[warnings: Swearing!!! Angst Anddd Fluffy Comfort (?) At Th End]

[warnings: swearing!!! angst anddd fluffy comfort (?) at th end]

(a/n: this is something new I’m trying so please let me know if you like this style or not!!)

[21:09] “it’s not fair... you know?” you had called out to kageyama as he left. It had been after a rough day when he came home storming up to you in angry manner...all because you had missed a volleyball game.

one fucking single volleyball game. it was one game.

“you never fucking listen, you never show up to my important events that I have or even know about anything I love to do! yet I do show up to your games! I do know all the important dates and know about everything you love...show why is ME missing out ONE GAME so...so...BAD?!” you scream out to him, blood drawing from the fresh crescent moon cuts on your hands from your fingers. your chest rose and fell rapidly as if you had just ran a marathon.

how could he make you the bad guy? what have you ever done to him...what was the point in the relationship anymore?

he didn’t seem to acknowledge you but you could tel by how stiff his whole body got suddenly. kageyama just couldn’t understand why you can’t support him, why couldn’t you be there? you had nothing important going on so there was nothing stopping you.

“kageyama tobio...if-f you walk out that door...we’re done. I’m so tired kageyama of this and you know we aren’t good for each other...” you sobbed as you collapsed to your knees as the door slammed shut and the sound of footsteps becoming further away was your answer.

he had done it...he had left you now...after everything?! after all the moments spent together...after everything you’ve both been through he finally decides to leave,” you thought bitterly as you cry your heart out, yes you had told him that the relationship would be finished but you didn’t think he would actually.

“baka...” you don’t seem to hear the door reopening until kageyama speaks. he brings you into his arms in an attempt to comfort you despite how bad he is at that aspect. “i would never leave you...i’m sorry-y...”

he buried his face in your hair as you curl up towards him and he can feel you shaking, it’s not fair of him actually it was so horrible of him to do that. “it’s not fair of me actually it was completely unacceptable of me to do that to you because you’re right. I never listen to you at all neither do I treasure you, respect or appreciate you for EVERYTHING you’ve done! you shouldn’t accept me or forgive me but you do you always do. I’m so so sorry.” his response only made you cry harder to the point where you felt dizzy. he was so right.

it took you around forty five minutes for you to calm down, the sobs brought to little sniffs and hiccups. thankfully, your head had calmed down from all the racing thoughts allowing you to think. “okay...okay...one more chance just one more..”

“that’s all I need that’s all I need,” he breathes gently kissing the top of your head as he brings you closer. it was going to be okay...no he was going to be better than before but you as well will try to communicate more often.

[18:34] you felt nauseous as the scenery around you swirling as you cried beside the boy who had been with you since you were little; naruto.

“no! naruto! naruto!! please don’t leave me!!” you sobbed as your voice cracked.... why him?! he didn’t deserve this not at all...naruto...everyone...all gone. the world seemed so dull and empty as you heaved and gagged.

“fucking madara...why us? why...just why?!” you didn’t notice the darkness or how you were falling in an abyss too deep in your grief. the ground went from destroyed terrain to wood, the empty world turned to chatter that stopped once you landed on your sigh roughly.

you look up with your kunai at hand not that it would do much before recognising the faces. it had you frozen. they were dead not alive. is this a hallucination? have you finally lost it? it got you laughing hysterically at yourself before ‘shikamaru’ was kneeling next to you cautiously.

the world was a blur as your vision darkened and your body wavered forward, warm hands catching you and holding you carefully.

“screw you madara and your fucking genjutsu,” was what you had said before slumping forward passed out.

soo I’ve been trying out this type of layout for my writing!! I’ll be posting it later on so please tell me what you think of it!!

im not dead, i promise but im unmotivated and i just can’t think of anything to post or have any ideas.

im sorry

faustus: 🔪 💀

Spellmans: why you so obsessed with me boy I got know

faustus: 👁 👄 👁

(ahhhhh!! have a draft and just realised I spelt his name wrong hahah)

I’m so so sorry about the lack of updates I’ve just had no ideas to post and I’m not really liking my writing at the moment...again! I’m so so sorry