Nyanyannyanayna - Beware Of Catboy

My favorite relationship dynamic in fiction is a worshipper and their God. Not a literal God, but their God. The only thing in the whole world that matters to them. I will live for you, I would die for you, I would kill for you. My only moral compass is You. You can do no wrong in my eyes and I will never stray from your side. I was born to meet you and to love you. You are the only being I pray to. Your life isn’t just my passion, it’s my religion. You don’t think you’re anything special but you don’t see what I see. You don’t see that you’re the only person who’s ever made me feel this way. You don’t understand how beautiful you are to me and I will devote my entire life to making you understand and accept it.

IM SO FUCKING HUNGRYYYYY

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As an adult still living with their abusive parent, I often find that affirmations meant to empower me are unhelpful at best. They often feel like they're overstating the amount of agency I have as an adult; I've spent my entire life being abused. It's all I know and I have a lifetime of conditioning and nervous system damage to show for it.

All that doesn't just go away now that I'm older than 18, and neither do the material circumstances that keep me here. Even though I have more legal rights and have grown since I was younger, I am still not in control by the very nature of being the victim in an abusive relationship. So, for those who relate, here are some affirmations that might hit different:

My abuser does not have my best interests in mind, even if they think they do.

I am my own person; my mind and body belong to me.

My feelings are justified, and I deserve to feel and express them.

I am doing what I need to survive, and that is all I need to do.

I am doing my best given the knowledge, resources, and support I have.

I am the only person who can decide what is best for me.

My situation is unfair and wrong. I deserve to be happy and safe.

I do not have to engage in toxic positivity; that will only hurt me.

As long as I am alive, there is something good in this life for me - no matter how small.

I have inherent rights just because I exist.

I shouldn't have to deal with this on my own; I deserve support and protection.

Everything I need is something I deserve. Everything I deserve is something I need.

If any of these don't resonate, feel free to discard them. Everyone finds comfort and empowerment differently.

Guardian/Zhen Hun by Priest - Read & Watch

Updates to the list by @dtriad and shen-weis-strap.

I recently broke down when I found out that Guardian/Zhen Hun has been removed from Viki and YouTube as of June 2022. So, I am posting an updated list of sources for novel, drama, and other Zhen Hun content.

Read Guardian/Zhen Hun in English:

Guardian Carrd links novel translations in multiple languages, and lots of other content.

UPDATE: English translation confirmed! Preorder through Seven Seas

Chinese Novel with cards & other content

Novel Updates with chapter by chapter translations.

Watch Guardian/Zhen Hun with English Subs:

Note: Many people are wary about openly sharing these sources because of the licensing situation.

Watch all episodes on Bilibili.

Watch all episodes with subtitle options via Mega folder, shared by @mojoflower in the notes!

If the links don't work for you, send me a DM. Let me know you are asking about Guardian with Eng Sub.

Meta content:

Fan Wiki for drama and novel.

@avenuex123 (Avenue X on YouTube) makes a lot of content about the drama and novel, as well as a Mandarin Audiobook reading.

Names are meaningful in Chinese culture, so here are some posts taken from the list by dtriad: On Chinese Names, Honorifics and Titles, What characters call each other in Guardian.

Additional Content:

OST Soundtrack on YouTube.

Spotify Album compilation.

Ye Zun and Jia Jia deleted scene posted by @zhu-yilong-shrine.

List of Cut Scenes by cyberbrain.

Novel Confession Reading by Bai Yu (Zhao Yunlan) posted by @dtriad.

(◍•ᴗ•◍)✧*。

I will do my best to keep updating as I find more info, or if anyone shares more sources! This will be linked in my pinned post moving forward. (I got locked out of @shen-weis-strap and now post on @shen-weis-strap2.)