Currently On My 6th Rewatch And The Love That I Have For Elementary (Sherlock) Is Truly Unparalleled.

Currently on my 6th rewatch and the love that I have for elementary (Sherlock) is truly unparalleled. Everything else falls pale in comparison

I should give Elementary more credit for changing my brain chemistry when I was 16;

I mean, how could I not after hearing:

Sherlock- “If you must know, Watson… I've been feeling a little bit down of late.

It's the process of maintaining my sobriety. It's repetitive. And it's relentless. And above all, it's tedious. When I left rehab, I… I accepted your influence. I committed to my recovery.

And now… two years in… I found myself asking, is this it? My sobriety is simply a grind. It's just this leaky faucet which requires constant maintenance. And in return, offers only… not to drip.”

Joan- “You have your work. You have me. You're alive.”

Sherlock- “I've told myself that many times. So many times that it has become unmoored from all meaning.

Odd.

I, uh… I used to imagine that a relapse would be the climax to some grand drama. Now I think that if I were to use drugs again, it would in fact be an anticlimax. It would be a surrender to the incessant drip, drip, drip of existence.”

and

Sherlock- “You said you'd had two serious relationships in the past. It might surprise you to learn that puts you at least one, and arguably two, ahead of me. I had one great romance in my life.

One would be hard-pressed

to call her a girlfriend.

And even harder pressed to call

that relationship a success. I never felt the need beyond that. Part of the reason for that is that relationships are hard for me. You sensed that I was making an extra effort to make things work with you. 

In that, you were correct.

But you presumed that that was because you're different.

It is not.

It is because I'm different.

And because you are the rare woman

I have come across for whom I believe

that extra effort is worthwhile. So whatever the future holds, whether we see each other again or not, I wanted you to know.”

And

Sherlock- “Look… I've never felt any pressure from you that I co-parent. But your idea that I take no responsibility in raising your child is naive. It's not that I think you're not capable of raising a child on your own– of course you are-- but... short of us dissolving our partnership, I'm not capable of not being involved.

N-Not as the child's father, but as its mother's friend. I mean, I'd lay down my life for you. So, if you succeed in adopting a child, I'll lay down my life for him or her. It's... it's as simple as that.”

And of course:

Sherlock- “I wanted to thank you for everything you've done for me over the last six years.”

(......)

Sherlock- “I was dying when we first met. I mean, I looked well enough. Just got out of rehab and all that. Thought that I knew everything, but I didn't. I didn't realize how much....how much work I would have to put in and how much time it would take. But most of all, I, I didn't realize that things could get better. And that I could actually be...yes, I was dying. And no one could see it but you. You saved my life, Joan.”

Joan- “We're partners.”

Sherlock- “No. We're much better than that. We're two people that love each other. We always have been.”

no one answered my last post so i guess i have to do everything myself, buckle up for some fleabag analysis.

when fleabag says “this is a love story” in season 2 episode 1, the love story is between her and claire. listen i love the hot priest as much as anyone else, but to me the most compelling arc of s2 is the sisters rebuilding, redefining, and strengthening their relationship instead of leaning into growing apart the way we’ve seen them default to doing.

when we meet them in season 1, they’re civil and clearly see each other fairly often, but they aren’t close. we only see a few conversations that don’t end in a fight. they both clearly care, but they seem incapable of interacting without accidentally pushing each other’s worst buttons. there are several pivotal points where we see them turn away from each other, whether because of other people or their own conflicting needs, insecurities, and personalities

-after their mother’s death, claire had martin and fleabag had boo. these separate support systems combined with the family dynamic their father described, wherein fleabag very much takes after and was closer to their mother, meant they almost certainly grieved separately. as we see at the funeral, grief clearly looked very different on each of them, and they did not react well to each other’s coping styles

-their father’s new relationship clearly drove a wedge between him and the girls, and while the godmother needles at both of them, she clearly targets fleabag more often (almost certainly reacting to her resemblance to her mother), only occasionally sniping at claire. as a result of this and her determination to view her own family (and marriage) in a positive light, claire maintains a level of denial about their godmother, leaving fleabag to deal with it alone

-after boo’s death claire almost certainly reached out, but the distance between them and their clashing coping styles would’ve mixed VERY badly with fleabag’s guilt over her role in the tragedy. if claire’s after what you did to boo jab at the sexhibition (almost certainly fueled by martin referencing it while telling “his side of the story” re his infidelity to claire) is anything to go by, definitely martin and possibly claire were judgemental about it, and even if it wasn’t to fleabag’s face, she would have felt it, real or imagined.

-after the incident with martin, claire again retreats to her denial and determination to be a successful person (happy marriage included), and leans into judging fleabag alongside the rest of the family, deliberately choosing to ignore the signs of crisis she has demonstrated she can see in fleabag, probably in no small part because all of her attempts to do anything or help in any way or even reach out have somehow been exactly the wrong thing to say to her “broken sister”

because it’s not that we never see them reach out to one another. there are frequent moments where one or the other tries to bridge the gap. but there’s always a defense mechanism or insecurity (or husband) in the way of the other’s ability to accept that olive branch. they both feel they’ve repeatedly tried only to be rebuffed by the other.

but in the second season, they’ve spent some time in total radio silence from one another. it has explicitly canonically been over a year since they’ve seen each other or spoken. given the space to not constantly be rubbing against each other’s raw insecurities and grief, as well as the extenuating (WILD) circumstances of the s2e1 dinner in particular, they’re finally in a position to reconnect.

by the end of season 2 they still aren’t perfect. but they’re able to have a vulnerable conversation and accept help and advice from one another and feel like they’re on the same team, quite possibly for the first time since their mother got sick. 

we’ve gone from claire sniping at fleabag to keep her nose out of other people’s marriages to refusing to let fleabag leave the room while she confronts her husband. we go from fleabag flinching away from a clearly rare hug in s1e1 to

“is it a running through the airport kind of love?”

“….the only person i’d run through an airport for is you”

Honestly if I could get the entire script of fleabag tattooed on me i would

on the day of fleabag's mother's funeral, fleabag looks uncharacteristically gorgeous. no matter what she does, she looks stunning; her hair falls in a chic way, and she's glowing without the use of makeup. this is perceived as an issue by fleabag, boo, and claire, because fleabag is never perfect. but for claire, being perfect is a given. when fleabag sends a compliment her way, she accepts it with no question. people expect claire to be beautifully perfect at all times, even at her own mother's funeral. fleabag, on the other hand, is never held to this high of a standard to an almost insulting degree, so when she looks good, it's a spectacle. claire can be perfect and ignored while fleabag cannot, because perfection is the anthesis of her character, whereas claire is the poster child for it.

Wanna word vomit so bad fr😔😔😔