U Said In Ur Post U Didn't Get A Sincere Answer, Did U Mean Answer To What Physical Magical Girls Are?

u said in ur post u didn't get a sincere answer, did u mean answer to what physical magical girls are? i can try explaining if you felt their explanation didn't help, if you're okay with that /genuine

Thank you for the message! ☆

Yes, I was referring to what it means when folks say that physical magical girls have been able to manifest transforming physically and what that actually entails besides the process of getting there (i.e. working with the Laws of Assumption and Attraction). If you feel like you have something to share along those lines, I think people would love to hear it. I know I’d certainly be interested!

While I did get some more background on the community from the subsequent posts, it didn’t really elucidate what I was originally asking about. I’m not sure how a genuine question got interpreted as a dig on anyone or their practice but if people saw it that way, I sincerely apologize. My only intention here is to document my processes and learn more about what others are doing.

What got you into the pursuit of practicing magia?

For me, I think it was love.

Not a romantic love or a love for a specific person (though I was surely experiencing that as well), but a deep, sad love for the world and those that inhabit it. Through my mahō shōjo work I’ve come to be able to hold and make space that gut-wrenching sadness and aching love for the world while also actively putting energy towards a brighter, softer future.

My first intentional spells were focused on healing and taking physical and emotional pain away from others, often redirecting it to myself. I know now that that kind of self-sacrifice for magic is unnecessary and often counterproductive but I remember feeling so strongly that my existence was only good for relieving the discomfort of others and I became obsessed with that notion for a long time. This kind of magical thinking put me in a dark place, especially in middle and high school, and often made me susceptible to abuse. Even now I sometimes catch myself starting to think along those lines and have to work to not let it overwhelm me.

I think this is why CLAMP’s works and Puella Magi Madoka Magica struck such a chord with me in particular. Many of these characters similarly felt overcome with immense feelings of deep, and sometimes painful, love and struggled with fears of inadequacy which pushed them towards self-sacrifice or even martyrdom. That being said, I also see in them profound hope and optimism for a better world, which is something I always seek to emulate in my magia.

I was probably away from Tumblr long enough to miss a lot of the alterhuman/therian discourse that has been circulating. To be fair, discussions around ‘otherkin’ were just peaking in popularity around the time I abandoned my old account (not for any reason besides being busy with other things and it was mainly used for creative reference anyway).

While I personally do not use any of those labels to identify myself nor do I feel compelled to thoroughly define myself in that way, perhaps I always figured everyone had experiences that triggered very specific emotions and bodily memories that were not quite describable by ‘normal’ means. Then again, I similarly felt for a long time that everyone wondered what it would be like to be a different gender or that everyone dealt with executive dysfunction to some degree—only to come to the realization years later that it was surely not the case.

But these feelings of ‘otherness’ within the self is part of what I was alluding to in my manifesto when I say that ‘We are fragmented and multifaceted’. Of course each of us is allowed to explore diverse interests and aesthetics but it’s more than that: within each of us is a series of refractions of experiences and emotions like if life was light filtered through a gem or placed in front of funhouse mirrors. It can be beautiful and terrifying and lonely to be confronted with disparate feelings or memories and contradictions within ourselves.

I am consistently so proud and thankful for my cards and how they share their power. I love how genuine and caring each entity is and how willing they are to offer advice, even to new friends. That’s not to say they aren’t mischievous and can even be dangerous at times if summoned incorrectly. (I have a story of how a combination of cards inadvertently brought several well-established magicians to their knees, but that’s perhaps for another time.)

For context, this is my personal deck that I created several years back drawing inspiration from the various decks Sakura Kinomoto wielded throughout Cardcaptor Sakura and Cardcaptor Sakura: Clear Card and applied attributes from those cards to a system I have been helping my partner develop. While I also own a facsimile deck of Sakura Cards, I find my personal deck to be much more honest and in tune with the intentions of each entity.

I generally only do readings for myself (with this particular deck or by utilizing other methods) but I am involved with a small community of practitioners and we occasionally do readings for each other. Last night I received an amazingly quick and auspicious geomancy reading from my partner and I had the opportunity to read for one of my friends. I wasn’t provided a question to tailor my responses to so I used one of my ‘avatars of divination’ (read: magicaly charged fortune telling toy) for the novelty of a ‘yes’, ‘no’, or ‘inconclusive’ response before doing a single card pull. For my friend, Watery, the Agent of Process made themselves known. She is one of four reflections of the self, or the querent, present in my deck. While they have the ability to be tempestuous and destructive, she is arguably most powerful when fully cooperative. She offered that people would be more willing to open up and work with my friend if they were gentle and understanding. Apparently this, in addition to the ‘inconclusive’ response from the chosen avatar, was just what my friend needed to hear. (It was great hearing that another friend, who was privy to the situation, agreed with this sentiment!)

This is all to say that I love my cards. I love their gentle natures when they are called upon earnestly and I love them when they surprise me with their great power.