M4ah - Mari

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i hate it so much

Thats the most relatable post ever.

God will really look at eldest daughters and think. Hmm. Your mother is going to be the cruellest woman you will ever have the misfortune of meeting. She will also be emotionally manipulative and so so hard to love. Unfortunately you will love her anyway because you see in her all that you could be one day. You will peek into her past and see the same weapons on her that hurt she hurt you with. You will want to run away from her every day. You will not survive a day without her. You will want to kill her sometimes. The mere thought of her dying will make it impossible for you to breathe. You will savour the way her mean words dig their fingers into the warm crevices of your heart because you're so so scared of the day she calls you down for dinner one last time. You will love her more than any man and she would leave you like she leaves them. This is your fate. It will kill you one day. You will never have it any other way. Accept your fate. Don't resist. Don't refuse. Don't argue. Calm down. Be a lady. Come down, dinner's ready.

(About sleeping) Jirou: “But I still haven’t slept enough At the very least I want to have 12 hours of sleep…“

lol Jirou is my adult self’s spirit animal. Those of you who need only 4-6 hours of sleep are weird ok bye