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goddammit i thought I was fine but I'm not

I haven't been missing J-hope and Jin and Suga that much, maybe because the others were here, and I was so focused on the fact that we're getting a lot of content they prepared and Jin will be back soon

I saw the last OT4 live and I was fine, I saw the OT7 pics and was fine, I read Namjoon's letter and was fine

and the JK's live broke me

because I got the notification, and I felt that little thrill, and then I realised it's the last one. And he was so quiet, and it was short, and final

And I think it's because I'm scared it's the last one. Not until 2025, but ever. I guess I'm scared that our best friend Jungkookie, who comes live for hours on end and sings us songs and makes dinner and does laundry and falls asleep, isn't coming back. J-hope is apparently much more serious already. What if Namjoon becomes less gentle, Jimin less soft, Taehyung less innocent. What if the military hurts them.

People are focused, rightly, on getting them back in 2025. But they won't be the same. We won't be, either. I already mourn for the BTS we had in chapter one. Now I mourn for the members as they were pre-enlistment, but I'm also scared for me. Who will I be when they come back?

As always, what it comes back to is the same. Loss is the only certainty, and it sneaks up on you.

You can't take a picture of this, it's already gone.

a jin a day while he is away ♥

day 359

about me

hi everyone! i'm sydney.

- 18

- she/her

- i am a nursing student in the US, i hope to work in the pediatric oncology field.

- i've been stanning the boys for about 6 years now.

- when i'm not online or studying, i work as a barista.

my messages are always open! feel free to talk me, anonymously or not (:

taking requests

dni: racist, homophobic, transphobic, solo stan, minor, basic dni stuff.

his hair is so beautiful my goodness

stop this madness

what do you want from me ?? AH WHAT DO YOU WANT??? PLEASE

Today is Giving Tuesday! Please take time today to donate/volunteer/campaign/do something good!!!!

Here are some organisations you should consider donating to:

Palestine Children Relief Fund

Medical Aid Palestine

Action Against Hunger (DRC)

Sudanese American Physicians Association

Darfur Women Action Group (Sudan)

Mashpee Wampanoag Tribe

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Even if you can’t give anything monetary please please do something to help those in need today!!

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