I'm So Sorry To Disappoint Everyone Like This Again But...

I'm so sorry to disappoint everyone like this again but...

I've been thinking about it and I need to go under another hiatus. I usually go away for a while without any warning, mostly because whenever that happens means that my "social battery" and "internet life battery" have drained out. When it's just one of those I feel like I can recharge faster, therefore I'm able to come back fast too. However, the mix of both creates a state in which I can't do anything at all for (sometimes) months.

But that's not the case right now. I can tell that I still want to interact (even if I never know how) so the "battery" thing isn't the problem here.

I don't even know how to explain it so to sum it all up I'll just say "health". Both mental and non-mental, mostly the second. I'm not okay, basically. I've never been one to take her own health seriously, so these are just the side effects of neglecting myself. I've been waking up the past few days thinking that I'll feel better, but it doesn't happen.

It's really frustrating because I felt the motivation to do something for the first time in months (the cookie run series) and it doesn't usually happen. I even started to write some things, one of them was supposed to be posted on my main blog a few days ago, but couldn't get myself to. As I always confirm, whenever I've been feeling okay for longer than I should or something good happens to me, something bad comes and disturbs my peace.

I'm not really the most active person here, I'm not well known like other blogs at all either, but I felt the need to make this post using the little energy that I have. I'll try as hard as I can to be away from this app (because I'll just feel worse if I see I can't get myself to do anything), but I might check DMs from time to time, I can't promise to reply though.

If you've reached this, thank you for reading, I hope I can see you all soon.

my deepest condolences to moonbin’s family, friends and fans. may his soul rest in peace 🤍

please check on your loved ones no matter how happy and okay they may seem. my dms are always open if anyone needs someone to talk to. everyone deserves to have someone. please take care of yourselves. you are loved. you're never alone, no matter how much it seems. you are so important and you're here for a reason. be kind and gentle to yourself, today, tomorrow, and everyday after that. 🤍

cw grief, loss

to any arohas who may read this

i do not at all wish to invade this deeply painful moment or preach at you to tell you how to feel. i do not think it is possible to fully comprehend the degree and breadth of someone else’s hurt and i would never claim to understand what you are going through in this moment. but if i may, i wanted to offer a few thoughts.

i hope you allow yourself to feel whatever it is you may feel in this moment.

i hope you find the space and time to grieve as you need to today, tomorrow, and in the future. there is not a time limit to grief.

i hope you can find the people around you and in your community that you can lean on.

and when there is a moment- breathe deeply into your lungs, open a window, drink water, eat food, hold your pet, whatever grounds you.

no one person’s experience of tragedy is going to be identical to another’s. be mindful and look out for each other.

and more than anything, i am so immensely sorry for your loss.

❥ [DKB] Their makeup is done by their crush (Maknae line)

(This mini moodboard is made by me; I don’t own any of the pics.)

• Members: Lune, Junseo, Yuku, Harry-June

• Group: DKB

• Warning

• Synopsis: You wanted to practice your makeup skills and decided to ask him to be your model. Little did you know, you're actually his crush!

[Note: I have zero knowledge about makeup, some things will probably make no sense at all, sorry about that] Hyung line version soon!

Lune

So... This looked like an easy task at first.

You thought Seongmin would be the type of person to be completely quiet during a makeup session, trying to make everything as easy as possible in order to be done fast.

And he actually is. He doesn't like to be alone for a long time with someone he doesn't know. He would rather be with his chaotic friends running around while he's getting his makeup done.

The thing is, Seongmin knows you... but wish he wouldn't.

He was screaming inside when you asked him, so you didn't know wether he accepted or not.

He just sat down on the nearest chair and waited for you to start pulling the brushes and makeup from your bag.

Honestly? His knees felt so weak when you suddenly approached him with a smile, that he thought he would immediately fall to the floor (and he doesn't want to look more pathetic in front of you, no)

He's so quiet that you're actually wondering if you've ever heard his voice before and how did it sound like. (I guess it sounds like angels singing behind the gates of heaven??)

Okay so... He's spacing out. A lot. He's not even blinking.

You stopped midway and slowly leant towards him, trying to verify if he was a real human or a statue (a really charming one, I must say) but you jumped back because he actually looked back at you.

Now he's confused about why you did that. Let his brain refresh, please. He just got back from dancing to Sober with the aliens in Mars.

He has just remembered what he was doing. His cheeks are suddenly making you wonder if you actually did put blush on them already.

wait WAIT

I DON'T THINK HE'S ACTUALLY BREATHING, IS HE??? 😰

You'll never know, but he's convinced he's able to comunicate through telepathy with the other members... He's desperately calling them for help at this very moment. Jokes on him, Harry is guarding the room on the other side of the door, trying really hard to hold his laugh.

He's sweating, I repeat, HE'S SWEATING. IS THIS MAN OKAY?? 😥

You left him for a brief moment (worried like the mom of a little kid with fever) to go get a mini fan but... Where's Seongmin?

(Fun not so fun fact, he has ran away and is now hiding somewhere)

Junseo

You didn't know what to expect with this guy at all.

All you knew is that he would be a great model (I mean, just look at him and that precious face 🥰)

He told you to ask someone else because he thinks it won't look good on him :(

You held his hand and softly squeezed it before you made him follow you to the practice room.

He was still confused about why you wanted HIM to be your model when there are 8 more members who (according to him) are way prettier than him. He sat on the floor, however, patiently waiting until you sat in front of him with your makeup bag.

"Why are you always hiding behind that hat?" you took off the bucket hat that you were so used to see him wearing, "It's called fashion" (he said it trying to look cool, but failed miserably)

"Have I ever seen your forehead before...?" you gently brushed the hair off his face, but it all came back after you blinked, which made you suspect that he put it back that way, "I guess that not being able to see is called fashion too?"

You stood up and he wondered if you were mad at him :'(

Luckily for him, you were just looking for your backpack :')

You came back with a cute brown kitty headband, making him give you a weird look because he knew what was coming next.

Cute lion Junseo!

"Do I really have to wear this?" (while pointing at his head) "Yup" "Okay"

You started to hum unconciously to Tell me Tell me playing in the background, which made him smile brightly 🥺💕 (he got you smiling back!)

Junseo soon acknowledged that it was a safe zone, making his shoulders finally drop after being so tense for the past minutes.

He slowly began to tell you random facts and stuff he read around the internet yesterday, he looked so stupidly cute while showing you his "nerd" side 😔❤️

He was really happy to hear you talking back!

Some people had showed signs of being annoyed with that little habit in the past, some of them straight up telling him to shut up :(

You don't really understand half of the things he's talking about, but none of you seem to care 😌

If only you had known sooner this would make you hear a lot of his cute giggles, you'd actually have done it a long time ago 💔

Your heart melts when he looks up to you with those pretty eyes and that gaze full of love and adoration.

He wishes he could stop time right there and then, feeling your warm breath on his face and your hand carefully placed on his chin.

You wonder what's going on inside his head after he gives you the sweetest smile you've ever seen, with his eyes almost disappearing.

Perfect timing, you have finished!

You cup his face with your hands and gently rub your thumbs on his cheeks, admiring both Junseo and your work, with a proud smile.

"We shouldn't let this go to waste, pack your things and let's go out!"

"Like... as in a date? 😳"

"Yeah, sure, I just want to show off my amazing model 😏"

Yuku

...he started to jump around the place a few seconds after you asked him, like a little puppy who's aware you're preparing everything to go out for a walk.

You're a little nervous but it looks like there was nothing to worry about after all!

Plus, he looks so cute right now 🥺 (not that he didn't before, though. He's just too cute too handle)

He told you he would play one of his "happy" playlists, filled with lots of bright and cute songs (Expect Dun Dun Dance and Smiley to come out of the speakers any time soon!)

It was funny to see him try to be all serious and still when you tapped the sponge across his face, so different from his usual self.

He started to make weird faces when you began to use a brush, "Y/N, it tickles" (you swore you felt your heart laugh along with him after hearing his voice)

You couldn't help but tickle his whole face with the brush, making him laugh so loud that the music started to fade in the background

And, honestly? That sound will always be better than any song anyway (no offense, Yuku, your playlist is amazing)

Him being all smiley and giggly didn't really help because he was making you laugh too (I guess we can call it "the Yuku effect"?)

He was singing from time to time and you tried to join him whenever you knew the lyrics, and if you didn't, you just vibed to his beautiful voice.

He looked at you with shiny eyes when you started to put lipstick on him, the sun rays coming through the window and laying on him as if he was recharging for his next move.

And, just like that, he gave you a sweet peck on the lips, after which he fell from the chair, laughing nervously while covering his face with his hands.

You slowly turned your head towards the little sunshine, still laughing on the floor, looking like a Sim awkwardly waiting for instructions.

He leaned on his elbow and tried to apologize, but your face made it funnier somehow, making him fall back again while wiping the tears in his eyes.

Coco Colada has just started playing in the background, making him stand up and dance automatically.

Heechan has been attracted by the music and is now dancing like a fool with Yuku.

Harry-June

He looked like a lost puppy when you asked him about it, but eventually accepted when Dongil reassured him saying that it would be a win-win.

He looked at him with wide eyes after that, though. You didn't know what was wrong but didn't ask either.

You actually thought it would be way harder to get him into doing his makeup, but, hey, he seems chill with it, doesn't he? 🙂

Oh well. He isn't, in fact, chill with this situation AT ALL.

This poor baby is actually shaking :(

He's even sitting down while looking at the floor :'(

You crouched and looked up at him, making his eyes go wide again and his cheeks turn a soft shade of pink.

You asked him if everything was okay, with the sweetest voice and smile EVER.

OMG THAT MADE HIS HEART BEAT SO F*CKING FASTER.

He always thinks that he can't like you more than he already does, but, somehow, you always manage to prove him wrong!

You tried to do everything as gentle and soft as possible, as if you were painting a delicate doll made of glass that could break at any given time.

He tried so hard to not be caught looking at you, thinking that he would look like a weirdo or something :(

But, he had been given the chance to admire you from closer than he usually does. He wasn't looking at you from the other side of the school halls, you were right in front of him and smiled a few times already.

He wasn't seeing things this time, you actually smiled at him today!

His eyes were closed because you were putting some eyeshadow on him, but the image of you smiling flashed through his mind.

When you turned around to pick up something else from the table, he started to cough because HE CHOKED WITH HIS OWN SALIVA.

It's been a few minutes since he fully recovered but the warmth on his cheeks won't leave, I guess there's no need to put any actual blush on him!

"And... Done! We should take a photo, don't you think?"

He stuttered after that, not really knowing what to say nor do, but still put his face a little bit closer to yours when you stood next to him.

You picked up your phone, pressed the camera button, and thought he looked nothing like he actually should.

Worried that he would feel bad after seeing it, you made a second attempt, in which he appeared blinking.

"Well... I don't know if this will mess up with the foundation or something but, sorry in advance!"

He looked at you confused while you put the timer, but you signed at him to look at the camera instead.

3, 2, 1... you left a little kiss on his cheek, making his eyes go wide.

Dongil comes back with a playful expression on his face, his eyes going back and forth between Harry and you.

You try to look as innocent as you can, while Harry is still trying to process what has just happened.

"Ah... I guess this has been a succesful mission after all... Good job, Y/N!", Dongil is giving you a thumbs up, making you shy for the first time today... Does he know what just happened?

Fun fact pt. 2: Dongil has been looking through the glass door of the practice room, hiding himself as much as he could and feeling so proud of his little brother!

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someone in a discord I'm in said something along the same lines, and I wholeheartedly agree.

the saddest thing about this is that moonbin will just become another statistic. in a few months or years, people are going to forget this. then another celebrity goes through the same thing and the cycle repeats. changes need to be made NOW—not just for the safety of idols and performers and actors and celebrities, but for everyone.

mental health shouldn't be such a taboo topic.