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Justice gives birth of Queen Pt 5

Justice cries hysterically. Her birthing plan included Julius holding her in a birthing pool in their living room. Julius missed the remainder of her pregnancy and now he is going to miss the birth. Justice has been so stressed out and unwilling to accept his calls. Her new reality of being a single parent has caused her to develop heart problems. Justice is in the operating room - daydreaming about the old days. Walking to the swamp to watch the fish with Julius. Seemed like it was yesterday. They used to spend every day together, until she got pregnant. 

Dr April: Alright, Justice are you ready? Justice? 

Justice: huh? 

Dr April: Baby is about to be born. 

Justice can feel her baby being pulled from her body, and all she can think about was Julius. Why did he destroy this family? What was he thinking? He should be here. In fact Justice doesn’t think she would have needed a C-section if Julius did what he was supposed to do as a man. He was a man of great words. He always knew what to say to make things ok. He made the simplest things feel like magic. Justice was grieving Julius while bringing in new life. She was traumatized. She eventually developed postpartum disassociation and depression.

Queen: waahhhhhhhh wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh 

Dr April: Awwwwww Justice! Here is your beautiful baby girl! 

The world seemed to stop spinning a hundred miles an hour when April handed Queen to Justice. 

Justice: Omg .... *hysterically cries again* 

Dr. April: Would you like to breastfeed her? 

Justice just started at Queen. She had no words. Her physical pain was gone, but the emotional pain had just begun. She is a mother now. A single one. Though this child was made out of love, Justice doesn’t feel anything for her. She is disconnected and numb. She has completely disassociated herself from her baby girl, Queen. 

A significant minority of women can suffer from postpartum posttraumatic stress disorder (PP-PTSD) following childbirth, in particular if involving obstetrical complications. While peritraumatic dissociation has been repeatedly shown to play a significant role in coping in the aftermath of trauma, little is known about peritraumatic dissociation in relation to positive adaptation following childbirth or failure thereof.

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Justice gives birth of Queen Pt 1

The stress of Julius being gone became too much for Justice and the baby. She missed him dearly and worried about their daughter. 

Justice still had 4 weeks to go but unfortunately, she couldn't make it to her due date. She goes into labor. 

Justice wasn’t sure if she was feeling the real thing or imagining it. 

She had contractions for 12 consecutive hours.

Justice tried taking a shower which helped her back pain. 

She took a short nap and woke up wet. The contractions were unbearable at this point, and she could not walk. She called her obstetrician who advised her to call an ambulance. 

15 minutes later.....

Justice was wheeled out of her home on a stretcher. The nurse monitored her and found her heartbeat through the roof. They rushed her to the hospital out of fear she could stroke out. 

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Justice gives birth of Queen Pt 3

Justice is still waiting for an ultrasound. She has been waiting for 2 hours in the hospital room. She gets frustrated and decides to taxi a ride home. After taking a hot shower. She tries to take a nap but ends up nearly passing out from the pain, she decides to head back to the hospital. 

She arrives and tells the receptionist her water broke earlier, and the contractions are crippling. They whisk her off to the ultrasound room.... 

Dalia: Your cervix is dilated by 3 centimeters. We will have to get you admitted to a birthing room on the other side. 

Justice: Will the baby be ok? Im only 36 weeks.

Dalia: Your baby is measuring at 8 pounds already. The lungs look strong. I will consult with the doctor but it looks like you are having a baby today or tomorrow. 

Justice is freaking out. She doesn’t have anything for the baby. She doesn’t have any money. She hasn’t been to work since before she got pregnant. She worries about her future. 

Dr. April: Hello. I will be your delivering obstetrician. I have been told you have been in labor for 24 hours now and you are finally in active labor. I will be checking with you in an hour, ok? Did you need anything? 

Justice: Pain relief...... 

April: Ok. I will be right back. 

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