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you came back wrong and i am racked with guilt because i cannot bear to see you like this and i should have let you rest. i loved you so much that i defied death itself but i do not think either of us are happy

chips ride home

saw a post that said "do you guys think our grandpa and mayor Lewis explored eachothers bodies" and before I could process that tumble crashed leaving me staring at my phone screen in disbelief

jesus no

i am thinking about if,, if chip loses himself completely,, gillion doing another oath of vengeance type thing where his grief manifests as rage

except the problem is Who does he exact revenge on? they've already killed the person who killed chip, and his loss of himself has no one to blame,, so gillion has nowhere to direct the rage, no direction, no purpose,, and the grief consumes him.

he becomes feral, inconsolable, and furious. he becomes what he thinks he should have been, what he believes would have saved chip if he hadn't been so selfish - he becomes little more than a weapon to direct. you point, his teeth and claws and blade follow.

there is not much of gillion left, just the Champion, because the Champion wouldn't have let chip die, wouldn't have let him be lost, would have gotten there faster, would have been better.

so maybe, oath of vengeance is a bit of a misnomer. maybe it would be better to say he swore an oath of atonement.

(sometimes, when the battle is over, and all is quiet, you can see gillion slip out just a little bit. if its late at night, and you listen real close, you can just make out quiet sobbing from the captains quarters)