Finding Out How Much Calories Me Being At Work Burns Was The Best Thing Ever I'm In A Ok Deficit Already

Finding out how much calories me being at work burns was the best thing ever I'm in a ok deficit already (when I work my 1800 becomes like 600-800) and once I lower my calorie intake I might even get into the negatives on work days, plus the walk there and back and the small exercises I do at home<3

Moots?

Aye, Sure! at least I don't have to preface that I'm a rambling mess because well look at this account :3

Holy shit never mind, I looked into it and a 7 hour work day is like 2000 calories for my body weight<3333 that's on a low shift!!! I usually work 8+

Finding out how much calories me being at work burns was the best thing ever I'm in a ok deficit already (when I work my 1800 becomes like 600-800) and once I lower my calorie intake I might even get into the negatives on work days, plus the walk there and back and the small exercises I do at home<3

Started counting calories again.

I'm a fat fuck unironicaly, I know everyone feels like they are a fat fuck but I am medically really fuckin overweight not gonna be posting stats or anything

I gave up last time because a friend convinced me not to, but I'm thinking if I just save my calorie budget for when I'm around them I'll be good to go

Budget right now is 1800, really fuckin high I know but last time I tried to get healthy I got really dizzy a lot and passed out I found out that it was because I lowered my calories to fast pretty sure a slow lowering also helps with not letting your body go into starving mode or whatever it's called where you can't lose weight.

God I hate purging, but my family had pizza tonight and mom took me out for a birthday lunch, both things I couldn't get out of

I never feel empty enough if I purge, the only way I can stop is when I feel my throat burning with stomach acid even then I force myself just a little bit longer, oh well I have a tasty 10 cal ice tea waiting for me on my bedside along with some blades and bracelet making stuff, fucked priorities I know but hey I enjoy making bracelets<3

Crying pissing shitting I'm out of gauze.

Fuckkkkk

The store is closed tomorrow too

Ugh at least I was able to use the last bit to stop the bleeding for my shift today

But it means I gotta be clean tomorrow or I guess I don't what do you think chat?