They Hurt Me

they hurt me

Neil "You can never play Exy again" Josten and Jean "Exy is the sole purpose of your existence" Moreau

Neil "I have no choice but to run" Josten and Jean "I have no choice but to stay" Moreau

Neil "I have to be alone" Josten and Jean "Do not leave me alone" Moreau

Neil "~10% of my internal monologue centers around hiding my scars" Josten and Jean "what?" Moreau

Neil "I don't swing" Josten and Jean "the cruelty behind these nonstop temptations" Moreau

Neil "no one can know how fucked up I am" Josten and Jean "everyone keeps saying I'm fucked up?" Moreau

Neil was being chased all his life but Jean had already been caught :/ :/

Foils of all time

Kevin Day is my absolute favorite character of all time ever but I get how someone wouldn't like him because he's also a cold, conceited, massive bitch.

And he cares so deeply for so much

He offered to talk to Neil about his time at Evermore knowing how triggering a conversation like that would be because he also knew that at that moment, he was the only person that would understand what Neil had gone through and being there for Neil was far more important than his own comfort

He grew up in an environment where expressing passion for anything other than exy was a huge vulnerability, because if Riko knew what mattered to you, he knew exactly what pressure point to press on until you cracked, and despite that Kevin loved history so much that he convinced Riko to major in it with him.

Everytime Kevin traveled somewhere he bought two postcards. One he would hang on his bedroom wall with a caption, and the other he would send to Jean with a note. He also collected magnets as souvenirs to give to Jean.

He agreed to keep all of Neil's secrets after finding out his identity. He told Neil to seize his only opportunity to live by running even though he knew it would wreck the foxes' season. After finding out that Neil intended to die at the end of the year, he still agreed to train him every night because even though the pay off from that investment of his time would never reach it's full potential, it was worth it for how much the season meant to both of them

He made Jean promise to stay alive for him, because he couldn't bear to lose him. He made Andrew promise to stick around long enough for Kevin to find something for him to live for because he couldn't bear to lose him either (at first because Andrew meant protection, but later because Andrew meant family).

He didn't tell Wymack that he was his father despite how much he must have been craving a closer relationship with him because he was so scared of what would happen to Wymack if Riko or Tetsuji thought they were losing their investment.

He taught himself to be ambidextrous after his dominant hand was brutally broken because exy is everything to him. This sport that masked and caused every cruel injustice to happen to him and the people he loves still meant absolutely everything to him. He trained every night to overcome the lasting effects of the abuse he faced and he proved to the world that he's the number one best exy player out there.

He's a raging alcoholic, he's fighting off several panic attacks at any given moment, he's vehemently proud of his team, he absolutely adores Jeremy Knox, he has respect for no one but the USC Trojans, and that's the team he chose to send Jean to, because he knew and trusted that Jean would be safe with them. He covered his tattoo with a queen chess piece because he's the best player on the board, he pushes everyone to their full potential, he's the hardest on himself, he's cold and distant until he's with Jean and then he's soft and gentle, he's rarely kind and he's a bottomless pit of guilt, and he's so brave despite the fact that everyone calls him a coward.

He grieved Riko's death, his abuser, his brother, his owner, his partner, this violent force of nature that swept through and destroyed everything in his path, because they also loved eachother in a twisted form of obsession and codependency.

Kevin Day is an arrogant, rude, petty bitch, but he's also so determined, so dedicated, so committed to everything he loves. He never does anything halfway, and he's an endless well of passion. He cares so deeply for so much.

Someone explain the Kevin love to me /gen

I read the books but I really didn’t get attached to his character/pick up on much? But he’s a fan favorite. What am I missing?

niche but the kevjean and fenglian parallels?? hello??? The doglike loyalty of the one standing in the shadow to the one who's casting it. Looking up to him and also being the only witness to his suffering. Forging a chance for himself but having to leave the other one behind in exchange. Clawing his way up from the hole he was put in but not having the strength to pull the other up too. Choosing themselves over the other for the first time and regretting it forever, while perfectly aware they would do it again, would have to do it again because it was the only way for them to survive. Being the only one aware of their endless pain, but never seeing the full extend of it. Maybe they would've stayed if they would've been aware. They were never apart until that one faithful day.

Reconnecting with a world of pain and unsaid things between them, they're the person they care about most but they don't speak anymore. "Are you injured" and they're both thinking about when he used to patch him up with bloody bandages all those years ago. I don't blame you for leaving but you didnt have to cut my throat on the way out.

Guapoduo family dynamic

(The Foxhole Court, ch.11 // The Raven King, ch.4)

I'm sorry, but can we take a moment to talk about how insane this is? I see loads of people talk about Andrew breaking his racquet to save a goal, or only letting in 13 out of 150 shots from the Ravens, but I don't see anyone talking about this.

Andrew is such a good goalkeeper that his teammates will fire shots towards their own goal, fully trusting him to get it. What other team would risk using their own goalkeeper as a way to get the ball around like that? It's such a risky move, and the Foxes pull it off with Andrew constantly.