COURTNEY EATON As LOTTIE MATTHEWSYELLOWJACKETS | S01E10,Sic Transit Gloria Mundi

COURTNEY EATON as LOTTIE MATTHEWS YELLOWJACKETS | S01E10, Sic Transit Gloria Mundi

🪐 — spotify wrapped memes : @shadowcovcn ( frenchie ) for izzy # 66 61 ▶ free by florence + the machine

❝ THIS IS HOW IT IS — how it's always been. ❞ they're alone in the captain's cabin, just the two of them, & izzy allows himself to watch frenchie's hands with open appraciation as they gracefully move over the strings of his lute. with the wedding fast approaching, the new captain & his first mate had a surprise performance to plan. & given all that they'd been through in recent weeks, it felt only right to celebrate their collective survival. a little strange, maybe, but somehow fitting. ❝ we exist in the face of suffering & death & somehow still keep singing. ❞

spotify wrapped has arrived. send me a number from 1-100 for a starter based on that song, or a lyric from it, or send a 🎁 for me to shuffle.

some little blog updates :

● i'm working on a new carrd, but it's a slow process. thanks for your patience ! ● i'll be adding back some old dropped muses, as well as some new ones & some "secret menu" but requestable character options that are really just here for my friends ( & sometimes one specific friend lol). stay tuned for the full, updated list. ● i'm going to consider this blog to be in a state of permanent semi-hiatus for the next year or so while i'm in grad school. activity until then will remain spotty. ● on that note, i think i'm going to unfollow some folks that i haven't yet interacted with. while i really wish i could write with everyone, the truth is that i'm just not in a space to accept new partners at the moment. so unless we already write, it will likely be awhile before i have the time & energy to reach out. until i graduate, this blog will be pretty much entirely geared towards my existing partners & close friends who have gotten used to waiting actual eons between replies.

thank you all for your understanding ! i genuinely adore every single one of you !

🪐 — spotify wrapped memes : @shadowcovcn ( edward ) for izzy # 98 ▶ rodeo by lil nas x

THOUGH HE'D THREATENED to leave more than once over the long years they'd sailed together, it had always been spoken out of frustration, empty of any genuine truth. but izzy can tell by the hard look in ed's eyes that this is different — this is real. ❝ i thought you would stay with me. ❞ terror wells up inside him, the idea of a future without his captain at his side utterly unknowable. ❝ i'm yours, you're mine. ❞ his hand flexes, longing to reach for ed. but izzy resists the urge toward gentleness, as he always does. instead he curls his fingers into a fist at his side, well-worn leather tightening over his knuckles. even now, his body remembers its place. yet his voice proves more difficult to control, words that are entirely-too-honest spilling out of him in a panic before izzy can stop them. ❝ & what am i gonna do ? i don't have a clue — there is no me without you. ❞

🪐 — spotify wrapped memes : @walkpathe ( edward ) for stede # 63 ▶ i love my baby by nina simone

WHEN HE WAS A BOY, stede had always hoped that he would someday marry for love. of course, that not being the case, he had ultimately found marriage to be a rather uncomfortable endeavor. but now, with edward's eyes both shy & hopeful as they wait for his answer, stede knows in his heart that the arrangement he proposes would be nothing like the constricting obligatory institution he'd experienced before.

& so, smiling, he carefully slips a ring from his own finger — the turquoise one they had exchanged on that first day they'd met — & gently onto ed's left hand instead. ❝ just say you love me, & we'll go find a preacher man. ❞ stede was certain that they could find some wayward holy man that was either drunk or poor enough to perform a bastardized wedding between two men. & if not, well, they could always ask a captain to marry them at sea, just as lucius & pete had done. ❝ we'll live our lives together. hand in hand. ❞