I Forgot How Angsty The Heart-Sick Max AU Actually Was And How I Also Thought About A Different AU Where

I forgot how angsty the Heart-Sick Max AU actually was and how I also thought about a different AU where Kelly ended her own life die to hate...YOU GUYS SHOULDN'T LEAVE ME UNSUPERVISED AND WITHOUT @jeezlo, only angsty or crazy shit will happen

0:00, Saturday, March 12 2022 I don't really know what I should think of today. Sure, I'm finally 18 and can live my life without the control of my parents, but what should I do if I lost the reason why I was happy being outside? I lost my dog back in 2019 over a human-created mistake. He was 16 and hyper, active and just the perfectly furred brother, I was 15, grew up with him being my older brother, and he had stopped eating and lost his strength. We didn't bother checking up on him and gave him a week before we put him to sleep. It wasn't fair, he saw my first steps and I made a promise to him to help him to experience my 18th birthday. I can remember the feeling when my father told me to stay in the waiting room, after I kissed his head for the last time and started to crumble, everyone in the waiting room looked at me and I couldn't care less. I'll lose my light. At the end, we put him down for a rotten tooth and I'll forever carry this shame with me. Had I checked up on him carefully, I would have seen this. I was ready to spend every cent of my savings for his operation if he needed one but it all was for nothing. If someone dies, humans need three years to get over the death of the died one, but I can't get over it, not when I'm responsible for killing my beloved one. Since that day, I promised him to try and to keep pushing, for him and for myself. I met the most beautiful people during that time that helped me through this blame, but alas, some were only there to destroy the path I slowly built and I had to protect myself against them. And now, being the 18 years I promised him go get to, I have no clue what else I'm supposed to do. Without @jeezlo, I think I'd float inside my mind, not able to take even a step into a direction of where I might wanna go, but thankfully, she became my soulmate, a real one I have to say. It feels like a reward from my brother, him saying "You did it Sarah, I'm proud of you" and I'll gratefully take this gift of his, cherishing it for the rest of my life. Thank you all for being with me, especially @jeezlo and @HELLOKITTYSLA0:00, Saturday, March 12 2022 I don't really know what I should think of today. Sure, I'm finally 18 and can live my life without the control of my parents, but what should I do if I lost the reason why I was happy being outside? I lost my dog back in 2019 over a human-created mistake. He was 16 and hyper, active and just the perfectly furred brother, I was 15, grew up with him being my older brother, and he had stopped eating and lost his strength. We didn't bother checking up on him and gave him a week before we put him to sleep. It wasn't fair, he saw my first steps and I made a promise to him to help him to experience my 18th birthday. I can remember the feeling when my father told me to stay in the waiting room, after I kissed his head for the last time and started to crumble, everyone in the waiting room looked at me and I couldn't care less. I'll lose my light. At the end, we put him down for a rotten tooth and I'll forever carry this shame with me. Had I checked up on him carefully, I would have seen this. I was ready to spend every cent of my savings for his operation if he needed one but it all was for nothing. If someone dies, humans need three years to get over the death of the died one, but I can't get over it, not when I'm responsible for killing my beloved one. Since that day, I promised him to try and to keep pushing, for him and for myself. I met the most beautiful people during that time that helped me through this blame, but alas, some were only there to destroy the path I slowly built and I had to protect myself against them. And now, being the 18 years I promised him go get to, I have no clue what else I'm supposed to do. Without @jeezlo, I think I'd float inside my mind, not able to take even a step into a direction of where I might wanna go, but thankfully, she became my soulmate, a real one I have to say. It feels like a reward from my brother, him saying "You did it Sarah, I'm proud of you" and I'll gratefully take this gift of his,

Thank you all for being with me, especially @jeezlo and @hellokittyslasher, I don't think I could've survived the past month without you two being by my side. I love you❤️ And I'll forever love you, my furred big brother, please stay with me during the nights when things get too dark. I'll never forget the smallest things you did for me, like waiting with me for my bus to come and barking at it when it drove away, like telling the driver "You better take good care of my girl!", I might not be able to see you any longer, but I know I'll see you again in either my dreams or my memories, I love you forever my beautiful star❤️❤️

I know you'll also be my moon in the night, seeing as you're always in my reach of sight whenever I look out in the night, trying to find you up there, hidden between millions of stars.

Daily reminder that @jeezlo and I love each other and our minds being connected 😌❤️

I love him, but his look rn reminds me of a stylish prisoner on his way to steal girls' hearts TT

LOOK AT HIM. FUCKING LOOK AT HIM.

how perfect can someone be

May I introduce you: my dearest @jeezlo and I on a daily basis

Sascha and Ralf talking about Mick's crash and showing a replay explaining why he crashed... Sure, Ralf's Mick's uncle but why do we need a replay?!