Perfect Life

perfect life

◇ Don’t make promises you can’t keep.

◇ Taemin x reader

◇ gang!au

◇ ugh taemin has been ruining me lately i need to take a step back

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When Taemin knocks on your door at 3 in the morning, you know to bring your first aid kit with you. You heave open the door with effort, coming face to face with a familiar sight - your boyfriend, lip busted, eye swollen, and blood flowing from a gash in his temple and matting in his bleach blonde hair.

He still manages to smirk cheekily, leaning on the door frame tiredly, although he winces as pain rushes through his chapped lips. “Hey, sweetheart.”

Even though you’ve seen him like this what seems like millions of times, you still gasp, opening your door wider and allowing him to stumble passed you. “Oh, my God,” your eyes widen worriedly as you guide him towards the kitchen, where you had set your first aid kit before you had answered the door.

Taemin doesn’t answer, letting you grasp his wrist and lead him to a bar stool while you unpacked your first aid kit. “You always do this,” you’re ranting under your breath, picking some rubbing alcohol out and a pack of cotton balls. The anger always settles in after the initial shock and concern. “You always disappear for days and turn up beaten up and bloody. When was the last time you had even told me you loved me?”

“I love you,” Taemin murmurs, clasping your hand in his as you turn back to him and reach up to clean the cut on his temple. Sighing, you roll your eyes, allowing him to intertwine your fingers and hold your interlinked hands close to his chest. You’re not angry with him anymore - but you still refrain from cuddling up to him as you usually do to send your message to him: ‘I hate when you do this, and I’m not happy that it’s happened again.’

With your other hand, you start to dab at the cut carved into his tanned skin, staining the fluffy white cotton ball with vibrant red.

After a moment of silence, you sigh deeply, throwing a cotton ball in the bin and starting to reach for more. “What was it this time?” There have been many excuses in the past; looking at him in the wrong way, saying something that shouldn’t have been said, an enemy of his friends that he had come across and couldn’t let get away. Taemin is silent and you look up from where you’ve been gently cleaning the cut on his top lip. “Tae?”

“He said something about you,” he murmurs, avoiding your incredulous eyes and focusing on the stinging pain coming from his lip. He doesn’t know if he should look up and meet your eyes or continue to let you clean his injuries in silence, but he doesn’t have a choice as you tilt his head up gently. “He said something about you that I didn’t like.”

“You’ve always had the worst temper,” you chuckle softly, pressing a kiss to his lips so softly he wondered if you’d actually kissed him. Taemin shrugs, letting a gentle smile bloom on his face, the smile he reserved for you.

“It seems to get worse when it involves you,” he comments, allowing you to put the gauze on his temple. You bite your lip, shaking your head.

“I don’t think that’s a good thing,” you observe quietly, finally finishing up and moving away from him to start cleaning up. Taemin raises an eyebrow, slipping off the bar stool and following you over to the sink, where you’re rinsing your hands off and drying them on the tea towel you kept by the sink.

He sighs softly as he wraps his arms around your form, pulling you as close as he possibly could and burying his face in the crook of your neck, inhaling your sweet scent and unconsciously pressing kisses to your soft skin. “You know that I only do this because I love you.”

You don’t answer for another few seconds, looking down before you turn to him, allowing him to wrap his arms around your waist as you faced him. Your hands trail up and down his biceps, eventually coming up to hold onto his broad shoulders. “Someone who loved me wouldn’t leave me for days on end and return to me beaten up and bloody.”

“Come on, _____ ,” Taemin frowns, trying to meet eyes with you, though you kept avoiding his advances. “You know how much I love you. ‘To the moon and back’, remember?”

You can’t help but smile faintly at the distant memory, letting your eyes close gently and inhaling deeply. “I love you so much,” you whisper, “but it feels as if I’m loving a dead man walking. SHINee isn’t safe - it never was, and it never will be.”

You know how tied up Taemin is with SHINee, and you hate it - it was set up with 4 of his closest friends, a dangerous gang that dabbled in dangerous things. You never knew when he disappeared for 3 or 4 days if he was going to return home to you.

You can see how torn Taemin is as he utters his next words desperately. “I - I’ll leave, jagi,” he pleads, “for you, I swear. We’ll - we’ll go somewhere. Somewhere far away, and we’ll get married and start a family like we’ve always wanted. I promise.”

He’s pulling you close before you can register it, tightening his hold on you and soothingly rubbing circles into your shoulder with his thumb. He loves you, and you love him - so why is everything so difficult for the two of you?

You screw your eyes shut, feeling the cold leather of his jacket on your cheek and knowing that tears were welling up behind your eyelids. As much as you’d like to believe that having a perfect white picket fence and apple pie life was an option for you, you couldn’t and wouldn’t lie to yourself.

Don’t make promises you can’t keep.

oof♥️♥️😍😍😍😘😘😻😻😻😻😭😭😭😭💍💍💍💍

SCENTIST — LEO

My heart can’t handle this.

1 2 3…. *kiss* 😚

Got7 Mafia Reaction:

When you have a child and get into a fight with him and announce that you’re scared of him

IM Jaebum:

He thought you had gotten much more comfortable around him considering that he’s the leader of one of the biggest mafia gangs in Seoul. So when you guys got into a heated fight about him leaving in the middle of the night without waking you and telling you before leaving, you didn’t hold anything back. Screaming at him, you expressed to him how scared you still were of him and he could literally feel his heart break inside of his chest. Feeling tears in your eyes, you heard your 3 year old son call your for you inside of his bedroom. Wiping the tears from your eyes, you left Jaebum alone in the living room to help your son. A few minutes later, as you had successfully put him down to sleep once more, you found Jaebum on the couch in the living room, head in his hands and small sobs coming from him. Sitting beside him, you pulled him to you in a soft hug which he immediately returned, hugging you tighter than ever. Running your fingers through his hair to try and calm him down, you heard him softly mumble broken sentences into your shoulder.

“I’m so sorry, Y/N. I never mean to scare you. I thought...I thought you were comfortable with me and my business by now. I was such a fool to think that. I hope you can forgive me and I’ll spend the rest of my life trying to make it up to you. I love you so much. I’m so sorry.” 

Mark Tuan:

He didn’t know what to do with the information. He didn’t know how to react after you told him but just stare at you like he had just seen a ghost. The only reason the fight had started was because you felt that he was too caught up in his job to worry about you and your 4 year old daughter and frankly, you were sick of it. After telling him this and watching him go into, what could only be called, a state of shock, your daughter walks into the kitchen, teddy bear in hand, and announces she had a nightmare and was scared to go back to sleep. Seeing as you both needed a little time away from each other, you picked her up and carried her back to her room. After about half an hour, she was finally asleep again and you went to check on Mark. Walking into the kitchen, you saw him sitting on one of the stools beside the counter, staring into the distance not having noticed your presence. Swallowing harshly, you walked to him and hugged him from behind, seemingly bringing him back into reality as he grasped your small arms in his large hands. 

“I didn’t know you were still scared. I wish you had said something before tonight. I’m sorry you’re still scared and if there’s anything I can do, and I mean anything Y/n, just tell me and I’ll do it. I swear.”

Jackson Wang:

He didn’t show it, but he was crying, kicking and screaming on the inside because of your words. He didn’t think you were uncomfortable, much less scared of him. Everything he did was to protect you as well as yours and his 2 year old daughter and 3 year old son. So when you let it slip in the midst of the fight about his sketchy friends that you weren’t comfortable with coming around the house, he almost broke down right in front of you. Right before he said something, your son waddled into the room, complaining that he couldn’t sleep and that he was hungry (Yea, definitely Jackson’s son). You went to the fridge, grabbing a small cup of yogurt and a spoon and took your son back to his room. About twenty minutes later, your son was sound asleep and you were on your way back to the kitchen to throw away the cup and put the spoon in the dishwasher. When you were done, you looked for Jackson in the living room, but saw no sign of him. Deciding to look for him, you went upstairs to your shared master bedroom and heard the running water of the shower run for a few seconds then abruptly turn off. You sat on the bed as you waited for him to come out of the bathroom. A few minutes later, he appeared in the doorway of the bathroom, wearing nothing but a towel wrapped around his hips. His eyes were red and puffy and you could tell he’d been crying. Looking up when you called out his name, you saw just how much he was hurting and it broke you to realize it’s because of what you said. You instantly rushed over to him and wrapped him in a hug which he returned immediately, sobbing softly into your hair.

“I’m so sorry. I’m so sorry, Y/N. Please forgive me. I never want you to be afraid of me. I’ll do better, I swear. I won’t let this happen ever again. I love you so much. I’m so, so sorry baby.”      

Park Jinyoung:

When you told him, he didn’t feel sad. Nor angry. To be completely honest, he felt nothing. He felt numb when you told him you didn’t feel safe around him and that you were scared of him in the midst of the fight you were having. It started as a small disagreement about letting your 6 year old son become the future heir of the mafia family, then bloomed into a full on screaming battle in which you let it slip. When everything finally stopped, you heard soft footsteps walking into the living room, rubbing the the sleep from his eyes you heard the soft voice of your son asking what all the noise was. You told him it was nothing and left to put him back to bed. A few minutes after he fell back asleep, you left his room, walking to your bedroom in intent to change your clothes and sleep. However, when you reached your bedroom and steeped inside, Jinyoung was sitting on the bed, staring down at the floor. When he heard you enter the room, he looked up and met your eyes. He stood up and walked to you, wrapping you in a hug as you instantly returned it. 

“I’m sorry for scaring you. You know that’s never been my intent. All I want to do is protect you and Jehye. And if you’re not comfortable with him being heir, I respect that. I’ll pass it on to someone else in the family. I never want to scare you or make you uncomfortable. I love you too much for that.”

Choi Youngjae:

He would break down right in front of you when he heard you say it. No longer in control of his body or thoughts, his eyes would well up with tears as they slip down his face rapidly. What started the heated argument was history as neither of you remembered why you were fighting in the first place. You went to say something until you heard the baby monitor, laying on the dresser, start projecting loud cries coming from your 6 month old daughter who had just woken up in her crib. Taking it upon yourself, you rushed to the infants room and immediately took her into your arms, shushing her softly and rocking her in your arms until she finally falls asleep again. Placing her gently in her crib again, you rush out of the room and back to your shared room, finding him sitting on the edge of the bed, sobbing quietly into his hands. You immediately feel remorse and rush over to him, taking his hands away from his face and sitting in his lap, pulling him closer to you as he wraps his arms around your waist.

“I’m so sorry. I’m so sorry baby. I don’t want you to be afraid of me. Please, if there’s anything I can do to make it up to you, I will. I swear. I love you so much and I’d never want to do anything to hurt you. I’m so sorry Y/N.”  

BamBam:

As soon as you said it, he looked at you with confusion, anger and a hint of hurt. Your small disagreement about him going on a three month “business” trip turned into a huge fight where you let the little bit of information slip past your lips. He stopped in his tracks, not knowing what to say if there is anything to say. Hearing a small voice at the doorway of the living room, you look to see your 2 year old daughter waddling to you. She makes another noise as she sticks her hands up to you and says a small “up” before you take her into your arms and take one last look and BamBam before walking back to your daughters room with her in your arms. After putting her back to bed and watching her fall asleep, you snuck out of the room and walked back to the living room, finding BamBam sitting on the couch with his head in his hands. He looks up and you meet his puffy eyes before he’s getting up and walking to you. Pulling you to him, he wraps his arms around your waist and lays his head on your shoulder, whispering apologizes in your ear.

“I’m so sorry baby. I didn’t want you to ever be uncomfortable or scared of me. I’m so sorry. I never want you to be scared of me. I’ll try harder, I promise. I’ll try harder for you and our daughter. I promise.”

Kim Yugyeom:

His blood ran cold as he felt his body go numb. He couldn’t think clearly so he just stared at you, blankly. You swallowed, regretting that you let the small argument turn into a screaming fight about nothing. As if by the grace of God, your 5 year old son walks in with his teddy bear in his hand while rubbing his tired eyes, complaining about having a nightmare and couldn’t go back to sleep. You immediately went to him and picked him up, taking him up to his room and reading him a bedtime story until he eventually fell asleep again. Softly closing his door, you went back to your shared bedroom and found Yugyeom in the bathroom, looking at himself in the mirror just the way he had looked at you. Blankly. You cleared your throat, catching his attention as he looked at you through the mirror before looking down at the sink. You could feel how guilty he felt. It seemingly radiated off of him. Walking to him, you put your arms around him and hugged him from behind, resting your head on his back as he let out a shaky breath. 

“I don’t know what to do anymore, Y/N. I want to protect you and Minnie, but I can’t do that if you’re scared of me. If you’re scared of me, then what’s to say that our own son is scared of me. I don’t want you to feel scared when you’re around me. I swear I’ll never do anything to hurt you. I love you too much to do anything like that. I’m so sorry, Y/N.”

i don’t think i’ve ever heard something more true in my life😂♥️👌🏻

EXO Mafia AU: The Crew

Suho as The Leader

Lay as The Surgeon

Baekhyun as The Conman

Kai as The Seducer

Kyungsoo as The Savant

Xiumin as The Dealer

Chen as The Vanguard

Sehun as The Hacker

Chanyeol as The Arsonist

It’s been almost a year since I started this. Again I will thank @creepydyo​ for all her help. And also thank you all for all the support and patience. For now I will leave this as it is but I might go back to this after sometime, and add new pieces to the AU.