Why My Kids Will Not Go To School.

Why my kids will not go to school.

Today In drama class my friends, teacher and I were talking about kids and how many we wanted and what we wanted to name then. I then told my teacher that I was not going to put my kids in school. My friend asked “do you plan on homeschooling them and I replied back with “no” this continued to confuse my friends but my teacher nodded and asked me what I meant by saying that my kids were not going to go to school so I explained to them what I meant. 

I told them that there were way to many things to explore and discover out in the world then be stuck in a classroom for six hours learning things that they will forget after a booklet of papers stapled together to determine their fate at the end of the term was written on and passed in never to be seen again. 

I told them that my children were going to travel the world and learn things that they would never read sitting at a desk or hear listening to a teacher talk at the front of a classroom for an hour. 

My friend then asked “Well what about reading and writing?” 

I told her that yes I would obviously teach them how to read and write and count money and add and subtract and how to tell time. 

They will learn their directions by reading a compass and navigating by the stars that they have looked up at every night and not just said “Oh those are pretty.” They will call them by their names and know what star burns the brightest of them all. They will learn to count money not only in Canadian coins but in other currencies also. How many times have we been taught that in math class?

They will be taught to write about their adventures they take and the people they meet and they will learn to read books about the wilderness and they will read about the different cultures before we stop at our destinations. 

“They won’t have any friends!” One of my friends exclaimed.

Yes, they will…

They will have more friends than any of the kids at school can count because they will have friends all around the world. 

“They won’t get to see them!” 

Just because you don’t see your friends doesn’t mean you don’t have them. 

“Well what about the government?” 

What about them?

“It’s the law that your children have to go to school.” 

They are learning, they are learning more than they will ever learn cooped up in a classroom of 30 kids with one teacher who is barley able to keep everyone quiet let alone be able to have one on one time with their students. 

“What if people tell you your a bad parent?” 

there will always be people judging people in the world. While they sit there judging me their kids are sitting in a classroom for six hours, 7 days a week. 10 months a year for 12 years…

I will be spending time traveling and teaching my kids the true meaning of living.

Happiness. 

Can we talk about psych wards for a sec?

Can we talk about how they’re not padded cells and straight jackets like in the movies? That they’re not full of people screaming? That they’re not this cold gray hell? Wanna know what it’s really like?

It’s wearing PJs all day and nobody giving a fuck about what you look like. It’s encouraging your new friends to get better, that they’re life is worth living and that they’re valued. It’s making friends in a day or two. It’s realizing you’ve got more in common with people than you thought. It’s watching stupid movies when the staff decides we can have a little bit of movie time that night before lights out. Talking in group, not about the scary, soulless monsters in our heads but talking about how to conquer them. We laugh. We joke. We draw and play with playdoh. Celebrate when the cafeteria sends muffins with breakfast instead of gross hospital eggs or boring cereal. The mixed feelings when someone leaves because you’ll miss them but we all hug good bye and wish them luck because they’re okay. They’re okay now. We’ll miss them but dear god you’re so proud when you get to see someone walk out with their bag of belongings and their family. We remember what it’s like to live. Sure we meet with doctors and one on one therapists and discuss safety plans, but it’s not a scary thing. Let me tell you this, when I spent 5 days in a ward summer of 2016 I was terrified. I got there and went straight to my room once they assigned me a place, made my bed with the blankets provided, got a book from the Game Room and hid under the covers and read. I think I still was wearing my hospital issued socks. I knew nothing about my roommates, only their names from the notecards above the door. When they came in for lights out they smiled and introduced themselves and asked why I was here. They saw my shocked face because I didn’t expect anyone to ask me “what’s your story?” Just didn’t see it coming. They told me theirs so I told mine. I became friends with everyone else there. They were all so sweet. Probably not what you’d expect to hear about a bunch of suicidal, depressed, anxious, bipolar, etc. kids but hey, we’re not our fucking illnesses. We all went through hell and we all walked out again, maybe with scars and bad memories, but we came out strong.

We’re just kids. We complained about the food and made each other cheesy motivational posters for their rooms when they got discharged. We painted each other’s nails and reminded everyone of their strengths. We talked about what we’d do once we were home, the unanimous decision was to shower and finally shave our legs since there were no razors allowed on our ward, and eat some real food and go on Tumblr or Instagram or something.

We’re just kids. Honestly, we’re like you. If you find out someone spent time doing inpatient stuff because of their mental illness, don’t you dare judge them for it. Don’t think they’re crazy or psycho. That’s not what we are. What we are are kids who needed to go away for a bit and escape the world in a safe environment. Where people got it. Where they understood. Where we couldn’t hurt ourselves and got a fighting chance to recover.

Destroy the stigma around inpatient treatment. Change the mindset surrounding mental illness.

Keep fighting folks

Fuyumi: *humming happily as she makes dinner*

Endeavour: What are you so happy about?

Fuyumi: *smiles* Because tomorrow is Christmas!

Endeavour: *frowns* Christmas comes every year, and I have never seen you this excited about it.

Fuyumi: This year is special though. Shoto bought us all presents!

Endeavour:

Endeavour: All of us as in...?

Fuyumi: *huffs* Yes, he bought one for you too.

Endeavour: *suddenly excited* Really?! Are you certain?

Fuyumi: *shrugs* I saw him wrap 3 boxes, so it's safe to assume he got you something as well-

Endeavour: *stands up from the table and rushes down the hall*

Fuyumi: *startled* W-Where are you going?

Endeavour: *runs into his room* To bed so Christmas will come faster!

Fuyumi:

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*Christmas Day*

Natsuo: *wearing an elf hat* Merry Christmas!

Fuyumi: *bringing in a tray of hot coco* Merry Christmas!

Endeavour: *trying not to bounce up and down excitedly* Merry Christmas.

Todoroki: *gets up and grabs 3 boxes from under the tree*

Todoroki: *hands one to Natsuo* For nii-san.

Natsuo: *grins and ruffles his hair* Thanks, Sho!

Todoroki: *hands one to Fuyumi* For you, nee-san.

Fuyumi: *smiles* Thank you, Shoto.

Todoroki: *nods* *looks over at Endeavour before turning away and sitting on the couch*

Endeavour: *frowns* What about the last gift?

Todoroki: *blinks slowly* ...This is for my father.

Endeavour: *excited* Oh, Shoto! I'm so ha-!

*ding dong*

Fuyumi: Oh! He's here! *gets up to open the door*

Aizawa: *walks through the door* Merry Christmas.

Endeavour: *crosses his arms* What are you doing here-?

Todoroki: *gets up and hands Aizawa the last box* Merry Christmas, father.

Endeavour: *jaw drops* W...WHAT?!

Aizawa: *pats his head* Thank you, Shoto. *reaches into his jacket and pulls out 4 small boxes* I have gifts for you three as well.

Todoroki: *takes his with a small smile* Thank you.

Natsuo: *takes his and gives Aizawa a hug* Thanks, pops!

Fuyumi: *smiles* Thank you, father!

Endeavour:

Endeavour: Why are there four boxes-?

*door suddenly opens*

Dabi: *casually walks in and grabs a cup of coco* Merry Christmas. Am I late?

Aizawa: *hands him the last box* Just on time actually. Now that you're all here, let's go back home to celebrate.

Natsuo: *jumps up* Hell yeah! It was so boring over here! Let's go! *rushes out the door*

Fuyumi: *grabs her coat* Did you need help cooking dinner?

Aizawa: *shakes head* Hizashi helped me with it. He's excited to finally meet you all. *looks to Todoroki* Are you ready?

Todoroki: *searching behind the tree* Almost. I have one more gift to give. *pulls out a box*

Endeavour: *perks up hopefully* Is...Is that for...?

Todoroki: *nods*

Endeavour: *excited*

Todoroki: *turns and hands it to Dabi* Merry Christmas, nii-san.

Dabi: *ruffles his hair* Thanks, kid. *slings an arm over his shoulder* Now let's go celebrate.

Aizawa: *turns to Endeavour* Oh, I almost forgot. I stopped by the hospital. Rei wanted me to give you this.

Aizawa: *hands him a small box* Have a good Christmas, Endeavour. *closes the door behind him*

Endeavour:

Endeavour: *looks down at the small box*

Endeavour: *slowly and oh so carefully unwraps it*

Endeavour: *turns the box over*

*a small piece of coal falls into his hand*

Endeavour:

Endeavour:

What is depression like

Depression is like an uninvited guest at a dinner party you didn’t want to be at anyways.

It is disruptive and loud and takes all of the attention away from everything else.

It pushes you around and brings up events from years ago that you would rather have forgotten about.

It is frustrating and annoying to everyone else, but all you can do is ignore it. Hope it goes away. Maybe even pretend it’s not there for a while.

But you can’t do that forever.

Depression is like a crashing wave while you’re still in the water.

You weren’t prepared for it. It came out of no where and now that’s all you can see.

Your mouth is still open and you swallow it down. You choke. You begin to drown.

It is terrifying.

Depression is like being on anesthetic but you’re still awake.

You can’t feel anything. You can’t move for hours. Days. Weeks…

It takes over your whole body and for a while you don’t really care

All you are is tired.

But you’re not allowed to sleep. You just lie awake, unable to do anything but watch in horror as everything you know and love falls apart.

Depression is like a million alarms going off at once.

It is a warning. It’s all you can hear but nobody seems to notice, they’re used to it by now.

The noise consumes you. It eats you alive. You beg for it to stop, but it never does.

Until one day you can’t fight it anymore.

You sink. Like an anchor, you sink to the bottom and you don’t make your way back up again.

You feel as if you can never recover. You feel like an empty shell of the person you used to be.

You are left more broken then ever before, the kind of broken that isn’t quite fixable.

And it’s all because of depression.

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If the bottle is picked up, and the bottle is shaken even just a little - in about 30 seconds or less it builds up enough gas which then explodes with enough force to remove some your extremities. The liquid that comes out is boiling hot as well. Don’t pick up any plastic bottles that may be lying in your yards or in the gutter, etc. Pay attention to this. A plastic bottle with a cap. A little Drano. A little water. A small piece of foil. Disturb it by moving it; and BOOM!! No fingers left and other serious effects to your face, eyes, etc. Please ensure that everyone that may not have email access are also informed of this. 

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