HONESTLY I WAS JUST GONNA POST LIKE ME AND THE GIRLS WAITING FOR THE ENGLISH SUBS OF EPISODE 13 AND ALSO

HONESTLY I WAS JUST GONNA POST LIKE ME AND THE GIRLS WAITING FOR THE ENGLISH SUBS OF EPISODE 13 AND ALSO WAS SO ENTHUSIASTIC ABOUT IT BUT THE FIRST THING THAT I SAW IN THE RECENT IS A MAJOR SPOILER BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE BESTIES

Ji Sung as Kang Yohan - Eps 13 + 14

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if not edible why gaon is built like that ㅇ ㅅㅇ

OP spilled right there

we know yohan thinks of himself as a monster. he accepts his role and allows everyone to put the blame on him. he’s the devil judge, the arsonist, the murderer, the one who changes gaon, the one who destroys people around him. the abyss.

it’s easy to paint him as a monster because he doesn’t refute the allegations, he doesn’t defend himself. with elijah and nanny, perhaps he thinks it’s easier for them to hate him, to have someone to blame. and he’s used to this. since he was a child he saw himself as an outsider, never accepted by his father or his peers, abused and kept in the basement, not allowed to play with others. 

so he became a monster. he alienated himself from the humanity and his feelings, started believing he doesn’t need anyone.

and it worked until he met gaon. 

gaon is the first person who doesn’t see him as a monster (“a monster? you’re not even brave enough to face your pains”). gaon is also the only one who defends him, time after time (when he tells nanny she doesn’t want to believe that it was him who started the fire, when he tells the priest that maybe that child just wanted to play, when he immediately defends him in front of professor, when he stands between him and soohyun when she points the gun at him)

and it all makes yohan drop his pretense. because of gaon he starts to remember that he is human, that he can be vulnerable, that he is not invincible.

ep 12 was so important because we actually got to see how he changed. he apologized  to elijah for being harsh, he asked nanny if she wanted to eat with him because he didn’t want to eat alone, he tried to comfort gaon. and he let him go.

watching him is painful because he experiences all these emotions - loss, grief, regret, after so many years of pretending he is not capable of feeling anything. 

it’s a turning point for him. he needs to change even more if he wants gaon back in his life. he trained himself to be indifferent, to be an outsider, but gaon is different. he survived through other people. it’s the human connections that kept him alive and that’s why he’s holding onto them so desperately. it may seem like he and yohan live in two different worlds but gaon wants yohan in, he extendes his hand and now it’s up to yohan to take it. 

because yohan needs others too but the realization comes too late and with a lot of pain.