I Might Be Tweakin But I'm Starting To Think I Might Be Shifting Without Noticing Or Like Just Like Idk

I might be tweakin but I'm starting to think I might be shifting without noticing or like just like idk maybe I am (are you FEININ for your s/o FEININ are youuuuu FEIN FEIN FEIN FEIN FEININ I also want to catch someone in 4k but I'm scared they might find my house, knock on my door and smack me🥲...I think my face will hurt)

So lemme tell y'all about this girl in dreamland so basically like I think I missed a few parts before this like so we was in the school (wait why am I always at school like I JUST got a taste of freedom) and I think the bell ring so everybody was in the hallway now I'm not gone cap I was already bout to get irritated because it was crowded ASF but then what happened was like I started getting pushed so I was like wtf like are the people behind me pushing each other or sum so then like I like was trying not to fall because like I'm like that would be so irritating like someone just like falling on you out of nowhere and it's already crowded ASF so like the guy in front of me like was still there like I'm not gone cap I was dead ass trying not to fall on bro like I was tryna be respectful and shi so like I like put my arms up and like was trying to keep myself from falling (like my hand was on his back but like my bad if I was pushing too) so like I'm over here struggling when I see👀 someone like grabbing my hand so I was like trying to keep everybody from falling like I still had my hand up i was like wtf like why is you pushing me like i deadass thought this girl was just tryna push me down or sum so i was like wtf are you doing because like I had to take a full step back bro (like ik you not that hungry for school lunch) and she said "don't touch my boyfriend"........ BITCH DONT NOBODY WANT THAT DAMN GREMLIN so i was like what? cause girl i do not want your bf like (i would never do my s/o dirty like that) I could care less who he is but like why is you pushing me so she said some who are you like GIRL WHO TF ARE YOU you look like a tootsie pop stfu but anyways yeah cause like what?

My s/o looking at me (I scripted one of THOSE scenarios):

NO I CANT LAUGH YET I MUST HOLD IT IN🤭🤭🤭 (I saw a funny video guys)

Currently thinking about making a script where I'm white (lemme explain ok) so I just wanna know is it really that hard to not say racial slurs like I was just like hmm like is it really this hard to be normal? Like I was curious but like I think I would be able to go without saying the n word so (also I don't really wanna race change I'm just wondering like why is it like that)