shouldn't be thinking about he's friend's sister in that way but he can't help it, you're just to damn cute. But you'll never know that he's thought that.

He tries to keep his facial expressions and body language unreadable and it surely is.

"You should have some water now"

He points to the bottle of water next to you. Before you take it you can't help but wonder.

"Why are you here?" He knows what you're asking and he chuckles.

And with a straight face and a grin he speaks.

"You're my friend's sister. Don't want something bad to happen to you" your face falls, what we're you hoping he was going to say.

"There are alot of bad guys here. Don't want you to have to meet them"

If only you knew.

You smile and nodding understandingly.

Even with a sweater on the winter air seems to creep in through you one way or another and you shiver more. You feel so awkward,  you wish you never came. And the way jungkook looks at you doesn't help your mind calm down. The only time you remember feeling anything close to what you're feeling now is when your ex broke up with you on Christmas. Fuck him, on Christmas of all days. 

But why are you feeling that way cause of jungkook's words. You need to sleep this off.

2. Stay away from parties.

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