Mynameisntlame - Es Me B

It just occurred to me that “I love you it’s ruining my life” could be interpreted two different ways:

1) I love you (partner) and it’s ruining my life (the life that I’ve built for myself with other people and the public)

2) I love you (fans) and it’s ruining my life (private life and relationship)

I’ve been thinking about it as the first one this whole time and I still think that’s probably how she means it, but I’m also now enjoying thinking about the possibility that she’d use both interpretations in the song (we know she loves a switch up of lyric meanings throughout the song)

Like she misses interacting with her fans and the public and the outside world and it’s causing issues in her private relationship bubble

But then she realizes that that’s her life — that’s the life she always wanted and that she worked so hard to create for herself

So it becomes ‘but I still love you (YB) and it’s getting in the way of me living my life how I want to live it’

One of the most life-changing things I ever learned came from Mythbusters, where they tested and proved (with cognitive testing puzzles and reaction time tests) that lying down and resting with the intention to sleep STILL provided significant mental benefits over just staying awake, even if a person couldn’t fall asleep in the amount of time they had. 

It helps me to actually sleep to know that just lying down with my eyes closed is still doing me some good, and helps me to not freak out/beat myself up when I stay up later than intended. Any amount of rest is better than no rest!

So if you didn’t know that…now you do

“I vowed not to cry anymore” to “am I allowed to cry?” pipeline