A+ Classmate

A+ Classmate

Geto x Fem Reader x Virgin Gojo

Warnings: 18+. Noncon. Dubcon. Loss of Virginity. Cunnilingus. Coercion. Unprotected Sex. Creampie. Dacryphilia. Cheating. Tit Job. Double Penetration (one hole). Fingering. Multiple Orgasms. Nipple/breast play. Spit. Cumming swallowing. Name calling (slut, toy, etc).

Wc: 4.6k | JJK Masterlist | Main Masterlist

You can feel Satoru's eyes burning a hole in the side of your head as you look down at his piece of paper on the desk, your pencil tapping against the edge of the table while you once more look over everyone's work. He doesn't try hiding it, doing it all afternoon as your group works on finishing the last details of the presentation you will be presenting at the end of the week, his eyes only looking away from you to glance at Suguru, telepathically speaking to him. 

Looking up and handing him back his paper, a few notes scribbled along the edge, interrupting their most recent silent conversation, "Just go through the notes, and everything should be good." 

He looks up at you, his Adam's apple bobbing up and down, eyes widened as if he had been caught doing something inappropriate. Satoru takes the paper from you, long fingers skimming over yours, "Thanks." 

You turn away, reaching for the paper Shoko is handing over to you, her face still turned to the screen of her computer as she makes the slides, ignoring Satoru's gaze. Setting the paper in front, you decide to say something as you start skimming over it, "If you want to say something say it, please, instead of burning holes into the side of my skull."

Satoru is taken aback by the tone of your voice, sitting up straighter in his spot, clearing the back of his throat, "Sorry, I didn't mean to stare." 

You don't look up at him, scribbling a note at the end of Shoko's paper and handing it back to her, "Okay. Finish that so we can go home." 

A buzzing sounds across from you, Shoko looks away from her screen to pick up her phone. She starts typing on it while the rest of you continue working, the clicking sound throughout your bedroom. She suddenly breaks the silence that had resettled over the room, gathering her things, "I have to go, but I'll send you the slides later tonight when I get back," she tells you standing up and heading to your bedroom door. She bids her farewell to the two men seated on opposite sides of you, "Bye guys, I'll see you later."

You sigh, returning to work on your own half of the work, silently typing on your computer, noting that Suguru is no longer working on his half, his concentration on Satoru. You watch as they mouth words to each other, clearing your throat before speaking again, "If neither of you is going to work, you can leave. Or you can just ask me whatever it is you're curious about since it's obvious whatever your silently talking about is me."

They both fall silent, Suguru shrugging his shoulders at Satoru, getting up a second later, and pulling a cigarette from his pocket as he heads towards the window. "You ask her," he mutters as he lights it and leans out.

Satoru avoids looking at you, swallowing and scratching the back of his head, now that it's you looking at him. He nervously speaks, which is out of place for him, "Well you see, we heard you're going out with Sukuna...and we just wanted to know if it's true."

You blink a couple of times, turning back to work, responding without care, "It is. But that's really non-"

"Why?" He interrupts, the words spewing out of his mouth without regard for what he's actually saying, "I mean I know you're a girl, but you're not exactly his type. Have you seen what type of girls he hooks up with? You certainly don't fit the type."

"What's that supposed to mean?"

"That you're a...you know...prude."

You stare at him, clenching your fists at your side, "I'll have you know Sukuna was the one that approached me."

"Probably on a bet."

"Even if was a bet he's stuck around hasn't he?" You throw back, anger coursing through your body. 

You expect him to say something back, but when you look back at him his looking at you quizzically, head tilting from side to side. He leans closer to the table, breathing out, "Let me see what's got him hooked."

"What? No!" You exclaim, laughing thinking his joking

Satoru stalks towards you on his hands and knees, "Come on, we just want to see what all the fuss is about."

"Stop, 'Toru," you warn, slowly moving away from him, your hair standing up as he approaches you.

But Satoru doesn't stop, he keeps taunting you while slowly cornering you in your bedroom, "I have you and he had sex? I mean it can't be that great, yet you have Sukuna wrapped around your little finger. Did you just spread your legs open for him the first time? He doesn't seem like the type to wait." He looks up at you watching as your face becomes flustered, your eyes avoiding him. "Fuck, I didn't think you were that type of girl, y/n. If I hadn't overheard you and the other girls talking, I'd think you were a virgin. Kinda hard to imagine you spreading your legs for anyone when your nose is always stuck in a book. Much less for Sukuna." He grunts, crawling closer to you, tongue licking his lips, "If you spread them for him, you can spread them for us, right? We've known you longer, it's only fair."

The edge of your bed hits your back, Satoru still crawling towards you, his hand resting near your foot, predatory gaze looking up at you, tongue running over his lower lip. Your heart is thumping rapidly against your ribcage when he grabs onto both your ankles, slowly moving them up your calves while speaking, "Just a taste. Want to know what has Sukuna hanging onto your every word." His hand hook under your knees, sliding down the back of your thighs as you try to get away from his touch, your legs spreading apart as he forces his way between them. 

You look at Suguru with your frightened eyes, scared that Satoru is no longer playing around, nervously chuckling, "Sugu tell him to stop. This isn't funny anymore."

Suguru moves from his spot near the window, killing the cigarette he had been smoking on the trim, looking at you with the same hungry look as Satoru. "Sorry, doll." He grunts, coming next to the two of you, hooking his arm beneath your armpit and raising you onto the bed, stealing you from Satoru's hold. He makes himself comfortable behind you, pressing a few open-mouthed kisses to your neck, whispering in your ear as his fingers trace the column of it, "But I'm just as curious as him." 

His chest is pressed against your back, warm breath fanning over your neck and ears. Satoru moves to the edge of the bed where your feet are, choosing to press a few kisses along your ankles and legs, his blue eyes watching as you try to squirm away from both of them, your waterline teary, "Please, stop. If you stop now, I'll pretend none of this happened."

Suguru clicks his tongue, hands coming down to your thighs to spread them apart again, making room for Satoru to climb into the bed between them, who doesn't stop pressing kisses to your thighs. "I don't think you understand what situation you're in right now, y/n." He lets go of you for a second, hand waving around your bedroom room, "You're alone, with two men, in the middle of the day, in your bedroom." 

You stop to look around the bedroom, vision blurred by the tears falling down your face. He was right, all of your roommates were either at work or school. Not all that, you had soundproofed your room when you first moved in, after finding out that a few of your roommates were early birds. A fact that Suguru made sure to emphasize as his hand groped whatever part of you it could. 

Suguru cups your cheek, forcing you to look at him, smiling as he notices the tears streaming down your face, "So tell me, y/n, are we doing this the easy way, or do you need more convincing?" 

The tears burn the corners of your eyes as you nod, relaxing your legs, showing them that you weren't going to try and keep them from doing whatever they were thinking. "Okay. I'll do whatever you want," you hiccup, looking down at Satoru go smiles at you like a child you just got candy. 

"Good girl," Suguru praises, licking the shell of your ear, "Now first is Satoru, he's been thinking about this since we saw you leave Sukuna's apartment two weeks ago, so it's only fair. Now be the good girl that you are and keep your legs open wide for him, 'kay" Nodding you spread your legs open until there's enough room for Satoru to climb up and his warm breath to fan over your cunt. You pull your skirt up to your waist, holding it in place as Satoru stares at the wet patch forming on your white underwear. Behind you Suguru whistles, moving the hair at the nape of your neck out of the way so he can nip and bite there, "Look at that, didn't even have to tell you to do that. You really are a really good girl. Sukuna's a very lucky man."

All you can do is whine in response, Satoru's tongue licking one sling stripe along your slit up to your clit through your underwear. He repeats the same thing three times, making sure to run his tongue over the wet patch faintly tasting you on the material, before deciding to push them to the side. His long fingers spread your labia, blue eyes fixated on your clenching hole. He mumbles something under his breath that you can't hear before prodding at your entrance with a finger. He doesn't stick the entire thing in, but experimentally curls it upwards, heart thrumming in his chest when you needly move forward and push more in you. His eyes widen when he feels your warm walls clenching around it, muttering "It's so warm."

Suguru laughs behind you, his hands coming under your shirt, "You know, Satoru's never actually seen a pussy before." Now it's your turn for your eyes to widen, looking back at Suguru, questioning if you heard right. "Yeah, he talks all big and shit, but your pretty little cunt is the first pussy he has ever seen."

It all slowly starts to click in your head, the staring, the curious prodding with his finger, the hesitant kisses on your legs. "He's a virgin," you whisper, turning back to look at Satoru, his head still shoved between your legs, tongue drawing circles around your clit before his lips wrap around it. 

He sucks on the bud with enthusiasm, pulling back with it between his teeth before letting it go with a soft pop. His head dips back down to your clenching hole with his tongue, his lips moving as if he were kissing your mouth. The sound of your slick and his lips sound throughout the room, your body writhing between them as his head moves between your thighs, his nose bumping against your clit.

You can barely keep your eyes open as Satoru's tongue messily laps at your cunt, thighs trembling around his head, Suguru's hands kneading your breasts between his fingers. You can feel Satoru humming every time he licks back up to your clit, your body arching into his mouth when he slides a finger next to his mouth, Suguru's skilled fingers tweaking your nipples. There's a small gasp escaping your lips as pleasure replaces the fear and embarrassment from earlier.

Your feel your body warming up, thighs trembling around Satoru's head, and the corner of your eyes no longer stinging from tears. You can feel the familiar sensation of a knot forming in your belly, twisting into itself with every swipe and pinch. The front of your head is starting to feel light, your face burning as your orgasm gets built up by the two men. You gasp for air, your body shaking in its hold, your lungs struggling to keep the air flowing. Your hand reaches down to pull roughly on Satoru's hair, making him groan into your pussy, trying to provide a break from his eagerness, but he's much stronger than you. Too high off of your taste to be stopped, and he just pushes your legs up toward your body, tongue still moving against you and a second finger joining the first. 

"Guys," you huff, " too m-much." 

Satoru doesn't seem to hear you, but Suguru just laughs behind you, the sound making your thighs clench around Satoru's head. "If you cum on his tongue he might stop, but like I said he's been waiting for this so he isn't going to stop until you cum," he mutters, his warm breath in your ear making you shiver and seek solace from the uncomfortable burning in between your legs as your being pulled towards the edge of your release. 

You shift against Suguru, Satoru chasing after you, his hard-on pressing against your back, your head resting on his shoulder the cedar scent of his cologne invading your sense of smell as your body moves against Satoru's tongue, desperate for the knot in the pit of your belly to come undone. 

"Look at you basically riding his face like a little slut. Are you going to cum soon?" Suguru laughs, leaning back against the wall, dark eyes watching as your face twists in pleasure, "I guess the pretty face and sounds your making is why Sukuna's kept you as his toy for as long as he has. I know I would've kept you close, too."

You can barely hear him over the ringing in your ears, warmth spreading from the tip of your toes up to the crown of your head. The three of you realize what's happening too late, your legs clasping around Satoru's head, and your back arching Suguru's chest, sliding down his body. "Oh my god, oh god," you chant, eyes squeezing shut and body trembling. Satoru's tongue doesn't stop moving against you, his hands pushing your legs further apart as he tries to get even closer to your quivering body, taking everything you give him.

Above you, Suguru moves his hands along your sides and stomach, smiling as he watches you tremble on the bed and your orgasm wash over you in waves, "Such a pretty sight."

Satoru's tongue is still languidly lapping at your cunt as the last ripples of your climax course through your body. Small whiny hums vibrate from the back of your throat from the sensitivity, and you wriggle away from his lips, sitting up and successfully pushing him off when you press your foot on his shoulder. He pouts up at you, chin coated in your juices, making a show of licking his lips. His fingers still hold onto the back of your thighs kneading the fat. 

Behind you Suguru moves his hands to the hem of your shirt, pulling it and your bra up to release your breasts. His thumb flicking over one of the nipples, "Feel good," he breathes, lips ghosting over your jaw.

You clear your throat, struggling to bring air into your lungs, and croak, "Y-yeah." 

"Good, 'cause it's my turn, but I think I want to try these pretty tits," he tells you, pulling the nipple between his fingers, and laughing when you yelp. 

You don't complain when he moves out from behind you, pulling your shirt and bra fully off of you, and lays beside you, open-mouthed pressed to your exposed collarbone. He toys with the nipples, pinching and pulling as he kisses down to the valley between your breasts, tongue licking the skin. You don't complain when he takes one of your tits into his mouth and pulls the nipple between his teeth before letting go, only whining when he does it again on the other more harshly, teeth digging into the sensitive bud. 

You're doing everything they ask. Giving them a taste of what Sukuna gets to do to you when you meet up with him. Everything would end once Suguru was done messing with your breast. At least that's what you tell yourself until you hear the clicking of a belt and clothes being shuffled. 

Looking down, around Suguru's head who's blocking your view of the end of the bed, you see Satoru standing up. His pants are being tossed at the end of your bed, large hand wrapped around his hardened cock, stroking himself, the head flushed pink and swollen. He kneels on the bed, spreading your legs open again with one hand. 

"W-what are you doing?" you ask, panic rising in your chest when he pushes your knees up towards your body, "You didn't say anything about going this far." You try to push Suguru away, and maybe put an end to this before things went any further. 

But he's stronger and heavier than you, one arm wrapping underneath you and the other keeping you open for Satoru, who's drooling as he presses his flushed head to your clit, he lets go of your perked bud with a pop. Resting his head on your chest he frowns up at you, "Yeah, but we also didn't say we wouldn't go this far. Are you really going to leave him like that? Look at how hard he is for you, he's practically cumming already," you look up at Satoru, his cock running along your slicked folds, "He's going to think his virgin dick isn't good enough for you. Are you really going to hurt his feelings like that, y/n?"

You chew on your bottom lip as you watch Satoru's cheeks turn red, his length sliding between your lower lips, the head bumping against your clit. With his hand he guides himself down, the head catching your entrance. You whine as the tip pushes in and out quickly. Satoru is in awe by the brief warmth of your walls around it that he does it again, pushing the entire head in this time, his head thrown back as he pulls out and pushes back in. He keeps doing it as you make up your mind, pleasure shooting up your spine every time he does, Suguru's lips wrapping back around your nipple. Looking up at Satoru, watching as sweat travels down his temples and his mouth opened in a small 'o' small whimpers escaping, you don't think you've ever been blessed with such a sight. Giving in, you reach between your bodies, spreading your lips apart for him and relaxing your legs, "Okay, but you can't cum inside."

Satoru looks down at you like a puppy wagging its tail as a treat is held in front of them, already pushing more of himself into your heart, "Really?" You nod your head, hissing as he starts to stretch you.

At the same time, Suguru's lips curl up against your chest, nipping at the bud, before pulling back and praising you, "Good girl." He slides off the bed, pulling his shirt over his head and sweats down, revealing that he hadn't been wearing underwear. His eyes watch as Satoru bottoms out inside of you, mumbling incoherently. He walks up beside him, slapping his back, before crawling up the bed, "How's your first pussy, 'Toru?" 

Shallowly thrusting, your walls squeezing around him, Satoru stutters, sounding out of breath, "A-amazing. Are all pussies this wet and warm? Are they all this tight?" 

Suguru laughs at him, not answering as he moves towards you. He swings one leg over your torso, thumbs rubbing your nipples, and his dick settling between them. "Stick your tongue out," he demands, spitting a glob of spit between the valley of your breasts before pushing them together. You do as he says, your body starting to slide against the sheets as Satoru finds a steady pace, his whimpers and moans filling up the room. "You look pretty like this. A dick between these pretty tits, and your tongue sticking out, waiting for a big cock to fill your mouth," Suguru groans, moving his hips, his dick sliding between your boobs. The head of his cock touches your tongue for a second before he slides back, causing it to disappear from your eyesight. It reappears a second later, the tip touching your lips this time as it slides on your tongue. A sly smile spreads across his face when he sees you wrinkle your nose at the salty tastes of his pre-cum, but you don't close your mouth and look up at him with doe eyes. 

Satoru doesn't seem to be happy at the lack of attention his receiving and he pushes the back of your thighs up to your stomach, your knees making contact with Suguru's back, his dick now kissing your g-spot. A moan sounds at the back of your throat as he keeps brushing against the spot, his rhythm increasing as he chases his high. It's clear that he isn't worried about your pleasure, his hips smacking against yours as he keeps your legs spread, making your head bob up and down in sync with Suguru's thrusts.

You can feel Satoru's thighs trembling, his pace starting to falter, and his whines growing higher. above you, Suguru doesn't seem to be doing much better. Thin eyebrows pinched together while he watches his length slide between your breast and his pre-cum coat your tongue and lips. Reaching down you rub your clit, your walls spasming around Satoru's cock as he brushes against your soft, slowly building your orgasm. 

Satoru's the first to cum, his brain failing to catch up with what is happening and warm spurts of semen coating your walls before he manages to pull out and finish cumming on your navel. He lets out strangled moans, mumbling "I'm sorry's" as he coats your lower half in the rest of his cum. But the way he's looking at the cum he did spill into you, he discovers that his apologies are empty. And if could look at you he would see the same dopey smile Suguru is staring at you feel his warm seed pour out of you. 

"Fuck," He mutters, letting go of your breasts, and wrapping his hand around his cock, stroking himself over your chest. Suguru's head is tossed back as he releases on your breasts, white warm liquid spraying across your chest. He peers down at you, hand still rubbing up and down his length, and sliding up further up the bed to pull your head up, "Open your mouth more." 

Your hands come up to grab onto his thighs, sticking your tongue out more, "Aaah." He pushes the tip in, spurts of salty cum filling the inside of your mouth, making you grimace. 

When he finishes he pulls out, sitting back on you, forcing your mouth to close and swallow his cum. Smirking as he watches you make a face. He doesn't move off after you swallow, his chest rising up and down, looking down at you as he feels your legs rub against each other behind him. Suguru glances behind him, his eyes falling on Satoru whose head is pressed on the edge of the bed, eyes falling closed. "You tired?" he asks him, moving off your chest and pulling you to the end of the bed and picking you up, hooking an arm beneath your ass before laying on his back in the mess of juices on the sheets. 

Satoru barely glances up, mumbling his answer, "A little. Why?"

"Thought we could share," Suguru answers, spreading your lower lips apart, making you whine and wither in his on top.

Perking up, Satoru moves onto the bed, licking his bottom lip as he looks at your spread hole, trailing off as he asks, "You mean we both..."

Suguru reaches between the two of you, running the tip of his length along your folds before pushing the tip in, "Yeah, we both use her pretty little pussy at the same time. She's wet enough, so it shouldn't hurt too much."

You shake your head against Suguru's shoulder, feeling Satoru move up behind you, his cock bobbing against your ass, pleading with both of them, "Two is too much." 

But your plea goes unheard as Satoru speaks over you, his hand wrapping around himself, "Can we both really fit in her pussy?"

Suguru nods, pressing a kiss to your temple, spreading you open more, "Yeah, we just have to be a little careful, but we can both fit."

Satoru groans behind you, "Okay...I think I go one more round." He lines the head of his cock next to Suguru's, his hand resting on your as and rubbing circles as they both start to push in.  

You wiggle between them, pain shooting up your back as they both start to stretch your cunt to its limit. Panic starts to form throughout your body. How are you going to fit both of them in one hole when you already felt so full with just their tips?

You claw the sheets up Suguru's head shaking your head, tears forming on the edges of your eyes, "Sugu it's too much, I can't your both too big."

Suguru smiles up at you, swiping his thumb on your cheek and wiping away a tear, ignoring your begging, "You look so pretty when you cry." 

They both bottom out, Satoru's pelvis pushed against your ass, large hand splayed on your hips. Suguru's arms wrapped around your waist as they both start to move in and out of your spasming walls. More tears start to slide down your cheeks as your insides burn from the stretch, neither allowing you enough time to accommodate both of them. Suguru seems to get off to the tears that fall on his chin, his hand squeezing between your bodies to rub your clit while Satoru kisses the back of your neck.

With Suguru's skilled fingers stimulating your clit, the pain turns into pleasure, your hips moving back to meet theirs. Satoru moans in your ear, hips faltering as the knot in his stomach tighten with every thrust, feeling his dick slide along Suguru's, their heads bumping against one another in your warmth. 

"She feels so much higher," he whimpers in your ear, "I think about to cum."

Planting his feet on the ground, Suguru thrust up into you, his hold around you tightening. "Think you can let us come inside you this time, princess?" He tries, "I saw the dumb look you made earlier when Satoru came inside you. I know you want us to." He pushes your hair from your face, smiling as he watches you nod dumbly, your brain slipping in and out as you're pushed to the edge of your limit, your body buzzing from the sensation of his fingers and the two cocks inside you. Looking over your shoulder he gives Satoru a nod, "Cum inside her."

At just like that, they're both releasing inside you, their hips stopping as they paint the insides of your cunt white, some of it dribbling out, your own release following. You shake between them, your mind falling blank, your entire being burning. 

You don't know how much time has passed, but your brain is just catching up to you when the door is swung open pink head flashing in your vision. "What the fuck?" Sukuna roars, forcing your brain to finally catch up with your body.

You're still on the bed naked, laying beside Satoru, and Suguru's at your window, smoking again, sweats hanging from his hips.

"Hey, man, sorry we couldn't help ourselves to your toy."

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nagi seishiro - complicated *:･ﾟ✧

ft. nagi x f!reader, 18+ minors dni

cw: car sex, unprotected sex, fingering, handjob, small age gap?

synopsis: it was no secret that nagi seishiro liked you, but you’d rather run a million miles away than tell him that his feelings were requited

wc: 2.4k

A/N: hi i’m back with more nagi brainrot <3

you weren’t stupid. people have been telling you for years that nagi was into you. plus when you were in middle school you may or may not have found a word doc saved on his laptop outlining all the reasons he liked you and how he was too scared to confess. you simply closed out the tab and moved on though. to be honest, you were glad nagi wasn’t the type to confess first. pushing boundaries past friendship would be complicated. 

although if anything was complicated, it would be the knots forming in your gut as nagi pulled up his jersey to wipe off water from his lips after taking a swig. the flash of pale skin below his shirt that the movement exposed was not missed by your trailing eyes.

you’d be damned if anyone found out that athletes, specifically soccer players, sat at the top of your type. and how nice of nagi to become exactly that within the span of the 2 years you were away abroad. 

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— LET ME LET YOU GO | toji x fem!reader -> synopsis: love is found in the last place you'd think to look, but it is truly meant for you?

-> cw: NSFW, MDNI 18+, angst and hurt/comfortj, character death, blood, alcohol, food, smut, fingering, cunnilingus, breast play, size kink, vaginal sex, a little bit of manhandling, love-making, vague references to canon

-> wc: 14.6k (i know 💀)

-> a/n: after much back and forth and scrapping the two route plan, i'm reposting this fic with just the first route because frankly, i lost interest in the second one. this was my submission for @strawberrystepmom's dilf collab that got way too out of hand. happy reading!! inspired by this song

Our story begins the way it ends. 

Atop a worn, faded stool in a dingy, grimy bar. Your hands steer clear of the slightly sticky counter, knit together in your lap instead. A thick fog of cigarette smoke hangs in the air, pungent and clogging your throat with every breath you take. 

To be perfectly honest, you’re not even sure why you’re here. You don’t like bars. You certainly don’t enjoy drinking either, and you most definitely can’t stand the film of dirt that clings to every surface around you. But there is nowhere else to go where he won’t be able to find you. 

People would call you an idiot for breaking it off, but you can’t find it in yourself to care. Not when he was so suffocating. And even though the air is polluted here, it feels like this is the first breath of fresh air you’ve taken in two years. Your lungs feel looser and your throat is free of the lumps that once invaded it near constantly. 

Because yes, whilst he was a man with great power nestled in the palm of his hand, with that came an insatiable need for control. How you presented yourself, how you took care of yourself, the company you kept, was all monitored obsessively by him until you reached the end of your tether but a few hours ago. Not even bothering to pack the bare essentials whilst he was at work, you crept out of his penthouse and headed for the most rundown part of town, knowing he wouldn’t dare step foot there. 

“Are ya gonna drink anything or just sit there?” the bartender grunts, slinging a soiled, damp rag over his shoulder. 

“Oh, um, just water.”

“Just water,” he grumbles under his breath, grabbing a cloudy glass and popping it under the running tap. “Y’know we don’t really get your sort around here.”

“My sort?” you ask.

He grunts again, sliding your drink over to you. “Rich. Best be careful darlin’, ya stick out like a sore thumb.”

The balding man is right. You’re painfully out of place here, still wearing one of the designer dresses that he bought you since he’d slowly replaced your entire wardrobe with clothing of his choice. But you would rather be out of place than shackled to a man who saw you only as an accessory.

“I’m not rich,” you mumble, taking a sip from your glass. 

“Yeah, well, ya look it to me. And probably to every other bastard in here. I’d get home now if I were you.”

Sighing heavily, you trace the rim of your glass with a fingertip, still freshly manicured in french tips, just the way he wanted them. “I don’t have a home.”

“Don’t say I didn’t warn ya,” he shrugs, moving away to serve another customer.

“He’s right, y'know. It’s not safe ‘round here for a girl like you,” says another gruff voice to your right. “Go home.” 

The voice belongs to a man, likely in his late twenties or early thirties. His thick fingers are wrapped around a bottle of beer, dwarfing it in comparison. He raises it to his scarred lips, fixing you with a green-eyed stare. 

“I don’t have a home,” you repeat. “That’s why I’m here.”

Quirking a dark brow, he hums curiously. “So ya came lookin’ to get killed or robbed, is that it?”

“No,” you say uneasily, shifting your gaze around the bar. It’s not exactly busy, but there are a few tables with scary looking people sitting at them, and you wonder if you made a mistake in coming here. “Just that no one will be able to find me here. That’s all.”

“And that’s a good thing?” 

“In this case, yes.” Eyeing him warily, you shuffle your seat to the left a little. “I don’t suppose you’re one of these people who’ll kill or rob me?” 

A wolfish grin tugs his lips up, green eyes glowing dimly under pallid fluorescent lights like murky emeralds. “I could be, sweetheart.”

Swallowing thickly, you nod, reaching a shaky hand towards your water and taking a steadying sip. His gaze burns into the side of your head, urging you to meet it despite the fear scratching at your stomach. 

“T-that’s not a definitive answer,” you say bravely, pushing your shoulders back a little and raising your chin to challenge his gaze. His brow bounces up again, disappearing into the mess of dark hair that flops over his forehead. 

“Guess not,” he chuckles, draining his bottle in one swallow. “So, why don’t you have anywhere else to go? Pretty thing like you should have a boyfriend, right?”

The casual compliment makes your cheeks prick with warmth, but you know there’s no sentiment behind it. “I used to. I broke up with him earlier.”

He makes a noise of understanding, gesturing to the bartender for another drink. “How come?” 

“We had… conflicting values,” you say carefully. His face scrunches up in confusion though it looks a little more like disgust with the way his scarred lip curls into a grimace.

“The fuck does that mean?” he asks bluntly and you flinch. Sipping delicately from your glass, you tap a nail against the side of it, the soft clinking noise distracting you from the sudden burn behind your eyes.

“Doesn’t matter,” you mumble bitterly. “It’s over now, anyway, there’s no point in picking it all apart. He didn’t love me. That’s all there is to it.”

“Well, good on ya fer dropping his ass,” he says gruffly, sipping from his new drink. Something shiny glints on his hand that rests on the bar, specifically on his ring finger. A silver wedding band. 

“And why are you here?” The words are out before you can stop them and you nod towards his left hand. “It’s late. Your wife will be worried about you.”

A sad smile flits across his scarred lips as he regards the ring on his finger, running his thumb over it with an unexpected tenderness. The greens in his eyes shine as he disappears from the bar for a moment, losing himself briefly to some place you know nothing of.

“She would be, if she were here,” he says finally, taking another large swig of beer. There’s a certain resignedness to his tone as he speaks, which alludes to the weight behind his statement. You can take a good guess and leave it at that, but curiosity wins out again.

“Where is she?”

“Didn’t anyone teach ya ta keep yer nose outta other people’s business? Thought you rich people had manners.” 

You scoff at that. “I’m not rich.”

“Ya sure look it. Sound like it, too.”

Rage suddenly seeps into your veins at his comment. You wouldn’t have to look or sound like this if he hadn’t drilled it into you. His sly comments and suggestions about your mannerisms were near constant, making subtle digs about how you spoke or what his parents would think about the way you dressed, accompanied by his favourite ‘don’t forget, people are watching’. Slowly, carefully, he managed to transform you into a person you barely even recognised when you looked into the mirror, so far removed from who you used to be.

All this time, you knew what he was doing, saw it clear as day that he was moulding you into the perfect little accessory for him to dangle from his arm. Part of you hoped he would stop at some point. If you tried hard enough to be what he wanted, maybe he would stop picking out your flaws with a fine toothed comb and go back to loving you the way he had right at the start, when you’d first met.

Unfortunately, even those first few months had been built on lies, as you learned a couple of nights ago. The truth was that your relationship began as an act of rebellion against his father, and nothing more. Choosing a partner that was ‘beneath him’ was supposed to get a rise out of him, but he had failed miserably - his father didn’t even acknowledge your existence. It had been his mother’s nagging that pushed him to flip the script to try and change you into something he could show off instead. She proclaimed that there was ‘something salvageable there’ and it was possible that you could be pinched and prodded into a pretty little thing worthy of her selfish son.

Though you were naive, your discovery of his true callousness - courtesy of his father’s warped genetics - gave you the push you needed to leave. Maybe he would come to his senses and follow you, maybe he would follow you anyway since you belonged to him or some other fucked up reason. Maybe, just maybe, he wouldn’t even notice that you were gone. The thought made your heart ache and sing in the same beat.

“I’m nothing like them,” you spit. “I never will be.”

“Just callin’ it like I see it.”

Your lips curls in annoyance but you don’t offer a retort - he’s right after all. Silence falls between the two of you, both lost in thought. The faint sound of conversation and glasses hitting wood offers a backdrop to your musings, until they’re interrupted by his voice.

“I didn’t catch yer name,” he says, pushing his empty bottle away.

“Y/n.” He grunts in acknowledgement.

“Toji.” Standing from his seat, he moves over to where you sit, leaning casually against the bar. Up close, he smells smoky and warm in a way that tickles your nose, with the twang of alcohol sitting on his breath when he speaks. “Come with me.”

“Excuse me?” Toji leans closer and lowers his already rumbling voice.

“Four men have been watching you in this place already. Yer like a fresh piece of meat to ‘em. If ya know what’s good fer ya, and you value yer own safety, then get up and come with me.”

“How do you know?” you ask stubbornly even though you hop out of your seat, anxiety beginning to crawl under your skin.

“Because I’m a man and I know how they think.”

“How do I know you’re not going to hurt me too?” Toji groans, placing a large hand on the small of your back and shepherding you out the door and into the chilly night air.

“If I was gonna hurt ya, I woulda done it by now, don’tcha think?”

“Maybe you’re biding your time,” you sniff, shrugging off his very warm hand and creating another foot of space between you. “I don’t know you after all. Why would you help a random girl? Out of the goodness of your own heart?” The words are mocking, and it sparks something in him.

“Y’know what, you’re right. Why should I help ya? Maybe I should just fuckin’ leave ya here,” he grumbles, before adding more quietly. “Ungrateful snob.”

“Why don’t you?” He falls quiet as you walk, as though he is contemplating the answer he should give you. Shoving his hands deep in his pockets, his head tilts back and he stares intently at the endless, starless sky, like he’s searching for something tucked away behind the clouds.

“Not sure,” he hums. “Maybe I just didn’t wanna see a naive girl get hurt. There’s too much evil in this world as it is.”

“Aren’t you a saint,” you huff, gripping the strap of your handbag more tightly. He chuckles at that and the sound is deep and rough like the crags of a mountain. His lips curve up in amusement, revealing a flash of teeth and it makes him look younger, you think. More handsome. More dangerous.

“Far from it, sweetheart.” 

The echoes of your footsteps fill the still, quiet air as you continue to walk. What exactly you’re walking towards remains to be seen, so you slow to a stop and turn to him. “Wait. Where are you even taking me?”

“You’ve got nowhere to go, right?” You nod. “Broke too, I’m guessin’?” Another nod and he heaves a sigh of resignation. “My place it is.”

“Wait,” you say again. This time, he lets out a long groan of annoyance. “Just like that?”

“Just like what?”

“You’re just gonna… Take me in?” Toji admits that it is strange for him to even speak to a stranger like this, let alone offer her a place to stay. He can’t quite put his finger on why, but he feels a sort of kinship with you.

“Yeah?”

“Oh.” Brow furrowing in confusion, you continue to walk again only to stop after a couple of steps. Toji turns when the sound of your footsteps cease, pinching the bridge of his nose in irritation.

“What now?”

“I… I’m hungry.” As if on cue, your stomach gurgles, having been empty since morning. Toji runs his tongue over his teeth in thought and huffs, grasping your wrist lightly and hauling you after him. “Hey! What are you doing?”

“The ramen place around the corner closes in twenty minutes. Hurry your ass up or you can stay hungry.”

“Such a brute,” you scoff under your breath, but you acquiesce and stop resisting, trying to fall into step with his long strides as he loosens his grip on you slightly. There’s a soft glow of warm light when you turn the corner at the bottom of the street, and your stomach growls loudly at the thought of a hot bowl of ramen to fill you. The closer you get, the brighter the light grows, coupled with the scent of food which wraps around you and hugs your senses. 

Toji pushes his way inside and nods at the singular man behind the counter, holding up two fingers as he takes a seat at a small table. The man gets to work putting together your extremely late dinner, ladling steaming hot broth into bowls over cooked noodles and topping them with halves of jammy eggs, slices of meat, sheets of nori and spring onions. Your mouth waters as he places the bowl before you and hands you a pair of chopsticks, thanking him quickly before you dive in.

Your companion raises an eyebrow as you practically inhale your food, eating with the sort of gusto you would be excommunicated for in the upper echelons of the city. There’s a happy smile on your face as you eat, completely at odds with your expression from earlier, even as a drop of broth runs down your chin. Absently, he reaches out a thumb and swipes away the liquid. You breath hitches when his skin suddenly brushes over yours, his touch oddly gentle and light. 

“Sorry,” you mumble, swallowing down another mouthful. “Got a bit carried away.”

“’s fine. Ya look like ya don’t get to eat much.” Shrugging, you set your chopsticks down for a moment to take a sip of water.

“He never let me eat what I wanted.”

“Really?”  Nodding, you set down your glass.

“He had special menus prepared each day when I lived with him and I had to eat whatever was given to me. If we went out, he’d order for me and so on.”

“Fuckin’ weirdo,” Toji grumbles. “Who does shit like that?”

You shrug and continue to eat. Toji eyes you carefully for a moment before he follows suit and starts on his own bowl. Once you’re both done, he drops some cash on the counter and leads you out and in the opposite direction. It doesn’t take long for you to reach an apartment complex in an even quieter part of town. It’s old and a little rundown but appears to be in decent condition as he leads you up a few flights of stairs and unlocks a door, ushering you inside. You’re not quite sure what to expect. Maybe somewhere with no furnishings whatsoever or a place that is so messy it’s impossible to navigate. 

Instead, what you find is something perfectly ordinary. Slightly unkempt, but nothing that would make you recoil in disgust. Most likely, the general state of his home is courtesy of his wife, or rather his ex-wife. Perhaps you’re being judgemental, but Toji doesn’t seem like the sort of man to go out and buy floral curtains and a rug.

“Make yourself comfortable,” he says gruffly, dropping his keys on the coffee table and disappearing down the hall. Nervous, you perch yourself on the couch, the soft seat sagging a little under your weight. It’s quiet. And a little lonely. You wonder how long he’s lived like this.

Before you get the chance to muse any further about your unconventional host, he reappears with blankets slung over his broad shoulders, along with a couple of flattened pillows in his hands. He drops them unceremoniously on the couch and nods towards them.

“Here. I don’t have a futon on hand so use these and the couch. And before ya ask, they’re clean.”

“I wasn’t going to-”

“G’night.”

And with that, he’s gone.

Rolling your eyes, you set about getting ready for bed. Ten minutes are spent debating whether to sleep in your underwear or keep your clothes on and for a moment, you wonder if Toji will let you borrow something to sleep in. Deciding against it, you settle for sleeping in the tank top you wore beneath your dress and your leggings, shuffling under the sheets after you’ve plunged the room into darkness.

Staring at the ceiling, you replay the day that you’ve had. Leaving behind a vague note for your ex to find on his bed and then leaving his penthouse whilst he was still at work with no belongings other than your phone after rendering it useless by snapping the SIM card and blocking his number for good measure in case he tried to contact you. If he even tried to at all.

That was the thing with him. You never truly knew what he was thinking or how he felt or if he even felt anything at all. Everything he said and did was a means to an end, to make himself look and feel like he had been born as a gift to the Earth, like he was special and important. And, for a time, he had been those things to you. He was a man that you cherished and adored.

A man that you let walk all over you. To bend and change as he saw fit.

And look at where that got you.

Laying on the couch in a strange man’s living room, picking apart what you knew of your ex’s psyche. Hours pass, the thoughts rotating through your brain doing little to exhaust you, each one leading to more harrowing realisations of the state of your life. There’s nothing quite like an existential crisis at 3am.

Sick of listening to yourself think, you peel away the blankets and stand, stumbling through the dark to where you think Toji’s room is. The first door you open is the bathroom, small but relatively clean. The second door leads to a small room that couldn’t possibly be his based on size alone. That, and the fact that the only piece of furniture is a tiny crib in the corner, a lone bear sitting inside it. You’re about to step inside when his words from earlier echo in your mind and you think better of it, stepping back into the hall and shutting the door. Another time, maybe.

Finally, you push open a door to the sound of soft snoring, only now that you’re here, you’re not sure what to do. Do you wake him up? Clamber into his bed? Sit by the door and listen to the sound of his deep breaths so that you don’t feel so alone? Fiddling with your fingers, you run through your options twice before huffing and shuffling closer to his bed. Gingerly, you place a hand over the lump under the sheets and shake it gently.

“Oi. Toji,” you murmur. “Wake up.”

The man grunts and turns onto his back, the sheets shifting down a little to reveal pale skin stretched over a muscular chest. Your cheeks grow warm as an unwarranted image of him bare under the bedsheets rises to the forefront of your mind. Shaking your head to dispel it, your fingers brush over his skin in a second attempt, calling out to him louder this time and shaking more harshly.

This time, he snorts mid-snore and his eyes squint open, lips twisting into an irritated grimace. “The fuck’re ya doin’?” he slurs, voice thick and husky with sleep.

“I couldn’t sleep,” you tell him. “Your couch is so uncomfortable!”

“Sorry princess, ‘s the couch or the street,” he mumbles, turning away from you and shutting his eyes. “Fuck off ‘n’ lemme sleep.”

“Please Toji,” you whine. “I… It’s too quiet. I don’t want to be by myself.”

With a groan, he peels his eyes open and sits up, the sheets now pooling around his waist and revealing more of his strong body. Something shifts deep within you at the sight of his silhouette illuminated softly by the streetlights beyond the window. It’s warm and tight, almost like a swooping sensation at the floor of your stomach.

“Whaddya wan’ me to do about it?”

“Can I stay with you?” His head tips back and he lets out the most long-suffering rumble of exasperation you’ve heard all night. You cringe a little, guilt washing through you.

“Yer already stayin’ in my house, ain’t that enough?”

“Please? I promise I’ll be quiet! You won’t even know I’m here!”

Persistent is a polite way to describe you.

“Oh my- Y’know what, fine! Do whatever the fuck ya want, but don’t fuckin’ wake me up for pointless shit again. Got it?”

You mimic the motion of zipping your lips shut and throwing away the key, making yourself at home on the floor at the foot of the bed like a cat. Rolling his eyes, he tugs the duvet back over his body and slumps onto his pillow, yawning tiredly as he tries to find sleep again. But the minutes pass by and any dregs of slumber have slipped away with them, replaced by nagging thoughts of his own, in a voice so heartachingly familiar.

You know she’s right - that old thing is so uncomfortable. And it’s cold too. He’d felt the cool air on his bare skin when you’d torn him from sleep. You chose to take her in, the voice says. Why? Out of guilt? Sympathy? ‘The goodness in your heart?’ God knows that’s hard to find. But she’s here now. Don’t just leave her there when you were so willing to get her out of that place to start with. The longer he listens to the voice, the more he softens, albeit begrudgingly.

“Oi,” he murmurs, still reluctant as he flicks on the lamp at his bedside. “C’mere.”

“I thought you were asleep?” you whisper, peeking up at him from the foot of the bed.

“Yeah and now I’m not. Get over here before I change my mind. It’s cold.” He offers no further explanation as he flips back the duvet on the empty side of the bed. Surprisingly, you don’t argue, but before you can even rest a knee on the mattress, Toji’s voice halts you. “What the fuck are ya wearin’? It’s freezin’.”

“Huh?” you look down at your ensemble, feeling self-consciousn all of a sudden. “I, er-”

“Top drawer. You can wear one of my shirts,” he interrupts, nodding over to a wardrobe in the corner of the room.

“Oh.” You trot over and pull it open, noting that there’s clothes in there that look like they belonged to a woman. Thoughtlessly, you pick them up. “These look like they’d fit me better.”

Holding up a set of floral pyjamas, Toji’s eyes widen in recognition, a spark of alarm zipping across his features as he all but flings himself out of bed. He removes the silky fabric from your grip and exhales shakily, folding them up with that same tenderness as before and carefully putting them back in their place. Instead, he pulls out a faded, black t-shirt that looks like it would hang to your mid-thigh once you put it on. 

“Here. Take this instead. Those are- Just don’t touch ‘em.”

“Um, okay.” You shift uneasily, suddenly hyper aware of the fact that they likely belonged to his wife but also that you’re now mere inches away from a very naked Toji, clad only in a pair of boxers. The urge to stare at his chiselled physique is near impossible to overcome and your eyes rove over the planes of his scarred, muscular body with unabashed intrigue. He doesn’t seem to notice.

“Bathroom’s the door next to mine. Change in there.”

Mere moments later, you’re dressed in his shirt that smells like fabric softener, laying next to him. The silence feels unnerving and part of you wants to say something, wondering if you should break it and ask if this is okay. Instead, he breaks it for you.

“I never thought I’d have another woman in my bed like this,” he says quietly. “Least of all one that pisses me off so easily.”

Swallowing the dryness in your throat, you turn onto your side to face him. “If this is too weird then I can go,” you whisper. He clucks his teeth, twisting to look at you in the lamplight, shaking his head.

“It’s just a bed.” Curiosity bites at your tongue again and you contemplate asking him about her once more when he speaks of his own accord. Lethargy loosens his tongue and his guard, it seems. “Ya asked me earlier what happened to her. She died.”

Oh. That explains the oddly defensive behaviour with the pyjamas. “How?”

Toji shrugs. “Car accident. It was late, and she was comin’ home from her parents’ place. The weather was bad and I don’t think she could see through all the rain. She skidded out and went straight into a tree, drivers’ side first.”

“I’m so sorry,” you gasp softly. Sorrow pinches his brows together and downturns the corners of his lips a little, but it gleams most brightly in the depths of his forest green eyes. “How long has it been?” you ask quietly.

“Two years.” Another question rises up your throat about the little nursery down the hall, but you force it down. That’s enough intrusive questions for one night. “So, why couldn’t ya sleep?”

Fiddling with the corner of the pillow case, you wonder if you should answer that or not. You know for a fact that once you start talking about what’s on your mind, you might not be able to stop. But still, your mind feels full and heavy, like it’s bursting at the seams. His question is a needle, poking a hole in it, pushing you to let it empty a little.

“It’s stupid. I know that I broke up with him, but I can’t stop thinking about any of it.”

Or a lot. Just like that, everything leaks free before you can stop it. The how, the why, the manipulation and control of your life, the way his family and friends spoke of and to you. All of it pours out of you in a steady flood. You didn’t realise that this whole situation had thoroughly torn you to shreds, and now you’re sniffling in a strange man’s bed, your tears soiling his pillows as he lays there quietly beside you and listens.

Toji offers nothing. No words of consolation, no sympathetic looks, no questions or even an awkward pat on your shoulder. He simply watches and listens, expression grim with just a small furrow between his dark brows. And by the time you’re done, drained and tearstained, you feel lighter and less alone despite his nothing.

“I’m sorry,” you sniffle, messily wiping away your tears and snot on the back of your hand. Toji rolls his eyes and reaches over to his nightstand before pressing a tissue into your hand.

“Don’t be. Wipe yer face”

“But-”

“I get it,” he says simply, voice low.

“How could you possibly-”

“Yer grievin’, right? Might not be the same kind, but grief is grief, no matter how big or small. Dealin’ with that shit alone is twice as hard so don’t apologise. Take yer time and feel it or whatever.”

Blowing your nose noisily, you peek up at him through damp lashes, in awe of his unexpected piece of wisdom. Perhaps there’s far more to this large man than meets the eye. “You’re sweet, Toji,” you say honestly. He snorts, grinning in amusement.

“Didn’t bag my wife with just my looks, sweetheart,” he says, throwing you a wink.

“She must have been a wonderful woman to have put up with a brute like you,” you say, half serious, half teasing. Toji softens, a film of nostalgia settling over his eyes.

“She was,” he says gently. “She was beautiful and funny and so fuckin’ kind. I dunno what I did to deserve her.”

“Sounds like you really love her,” you yawn, feeling your eyes slowly begin to slip shut.

“I do. But I can’t keep lovin’ a ghost. That’s what she’d say to me.”

“So don’t. She wouldn’t want you to be sad about her forever.” 

Your comment is unfiltered and maybe a little blunt as the haze of sleep pulls you under, your breathing deepening and slowing. Toji looks at you thoughtfully, mulling over your words. A piece of him screams that he should ignore you, that you haven’t a clue what you’re talking about and that he can’t just stop loving his wife like that. But another part of him, the part that is bone-weary of grieving and aching loneliness, thinks that perhaps you are right. Maybe it is time for him to move on, to open his neglected heart a little and let in someone new. To make room for some warmth and softness.

The last thing Toji sees as he flicks off the lamp and shuts his eyes, is your sweet, unguarded face.

But one night turns into several, which quickly disgruntles your host.

“Ya need to get a job.”

You know you’ve overstayed your welcome, but what else are you supposed to do? You haven’t got a single penny to your name nor have you been in contact with your family for a long, long time. You don’t even know if they still remember you exist. He’s right, of course, but you don’t want to admit that out loud and see that annoying, smug smirk of his that makes your heart beat annoying loud.

“Do I?” you ask, eyes still trained on the cooking show you’re watching. Maybe if you stare at the screen really hard, he’ll give up and leave you alone. Wishful thinking, unsurprisingly. 

“Should’ve been the first thing ya did,” he says, not missing how you reflexively scrunch your nose in disgust. “Don’t gimme that fuckin’ look. Earn yer keep or find another bastard to leech off of.”

“And where do you propose I get a job?” you huff, turning to him with a withering glare.

“I don’t care, princess. Anywhere’s fine, as long as it pays. Hell, work in a strip club fer all I care.”

“Oh, you’d love that wouldn’t you?” you scoff, shaking your head in disbelief. The smug smirk you were trying to avoid crawls over his face and he leans closer, crowding your space to the point where you can feel the heat emanating from his brawny body. 

“Bet it’d be a sight to see,” he says, ever so softly. Your breath catches as his own wafts over your cheek, warm and enticing. “But I doubt ya could do it. Bet those hips are stiff as a board.”

“I could if I wanted to,” you say unconvincingly, subtly trying and failing to shift away from him. The couch is small and he’s got you backed up against the armrest. “But I still have my dignity, thank you very much. I won’t stoop to such means.”

“Get that rod outta yer ass. Ain’t nothin’ wrong with that line of work if it means putting food on the table.” 

“Speaking from experience?” you bite back with a quirk of your brow. 

“No,” he says curtly. “But I’m guessin’ ya don’t have a lotta transferable skills under yer belt, so there’s no room fer bein’ a priss about it.”

His remark crawls its  way under your skin, because again, he’s right and it pisses you off. Leaning back in, you flutter your lashes and place a hand on his firm chest, feeling the strong throb of his heart under your palm. “I bet you’re just dying to see me on a pole.”

Catching your hand in his larger one, he yanks you in close until you’re almost nose to nose. “Maybe I wanna see ya fall off it and make a fool of yourself. Should knock you down a peg or two.”

Scoffing, you tug your hand back, ignoring the expression of self satisfaction on his face. “What do you suggest then?” He shrugs unhelpfully and it suddenly dawns on you that you have no idea what he does for a living. He, begrudgingly, bought you basic articles of clothing and toiletries and he’s able to live quite comfortably so he must have some sort of income. “What exactly is it that you do?”

Toji’s mouth sets into a thin line, the scar on the corner of his lips standing out more prominently against his pale skin. For a fleeting moment, your mind wanders back to that first night and the other scars you’d seen marring his skin. It was difficult to see in the dim light, but you’re pretty sure you didn’t hallucinate them. 

“I do… freelance work,” he says carefully. You raise an eyebrow, unhappy with his answer.

“Which is?”

“None of your business,” he shrugs, leaning back in his seat.

“It is so! I could be living with a- a murderer for all I know!” you exclaim, not at all comforted by his silence or how his eyes flit away at the word ‘murderer’, at which point your eyes widen and you squeal, “Oh my god you are a murderer!”

“Shut up, I am not!” he says, clamping a hand over your mouth before you can start yelling any louder. “I’m not a murderer.”

You say something that’s muffled by his large hand and reluctantly, he pulls it away so that you can huff. “What are you then? What’s so bad about it that you can’t tell me? It’s just a job! Or was I right earlier?” your eyes narrow in scrutiny. “That you sell your body for money and-”

“Holy fuck, will you shut up!” he yells, finally getting you to fall quiet. Toji’s glare is menacing as he draws close to you, only this time, a spike of fear runs through you. His voice is low, almost a growl as he speaks through grit teeth. “Ya don’t need to know what I do. All ya gotta know is that it’s dangerous and ya wouldn’t believe me if I did tell ya. If ya know what’s good fer ya, drop it. Understand?”

Breath trembling, you nod. This is the truth, that much is clear. “Is- Is that why you have all those scars?” you whisper and he eases up, softening a little when he sees the distress in your rounded eyes.

“Yeah,” he says quietly. “Yeah, I guess it is. Don’t start askin’ me how.”

“I wasn’t going to,” you lie, frowning dejectedly.

“Whatever. Just start lookin’, would ya?” 

“I don’t even know where to start.”

“Outside?” 

With a sigh, you slump down in your seat, mentally preparing yourself to start searching for employment. For someone so desperate for you to ‘earn your keep’ he’s incredibly useless in offering any plausible suggestions. You’ll have to do this by yourself.

The next few days are spent tentatively exploring the neighbourhood, taking deep breaths before popping into stores and restaurants and stuttering through questions about vacancies. It’s not like you don’t know how any of this works, you do. You went to school and university and you’ve got qualifications and were taught what to expect out in the real world. But what are grades without experience? You’ve never applied for anything before, let alone had an interview. This whole process is frankly terrifying. 

Fortunately, things begin to look up when you stumble across a quaint little cafe, tucked away on the corner of a street ten minutes away from Toji’s apartment. It’s run by an elderly couple who are relieved that someone responded to their tiny ad in the local newspaper (you haven’t seen any ad but they don’t need to know that). They’re eager for you to start and you’re looking forward to having something to do other than lounging around the apartment for the majority of your day. You return to Toji’s with a skip in your step and a smile on your face, excited to gloat that you found something all on your own.

“I’m back!” you sing. The night before, he had been ‘working’ and the note on the fridge said he'd be back in time for dinner. “Toji?”

“Kitchen,” comes his familiar grunt. Dropping the spare keys he gave to you on the coffee table, you pad barefoot into the kitchen, gasping in horror at the sight before you. Sitting at the small dining table is Toji, but what alarms you is the sheer amount of crimson that surrounds him. It’s only now that your gaze travels to the floor, that you  notice the blood splatters on the kitchen tile that lead to him like a trail of breadcrumbs.

“What the fuck happened?!”

“I had a knitting accident, the fuck does it look like?” he grumbles, gingerly dabbing at a wound with an overly saturated bloody cloth. His shirt is half off, one arm free of his sleeve to expose his midriff.  “‘s not as bad as it looks.”

“Let me guess, ‘ ya shoulda seen the other guy’?” you scoff, mimicking his deep rumble very badly.

“Well, yeah. You'd probably freak out if ya saw the state of him,” he muses, cracking a triumphant little smirk. The curious side of you perks up at his vague statement, but you tamp it down in favour of focusing on the issue at hand. That, and you think in this instance, it’s best to let it go.

“Where do you keep your first kit?” you ask, and he raises a brow.

“You’re not gonna poke yer nose in this time?”

“Just tell me where it is.”

“Bathroom. Under the sink.”

A few moments later, you’ve retrieved the little box that is already woefully empty and pull up a chair opposite him, setting to work after washing your hands. There’s barely enough alcohol left in the little brown bottle, so you pour it sparingly onto cotton swabs to begin disinfecting his wound. The gash is about four inches long, running diagonally just under the side of his ribcage. As you clean it, you find that it’s not as deep as it looks, and Toji is likely just clumsy when it comes to dressing his own wounds.

“D’ya even know what yer doin’?” he asks, flinching minutely when the swab grazes his gash. You mumble an apology, trying to be light-handed.

“Doesn’t take a genius to figure it out. I’ve watched plenty of TV to know the drill.”

“God help me,” he groans. Glaring at him, you press down a little harder, grinning slyly when he yelps. “Oi, watch it!”

“Whoops, sorry,” you say airily. “My hand slipped. Take your shirt off.”

“Excuse me?” Rolling your eyes, you dispose of the soiled swabs and rags, pulling out the last roll of bandages in the box.

“Take it off. How else do you expect me to wrap it?”

Clicking his teeth in annoyance, he slips off his shirt and drops it on the table, baring his torso to you. The scars on his body are numerous, some like angry, jagged carvings and others like quick lances over the surface of his skin. A soft exhalation of shock escapes you and your hands tremble as you unroll the bandages, shaken by the story his body tells in a language unknown to you. And yet, despite all its imperfections, he looks as though he was moulded by the finest sculptors, every dip and curve of his musculature still managing to warm your cheeks.

“R-raise your arms,” you stutter, cursing the heat gathering under your skin as his muscles flex with the action. Carefully, you dress his wound as best as you can, reluctantly drawing your hands away once you’re finished, awkwardly clearing your throat. “All done.”

“Thanks,” he says quietly, lowering his arms. “You er, ya didn’t have to.”

You shrug, offering him a small, shy smile. “You looked like you needed help.” 

Standing you gather the remaining contents of the first aid kit together and head for the bathroom. Blood and clean tiles however, do not bode well for the absentminded, and you promptly slip through the sticky trail with a shriek. Before your head can hit the hard floor, a pair of strong arms catch you around your waist, halting your fall. Prying your eyes open, you blink up blearily at your saviour.

“Watch where yer goin’,” he says, but there’s no irritation in his gentle tone. “There’s no more bandages if ya crack yer head open.”

Effortlessly, he puts you back on your feet but his arms stay firm around you. You place your hands on his biceps to steady yourself, finding yourself growing more flustered when you look up to see him watching you intently. You are acutely aware of his hands on your waist, large and warm, firm yet gentle as though you might break if he held you the wrong way. He probably could snap you in two if he tried.

“Thank you.”

“Don’t worry about it,” he murmurs. “Just watch yer step.”

“Right,” you mumble, finally making an attempt to draw away. But his hold is like iron, pulling you in closer until you’re pressed against his broad chest.

“Y’know what my first thought was when I got hurt?” Not trusting yourself to speak, you shake your head no, suddenly forgetting how to breathe. His lips twitch with the ghost of a smile. “I thought ‘she’s gonna freak out if she sees this. Better wrap this up before anythin’ happens’.”

“Oh,” you whisper dumbly.

“Imagine that. Worryin’ about leavin’ a nuisance like you behind.”

“It’s unthinkable,” you joke under your breath and he chuckles, the vibrations rumbling against your chest in the most pleasant way. You’re both quiet for a while, until you remember the news you were so excited to share with him. “Guess what?”

“What?” he mumbles distractedly, gaze flicking to your lips for the merest heartbeat.

“I got a job.”

He pauses, narrowing his eyes at you in disbelief. “Liar.”

“I’m serious!” you laugh and this time, Toji actually smiles. It punches a hole right through your chest, the way it softens the hardened planes of his face and warms his eyes and makes him look sweet in a way you didn’t think he could. In the back of your mind, you wonder if this is how he looked before his wife’s untimely passing.

“Well done,” he says genuinely, hugging you to him instinctively. His scent overwhelms you, distinctively masucline even through the smell of disinfectant and copper. The heat of his bare body radiates through your clothes and that swooping sensation rushes through your abdomen as he squeezes you against his chest. Hesitantly, you snake your arms around his neck and return his affection, burying your nose in the soft skin of his neck. It’s so nice, so damn nice…

Until he clears his throat and abruptly pulls away, having arrived back at his senses. You follow suit, embarrassed at being caught up in the moment like that, taking a step away from him to create some space between him and your pounding heart. “Uh, when do you start?”

“A-a couple of days,” you say, awkwardly shifting from foot to foot. He nods, snatching up his bloodied t-shirt and slipping it back on. 

“Right. I’ll er, clean this up,” he says gruffly, gesturing to the floor.

“Okay. I’ll get started on dinner.”

“No,” he says after a beat. “Order in. My treat.” A bright grin lights up your face and just like that, the growing tension eases as Toji shoots you a lightly warning glare. “Don’t get used to it.”

“You’re a softie, y’know that?” you tease as you leave the kitchen, and he sags a little as he watches you leave. You might be right about that.

Luckily, over the next month or so, your little moment in the kitchen is never mentioned again. Neither of you will admit it, but you both think of it often. That day caused a shift in your relationship, and your arguments evolve to be lighter and more teasing - one might even say flirtatious. 

Toji finds casual ways to touch you, resting his hands on your waist as he squeezes past you in the kitchen to reach something, or brushing the hair out of your face with a touch lighter than air. You’re not exactly innocent either. Falling asleep on him when you’re particularly exhausted after a shift at the cafe happens far too often for it to be written off as a coincidence. The first time it happened, you’d woken up with a blanket tucked around your shoulders and a pillow under your head. You almost melted into the sofa cushions.

The cafe does exhaust you. It takes a while for you to adjust to working and learning the ropes, but your bosses are endlessly patient and kind, even through your many, many mistakes. You’ve messed up more orders than you can count, and spilled enough coffee to fill a bathtub. But you’ve finally made it through an entire month, almost bursting into tears when you receive your first pay cheque.

The sound of a knife hitting a bamboo board is the first thing that greets you when you arrive home, tucking the little slip of paper behind your back to conceal it from view. It takes more of an effort to hide your giddy grin as you seek out Toji in the kitchen, popping your head around the door and watching how his brow furrows in concentration as he chops vegetables haphazardly. 

“Hey,” you greet him casually, leaning against the worktop to peer up at him, lip caught between your teeth.

“Hey.”

“How was your day?”

“Fine,” he says slowly, turning to you with a raised brow. “Why’re you askin’?”

“Can’t I ask how you’ve been?” you huff, rolling your eyes.

“Not without an ulterior motive.”

“Then I guess you won’t wanna see this.” You slap the piece of paper on the worktop before him, watching his face intently for his reaction. Scrunching his face in confusion, he squints at it, before picking it up and scanning it. As he does so, his eyebrows arch up and disappear under his dark, messy fringe, emerald eyes widening in surprise.

“Is that-”

“It is,” you preen. Toji barks out an astonished laugh, catching you off guard. 

“Guess yer not like those snotty rich folk after all,” he grins, throwing an arm over your shoulders and yanking you into his side for a clumsy hug.

“I did tell you!” you huff, but you’re smiling as you meet his gaze, heart hammering in your chest as he squeezes you to him. Toji’s face softens.

“Ya did, didn’t ya?” he says fondly, dipping his head down to brush his lips softly over your temple. The gesture is so simple, almost casual, and still you melt in his hold, greedily soaking up this brief moment of affection. 

Lightly, his fingers trace the skin of your throat, brushing up over the ridges of your windpipe and settling under your jaw. You feel small all of a sudden, vulnerable under his strong, callused hands as he tilts your head towards his. Warm breath wafts over your lips and the rational part of you that should be telling you to untangle yourself from him right now is silent. 

“I’m proud of you,” he whispers.

Impulsively, you close the gap for him and capture his lips with yours.

Kissing Toji doesn’t unfold the way you expect it to. He’s surprisingly tentative the moment his mouth moulds against yours, unsure of if you’ll tug him even closer or push him away, like he’s waiting for you to decide if this is a mistake or not.  But when your fingers tangle in his hair to pull him more firmly against you, his restraint begins to splinter, as does yours.

Hunger courses through you. An aching need to have him closer than close, to swallow him whole, bones and all. A thrill rushes down your spine when his hands find your hips and he lifts you easily into his arms, kissing you more fervently when you wrap your legs around his waist. Gasping he pulls away for a breath, fingers digging into the softness of your flesh.

“Tell me to stop,” he says breathily, nosing at your cheek. “Say it.”

“No,” you whine, chasing after his lips. “I don’t want to.”

“Why?” 

“I don’t know.” You’re growing antsy, curling your fingers in the soft hairs at the nape of his neck. “I just want you right now.”

“Yer so fuckin’ annoying.” He says it like he’s relieved, surging in to fit against you once more. Pulling you more flush against him, he runs his tongue demandingly over your lower lip, growling low in the back of his throat when you open your mouth under his insistence. Each kiss unravels further into desperation which ripples throughout your body, making your skin tingle with anticipation. You can feel the desire beginning to coil in your abdomen, swirling hotter when he sucks on your tongue.

He grunts, stumbling over to the nearest soft surface he can think of as he steps out of the kitchen with you and into the living room. Lowering you onto the couch he descends on you quickly, spit-slick lips running wet trails over your jaw and neck, nipping at the slope and grinning when you gasp his name. “Yer kinda cute like this. It’s nice when you’re not runnin’ yer mouth.”

“Shut up,” you pout, fighting the urge to squirm away when his hands rest on your thighs and roam up to the waistband of your jeans. His palms are hot even through the thick fabric, moving dangerously close to your drooling core. Your cunt throbs as his thick fingers undo your button and zip before working the material off your hips and legs. Tossing them aside, he presses his forefinger against the gusset of your underwear, your arousal sticking to the blunt tip through the fabric. 

“It’s always the ones that look the most innocent that want it the most,” he half sneers, enraptured by the way you twitch and pulse under him. “Haven’t even touched ya and you’re already drippin’. Did your ex ever make ya this wet?”

“No,” you whimper, pushing your hips against his finger. “We only had sex a few times.”

Toji is equally annoyed and elated by this information. “That so? Huh. Weirdo.”

“What’s weird is you’ve got my pussy in your face but you want to talk about my ex.” Huffing you turn your face away from him, letting your legs slowly fall shut. His hands stop you, holding you firm against the sofa cushions. There’s a darkness brewing in his eyes, a predatory gleam that makes you shiver. Without warning, he tears your underwear from your hips, yanking you to the edge of your seat and spreading you wide for him.

“That’s enough outta you.” Warmth, unlike any you’ve ever felt before, glides heavily over the length of your sex, fluttering roughly over your clit and pulling a choked whine from your throat. Looking down, your body flares hotter at the sight of Toji’s head buried between your thighs, his tongue lapping hungrily at your cunt.

“What are you- oh!”

“Shut up. I’m just doin’ what he couldn’t,” he grumbles, slipping his tongue inside you and letting you grind against the length of his nose as he tastes your insides. He groans appreciatively, long and deep as you clench around the wet muscle, writhing pathetically in his tight grasp. Your chest heaves as he builds you up quickly, pushing you to the edge of climax with unrelenting mercy. Never before have you felt pleasure like this, so intense and purposeful, rushing through your blood like lightning and gathering in the darkest depths of your body.

Toji doesn’t stop. He introduces his thick fingers, fitting them slowly into your sopping hole, one after the other, until you’re dizzily creaming around three. He tuts, crooking them up and watching how your back arches to follow the sensation.

“Still so tight,” he says to himself. “Ah, fuck it. Don’t say I didn’t warn ya.” All of a sudden, he draws away from you, nudging his slick fingers against your lips, ignoring how you whine at the loss of his touch. “Here. Suck.”

Dazedly, you wrap your lips around his fingers, grimacing a little at the foreign tang that comes with it. He pushes his sweatpants down with his other hand in the meantime, and you almost balk at him.

“Fuck.” Toji gives you no time to prepare for what lies beneath his clothes due to his lack of underwear, his stiff cock standing to attention. There’s a slight curve to his thick, veiny length, ending in a bulbous tip that oozes precum. You can’t seem to tear your eyes away from his sheer girth. “Y-you’re um-”

“What?” Unconsciously, your legs part further, curious as to how he’ll fit inside you. He doesn’t miss your reaction, how you bite your lip or how your fingers creep towards your centre. “So big.”

Smirking, he bends at the waist until you’re nose to nose, pulling your legs around him so that his cock kisses your clit. “I know. Ya still wanna do this?”

“Yes,” you whisper. “You haven’t made me cum yet. Thought you were gonna do what he couldn’t?”

Rolling his eyes, he grasps your chin between his fingers and forces your gaze down to where his cockhead rests against your mound. It looks even bigger up close. “Ya sure ya can take it?”

“I don’t care. I want you regardless,” you breathe, peeking up at him through your lashes. Toji wears an unreadable expression, staring into your eyes intently. You’re trying to figure out what it is, but then he draws his hips back and forth a little, dragging himself through the mess he’s caused between your legs, eliciting a sweet little whimper from you as he grazes your pert clit.

“Ain’t that sweet,” he coos mockingly, parting your folds with his tip and finding your fluttering hole. Guiding himself forwards, he presses into you slowly, eyes flicking between your face and where you come together. All of the oxygen in your lungs rushes out in a strangled gasp as he fills you, moaning low himself as you grip his cock tightly with your slick walls.

“T-Toji! Oh fuck!” you squeal. It feels like he’s breaking you into two perfect pieces, splitting you wide on his cock as he finally meets resistance, his heavy balls resting snugly against your ass. He’s got you whining already, unable to form full sentences. “‘s so big!”

“I know sweetheart, I warned ya,” he hums, rolling his thumb soothingly over your clit. “Lift yer arms.”

Obediently, you follow his instructions, lifting your arms over your head, your shirt dragging up a little and revealing your belly button along the way. One large hand fastens firmly around your wrists, pinning them against the back cushions as he draws his hips out before slamming them back into you. You keen loudly, and he grins diabolically. “That good?”

“So good,” you moan, nodding pathetically. He chuckles, breath hitching slightly when you squeeze him involuntarily. Every thrust makes you lose your breath, the slap of skin and your shameless moans filling the air. He’s stroking places inside you that you didn’t think were possible, making your head swim and your eyes water as he picks up his pace. Your body is putty in his hands, soft and malleable to mould to his will, to bend to his every whim - and you want to. 

Toji reaches for the hem of your shirt and pushes it up and over your breasts, tugging down the cups of your bra without pause and grabbing all the flesh that fits into his palm. “Such pretty tits,” he croons, pinching your nipples roughly and grinning when you yelp and start to squirm. Bowing his head, he drags his tongue over your heated, damp skin, swirling it around the stiff peaks before pressing wet kisses to them. “Who knew you could be so fuckin’ cute, hm?”

“Fuck, please Toji!” you mewl, bucking your hips clumsily to suck him in deeper, to pull him closer and grind your clit against his bristly pelvis. 

“I like ya like this,” he grunts, kissing you messily. His fingers travel down, gliding over your navel until he finds where his cock pistons into you, slowing down a little to catch the slick dripping down your skin on the tips of his fingers. He smears it up to your clit, rolling his hips rhythmically as he draws quick circles around the stiff little bud.

“Gonna cu- ah!” you cry, thighs trembling. Releasing your wrists, he pins you open, giving you the chance to finally throw your arms around him and dig your nails into the scarred skin of his back. 

“Go on,” he pants. “Cum on my cock, sweetheart. That’s it.”

For a split second, your vision turns white as you squeeze your eyes shut and convulse around him, clinging onto him for dear life as his thrusts grow disjointed. Your breaths are shaky as your orgasm ebbs and he pulls out, tugging on his cock roughly before cumming himself with a satisfied groan, abs flexing as he spills his thick spend over your tummy.

“Fuck,” he groans to himself, still hovering over you as you both catch your breath. “Shoulda done that sooner.”

“My legs are cramping,” you complain breathlessly, trying to unwrap them from around his waist.

“We only went once,” he scoffs, despite rubbing soothingly at your aggravated muscles, his fingers kneading at them firmly. 

“Yeah but I’ve never had something that big inside me!” you shoot back, flustered. He laughs, his eyes twinkling with amusement. 

“Thought you ‘wanted me regardless’?”

“That was in the heat of the moment,” you huff, cheeks burning. Toji’s hands on your thighs slow down as he lowers them, letting your feet rest on the ground. 

“So ya didn’t mean it?” 

“I did.”

“So ya want me?” 

“No!” you say, grimacing as you sit up and feel the stickiness between your thighs. Sighing, you take his hand in yours, rubbing your thumb over his knuckles. “Can we talk about this after we’ve cleaned up? I feel gross.”

Toji tugs you up off the couch, catching you when you stumble on shaky legs. “Alright.”

You shower separately, which gives you both a chance to ruminate on what just happened between you. As you lather shampoo into your hair, you reluctantly examine the past couple of months. 

Whilst he is rough and boorish, you can’t deny the unlikely bond that you’ve formed. He took you in when the rest of your world looked down on you, when you had nowhere to go. He fed you, clothed you, gave you somewhere warm to sleep, even encouraged you to stand on your own two feet. The gentle, soft side of his heart is undeniable, partially buried alongside his wife - but it’s still there, living on in his tender touch in honour of her love. The part of it you’ve experienced has touched you so deeply that an unexpected fondness for him has flourished.

Then there’s the simpler side of you, the side that stares shamelessly at his ruggedly handsome features and the strong contours of his body. There’s no denying your attraction, ever since the first night you met. Just thinking about what transpired earlier makes you rub your sore thighs together, still feeling the echoes of his fat length buried deep inside you. 

Turning the water off once you’re done, you lean your forehead against the cool tile and shut your eyes for a moment. He gets on your nerves and flusters you to no end, that much is plain. But what baffles you most is the soft smile that creeps over your face unbidden every time you think of him. What gives you pause is the little skip in your heart when you come home to him, excited to tell him all about your day. Or when he touches you and happy little sparks tingle through your veins.

Plopping down into a seat opposite him at the little dining table in his kitchen, the two of you share the meal he finished preparing whilst you were showering. You prod at your rice distractedly, splitting a grain between your chopsticks. Unsure of what to say, you glance up and find that your companion is fidgeting too. Apprehensively, you wet your lips.

“Toji?”

“Hm?”

“Do you- Should we um. Should we talk about it now?” He hums again but nods slowly.

“Go on.”

Sucking in a nervous little breath, you sit up a little straighter. “Okay I… I uh- I meant it.”

Toji raises his eyebrow at you. “Thought it was ‘heat of the moment’ or whatever?”

“It was,” you admit with a sigh, feeling your cheeks flood with heat. “It was but… It’s true.”

“So… What does that mean, exactly?” he smirks, clearly enjoying how you squirm under his questioning gaze.

“I- Oh, I can’t say it!” you whine covering your face with your hands in embarrassment. Toji laughs, deep and rumbling. 

“Why the fuck not?”

“Cos it’s embarrassing!”

The sound of a chair scraping against tile makes your ear twitch, closely followed by the soft pad of slippers, but you refuse to budge. Warm fingers wrap around your wrists, gentler than earlier but no less firm, prying your hands carefully away from your face. He’s crouched beside you, so close that your breath catches.

“Look at me.” 

“No,” you say stubbornly, squeezing your eyes shut. “If I can’t see you then it’s less embarrassing.”

“God, yer so annoying.”

“So I keep hearing,” you sniff. 

“Say it,” he says softly. “I won’t laugh. You can keep your eyes closed if it makes ya feel better.”

“Promise?”

“Mhm.”

“Okay. Okay. God this is so stupid,” you mutter. It feels strange trying to form the words with your lips, shaping them awkwardly around thin air a couple of times, like your own body is opposed to your confession. But you manage to get the words out, albeit reluctantly. “Fine. I like you.”

“What are ya, sixteen?” he teases, chuckling when you whine in protest.

“You said you wouldn’t laugh!”

“I’m not laughin’!” he insists, but amusement spills from him anyway, deep and joyous in a way that makes your heart pound and soar.

“You are! I take it back, I don’t like you at all!”

Suddenly, he lifts you out of your seat, ignoring your screech of surprise and pulls you into his lap instead, settling down on the cool floor. His arms are caged around your waist, pulling you flush against his chest, until you swear you can feel his pulse thump against yours.

“Liar,” he whispers, brushing your hair back clumsily as your eyes flutter open into a pathetic glare. He kisses your pout away, swallowing your gasp with his lips. “I can’t stand liars,” he says, kissing you again. 

“Good thing I’m not lying then,” you mumble into his mouth, unable to stop yourself from smiling cheekily.

“Stop talkin’ and kiss me.”

Life begins to change. Toji dares to let his softness out more and you make an effort to dial it back on ‘being stuck-up’ as he calls it. When you’re not annoyed at each other, living together is pleasant, and being together even more so. You don’t think anyone has ever filled you with such warmth before, at least, not how he does. It’s not the gooey, sticky sort of affection you often see on the TV, but it’s soft and comforting.

There’s no label for what you are, not yet at least, but you’re okay with that. The two of you are still struggling with the past, but now you have a hand to hold when you navigate the pain. And having a hand as big and warm as Toji’s makes you feel safe.

Despite all of this, you still butt heads and it almost always ends in the same way. Arguments end with the two of you naked and under the covers, each sporting your fair share of bruises and bites. Bickering ends with you pinned against a wall and Toji with wet fingers and a wetter chin. Trying his patience usually gives you a sore throat or a red backside. But when you’re tired and sweet after a long day and there’s no bite left for your bark, it ends with you in his arms, your head pillowed by his broad chest.

Life is better.

There’s just one small issue. 

Not quite an elephant in the apartment, more a buzzing fly that reminds you of its presence every so often, hauling your worries out from the back of your mind and thrusting them into the limelight. See, you can’t help but wonder about what goes on in that head of his, what truly lies in the depths of his shielded heart. Judging by actions alone, you should be sated and secure. But you don’t know how many layers lead to his core, how many times you have to score him with your scalpel to peel them all back and figure him out. 

Your worries manifest sooner than you think.

There’s a storm raging outside, rain smattering heavily against the windowpane and rattling their aged frames. The wind howls and it’s dark and gloomy for a Saturday, but you’re warm under the kotatsu with your lover, who leans back on his elbows, watching you lazily through his overgrown fringe.

You gave up playing black jack an hour ago, conceding to let him teach you to play after going round in circles trying to pick a movie. Needless to say, you can’t quite get the hang of it. Either that, or Toji is an excellent player. Or he’s cheating. Regardless, you’re now attempting to build a tower from the discarded cards, tongue poking out in concentration. Unfortunately, no matter how hard you focus, the cards collapse yet again and you groan exasperatedly.

“How do they make this look so easy?” you mumble to yourself.

“Glue.”

“Obviously,” you say sarcastically, sticking your tongue out at him when he smirks and you give up, letting the cards lay flat in front of you. Instead, you crawl over to him, clambering into his lap so that you can straddle him. “I’m bored,” you pout, throwing your arms around his neck. “Entertain me.”

“The fuck am I, a clown?”

“You sure look it with your hair in your eyes,” you tease, pushing the strands back and revealing his pale forehead. “You need a haircut.”

“I haven’t had time,” he says, gently tugging your hand away. Your nose scrunches in annoyance and he leans forwards to nip the tip of it affectionately.

“Oh! Why don’t you let me do it for you!” you suggest, perking up at your own idea. 

“Have you ever cut hair before?”

“No, but how hard can it be?” you shrug. Hopping off his lap, you wrap your hands around his bicep and tug. “Come on! It’ll be fun!”

“Fine,” he relents with a roll of his eyes. “But fuck it up and it’s my turn with the scissors.”

Ignoring the evil gleam in his eye, you drag him to the bathroom, flicking the light on and pushing him down by the shoulders to sit on the edge of the tub. You rummage through his little cabinet, triumphantly pulling out a pair of scissors and a comb, completely missing the way his eyes cloud slightly.

After thoroughly wetting his hair, you get to work, combing it out so that it plasters against his skull. Like this, the back hairs reach down past his nape and his fringe falls well past his eyes. “This won’t do,” you tut, snapping the scissors a couple of times, a little too gleefully for his liking. You take a lock of hair and trap it between two fingers, running them down the length to straighten it out and gauge where to start trimming, the way your own hairdresser used to. 

And then you begin.

The snip of the scissors echoes off the bathroom tiles as you work your way around his head, tilting it this way and that and grimacing a little when it looks wonky. It’s shoddy work by professional standards, but you reason that he doesn’t style his hair anyway so it shouldn’t be too obvious. You're lost in your task until he speaks up quietly and makes your hands pause.

“Surprised they’re not rusty.”

“Hm?” Raising the scissors to eye level, you inspect them carefully, noting that the blades are a little dull but otherwise functional. “Oh yeah, they were right at the back. I didn’t even think you’d have a pair.”

“They’re not mine. They were my wife’s.” Something twinges in your chest at the mention of her. He doesn’t speak of her much as it is, but the moments he does, an ache flares and you feel on edge. 

“Oh,” you manage. “Did she cut your hair too?”

“Yeah,” he says, smiling to himself, dipped in longing and melancholy. “She was kinda like you, y’know.”

“How so?”

“Clumsy,” he chuckles. “She loved tryin’ her hand at new things even if it didn’t work out. The first time she cut my hair, one side was an inch longer than the other. When I pointed it out, she told me I was seein’ things.” You laugh along with him, but it sounds hollow to your own ears.

“You really miss her, don’t you?” you murmur, running your fingers soothingly through his hair. He leans into your touch with a sigh.

“Yeah. Always. She was the love of my life”

It feels like a boulder has been dropped in your stomach.

You can’t even compare to that lofty position in his heart.

How can a few words feel so heavy? How is it possible for him to put a crack in your heart like that? With such nonchalant ease? They echo in your mind, corner to corner, distracting you to the point where you nearly cut his ear. Quickly, you finish up, wanting to escape the stuffy atmosphere hanging in the bathroom. 

“Done,” you tell him quietly.

“Thanks,” he says, standing and kissing your forehead, not noticing the wetness shining in your eyes. Peeking into the tiny mirror above the sink, he inspects himself with a satisfied hum. ”Not bad for a first timer.”

You leave him to shower off the remaining hair clinging to his skin, retreating back to the living room. Shoving your legs under the kotatsu, you lean forwards and rest your forehead on the table, squeezing your eyes shut to stave off the burning sensation building behind them.

Rationally, you know it’s shitty of you to be jealous of a dead woman - she’s not coming back to take your lover away from you. You know that. And she was his wife, his family. A loss that deep stays with you forever. You know that.

And still. 

It’s not fair.

It’s not fair that she has a hold over him even though she’s not here. It’s not fair that sometimes, in the wee hours of the night, he still exhales her name as he sleeps. It’s not fair that you sometimes catch him looking at you with longing, but like it’s not you he’s seeing. It’s not fair that he admits to loving her so easily and not you. She may be dead, but she lives on forever in his heart with him, a place you may never be able to reach.

Quietly, you allow the tears to fall, sluicing down your cheeks in hot streams as your shoulders shake with your sobs. You gulp down every noise, every sharp intake of breath, squeezing your lips together tightly so that he won’t hear your pathetic little sniffles. Your heart aches in your chest, a visceral pain that makes you crumple in on yourself, forcing you to curl up to make it ebb. And it’s at this moment that you come to a devastating realisation.

You are in love with a man who will never love you back. 

As quickly as you find bliss, it begins to slip through your fingers.

It may just be your imagination, but it begins to feel like Toji withdraws from you more often. Part of you wants to do the same, to pull back and see if he’ll reach out and tug you back in. The other part of you wants you to double down on your efforts, as if trying harder and being more sweet and obedient will endear him to you. 

Unfortunately, in your limited experience, neither method has worked before. Your ex didn’t care for your effort, nor did he even bat an eye when you left without a word. An ugly part of you likes to tell you that Toji is the same, that he doesn’t care if you stay or go. That you mean absolutely nothing and your relationship is built on convenience because he misses human touch and warmth. Because you make a good distraction from his grief. 

His latest ‘job’ also takes up a lot of his time, and he’s away more than usual, sometimes days at a time. Being alone is difficult, especially with the tumultuous state of mind you exist in. You can’t help but let your thoughts wander to where he could be going on these excursions.

It’s like there’s a chasm that’s opened up between you, yawning wider the further you journey, pulling your once joined hands apart until you’re clinging on by your fingertips. There’s nothing you can do as the distance grows wider and the inevitable approaches.

It’s the reason you find yourself in that same barstool once again, looking less out of place than the first time. A glass of water sits before you, condensation pebbling on the sides and dripping down to pool on the streaky surface of the bar. The bartender chooses not to warn you away this time. After all, you’re not his problem - he’s not telling you again. So he lets you sit quietly, morosely running your finger around the rim of the tumbler.

I’ll be at the bar after you finish work. Meet me there.

That’s all he had said to you before you left for your shift, ignoring your look of confusion as he disappeared without another word to go and shower. You’d stood in the genkan for a few minutes, mind racing with reasons as to why he would want you to meet him at the place where everything began. To fix things? Break them off? You’ve been plagued by questions all day, distracted from working until you finally clocked out and headed back to the start.

Now here you sit, waiting for your lover, wondering if he’ll even turn up. Each time the door opens, you peek up, hoping that it’s him, deflating further when it’s not. Eventually, you give up on checking, sipping from your glass and fighting the sting in your eyes. 

A hand jolts you from your musings, large, warm and familiar.

“How long have you been here?” Toji grumbles, tugging out the stool beside you and sitting down.

“Nice of you to finally turn up.”

“Somethin’ came up,” he says vaguely and you roll your eyes, keeping them focused on your water.

“Obviously. Why did you call me here?”

“To talk,” he says simply.

“We couldn’t have done that at home?” He regards you carefully for a moment before he calls for the bartender and orders a drink. Silence pervades the space between you as he waits for his beer, promptly taking a draught and sighing heavily once he swallows.

“So… Why are we here?” you ask again, watching him rub his chin irritably.

“Cos I haven’t been fair to you. I know the past few weeks have been rough with me bein’ away a lot,” he admits slowly. “But it’s not just that. I don’t want you to take this badly but I realised something.”

“What is it?”

“I guess- I’m still grieving.” Another pause. “I’m still in love with her.”

And there it is. 

You’re not sure how you expected to feel once hearing his confession. Mostly, you feel empty. Wrung dry. The past few weeks have been difficult indeed, between being lost in your own head and the constant arguing - you are emotionally drained. What should be making the tears spill down your cheeks, makes you feel bone-tired instead.

“I know,” is all you say. Toji takes your hand in his, running his thumb comfortingly over your knuckles.

“I’ve been tryin’. I swear.”

“I know.”

“I wanna love you. I really do.”

“But you don’t,” you say bluntly, pulling your hand away. “How am I supposed to compete with a dead woman?”

“You’re not competin’.”

“Toji.” You say his name quietly, letting the syllables roll off your tongue gently. “You don’t have to force yourself.” 

Frustration marks his brow as he takes your hand back and squeezes it somewhat defiantly. “I can’t keep livin’ like this. I know that. Let me fix this, I just need a little time. Can I have that?”

“I don’t know.”

Abruptly, he tugs you out of your seat, tossing a small wad of notes on the bar before leading you out into the cool night. The frigid air kisses your skin and makes you shiver, so he pulls you into his side, wrapping a thick arm around you to lend you his warmth. The gesture makes your traitorous heart flutter, even as it cracks down the middle. 

“Let’s go get some ramen,” he suggests, guiding you down the vaguely familiar route. Humming noncommittally, you let him string you along the pavement, not missing the way his arm tightens around you slightly. Strong gusts of wind try to slip between you, like nature itself is trying to pull you apart. But he holds fast and refuses to let go. Not yet, at least.

The ramen shop is exactly how you remember it. Warm and cosy, quiet at this hour. It smells just as good as it did last time, transporting you back to your first meal together. You sit at the same table and the ramen that arrives looks exactly the same. But when you take your first bite, there’s no fervor, no eagerness to the way you eat like there was back then. You eat delicately, slowly, and despite your taste buds exploding with flavour, something doesn’t taste quite right. 

Bitter.

Like the taste left in your mouth from Toji’s words is still sitting heavily on your tongue, disrupting the savouriness of the broth.

“How was yer day?” he asks conversationally.

“Fine.” The tense air sits heavily on your shoulders when you don’t elaborate, weighing you both down until he speaks again in an attempt to shatter it.

“I’m uh, leavin’ again tomorrow.”

“So much for fixing things,” you scoff quietly, stabbing at your noodles. He sighs heavily, fixing you with that intense stare he looks at you with when he’s deadly serious.

“Look, this is the last time for a while. I’ll be gone a week and then I’m all yours.”

“Really?” Hope leaks into your voice as you set your chopstick down. 

“I promise. Is that okay?”

Eyeing him warily, you nod, a little bit of relief daring to soothe your heart. He gives up on small talk after that - it’s really not a strong suit of his, so you eat in relative silence, the only sounds coming from the kitchen and your slurping and chewing. The silence is a little easier to breathe through as you finish your meal. He promised. That has to mean something. 

He unlocks the door and you both toe your shoes off once you get home. Barely two steps inside and his arms are around your waist, lips brushing softly over the delicate skin of your neck. Out of pure habit, you let your head loll to the side, inviting him to explore the planes of your throat with his mouth. His teeth graze lightly over your pulse point before he travels up to kiss at your jaw and cheek.

“I meant it,” he whispers, voice husky in your ear. Warm hands slip under the hem of your hoodie, his thumbs stroking at the soft skin of your belly. Resting your hands over his, you loosen his grip and tug him towards his room, not even bothering to flick any of the lights on as you turn to face him.

“Show me. Show me what I mean to you.”

That night, Toji makes love to you with a sweetness you’ve never felt before. Every drag of his lips on your skin is warm and tender, tracing paths over every contour of your body. His touch is almost reverent, fingers gripping at you with a restrained desperation that kindles hope in your heart. His whispers of praise make you mewl, back arching into him to pull him closer, to make him yours, because he’s all you have in this awful world.

When he pushes his cock into you, he groans your name like a benediction, breath hot on the shell of your ear as his hips fluidly roll back and forth. Toji clutches you to him like this is the last time he’ll be inside you, the last time he’ll get to pour his love into you with just a brush of his fingertips. There’s almost a finality to the way he fucks you, stretching out every last sensation like warm taffy, prolonging it until he’s forced to let go.

You lose count of how many times he’s made you cum, how many times he’s filled your cunt, how many kisses he’s branded into your skin. Over and over, again and again, until your tears dampen the pillow, equal parts pleasure and sorrowful yearning. Until he’s burying his head in your neck and his strong arms shake and give way, winding around your waist.

“Don’t let me let you go before we’ve even gotten anywhere,” he murmurs, kissing the hollow beneath your ear. “Give us a chance.” You’re too incoherent to respond so you offer him a sleepy nod and snuggle into his bare chest, drifting off to sleep with a warmer heart than you started your evening with.

Morning arises bright and cool, but you’re snugly wrapped up under the sheets with your lover, the cold unable to nip at you from the safety of his arms. Toji is already awake as you stir, offering you a gruff ‘g’morning’ before he starts to untangle himself from you - or he would if you weren’t clinging to him so tightly.

“I gotta go, sweetheart,” he says, gently prying himself out of your grip. “I’m meetin’ someone in a couple hours.”

“Plenty of time for you to stay with me a little longer.” Shaking his head fondly, he leans down to kiss you softly, cradling your cheek in his palm. 

“I can’t.” His expression is apologetic as he breaks free of your hold, not missing the dejected look on your face when he straightens up. “Don’t look at me like that. I’ll be back before ya know it.” Huffing, you slump back into the pillows, drawing the duvet tight around your neck to ward off the chill. You watch him longingly as he exits the room, still completely bare from the previous night.

Compared to last night, you feel better. The tightness in your chest has loosened some, though you still remain dubious. A couple of promises and a night of love-making doesn’t quite cement his words the way you’d like, but it’s a start and you can’t help but feel hopeful. Despite this, something sits in your gut, a quiet anxiety that you quickly dismiss as hunger despite the way it makes your skin prickle. 

The feeling persists even after you bid Toji goodbye, pressing one last longing kiss to his lips, fingers curled into the dark t-shirt he’s wearing. “Stay safe,” you murmur into his chest. “I’m not patching you up again.”

“I’ll be fine,” he grins reassuringly as he pulls away, tucking a stray strand of hair behind your ear. “Don’t worry yer pretty little head about me.”

“I’m serious, Toji.”

“So am I. I’ll be home before ya know it.”

The apartment is unnervingly quiet once he’s gone, amplifying the feeling of dread that’s been swishing around your stomach all morning. The feeling doesn’t abate as the day wears on and night falls again, even when he calls you as you’re falling asleep. It spreads through your body like a disease, crawling sluggishly through your bloodstream day after day, steadily approaching your fragile heart. 

The calls stop after the fourth day and that’s when it begins to suffocate you.

A week passes by and still, there’s silence despite your periodic calls throughout the day. He hasn’t returned like he said he would. Worry gnaws at you ceaselessly, devouring your ability to eat and sleep, making you sick to your stomach. You have no idea where he is, if he’s even okay or- 

No. He can’t be. Not like this.

Not when he promised to come home. When he looked at you like he meant it. When the two of you have so much left ahead of you, so much to explore and learn about the other. When there are places you want to go together, dates you want to pester him into taking you on, finding out who that damn empty crib is for. Not when you want to tell him properly that you love him. When you’ve just decided you’re going to wait for him to love you too.

Our story ends where it began. 

You, seated atop that same barstool once more, in that dimly lit bar, alone. 

A shrouded figure, tall and lean stops a few feet away from where you sit. You catch sight of a lock of long, dark hair and long, elegant fingers. Caught between two of those fingers is a small, rectangular envelope. The figure places it on the bartop and beckons the bartender over, murmuring something quietly to him before swiftly making their exit. The bartender eyes you sympathetically before sliding the envelope over to you.

“I’m assumin’ this is for you,” he says.

On the back, in an untidy chicken scratch, is your name. The envelope is stained with dried, bloody fingerprints. 

Oh bitter, bitter, irony.

You’re in love with a ghost too. 

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isagi eating you out oneshot incoming!! interact if u want a tag <3

will be posting it when i come back home from school and i’m really excited to show you guys :3 he is so special to me so i’ll probably make more lovey dovey oneshots for him soon !! (though this one was just pure filth oops)

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dad! ushijima x reader

in which,, your husband wakatoshi has a sixth sense when it comes to your child

contains,, mentions of injury (there are none), uh,, falling babies??, ushijima being such a dad, c o c o m e l o n

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it's a very slow day.

it's too cold to be outside at the moment, so you and your family settle on staying inside and staying warm without the comfort of your home. the only light on at the moment being the small lamp on the mini table by the side of your couch. you and wakatoshi are nuzzled on the couch together, you scrolling aimlessly on your phone while ushijima skims through the thin sheet of black and white newspaper. in the background you can hear the droning of cocomelon as Mrs. appleberry sings about washing her hands. or... something like that.

in between the two of you however is your 18 month old son, connie, who occasionally giggles and claps as he watches the bright colors portrayed on the television.

you would describe Connie as extremely energetic, watching as he always zooms across the house, giggling and babbling as ushijima chases him around.

this was one of those days in which the energy gets the batter of your son. he's standing on the couch, bobbing up and down on his chubby, little legs as he watches his show. you look up from your phone, pouting at how close he was to the edge of the couch.

"connie" you call out, with no response, of course.

leaning over, you gently lift up your son who's eyes were still glued to the television, sitting him down instead. you coo to him,

"gotta be careful, sweetheart. you could fall" you say, speaking in a soft tone but authoritative enough for him to give you a small coo in return. you know that trying ng to get conniento sit down was fruitless, as he prefers to stand up. you smile before leaning back against the couch, shutting your phone off before closing your eyes and resting your head against wakatoshi's shoulder. he looks up from his paper, eyes now trained on you.

"sleepy?" he questions, and you respond with a slight nod of the head. he could always tell.

"mhm... such a slow day" you yawn "just wanna nap."

"you can nap."

"I know.. but I wanna stay up with you two" you mumble, glancing up at him. your eyes had only left poor Connie for a moment as the two of you spoke. and it all happens so fast.

"well" wakatoshi starts, "I don't mind watching the—" and he pauses suddenly. within wakatoshi is a flash of realization and suddenly, for some odd reason— he's thrusting his leg out, effectively stopping poor Connie from tumbling down from his place on the couch. you yelp and throw your hand on your chest, heart racing. ushijima glances at your face, the both of your eyes widened at his reflexes before he's leaning over and picking up Connie who's eyes were still glued to the television

"hey, little one" wakatoshi mumbles, turning Connie towards him so that he faces him

"you almost got hurt. you're so full of energy, you know that? you gave me a heart attack."

" cu cu"

right. that was Connie's special way of saying "coco", which is short for "cocomelon". poor thing doesn't even know half of what's going on.

you giggle as toshi sighs, leaning over and placing Connie back on his play mat, on the floor and in front of the television before leaning back, shaking his head in the process.

"that was—" you shake your head in amusement, not being able to find the words. "how did you even do that?"

"you want the honest answer? I've got no clue" he sighs

"you're like Spider-Man"

"you think so?"

"uh, yeah!" you smile wide, laughing softly as wakatoshi's eyes peer into yours, "you were so quick and just— thank you, toshi" you mumble that last part.

"please, don't thank me." his hand slivers under the covers and entwines his fingers with yours, "I promised to protect him, afterall. it's what I'm supposed to do."

you smile, squeezing his hand all while never pulling your eyes from his. wakatoshi presses a soft kiss to your lips, and you try to push push down the smile making it's way into your face. when you pull away, you feel a tug on your pant leg. Connie is by your leg, up once again, one hand steadying himself on his feet while the other clenches and unclenches in a silent plea to be picked up.

"hi there, my little angel." you coo to him, smile wide as you lift him into your arms and on your lap. toshi scoots closer and from the corner of your eye, you can see a ghost of a smile on his face

"you bein' bad, hm? causin' such a ruckus" you baby talk him, and he only giggles in response, chubby hands resting on the sides of your face— in which you giggle back in return.

"I think he's only up here for the remote." wakatoshi chuckles, and you pout at him, averting your eyes for a second.

"he's not. he wants to be with mama, right—" you huff and stand corrected as Connie was, in fact, only reaching for the remote. of course he didn't know how to use it, but he knew that he wanted another episode of his show.

you sigh, "waka, honey?"

"already on it, love"

wakatoshi presses play on the next episode, and the three of you settle back into the couch and under the blanket. you tune out the television, going back to leaning your head against your husband's shoulder.

"still sleepy?"

"yeah..."

"that's alright, dear. rest up."

drowsiness overtakes you, and the last thing you're aware of is the giggling of your son and the soft pressure of your husband's lips against your temple.

and you finally allow yourself to fall into a peaceful slumber with the care of your husband. perhaps he has a sixth-sense for all things.

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Toxic ex husband gojo getting us pregnant is such a superior thought 😩

𝐆𝐎𝐉𝐎 𝐒𝐀𝐓𝐎𝐑𝐔 | 𝐀 𝐌𝐀𝐓𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐎𝐅 𝐃𝐄𝐋𝐔𝐒𝐈𝐎𝐍

cw/ tw. fem!reader, mildly dubious consent, jealousy, unprotected sex, mentions of trying to get pregnant, cheating (but not with Gojo and reader), manipulation (kinda), obsessive behavior, breeding kink, reader's bf is an oc, pet names (ex. pretty girl, baby) | wc. 800+

an. mmk hear me out on this.

Toxic ex-husband!Gojo who doesn’t take it well when you tell him you have a boyfriend after bumping into him in the grocery store parking lot. At least, you don’t think he does. It’s hard to tell, his expression inscrutable as ever behind his dark sunglasses.

“Is that so?” he finally says, and for some reason, it makes you nervous. 

“Yeah…he’s nice.” You rattle on about how you met your boyfriend, Rin, through a friend, how he’s an investment banker and takes you out to his cabin on the weekends, and wants kids—

He smiles, and you relax a little. “That’s good. I’m happy for you.”

But if you weren’t so up in the air about bumping into your ex after several months of silence—since his mom invited you over for the holidays—you’d realize how dangerous that smile is.

Toxic ex-husband!Gojo who starts showing up in odd places after that.

First, it’s at your favorite coffee shop you usually stop at on your way to work. It’s weird because you remember him hating coffee, loading it with creamer and sweetener just to get rid of the bitter taste. But you don’t mention it when he offers—no, insists on paying for your coffee and blueberry streusel muffin.

He shrugs, smiling, after you tell him it’s expensive—when has that ever bothered me?—and slides a shiny black card across the counter to the barista.

The second time is while you’re walking through the quaint park near your place, which you know is far from his sleek penthouse on 5th Avenue—a thirty-minute drive, at least.

“I bought a house out here. The one up on the hill,” he tells you. 

You know which one he’s talking about. You’ve driven past it before, a cozy brick stone with lots of windows, a white picket fence, and a large backyard.

According to a real estate website, his house is a little over a million. 

Interest must be written all over your face because he asks, “You want to see it?”

Obviously, you shouldn’t say yes.

“Sure.”

Toxic ex-husband!Gojo who watches you take in the hardwood floors and tall ceilings trimmed with crown molding. When you stop in the massive kitchen, something you’ve always wanted, he eyes you questioningly. “So? What do you think?”

The smile you give him is genuine. “It’s beautiful.”

Gojo matches your smile with a bigger one, almost blinding. “That’s good, that’s good.”

Toxic ex-husband!Gojo who suggests dinner—friends can have dinner together, can’t they?—which leads to two glasses of wine and then watching movies on his very soft couch. If you were more aware, you probably would have noticed the signs sooner, the house, that he avoids any conversation around Rin, that maybe he’s trying to—

Toxic ex-husband!Gojo who presses you into the couch cushions, biting marks into your neck and chest until your breaths come out fast and high-pitched.

“We shouldn’t,” you manage to say, still tipsy and tongue heavy in your mouth from the wine you had.

He chuffs a laugh against your cheek, pressing a kiss there. “Doesn’t this remind you of old times, though?”

“B-but I have a boyfriend.”

In retaliation, he sinks his teeth into the tender flesh around your fluttering pulse. 

Toxic ex-husband!Gojo who bunches the lace of your panties in his fist, shoving them up around your knees, trapping your legs together against your chest. A long, drawn-out groan rumbles in his chest at the sight of the creamy mess between your thighs. “Such a pretty wet pussy, fuck.”

Toxic ex-husband!Gojo who holds his hand up to your mouth, telling you to lick before he wraps it around his cock, pressing the tip into your slick cunt. And you forgot how big he is, just on the side of too much, the bit of effort it takes for him to sink in a little, and then all at once, rending you right down the middle.

“There you go, pretty girl,” Gojo breathes, hips tight and close, grinding into you so that you can feel how deep he is. “I see you can still take it.”

Toxic ex-husband!Gojo who fucks you hard enough to send you skittering up the couch, only to pull you back down again. You whine into where your face is pressed against the back cushions, biting down to muffle how loud you’re being.

He tuts and forces you to look at him again with his fingers digging into your cheeks.

"What if I give you a little baby, huh? We'll be a family together. You, me, and our baby in this big house. Doesn't that sound nice?" he mutters, bending down to suck a nipple into his mouth, forcing your legs further against your chest.

The angle rubs just right inside you. You make an unintelligible noise at the back of your throat, unable to move or get better friction in this position.

“We did it your way last time, didn’t we, baby?” his little laugh is breathless, kind of mean. “I let you leave, but now we’re going to do it my way from now on.”

His words should strike alarm bells in your head, but when he fits his hand between your bodies to strum his thumb against your clit, your mind empties.

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