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Everything is going according to plan, no one knows what I am doing or what I am planning.

I have nightmares in my head, but when I put on the helmet they disappear.

To be honest, it scares me

my sharp indifference

and now I understand what it is to burn out

From time to time, it happens to me, and everything becomes indifferent

I don't think I'll ever hurt as much as I did that night.

when i have no reason to live

when I, closing my mouth with trembling hands, burst into tears

and in the morning no one could have thought what I experienced a few hours ago

i'm disgusting

My life with a depressive look Tell me why this is all and is it necessary For a month now I have been going to bed in the morning, I wake up with the hope of falling asleep, I look in the reflection, my eyes are red. Well, how much do you need to suffer in order to feel the air in yourself again The atmosphere is painfully saturated with every gray street, dirty spring in the soul. I'm used to, I knew that I would remember everything



Why does everything hurt so much at once?

Why is this happening? Why does it hurt so much and why is it so hard. I have always been indifferent to people, and I didn’t feel much sympathy for them, I understood that if some connections are beneficial or useful for me, then what can I use, but I’m used to people leaving, but I don’t expect that if a person stays for a long time, then you can get used to him, but people are not constant, and tend to change, and in which direction, you never know, but there was so much good, even if it was bad from the outside, but I wanted to smile .

Stress is a quiet and slow death, it is not seen or heard. Today is such an evening, with time it becomes more and more difficult to contain everything accumulated, and this makes itself felt. It is already night, but the pain in my heart does not go away, and my hand is still numb, there is noise in my ears, and I try to sleep, but I understand that I will not be able to sleep. I don't know how much longer I can hold on, but I'll try

You have no idea how much I love dogs... After all, we are so similar in soul

Well, another day has passed, and it would seem that a new one will begin soon, but this morning I woke up with an unbearable desire to die, right now at this moment, to tears, but ... I was able, I was able to overcome him, why am I with him I’m at war, I don’t know if there is a reason, I think yes, there is a person who is ready to listen, but he already has so many troubles, because I, this night I have insomnia, I will take a pill and put my body to sleep, and here I am lying and sniffing, I eat perfume, in places, probably strange, but today I felt the familiar smell of perfume, I don’t even know why, maybe these are my memories.

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