Currently Thinking About Guilty As Sin?

Currently thinking about ‘guilty as sin?’

Maybe it’s her reckoning with how much she blamed herself for their problems and fights in past songs (e.g., afterglow “it’s all me in my head / I’m the one who burned us down”)

And she’s finally acknowledging that not all of the guilt she felt in the past was justified and it wasn’t all her fault

So it’s “guilty as sin?” because she’s questioning it (or being sarcastic about it) like ‘oh was it really all my fault?’ (Also probs ‘oh was I really just too much to handle? Was there really no one in the world who could take it? Or could you just not take it??’)

It just occurred to me that “I love you it’s ruining my life” could be interpreted two different ways:

1) I love you (partner) and it’s ruining my life (the life that I’ve built for myself with other people and the public)

2) I love you (fans) and it’s ruining my life (private life and relationship)

I’ve been thinking about it as the first one this whole time and I still think that’s probably how she means it, but I’m also now enjoying thinking about the possibility that she’d use both interpretations in the song (we know she loves a switch up of lyric meanings throughout the song)

Like she misses interacting with her fans and the public and the outside world and it’s causing issues in her private relationship bubble

But then she realizes that that’s her life — that’s the life she always wanted and that she worked so hard to create for herself

So it becomes ‘but I still love you (YB) and it’s getting in the way of me living my life how I want to live it’

if there’s so much love in the world, why do so many people feel unloved?

i think it's more that there's endless potential for love in the world rather than that the love is automatically there. giving love openly is a skill, but so is learning to identify and accept that love. both actively require that you practice doing them. many of us are out of that practice--on both fronts--or simply never learned how to begin with, i think.

You need to draw and make art or else all the images will stay in your head and you'll get sick