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Guess who?

An: This drabble can be turned into the proper oneshot if you or anyone else is able to guess the member that is anonymous in this drabble (comment down below). It could be a female, or male k-pop group member, it could also be a Korean soloist. Who do you think it is?

2 AN: I was supposed to do this like 3 days ago😂

"Have you ever flirted with a guy using the classic, "Do you want to go have a drink with me?"

You sat and watched your friend on live television on your favorite show. You sat on your living room floor with a couple of thick blankets, your plushies and a few snacks watching as the next question was asked in her interview. "Oh man." You responded to the question already knowing the answer.

"Oh. No, not to a guy, but to a girl yeah, I have done it before. But I don't know if that was flirting?"

"Yeah." The female host and their team chuckled to their honest answer "It's flirting."

"Oh."

You rolled your eyes, smiled, and whispered,"You knew that."

It's funny because you would think that it was because that's your bestfriend and bestfriends tell eachother everything and their stories and doodly dot and that's the reason why you knew their answer

But no, you knew because the person they were talking about was you.

That's how the two of you ended up being friends.

The interview went on and you sat and watched. "They are something else"

Guess who.

"You must've lost yo d_mn mind."

Teaser

"Babe? You serious?"

"No?"

"You serious!!?"

".....Yes."

"Look at me right now, and tell me the truth."

"Did you really?"

"...Yes baby, it's too late."

"Jackman Thomas Harlow, you must've lost yo damn mind!"

"I did."

✨Teaser ✨

These few weeks have been stress filled, tiring and and a bit empty feeling. I have writer's block and I've been trying to keep myself from falling into depression because of it. It is hard because there are many things I do behind writing (leaving my work in drafts) online, I write poems/short stories, I paint, sing, produce music, dance, and am building a foundation for my future business but with all of those things I feel blocked, I'm lacking inspiration, I'm starting to fall emotionally and mentally, because those are the things that are keeping me alive, keeping me going. I have not stopped trying, I'd be damned to let myself let go of my passions, I worked too hard to learn me, but it's really hard. So many things I love so much are just...there, they are just things to me right now, I've been unable to perform those things, those things I love so much, the way that I want; the originality the uniqueness and newness is here within me somewhere, it's just waiting for something, someone but I just don't know what it is. I know I can do these things, but I just feel blocked. I want to be able to do them and feel proud after, not like I just did something and that's it, it's not fair to me.

I just wanted to rant. Sorry if you don't care. I don't care either. Thank you💜

I don't know how these drabble things work, but I'mma try.

It'll be something where you can kinda put your input....I don't really know how to explain it but you'll see it, probably later today.

Happy next Time

Warnings: angsty angst angst, character's death, miscarriage mention, grave, grave yard, ...flowers?, arguments, depression. ʰᵃᵖᵖʸ ᵉⁿᵈⁱⁿᵍ, ˡᵃᵗᵉʳ.

"I'm done, I'm tired of you. I'm tired of being pulled into this loop hole of you not knowing what you want and you wanting more. Why are you treating me like I've never been here for you, I've always been here for you. You don't support me. You treat me like dog shit, you might as well throw me out of your house, in a shit held bag. What did I ever do for you to treat me like this? I'm not frosty, but I sure as hell can be cold. Do you really not want me here? huh? Kayla talk."

It's always the arguments in the living room that kills me inside. Was he right? Was I basically neglecting him and being ungrateful? But, but how could I when he's the one who chooses to use his brake time to spend it with his friend. I know he works hard, we both work hard. I just want someone to hold me, I'm depressed, I don't want to be left alone with the thoughts that reminds me that I'm just choosing to live. I want to be held I want to be loved. Why is he mad at me? He asked me to stop talking, and I did. Now he's mad, but for what? Because I choose to respect his request and follow it. Fuck him. Fuck all of him.

"Fuck you, Joshua. Fuck you, 홍지수. I don't want you to leave. I never wanted you to leave, that's all you've done. 'Here' for me? Fuck outta here. You were here for me when YOU needed me, Joshua. Oh and really, fuck you. You neglect ME, Hong Ji-soo. Me. I'd always tell you what I want, what I like, how I feel and so fucking on. You always forget, you always forget about me. And I'd be damnd if I ever forgotten anything about you. Why?!?! Because I fucking love you. Do you not understand that? I ask you about your well being, I try to set up dates to do the things you like, I make sure I find time to clean OUR house so that you can lay comfortably. I only have one arm, but goddamn it I figure that shit out. Yes or no?"

"..You do."

"Then why, why do you feel like I'm not supporting you when you're not even here to be supported. You weren't here through our miscarriage. We lost our babies. And you didn't get a chance to know because simply, you didn't want to hear me. You didn't let me tell you. I'm still hurt. I just, I just want to leave. I don't know where, but somewhere that'll surround me with people who really love me, and care about my life. Oh and don't fucking cry now, you don't get a chance to do that. You don't deserve to feel bad now. Fuck you, I hate this person you've become. I can't do this anymore. I don't want to."

"That was the last time we spoke"

Joshua sat at his wife's grave, flowers grew above the grass that sat above the coffin that was held beneath. They were her favorite flowers, daisies. The name she wanted to give there daughter.

"I'm sorry, Love. You didn't deserve any of that. I'll make it up to you I promise. I promise."

Joshua held his daughter, Daisy on his lap, saying one more goodbye before he made his way to Kayla's mother's house.

"Hi, Mommy" the one year old spoke. Saying her first words, but quietly. Jishua didn't catch them, but he will catch the next surprise, 3 weeks later.

To be Continued

Fav color(s): Lilac purple, Emerald green, and any shade of brown.

Currently reading (online & in hand): “I can’t take you seriously” - Jackson Wang by @kpopimaginings || The Boy who Dared Novel by Susan Campbell Bartoletti

Last song: No Love by.Lyves

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