One More Thing. I Put Change Into A Lab Flask. You Always Asked Me To Get You A Ginger Ale In High School.

One more thing. I put change into a lab flask. You always asked me to get you a ginger ale in high school. All this time, I kept all the change you gave me, and put them in a nice lab flask at home.

Utsukushii Kare Ep. 6

My taste in romance has less to do with how romantic the relationship actually is (though that is a bonus) and more to do with how interesting I find the dynamic between the couple. Which is why fluffy vanilla romance usually bores the hell out of me. I want to see how these characters dramatically affect each other and fundamentally change each other and their individual understandings of the world!!! I want to see a beautiful tie-in between the romance and the themes + messages of the story and how it all builds to a climax!!!

Utsukushii Kare + text posts (1/?) - Kiyoi edition

+ EXTRA:

For @lollipopsub who all the way back in December posted “My fave part of bl tumblr atm is those text posts with screenshots and rly funny tweets etc on top but have no one made them for utsukare :o”

Consider this my way to thank you for all the amazing work you’ve done for the utsukare community online <3

Isolation and Mistyping

A question came up recently about the notion of isolation in the types.  A feeling of separateness and focus on personal uniqueness/social deviance is often attributed to types such as 4 and 5 a bit excessively.  In reality, the vast majority of people see themselves as individual and separate from others and can fixate on this in both positive and negative fashion.  9, 6, and 3 are especially inclined towards this, but for 9 it becomes at times more difficult to distinguish because of the fact that they are also part of the withdrawn triad.  This leads the majority of 9s, especially those who have faced social isolation or any form of rejection, to mistype as 4 or 5.

 9 is a type that goes back and forth between the desire for autonomy/“that place where they can just exist and be” that comes with being a withdrawn gut type and the desire to connect and align that comes with being an attachment type (which, due to how that sort of desire is interpreted culturally, is typically not recognized consciously as much).  As much as 9 in the withdrawn sense wants to be separated, unaffected, and and that option to be alone, they rarely want to be fully and truly isolated or disconnected. Part of why 9 falls asleep is because it is trying to get both of these things and the methods that they use disconnects them from reality, putting them asleep to their life. When 9s do get into the position where they are consistently rejected or actually isolated, they do tend to fixate on it and are often really not super happy with that because there is an unconscious desire to have some form of connection in the attachment sense.  9 doesn’t constantly want to deal with the resistance that that causes or loose the access to the things they want that comes with having that isolation, so they can really fixate on that feeling of isolation and segregation from society when it happens.  There can in general focus on areas where they are segregated from that they want access to.  And they can align with the segregated image as well, kind of like the concept of the cp6 does where it seems to be pushing away or taking pride in that segregation.  They can even be consciously very prideful of this.  But that alignment is still very 9, attachment, and common among 9s in isolated positions

5 and 4 are a bit different in that there’s this arrogance instead.  4, regardless of whether or not it actually has anything irl that is pushing it away or genuine isolation specifically is trying to be segregated.  There’s the “oh woe is me” that comes with the 4 that may whine about being misunderstood, but their whole self conception is shrouded in that they are deep and inaccessible and that the external is at fault for being too shallow.  4 takes a certain pride in being disturbing or off-skew and even when they are not will push to be or to find depth in a world that seemingly doesn’t have it.  Don’t get me wrong, 4s probably seek connection as well in a fantastical sense but it’s with like depth or an abstracted landscape of people who give them or connect them with depth. 5 thinks people are not capable of seeing and investigating what they can, problems isolation would come from that.  They are autonomy seeking and reject influence of any kind.  The 5 sentiment when yearning for connection is this desire to be understood, this desire for others to see and to be aware and to have that mutual understanding if anything.  They are not looking to connect or be part of things and automatically view themselves as separate and uninfluenced so it’s less of a fixation, more of a “why aren’t they seeing that?”

knmf utena 🫡

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