Weirdly Comforting

weirdly comforting

ways to live prologue: the list

masterlist ; smaus ; song rec

She bites down on her lip, eyes burning from the blue light of her computer screen. She’s been at it for hours now, back aching and begging for relief. Every few minutes, she indulges, straightening out, pushing her shoulders back, letting her head fall from side to side a few times. And then, she’s back again.

Anything but sleep. Anything to keep her away from her own thoughts. Stay distracted enough 24/7 so you never have the chance to think about everything that’s wrong with you. It’s how most nights go, for her.

At 10PM, it was an essay about global feminism. At 12AM, it was self-education on the downfall of communism in Albania. At 2AM, it was all about how processed sugar is slowly ruining her life and killing her. And now, it’s this.

A sad little sentence typed into her search bar: how do i stop being depressed?

She clicks on the first article she sees beneath all of the ‘help is available, here’s a hotline number in case you wanna talk to someone who doesn’t know you about your most intimate problems,’ statements that she thinks search engines are required to put in by law.

5 Self-Care Ways to Fight Depression.

And really, she knows that there’s nothing in there that she hasn’t heard before. Most people who don’t want you to be depressed anymore tell you the same handful of things and they usually are 1) impossible to achieve with depression, 2) stupid and pointless.

But maybe it’s the heaviness in her eyes or the motivational sort of tone that the anti-sugar health bloggers seem to write with, but she’s feeling sort of oddly optimistic about her chances.

She scrolls through, and makes herself a promise.

spellbound: jealous

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masterlist

-EHEHEHEHE THINGS R OCCURRING KITTENSSSS

-second ch today daddy will see y’all later 😘😘😘

-the results r in kittens… ANNOYINGLY FLIRTY INUMAKI HAS WON!

LINK TO A MASTERLIST OF HELP LINKS FOR PALESTINE, CONGO, AND SUDAN

taglist!🦂 (under the cut)

@bloombb @kasumitenbaz @basically-an-anime-stan-acct @deegausserr @slowlyholypeanut @iluv-ace @sad-darksoul @secretanimesimp @satforsatoru @bbysatoruuu @nerdiel-has-no-braincells @1l-ynn @lu-spizzeria @nymphsdomain @babydoll-143 @zellwa @k4romis @ynverse @r0ckst4rjk @chilichopsticks @ryoiii @mood-romantica @st1rvoid @pastatata @morgyyyyyyy @venusinx @lees-chaotic-brain @nishii28 @emii4evr @honeyfewr @nobody289x @afatalheat @hopeladybug @becsmarvel @bakugouswh0r3 @enigmaticnephilim @nanamiswifes @you-always-made-me-blush @everythingseasoning @jayathelostdragon @tranzumaki @saesofficialwife @delulusuga @tar0sw0rld @hexrts-anatomy @camilo-uwu @revrse @tanchosanke @ashfrommyfire @liveincans @gyuville @fushigurosdevinedogs @zamorazz @amenial 

ˋ°•*⁀➷ ·the dating plan

⤿ where you're fake dating them but they caught feelings! will you accept them?

♥︎ incl: gojo, geto, nanami, choso, toji, sukuna, yuji, megum, yuta, toge and ino

THIS WAS SO CUTE I STARTED TWEAKING

spellbound: loverboy activities

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masterlist

-i never have much to say when the chs r just fluff(?) sigh .

-would it be an axel smau if he did not complain about his hair??? no it would not so here i am complaining. straight hair save me.

LINK TO A MASTERLIST OF HELP LINKS FOR PALESTINE, CONGO, AND SUDAN

taglist!🦂 (under the cut)

@bloombb @kasumitenbaz @basically-an-anime-stan-acct @deegausserr @theholypeanut @iluv-ace @sad-darksoul @secretanimesimp @satforsatoru @bbysatoruuu @nerdiel-has-no-braincells @1l-ynn @lu-spizzeria @nymphsdomain @babydoll-143 @zellwa @k4romis @ynverse @r0ckst4rjk @chilichopsticks @ryoiii @nnnyxie @st1rvoid @pastatata @morgyyyyyyy @venusinx @lees-chaotic-brain @nishii28 @meguemii @honeyfewr @nobody289x @afatalheat @hopeladybug @becsmarvel @bakugouswh0r3 @enigmaticnephilim @nanamiswifes @you-always-made-me-blush @everythingseasoning @jayathelostdragon @tranzumaki @saesofficialwife @delulusuga @tar0sw0rld @hexrts-anatomy @camilo-uwu @revrse @tanchosanke @ashfrommyfire @liveincans @gyuville @fushigurosdevinedogs @zamorazz @amenial 

☆part sixteen: toothpaste and iodine☆

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kageyama has blood smeared on his face. it's drying up, making his skin crawl and itch. there's a throbbing in his nose and in his knuckles but he is just sitting there, unmoving, unflinching. his posture is pin-straight and his eyes are unfocused.

she's sitting directly across from him, legs folded under her on her bed as she rips an iodine wipe from its packaging. kageyama has to hold his breath as she leans forward. one of her hands takes a gentle hold on his chin, the other uses the iodine wipe to clean his wounds.

he can't feel anything but the pads of her fingertips, pressed softly against his skin.

she pulled him into her room the second she got home, ignoring her roommates and grabbing the first aid kit without a word. kageyama keeps waiting for it, the moment she opens her mouth to tell him she never wants to see him again.

and it's not that he would blame her. he did the one thing she asked him not to do. he humiliated her. whatever she wants to say to him, he figures he'll deserve. but it still has him filled with dread, it still makes his heart beat erratically in his chest. kageyama doesn't want it to be over before it even has a chance to really start.

she leans back, letting her hands drop. his face feels cleaner now, and the iodine wipe she's balling up and throwing in the trash is now a dark, rusty red. "you know, i'm not mad at you," she tells him.

kageyama stiffens. "you're not?"

"no, i mean, not really," she says with a shrug, and kageyama can just stare. "i am mad, but not really at you."

he swallows. "i don't know why i did it."

she reaches her hand out once more and cups his cheek, holding his face in her hands. kageyama slumps into her hold without thinking about it. "maybe because you care about me, and maybe it bothers you that someone would disrespect me like that."

"maybe," he says softly, and can't lift his gaze to meet hers.

a sigh makes her shoulders rise and fall as she pulls away from him. she locks the first aid kit back up and deposits it on the floor beside her bed before straightening back up. "come here," she says, and reaches her arms out towards kageyama.

and he can't help but oblige her. kageyama leans into her embrace and lets her drape her arms over his shoulders. he takes hold of her by the waist, tightly, and inches her closer to him.

"thank you for defending me," she says quietly into his ear. "i know it probably wasn't the healthiest or safest way to do it, and i probably shouldn't encourage you fighting, but i dunno. maybe i'm just biased because i think he deserved it."

"i'm sorry if i embarassed you."

he can't see her face but he knows she's rolling her eyes when she says, "shut up, you didn't embarass me."

her heart is beating rhythmically in her chest. kageyama can hear it clearly. "i'm sorry i ruined our date."

"it's okay, we can always go another time," she tells him, and the tips of her fingers are reaching up to tangle in the ends of his hair that sit at the back of his neck. goosebumps erupt over the surface of his skin. "i'm just happy to be with you right now."

“i’m sorry if i scared you.”

“stop apologizing,” she chastises. “i don’t get scared off so easily.”

his mouth feels dry. he leans back, pulling his head away so he can look her in the eye. "yn," he says.

"yeah?" she asks, and he can smell the mint from her toothpaste.

kageyama doesn't answer her with words. he tilts his chin up, and bumps his bruised nose into hers. her breathing catches, and he presses his lips into hers. and their first kiss tastes like toothpaste and iodine.

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☆part three: pathetic men☆

m. list

fun facts

the "oh my god they were roommates" gc share a 4 bedroom, yamaguchi and tsukishima share bunk beds and lie abt it

yamaguchi is the only one who cooks, yn and tsukishima can but don't, hinata and noya CANNOT

they have a chore board

an: formattings a little funky but whatever happens happens ig. im thinking abt posting daily but we'll see how that goes. should i start a taglist?? lmk !!

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