Yandere Bakugou X Idol Reader - Part 5
Yandere Bakugou X Idol Reader - Part 5
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It started unexpectedlyâwith a tremor.
Rather, it started with Oda Shuichi, the prolific villain known as Tremor. At the time of the incident his quirk had been unregistered, but doctors quickly found that it severely affected an individual's motor neurons. According to them the length of time that he has a five point touch hold on someone influences how long they will lose motor functionâand how poorly their muscles atrophy.
Shouto spent three uninterrupted minutes trapped in his clutches.
âI promise Iâll come by and visit whenever we can. Youâll still get updates and reports through your work email,â Midoriya tried to assure him with that signature smile, brows drawn together into an almost pleading expression. âItâs just for a little while!â
âFor a month,â Shouto pointed out petulantly. Nori, his elderly adopted cat, stirred from her place on his stomach while restless fingers combed over her short pale fur.
âA month,â Midoriya parrots. He offers an apologetic grimace and leans over where he lies horizontal, slumped and agitated, to fluff up the couch cushions behind him. The newly crowned Symbol of Peace obviously felt needlessly responsible for the situation at hand. After all, Shouto had only allowed Tremor to grab him so Deku and Suneater could get the hostages out.
âTaking a break isnât so bad, Shouto. And Hawks told me youâve yet to actually use any of your vacation days,â he continued. âEven Kacchan takes time off. Do you know how many hours you have to work to outdo Kacchan?â
âIâm sure you could tell me exact numbersâ.
âDonât be mean,â Midoriya said, dithering as he peers around the room, now slightly unfamiliar now the furniture has been temporarily moved around to make navigating the space easier. Thanks to an on-call specialist Shouto would still be able to walk in short bursts, but heâd have to gradually build up strength and stamina over the weeks to come.
A pleased sound reverberated in Midoriyaâs throat as he finally discovered the TV remote, setting it beside Shoutoâs phone on the arm of the chair. âOkay. There,â he hooked an ankle around the coffee table and dragged it a little closer. âIf you need us to get you anything from the store just text usâ.
Shouto grumbled. Midoriya sighed, fondly exasperated at the childish display. Before leaving he moved the nearby pair of crutches within reach, listing off all the things he can think of, âHey, maybe you can catch up on Quirky Hearts now! Or read that series Iida said youâd enjoy. Thereâs that new app I heard about, too. Enigmail? That might be funâ.
The anonymous pen pal app, Enigmail, exploded in popularity after its release in the spring. Shouto barely knew a thing about it, only that you needed to be over eighteen and chatting partners were assigned at random. Nothing about that sounded tempting.
Midoriyaâs suggestion hung over his head for the rest of that afternoon. Quirky Hearts droned on in the background. Halfway through the first episode Shouto had yet to retain any information. Nori hardly left her spot. Jaws stretched wide around a yawn, lips pulled back to display what remained of her teeth. He liked to think she sensed his inner turmoil, though realistically, she was likely too lazy to move.
Curiosity prevailed in the end. The logo featured a pink post mounted mailbox, the slot unhinged to receive a folded paper plane. Shouto opened the app onto a pretty basic interface that followed an almost pastel theme. The profiles are barebones. He supposed that was purposeful. It asked for pronouns and a nickname, offering the option to pick an icon from their default library, but nothing more.
From what he could discern skimming over the rules he would be assigned to a random chat room with another person in a speed dating style interaction. A timer would count down from two minutes and upon completion prompt the user to either switch partners or remain talking.
A simple concept. But anything had sounded better than sulking horizontally and staring dead eyed at reality television for the remainder of his night. And when was the last time he met somebody new?
Almost every username he could think up had been taken. Even his hero name was unavailable. In a last ditch effort he settled on a miraculously accepted Sooba and scrolled through the icons. âHey, it looks like you,â he murmured, pleased by the regal white cat icon. She hadnât heard him, but sunk her dull claws into the meat of his forearm as he turned the image to her, those dramatic yellow eyes dilating at his coo, âDonât worry. Youâre the only Nori in my lifeâ.
Shouto clicked start.
The first few users are odd, and without tact. Others communicated in languages he couldnât understand. He stuck around regardlessâluckily the developers had thought to include a translation tool, and Shouto managed to befriend one or two people with innocuous pictures heâd taken on previous patrols alone.
Then thereâsâŠ
XpLoveGuest â» Hey sexy
By that point early evening had already flooded through his balcony doors and drenched everything in a gauzy orange glow. His nose wrinkled. âYou have no idea what I look like,â he thought aloud, switching to his right hand to roll the ache from his left wrist
â» ASL?
Shouto frowned in faint confusion. He minimised the app to search up the term. Results flowed in, and after a brief look over everything he discovered they all repeated the same description. Itâs an old acronym.
His thumbs tapped across the keyboard in quick succession.
Sooba â» Age: 27 â» Location: Tokyo â» Sex: No thank you
The chat immediately disappeared. A loading symbol blinks in the centre of the screen. He snorted, and suddenly a new chat opened with a different username blinking at the top corner. Itâs a bit on the nose.
âInsertNameHereâ.
You shared the same default cat icon, which he took as an immediate plus.
But a minute elapsed and nobody spoke. There was an unusual trepidation on your part. Shouto chewed his bottom lip. He contemplated starting the conversation when suddenly three dots skipped across the screen, indicating the other user was typing something.
InsertNameHere â» Youâre not going to send me a picture of your dick, are you? â» If you have one that is.
Shoutoâs mouth parted in soft surprise, then pressing defensively thin, and he had glanced around his living room as though someone were there to witness this weirdness alongside him.
Sooba â» I have one.
InsertNameHere â» Ok. Well I donât want to see it.
Sooba â» It sounds like you see a lot of dicks.
Not once taking his eyes away from the screen, Shouto felt for the TV remote and paused the show, brow arching at your next response.
InsertNameHere â» And it sounds like youâre new here.
Sooba â» I am. My friend recommended I try this to cure my boredom while I recover.
A few beats passed. He eyed the countdown looming over your shared interaction, conscious of how little time is left. You were the first interesting person heâs come across. Though he supposed that isnât saying much.
InsertNameHere â» Recover? That sounds bad. Are you alright?
Sooba â» Injury at work. Iâll be fine in a few weeks.
Just as you were beginning to respond, the timer cut out. Shouto reflexively expelled his frustration and Nori lifted her head toward the abrupt movement of his chest, ears twitching. She blinked up at him in disapproval for shaking her. âSorry sweet girl,â he murmured, wearing a small smile as he scratched under her chin. So temperamental.
A familiar pop up in the cartoonish shape of a postcard covered the chat. Your messages blurred into the background. It read: Do you wish to continue corresponding?
Shouto clicked âYesâ. And apparently you did too, because your contact pinned itself to his in-app mailbox.
A melodic chime pinged from his phone. Confetti burst across the off white background in pixelated blooms.
â CONGRATULATIONS! You have a new pen pal â
InsertNameHere â» Guess I can keep you company in the meantime. â» Youâre the only sane person Iâve come across so far.
Shouto smiled, even as the muscles in his cheeks protested. Itâs a stubborn reminder of his condition. He repositioned himself to lessen the strain on his wrists, chin tucked to his chest where his phone is propped, and said:
Sooba â» Iâd like that. :)
The fortnight that followed is slow to pass. An endless cycle of wake, stretch, eat, lightly exercise as instructed by his physiotherapist, play with Nori, eat, watch Quirky Hearts, stretch. Midoriya stopped by, bringing Iida along with him. Jirou sent him playlists to listen to. Fuyumi called every evening and shared the phone with his mother, gentle in their fretting. He assures them all that heâs coping just fine from the Shouto-shaped depression in his couch cushions.
But thereâs also you; the stream of consciousness keeping his seams together, lest he fall apart from the complete and utter boredom heâs been forced to endure. In the beginning he wasnât sure of the rules. Talking online is not his forte. Neither is making new friends. That entire first morning was spent ruminating whether or not texting you âgood morningâ was strange, and estimating how many times was appropriate to message you before he violated some invisible social boundary.
Normal had been irrelevant until now. Normal, to Shouto, consisted of avoiding his fatherâs phone calls, sending the occasional concussive text messageâindecipherable to even the greatest cryptanalystsâand giving Nori updates in the 1A Grad group chat.
Sometimes heâll open the app to see you typing, pausing, typing. Imagining you, a faceless someone, equally uncertain about your footing pleases him a little. In the end he figured if you didnât want to talk to him, you wouldnât respond. Evidenced by how you often saved him the trouble by messaging first, sometimes as early as five o'clock in the morning. Apparently you worked irregular hours in a rather unpredictable industry. Shouto weighs the possibility that you might be a fellow heroâor something closeâmore than he cared to admit.
Any trepidation he felt would always dwindle as soon as a notification lit up on the screen. He reads your username and his insides turn over.
InsertNameHere â» Iâve escaped to the break room. â» Do you ever think about how we donât have muscles in our fingers? How fucked up is that?
Shouto smirks, pulled away from the conversation at hand. He unlocks the phone in his lap, beneath the kotatsu to remain hidden, an attempt at being inconspicuous as he replies.
Sooba â» I try not to think too much about anything.
You throw back a few laughing emoticons and satisfaction washes over him. âYouâve been texting a lot. Whoâs got you smiling like that?â Natsuo asks slyly. Heâs cross legged, tie tossed irreverently over his shoulder, shirtsleeves rolled up to his forearms, having come straight from work. âA special someone?â
Shouto forces the muscles in his face to relax into feigned nonchalance. âNobody. Nothing,â he says unconvincingly.
Rei enters the room with a modest tray of dango before Natsuo can open his big mouth. Sheâs wearing a bi-coloured hoodie. The sleeves slip as she sets the treats down on the table beside the green tea Fuyumi brewed earlier; another gift from Yaoyorozuâs family travels. Natsuoâs face twitches under Shoutoâs unbroken stare, which is daring him to bring it up while their mother is here.
Then his phone vibrates and any possibility of peace is shattered.
His mother glances curiously at him, expression soft in the dewy afternoon light, and she smiles. âAre you speaking to one of your friends?â she asks. âPlease tell Deku âthank youâ for sending me your new Shouto hoodie. Itâs very warmâ.
The words fill something cavernous inside him. Soothes the ache with gentle wonderment. She smiles down at his hero logo printed proudly across her chest, rubbing the hem between her finger and thumb. A younger Shouto could have only ever imagined it.
âIâm not so sure itâs a friend this time,â Natsuo teases, spoken with a playful, sing-song cadence. âShouto wouldnât text at the table and risk facing Fuyumiâs wrath just for a friendâ.
Shouto does not pout. âI would risk anything for my friends,â he says, affronted; anything maybe except his older sister's well intentioned nagging. ââŠItâs a new friend, thatâs allâ.
Rei perks up, settling on her knees and laying the kotatsu blanket over her thighs. The quiet sound of plates and cups clinking together fade in from the kitchen. Natsuo hums, unconvinced, and hides a smile behind his mug. It's moments like this, when the people he loves are gathered in one place, and he can hear them in every corner of his home, that heâs glad for buying a smaller apartment.
âThatâs wonderful, Shouto,â Rei murmurs as Fuyumi pads into the room, Nori not long behind her, threading through his elder sister's ankles. She too arrived right after work, donning a suit-skirt and blouse. âWhatâs their name?â
His thoughts stutter. Fuyumiâs nose wrinkles seeing the panic stark on his face. âWho are we talking about?â
âBeats me. Ask him,â Natsuo says, taking a stick of dango between his teeth as he tries not to grin when Shoutoâs phone vibrates a second time. âI want to know whoâs so eager to talk to my little brotherâ.
InsertNameHere â» Sooooobaaaaaaa â» Iâm on my lunch keep me company
Shouto snatches up his phone to respond. He brings it closer to his face to allow Nori access to his lap. She monopolises the space instantly. âYouâre not a teenager anymore, Shouto,â Fuyumi laments. âNo phones during family timeâ.
âI know. Iâm sorry, nee-san. I just need toâŠâ his thumbs dance over the keyboard, head ducked in amalgamated shame and apology.
Sooba â» Question â» InsertNameHere â» What is your name?
InsertNameHere â» At the personal info stage already? You move fast. â» Tell me yours and Iâll tell you mine.
That stirs a faint unease in his gut and he understands better then. Anonymity is what gives people a sense of security and he isnât exempt from that. In truth, right now he doesnât want to know what might change if you knew who was on the other end yet.
Sooba â» You can call me whatever you want.
âShoutoâ.
InsertNameHere â» Thatâs not even a line is it. â» Man. Youâre dangerous.
Sooba â» ???
Shouto stares at the flickering dots by your username. You type, then stop. Type, then stop. As if you were deleting and starting over again. A habit of yours heâs quite endeared to. âShouto!â Fuyumi huffs, poking a manicured finger into his side. Though short, the nail still causes him to flinch, and heâs quick to stretch his phone out of reach as her hand swipes through the air. âI mean it!â
Nori is jolted. She voices her immediate displeasure and Rei titters into her sleeve. The sleeve with his name stitched into the fabric. He breath catches, like it always does when his mother laughs. âShouto doesnât have to tell us anything until heâs ready,â she assured, offering him a gentle lookâa look so sincere he feels awful for being evasive.
And his feeble resolve fractures.
âI donât know,â he confesses bluntly. Natsuo and Fuyumi frown, at one another and then back at him, in unsettling synchrony cultivated through siblinghood. Shouto shrugs and pulls at a stray thread in his jeans cut loose under Noriâs claws, âI canât tell you a name because I donât know itâ.
Natsuo appears mildly surprised. Fuyumi sinks into disbelief, feet curled beneath her body, going lax at his side. She drops her arm. âYou⊠donât know it?â she repeats.
âThe app is anonymous,â he supplies hastily, attention flickering to his mother, far more worried about discerning her reaction. Sheâs unreadable. âMy name isnât on there either. We just talk about stuffâ.
âStuff?â his siblings' voices overlap, told apart only by the difference in tone. Natsuoâs shock has melted into some strange mix of pride and innuendo. âIs it that penpal thing everyone has been talking about? Enigma?â
âEnigmail,â he mutters. Natsuo lights up. Fuyumi does not share the sentiment.
âYouâre a hero, Shouto! What if itâs someone with bad intentions?â she frets, brows drawn down and together, mouth pressed thin. âThey could be tricking you. The internet is rife with predators, andâ!â
âNee-san. Iâm a grown man. I understand the importance of internet safety,â Shouto interjects.
Natsuo slumps onto the table with a mawkish sigh, the sound steeped in fondness. âLet him have fun. You know heâs right, âYumi, heâs an adult. Itâs a wonder where all that time went,â he says. A few beats later heâs abruptly straightening his spine, âGods, Fuyumi. Youâre almost thirty five!â
Fuyumi glares from behind her glasses. She reaches across the kotatsu and swats lightly at his bicep, âDo you have to say it like that? Youâre thirty one!â
âPlease. Stop arguing,â Shouto says. He pets the unperturbed cat curled up on his thighs, âYou might startle Noriâ.
âShouto. Sheâs deafâ.
Rei cuts their bickering short as she breathes, âWhen did you all get so bigâŠâ a serene smile hung on her lips, not a hint of grief to be seen. The answers surrounding your identityâor lack thereofâare lost to the nostalgia cloying in his throat.
They return to enjoying tea and dango after that. Shouto sets his phone face down on the floor and turns off vibrate. For now, he wants to ward off further interrogation.
His mother intuits this and steers the conversation in another direction, âNatsuo, how have things been at your new job? Are they treating you well?â
Things are good. Fuyumiâs class would soon be graduating, an award for Best Teacher polished and positioned on her desk. Natsuo had landed the job he always wantedâa medical welfare officer working closely with trauma survivorsâand was already making waves. His mother, Rei, finally finished cultivating her traditional garden, weaving tales of lush foliage and water spouts. Touya too has been improving in his rehabilitation programme, according to his psychiatristâs reports.
A tremor quakes through the tendons in Shoutoâs forearm as he lifts his tea to sip the remaining dregs. Yaoyorozu outdid herself this time. If he hadnât already known the price he would have discerned it from the refreshing, uniquely sweet taste. Thoughts of you cross his mind in these instances without warning. Would you like it? Whatâs your favourite tea?
Shouto scrunches his eyes shut as if it might wash those thoughts away. How is it that the stranger in his pocket possesses the ability to awaken such yearning in him; he feels mildly ashamed to have realised his loneliness with an audience.
The hour rolls into another. Shouto scrapes the last dango along the skewer with his teeth, jutting his chin to evade Noriâs curious sniffing. âThis was lovely, Shouto. Thank you for having us over,â Fuyumi expressed as she carefully ran her hand along the feline's back.
Sensing the finality, Shouto motions to stand and sets Nori on the couch Everyone protests it. He huffs, sliding a crutch over from where they lay nearby and letting it take his weight. A good decision, he thinks, inwardly grimacing as the blood rushes to his feet, prickling like violent white noise under his skin, and his knee almost gives out.
âIâm okay. The doctor told me I should be trying to move around more anyway,â he tells them, deigning to mention that he expended most of his energy tidying up this morning before their visit. âYouâre my guests. I want to walk you to the doorâ.
Shouto tries not to bristle under their wary scrutiny. A cool hand slips around his arm then. His motherâs natural chill seeps through the sleeve of his shirt and allays the irritation. âWe appreciate it, sweetheart,â she says.
âWe do,â Fuyumi gently insists. âWeâre happy to see you recovering well. Right, Natsuâ?â
âKiss tax!â Natsuo exclaims, oblivious to his surroundings. He scoops Nori up from the arm of the couch. She is comically tiny pressed against his chest. A continuous indignant drone rumbles in her throat as his brother peppers firm kisses to the top of her head.
âPut my baby down,â Shouto deadpanned.
âShe isnât your baby,â Natsuo slides one hand under Nori, the other carefully tucked into her armpits. He holds her close to Shoutoâs face. Dramatic round eyes stare back; a flat expression emphasised by prominent cheekbones. Barely a hair's breadth between them, Nori begins to swipe her rough tongue against his scarred cheek. âSee? Youâre her babyâ.
âMine, too,â Rei rises to her tiptoes and scratches behind Noriâs ear, turning a smile toward Shouto. That same hand moved to cup his cheek. Though far taller than his mother, Shouto tips his head and finds himself feeling incredibly small as she presses a kiss to his forehead. âYour hair is getting long again,â she adds as she pulls away.
âI can trim it if itâs bothering you,â Fuyumi nods, sidling up beside Rei to survey the growth together. She brushes back the wayward strands framing his face and Shouto blinks. âThough, I think I like this look on you. Whatâs it called? A wolfcut?â
âIâm not sure. This is how Mina cut it a few months ago,â he replies.
Natsuo interjects without Nori in his grasp, now notably covered in short cat hair. He claps Shouto on the back and pulls him into a firm side hug, âShe did good. Our handsome little Shoutoâ.
Initiating physical affection with his family was still a weary affair after all this time, though patently one sided. Having them touch him so freely always left him a little stupefied.
After they depart, Shouto hobbles to find his phone with all the grace of a newborn fawn. It is face down under the kotatsu cover right where he left it. And as it blinks to life, he skips the notifications from the 1A group chat to find your screen name at the bottom.
InsertNameHere â» My boss has these awful little nicknames for everyone in the agency. Mineâs âMaestroâ. Nerd and butterfingers, too, but mostly Maestro. â» To do with my quirk and role, I suppose. Good for morale etc. His creativity astounds me (àčàČÌŽ _Ì àČÌŽ) ïŸïŒ â» Not that I donât appreciate it but. Well shit, what about my morale? Lol â» You there? â» Sorry if I scared you off by getting personal.
Shouto worries at his bottom lip. Maestro. Something new about you. A foreign feeling churned in his chest. Faint, barely there, but new enough for him to notice. Heâs not sure how to pin it; whether your mention of working at an agency bothers him or the fact that others, people who are not Shouto, get to see you everyday, close enough to give you a personal nickname.
Sooba â» Sounds like you have a good relationship. Iâve got a close friend who sounds similar. People say itâs just his love language hah â» And you didnât scare me off. Iâm the one who asked. Some family came to check on me.
He barely thinks it over before adding:
â» My mother said hi by the way.
Your reply isnât immediate but it is quicker than he expects.
InsertNameHere â» Youâre right. I do like my boss sometimes. Maybe. And I love this job but I think it has aged me ten years. My ulcers have ulcers! â» Alsoâtelling your family about me now too? We really are moving fast.
A soft huff of laughter jumps in his throat. Thereâs a distant clamoring near the kitchen. The sound of Noriâs bowl being pushed around the tile. Her absence clicks in place when he looks at the clock. He should feed her soon.
Sooba â» Technically it was only my mother, older sister and brother. â» But I can relate about the work stuff.
InsertNameHere â» Yeah? You mentioned being on leave because of an injury. Do you like your work?
Thatâs a question he has never asked himself, nor has he ever felt the need to. Heroism was the path life handed to him. The path he ultimately followed of his own volition. Shouto loves his family, his friends. Heâs good at his jobâenough to have made it into the top ten. And isnât that all that matters?
Sometimes he might take a long, weary look out the revolving agency doors, gaze into the endless sheet of rain, recognise the heaviness in his bones and give the entire thing a second thought. But that never made any difference. He will still always put on his suit and hurry into the storm. Because Tokyo needed him. And deep down, he needed it too.
Thereâs a repeated fleeting urge in that instance; a temptation to tell you, if only to sate his own curiosity. To compare the idealised image of what you looked like or how you sounded. Heâs spent many a shameful night thinking up romanticised scenarios in his mind about what it would be like to meet you in real life. Shouto always squashes it. He doubts youâd believe him.
Ever perceptive to his moods, Nori chooses that moment to pad in from the kitchen and sit herself directly in his line of sight. She wails, demanding attention and lacking any volume control.
Right now he is not a hero but a man alone on two unsteady legs with a small living thing reliant upon him. Heâs just Todoroki Shouto. Heâs justâ
Sooba â» As of right now my occupation is âNoriâs dadâ. I like it pretty well.
Your reply is immediate.
InsertYourName â» Oh you have a kid?
Noriâs frustration grows. Her tail swishes back and forth, agitated. âIt isnât time to eat yet,â Shouto tells her, pulling up his phone camera and zooming in. On her next yowl the shutter goes off. The picture is perfect. Mouth wide open, large ears flat and nose wrinkled in displeasure, lips curled up to display her pink gums.
Sooba â» [IMG_0243] â» Something like that.
Itâs a risk and he knows it. Though infrequently his team has posted Nori to his social media in the past at the delight of his fansâshe was younger in those pictures, but if you were well acquainted with him there was the possibility of you putting the puzzle pieces together.
InsertNameHere â» Oh my god sooba. Sheâs so cute. Give her everything she asks for, you monster. â» Hey. Are those Ingenium themed crutch pads?
Anxiety rockets through him. He pulls up the photo and sure enough, his crutches are in the corner of the frame, laid within reach beside the couch. Secured around the handles are Ingenium themed pads to cushion his palms.
Sooba â» They are.
InsertNameHere â» Is he your favourite hero?
He turns his phone over in his hands before he types, overcome by an abrupt restlessness.
Sooba â» One of them. â» Do you have a favourite hero?
Nori wanders off in his periphery and not long after he hears the telltale sound of cardboard being torn apart. You stop typing, replies coming to a halt. He lets out a breath he hadnât realised he was holding.
It becomes clear youâre offline. Shouto spends the evening imagining your answerâducking sheepishly at the idea that you might say him, then cringing at his reactionâand reading through his work emails.
Partnering with Hawks hasnât been the worst thing in the world. Despite his carefree demeanour and general lack of personal space Hawks was professional and meticulous when it came to his work. As promised, Shouto was CCâd into every important thread and forwarded every significant incident report each day. Apparently thereâs a big fundraiser tonight that he is unable to attend.
Hawks suggests matching Endeavorâs donation in spirit. Shouto doubles his.
The night air barely touches him. Leaning against the balcony railing he surveys the cityscape. A kaleidoscope canvas. He stares until the pinpricks of light stretch and bend, streaking his vision, regaining shape when he blinks. Nori is curled around his calf, playfully kicking her back legs at his ankle. Sheâs careful to never break skin.
Itâs nearing midnight when you get back to him. A disconcertingly vague reply of:
InsertNameHere â» Iâve had enough of heroes.
Shouto waits for you to elaborate before presuming anything nefarious. He would hate for Fuyumi to be correct. Sheâd never let him forget it.
â» Shit that made me sound bad, didnât it? I promise Iâm not a villain
He snorts, reclining himself into one of the chairs on his patio. Yaoyorozu insisted upon helping decorate the space. This piece in particular had been chosen by Uraraka, if only for its cocoon, egg-like shape. She always sat in it if she came over; Shouto canât say he blames her, now curling up inside it himself, leaving one foot flat to the floor for Nori to cling to.
Sooba â» Only a little bit lol.
InsertNameHere â» I just mean for today! Iâve had enough for today! â» Thereâs⊠a whole lot of them at this work event Iâm attending is all. â» See! â» [IMG_0589]
Itâs the first picture youâve ever sent to him that wasnât a meme. Your legs are crossed, turned inward to show more of the showroom floor. There are people everywhere. Youâve overturned your lanyard in your lap, straps dotted with the charity logo, to display the back of your security pass. No identification. Just proof that youâre thereâ
Proof that youâre a real person, giving colour to the vague, shapeless figure in his head. The figure once outlined only by random tidbits, like your favourite food, the music you like, the movies you loved as a child. The figure now clad in tight fitting, seemingly pearlescent sheer material from the waist down.
âShouto swallows dryly.
You have nice hands. He tries not to linger on that.
â» Thatâs why I disappeared, btw. Sorry about that. â» I feel weirdly underdressed.
The logo on your lanyard has recognition prickling in the back of his mind. Hours earlier Midoriya had texted him two pictures from the âHEROKINDâ fundraiser Hawks mentioned. One being a selfie of him and an aggrieved Bakugo, each wearing their own fitted suit, and another of Uraraka in an evening gown stood behind the imposing silhouette that was his father, stealthily pointing her middle finger at his back.
He saved that one to his camera roll.
Sooba â» In that case I will close the HPSC anonymous tip line â» Sometimes people try too hard at those events and forget why theyâre there. You look good from what I see.
InsertNameHere â» How very gracious (ÂŽă»ïœ ) â» Sounds like you have some experience with this kind of thing. My condolences lmao â» But thank you. Iâm glad you think so.
Shouto entertains the idea of sending you something back. His eyes surreptitiously flicker around as though being watched. Nothing revealing who he is, but enough to maybeâ
The camera captures a few of the modest flower beds and cat grass lining his balcony, Nori coiled around his bare ankle. He looks at his hand. Shuffles his hips further down to mirror your angle and flexes his fingers in his lap. Heat floods his body, guided by the shameless desire to inform the image you might have of him in your own head, too.
Sooba â» [IMG_288] â» At least youâre having more fun than I am.
You type for a long ten second interval. Then restart. A tedious minute elapses and just as regret creeps in, your messages come through.
InsertNameHere â» Iâm not so sure about that. â» Actually it would probably be more bearable if you were here with me.
The sound of his heartbeat floods his ears. So warm itâs like heâs standing under the sun. Shouto belatedly realises itâs just his quirk, as the steam blows out through his nose. Nori butts his ankle in complaint. He bends to take her into his arms, feeling ridiculous and somewhat bad at being a person.
Sooba â» Think so? â» Just so you know I have been called socially inept on numerous occasions.
InsertNameHere â» Then we can hide together in the corner, get tipsy and sneak bits of the fancy spread.
Thisâdoesnât happen to Shouto. âNori. I have feelings for a person Iâve never seen,â he pushes his face into Noriâs fur, and she purrs, feeling the vibrations of his voice. Admitting it aloud only highlights the absurdity. He feels out of his depth. And he decides heâs glad for the anonymity. Grateful, even. Lest he publicly humiliate himself and set off every fire alarm in the vicinity.
Sooba â» That sounds perfect.
InsertNameHere â» Iâll hold you to that. Thereâs another one of these coming up in two weeks. â» Prepare yourself (êáŽê)
âYouâre really not helping,â he continues. Nori rubs insistently under his chin. âFine, fine. I get it,â She croaks as he presses into the touch, mimicking her movement and cradling her as he gets up.
Before retiring to bed he pulls up Yaoyorozuâs contact. He settles into a comfortable position in the covers, propping his phone on his stomach, and he types:
Shouto : 00:14
I think I need help.
Consciousness eases into him slowly. Itâs a sleepy pastel morning. Dust dances in the soft spotlight cast through his curtains. Shoutoâs jaw unhinged to release a long yawn, limbs stretching every which way under the covers as his joints click.
Shouto props up on his elbow, twisting in place to reach and unplug his phone. He blinks away the blurriness hemming his vision and squints at the stack of messages from Enigmail right at the top of his notifications.
InsertNameHere â» Oh shit. Hero Shouto donated double the amount of what Endeavor gave and he couldnât even be here tonight. Thatâs hilarious. Can that guy get any hotter â» I didnât intend for that to be a pun. â» These cocktails are becoming suspiciously easy to drink. â» Youâre probably sleeping like a good boy but I miss you. Wake up! â» Have you ever had feelings for someone youâve never met
The loose tongued messages stop there, at around one oâclock in the morning. Then thereâs a seven hour jump to only ten minutes ago.
â» Oh my god. Please ignore all of that. And then kill me.
Hardly awake, sleepsand still crusty at the corners of his eyes, Shoutoâs mind reels as he considers pinching himself. He doesnât know which part to focus on. Your apparentâand unknowingâattraction to him as a public figure or the implication that you had feelings for Sooba.
But youâre obviously embarrassed. So he bites back a smile and starts with something simple.
Sooba â» Good morning to you too â» Remember to drink water and take some bufarin.
Sitting upright with legs hung over the bed, Shouto clicks out to his text app by way of distraction. Thereâs another photo from Midoriya. This time itâs just him. Speckled light glitters along his cheeks, expression beaming as the hero holds a piece of sashimi in front of his pink face. Shouto heart reacts to the text.
InsertNameHere â» Send more Nori
He chuckles, sleepy. That makes known Noriâs absence. Strange, he muses. She is usually the one to wake him. Rather than search he scrolls through his albums to find a photo you hadnât seen yet. It was taken a few months ago. Heâd slipped his camera under her chin and pressed the shutter when she looked down, looming over the viewer with a dumbfounded look.
Sooba â» [IMG_142]
After a few minutes with no response, assuming that you had accepted his bride and sought out some painkillers, Shouto braced against his bedside table and stood, phone in hand. Every muscle in his body felt like wet sand, held together by too tight skin. This morning, though, the incessant ache that beat alongside his heart was gone.
Walking still felt as though he was wading through molasses but strength was steadily returning to his physique.
The floor is cool under the soles of his feet as they shuffle down the hallway. Thereâs a noise in the kitchen that gives Shouto pause. A voice, hushed yet high pitched voice, cooing like someone might to an infant.
He drops into an ungainly defensive stance, pyjama bottoms and all. Worst case scenario they at least hang low on his hips, loose around his legs, leaving room for flexible movement. He rounds the corner without a sound.
And relief beats like a drum in his chest.
Yaoyorozu meets his gaze from the kitchen island where one hand is petting a very happy Nori, sipping from a glass of water with the other. Her face is bare, shadows soft under her eyes, hair pulled haphazardly into a low ponytail as if she had just rolled out of bed and rushed here. Creati in a bleach stained hoodie and leggings. The press would have a field day.
The sight brings a small smile to his face. Their schedules have been misaligned for months. Itâs good to see herâif only her expression had not then darkened. âTodoroki Shouto,â she says with all the authority of an older sibling, âWhat on earth was that text last night? You had me worried sickâ.
âText?â he parrots dumbly, looking to check his phone.
InsertNameHere â» Painkillers acquired. Thank you Nori â» Iâm sorry if I made you uncomfortable last night.
âI let myself in with the key you gave me. I hope that was alright,â she continues, quiet and apologetic now. He skims over your reply and switches to check his text app. Sure enough the last thing he sent to her was an ambiguous plea for help.
âOf course itâs alright,â he replies, regarding her with a meaningful look to cover for how sheepish he truly feels. âI gave you the key because youâre always welcome hereâ.
Yaoyorozu smiles on the end of an exhale, idle hands smoothing down Noriâs cheeks. âOf course,â she echoes, examining his form closely now her anxiety is assuaged. Over him comes the muted awareness that heâs being judged. âHow about we go on a short walk for once, since Iâm here? The weather is quite pleasantâ.
Shouto steps forward with mouth downturned, âMomo, I assure you Iâm fine. You donât need to walk me like a dog,â he says, wincing thereafter at his bluntness. She only hums.
âWhen was the last time you went anywhere?â
Very uselessly he replies, âI go placesâ.
Yaoyorozuâs potential to lead and assert had never escaped him, not even in his teenage years, and it was something he staunchly admired her for. But never has he resented his own affinity for compliance more than he does the moment she ignores his pouting and tells him to finish his morning gait training and get changed.
Dressed casually and statuesque in the centre of his living room, left leg lifted to mimic a flamingo, Shoutoâs limbs shake far less than previous days. He can hold his phone while he balances now, too. You havenât sent any new messages. Probably waiting for him to assure you that he isnât upset, but even so heâs a smidge disappointed.
Sooba â» Iâm here. A friend appeared in my kitchen. â» You donât need to apologise for anything, I wasnât uncomfortable. I've received worse drunk texts I assure you.
He switches to his right leg and chews the inside of his cheek. Facing villainy was far less daunting than navigating his feelings.
â» I thought it was cute.
Thatâs about as brave as he felt today.
Yaoyorozu resurfaces from the coat closet with a jacket in hand and a pep in her step. Thereâs something else coiled around her wrist. Noriâs cat leash, red and attached to a blue harness, matching Shoutoâs hero colours.
âCan we bring her along?â she asks, bouncing in place. Upon recognising the leash Nori makes her opinion known, releasing a drawn out yowl. âOh please, Shoutoâ.
Nori didnât regularly enjoy walking but she had been trained to do so from a young age. She was peculiar and picky, and Shouto trusted her to let him know if ever she wanted anythingâsomething she never failed to do.
âAre you sure?â he murmurs, bending to tap her nose. It wrinkles, a stray tooth flashing between her lips. âIf you get tired I wonât carry youâ.
Nori blinks. A lie and they both know it.
Shouto sighs, defeated. âOkay. She hasnât wanted to in a while so I canât really deny herâ.
âWonderful,â Yaoyorozu breathes, handing him his jacket before undoing the harness and crouching to slip Noriâs paws through one by one. âWe can grab a warm drink to go from the cafe downstairs and talkâ.
Shucking the jacket on and flattening the collar, Shouto dithers in the genkan with his crutches nearby. He tucks the wayward strands of hair into a knitted hat and loops his mask around his ears. The scar couldnât be helped but atleast this way a majority of people would not think to look twice.
They leave the apartment together, all three. In the short time it takes to step out of the building's lobby you still havenât replied. He shoves his free hand in his pocket, fingers clasped around his phone in case it vibrates.
The establishment across from Shoutoâs home has been open for longer than heâs been alive. An elderly couple named Pierre-Louis and Tsutomu run the place. The two men moved back to Japan decades ago to care for Tsutomuâs sick mother, and with Pierre-Louisâ incredibly unusual coffee quirk âBean Boostâ, opening a cafe seemed the right route to take.
Since moving here theyâve endeared themselves to Shouto. If they see him on his way to work Tsutomu will often rush to offer him a takeout cup. This morning is no different.
âMon petit chou!â
Tsutomu slides open the walk up window and calls his name, beckoning them closer. The breeze tousles the short grey curls around his ears. Shoutoâs heart near stops when the older man leans out to greet Nori as she stretches upward and almost loses balance. âTsutomu-san, please be careful,â he says.
âI am still rather spry, young man. Donât worry about me,â he returns happily, gaze moving to Yaoyorozu when he rights himself. âLovely to see you again, Momo-chan. Have you come to rescue our prince from his cave?â
Indignant, Shouto grumbles, âI wish you would all stop acting as though Iâm a hermit. I havenât been stuck indoors that longâ.
The two level him with a look of doubt. Tsutomu gently pinches his cheek and rubs a thumb over the swell above the mask. âYour pallor betrays you, Shouto. Let the sun kiss you more, no? We worryâ.
âTout va bien?â another voice interjects. Pierre-Louis squeezes up next to his husband, ignoring his disgruntled noise, and brightens when he sees Shouto on the other side. âMon chou, youâve emerged! And with two beautiful girls at your sideâ.
Yaoyorozu muffled a laugh while Nori busied herself chewing on the nearby grass, leash never pulling too far. âPierre-Louis,â Shouto murmurs, unable to keep the fond lilt out of his voice. âItâs good to see you bothâ.
âAnd you,â he beams. The wrinkles by his eyes deepen. Shouto never met his grandparents but he thinks perhaps this is the closest heâll get. âAre you going anywhere special?â
âWeâre just taking a walk, Pierre-Louis. I thought it might be nice to get a warm drink for the journey,â Yaoyorozu spoke warmly and nudged his side. âWhere better than here?â
âBien sĂ»r! Will that be one earl grey and one green tea?â
Shouto nods at her questioning glance, âLoose leaves today, pleaseâ, he adds.
Pierre-Louis disappears to make their drinks, shortly returning with two takeout cups, steam pluming softly from the mouth. Shouto swaps his crutch to his right side and accepts the green tea with his left hand, heat seeping through the cardboard sleeve.
âHow much will it beâ?â
âNonsense,â Tsutomu interrupts with a sudden switch to English. He shakes his finger, silencing any protest, and his husband gives a resolute nod in support. âTake it, mon chou. Call it a family discountâ.
Shouto bids them a dazed goodbye, leaving the walk up window; a lump in his throat that he tries to wash down with hot heat, tongue impervious to the temperature. âTheyâre very sweet. Iâm glad you have them,â Yaoyorozu muses. âWhat is it they call you? âChouâ?â
âMon petit chou,â he repeats clumsily, accent slightly gawky. âI asked Aoyama a while ago and he told me it means âmy little cabbageââ.
Yaoyorozu pauses and Nori continues ahead, leaping up onto a nearby half wall with her tail hooked high. She pounces on a crack between the bricks, blissfully unaware of the nearby traffic, trying to eat a ladybug.
âMy little cabbage?â
Shouto hums, squinting up at the early sun, rising in a blanket of pale blue and mottled grey clouds. The air is refreshingly cool. âApparently itâs something French parents call their children,â he shrugs, as though he were not then warmed from the inside out at the reminder that they truly did see him as one of their own.
âThatâs lovely,â she says, slowing to match his gait. Heâs not tired so much as he is enjoying the morning dew. They follow a familiar path. Turning down a hidden narrow walkway that leads to a neighbourhood park. Noriâs chitters fill the spaces left by comfortable silence.
Yaoyorozu suggests sitting at one of the picnic tables. Tall trees flanked the area on either side, columns rising to create a weave of foliage that shrouded them in gold. The old wood is cold under his thighs. Nori hops up onto the bench, ears flat to her head, and hisses at a dog across the way which hasnât even noticed her presence.
âSo,â Shouto glances over toward Yaoyorozu as she speaks. Her arms are settled on the tabletop, fingers curled around the disposable cup and swirling the liquid inside. âAre you going to tell me what you were panicking about last night?â
He picks at the cardboard sleeve, twisting it, and supposes this was inevitable. Slipping down his mask, Shouto brings the tea to his lips in distraction, grasping for a way to articulate his situation without simply saying: âI have feelings for my anonymous online friendâ.
In the end he realises there really isnât any other way.
Yaoyorozu listens intently, as he expected she would. Of all his well intentioned friends Shouto knew sheâd be the most open to his reasoning. Her expression visibly softens while he wrings his hands and rambles about the palpable connection that he first attributed to his own lonelinessâ
About you; you, the one now carried with him everywhere, the presence weaving his days into tapestry; you, accepting of his random thoughts, giving of your own; you, unintentional charm and bad jokes and sharp wit; you, faceless and voiceless, the one to receive first and last thought.
He expels his fears. Concerns of who you really are. Of what you might think upon learning his identityâif you wouldnât like him anymore, or if his own feelings might change after meeting you offline, and if that makes him a terrible, shallow person.
Then he mentions the photo from the Herokind event and her head cocks in interest. âMay I see?â she asks. Shouto murmurs his agreement and pulls his phone out from his pocket.
Youâve messaged him.
InsertNameHere â» Appeared? Like, teleported?? â» Iâm glad weâre ok. I would miss you otherwise. â» But you canât know Iâm cute. Youâve never seen me lol
Shouto is typing back with unfounded confidence before he realises it.
Sooba â» I donât need to see you to know that.
Then his eyes flicker to Nori, staring up at him clad in her Shouto themed harness, lip caught on her scraggle tooth. He takes a quick picture. Examining it before sending, he notices Yaoyorozuâs slender hands in the background, and wonders if you might be jealous.
He scoffs inwardly at his own childishness and sends the photo.
â» Not teleported hah, just came in with a spare key. We are out walking now.
âSorryâI just wanted to reply first,â Shouto clears his throat and presses his phone into her now preferred hand. Given without question.
Something flickers in her expression at your photo; itâs a brief shift that flies over her gaze like a shadow. Her thumbs pinch and part on the screen as she zooms in. âI was there for a few hours last night,â she says. âI recognise this outfit. Would it not be easier to check the list of attendants?â
ââŠThat doesnât feel fair,â he admits soberly. âI know thatâs sillyâ.
âItâs not silly,â she affirms with a small smile, fingers now moving as she types. âYou are aware of your position. You have the resources to find them and presumably they do not. Of course it seems unfairâ.
Itâs testament to their friendship that he feels no need to check what sheâs doing. Her brows furrow slightly, then arch into her hairline, eyes brightening. Pleased, Yaoyorozu locks the device and hands it back.
âWhat did you do?â
âDonât worry. I didn't do anything untoward,â she replies. âBut I do know who youâre talking to nowâ.
Shoutoâs fingers flex around his phone. âYou do?â he breathes, incredulous. Just like that?
Yaoyorozu nods, lending her attention to Nori. âI donât have a name. But if you want to find them I think youâll want to speak to Bakugo-kunâ.
âBakugoâŠ?â Shouto echoes.
âI believe your friend may work for him,â she clarifies. Ah. The clamouring in his head comes to a halt. In hindsight itâs clear. Your nicknames make sense now.
âIâll think about it,â he swallows, bringing his tea to his face for another sip. He finds it tepid and warms it again with his quirk. Yaoyorozu doesnât push.
They spend the hour catching up on the things Shouto has missed in the weeks heâs been absent, and the weeks prior. Midoriyaâs claims of him being a workaholic becomes a reality he canât outrun. Tea finished, Shouto takes both cups and disposes of them in the recycling bin. Yaoyorozu stands from the picnic table with Nori cradled to her breastâNori stares back at him, smugâand they make their way back to his apartment.
âShouto,â she coaxed, now standing outside the tall glass doors leading to the lobby. Noriâs claws sink into the collar of his jacket as sheâs passed to him. He takes her leash from Yaoyorozu, bunching it up; and she covers his enclosed fist with her hand.
âGo for it,â she tells him, giving a firm squeeze. âIâm rooting for you. Just be safeâ.
Stepping back into his apartment, his cheeks are warm and his limbs are trembling. Youâve buzzed inside his pocket three times.
InsertNameHere â» Oh my god. How can such a perfect creature exist? And her harness! Shouto colours? â» I hope youâre having fun. <3 â» You know, you never answered my question from last night
âYou donât think Iâm hopeless, do you Nori?â Shouto asks the thin airâNori has already scrambled toward the nearby shoebox, bunny kicking at the corner as she chews. He sighs.
Yaoyorozuâs encouragement rings loud in his ears while he replies.
Sooba â» Yes. I think Iâve had feelings for a person Iâve never met.
And it feels like a confession.
Shouto sees the week come to an end before he finds enough strength, physically and mentally, to visit Bakugoâs agency.
Your conversations have evolved. They carry a flirty undertone now, the verbal toeing of the line that makes his heart pitter patter. You send pictures throughout the day. Always angled away from your face. Swathes of skin. A pen between your fingers. Stacked paperwork and an empty coffee cup. The burgeoning skies on your walk home. Comfortable at home, your legs crossed over the other, a fluffy slipper hanging at the end of your foot.
He never knew so much thought had to go into making a photo appear candid, effortless. At one point he purposefully shuffled his workout shorts lower on his hips and spent the remainder of the afternoon with his head deep between the couch cushions.
Liking another person is humiliating. He feels exposed, like a flesh wound that you wonât stop prodding.
InsertNameHere â» [IMG_412] â» I hope you have a good day!
Youâre sitting at your desk, presumably. A slide knot bracelet hangs loose around your wrist. Hand held out over the mouse and keyboard, youâve pinched your thumb and fingerâsmudged with black inâtogether to make a heart shape. Itâs cute. Youâre cute. He files the pose away for any later run-ins with paparazzi. His PR has been getting on about trying harder when they photograph him for months.
Shoutoâs body rocks with the train car as it careens down the tracks and readjusts his grip on his crutch. He smiles behind his mask, sinking into the confines of his hood which he has pulled over his cap. There are eyes on him today. It canât be helped in such close quarters. But theyâre uncertainâtoo afraid to bother him and be wrong about his identity.
Sooba â» You too :) â» Remember to take breaks. I read that you should spend five minutes away from your screen every hour.
InsertNameHere â» You have to stop making me smile at work. My coworkers think I have a secret husband or something.
Sooba
â» I promise to send you off with a homemade bento tomorrow morning.
InsertNameHere â» And a kiss.
Shouto grabs the nearby pole as he is almost knocked on his feet. Passengers board, others depart, and his heart hammers in his throat like a fist.
Sooba â» A kiss?
Youâre still typing a reply when Shouto hears the hesitant evocation of his name. Itâs timid and hushed, belonging to a person trying to restrain their excitement. She covers her mouth with a gasp when he meets her eyes.
âIt is you,â she bubbles. A metallic taste pervades the static air around her, short hair wiggling on end as if it were responding directly to her excitement; behaviour unbefitting of a typical reporter, he notes.
Your text box jumps onto the screen in his peripheral vision, bumping up the chat. He jolts and angles the phone away from her just to be safe.
InsertNameHere â» Yeah! A bento box and a kiss to get me through the day, obviously.
There are three others a few feet away, huddled together beside a pillar and abuzz with energy. Mild dread churns in his stomach. Definitely not a reporter, then. âIf you have a momentâŠâ the young woman spares a glance over her shoulder and her friends excitedly encourage her forward. âUm. Would you maybe be interested inââ
âNo,â Shouto replies. The young woman winces at his tone. Ah. Sheâs embarrassed now. He really should make a habit of lying in consideration for other people's feelings. Fuyumi did mention that, though not in as many words. Before her face can crumple further he continues, âIâm very sorry, that was rude of me. Iâm in a bit of a hurryâ.
Her relief is palpable, near contagious. Expression softened with understanding she folds her hands against her stomach and ducks into a slight bow. âOf course, I understand,â she says. Somehow it makes him feel worse. âAndâIâm glad youâre well, Shouto-san. Weâre all wishing you a complete recoveryâ.
Gratitude bubbles inside him. He smiles, pressing a finger over his mask, and her complexion turns a bright shade of pink. She nods in understanding, scurrying to her friends.
Shouto departs the train without disruption. The conductor takes stock of his gait and the crutch at his side, offering to lay out the ramp, but he politely refuses, stepping onto the platform with ease. He feels good; closer to his other self, the one before his muscles were run through a metaphorical centrifuge.
Sooba â» Obviously. â» I suppose I can add âhouse husbandâ alongside âNoriâs dadâ on my list of occupations now.
Blast Zone isnât far, a fact for which heâs grateful. Bakugo insisted on rooting himself in the centre of the city, right in the spot where all transport routes seemed to meet; there stood the symbol of victoryâs headquarters, imposing in the skyline.
According to journalists at PowrStruct magazine The Blast Zone agency is an ode to modern architecture. A steel frame structure surrounded by reinforced concrete, an outer coating embossed with a texture that gives the award winning building the fragile appearance of having been meticulously glued back together while simultaneously being both blast proof and earthquake proof. Shouto cares not for design in general. He does, however, steal a mini Dynamite themed pen from the front desk while heâs waiting to be signed in.
Thereâs a thin chain attached to the cap with a Chibi Bakugo hung on the end. Sue him.
âHeâll see you now, Shouto-san,â the receptionist states, pupil-less eyes blinking back at him. Shouto tucks the pen into his sleeve, feeling foolish and somewhat nervous. âHead on up to the office on the twelfth floor. He knows youâre on your wayâ.
Shouto clears his throat. âThank you,â he says, weakness in his knees that has nothing to do with his nerves. The Ingenium handle pads cushion his palm as he braces onto his crutches, supporting him toward the nearby lift. There are eyes on his back as he goes. Theyâre heavy, lingering like physical touch. Something in him spoils at the unnecessary pity.
The lift remains mercifully empty. He presses the twelfth floor button and it glows green. The ride up is smooth, and quick. Double doors slide open onto a sprawling office space flooded with natural light. No one bothered to glance in Shoutoâs direction as he gawked. If he remembered correctly this area is specifically for employees that work closest to Bakugo. Theyâre all so nonplussed and focused. No nonsense. He likes that.
âLoser,â Bakugo grunts. He appeared from thin air, standing aside with arms crossed over his chest, eyeing Shoutoâs stiff form with suspicion. âWhat the fuck are you doing here? Youâre still on leaveâ.
Shouto makes a noncommittal noise, inwardly miffed. He straightens his posture and takes more of his own weight. âWe havenât seen each other in a while. Maybe I missed you,â he says. Bakugoâs expression suddenly sours, as though heâd swallowed a lemon, mouth thin against his teeth.
Amusing as it is, acknowledging the disconnect aloud makes him truly accept the distance he had put between himself and his friends; how heâd worked too hard, untied himself from the tangle of their lives and ended up isolated.
âNori told me to say âhiâ by the wayâ.
Bakugo sweetens. âShe like that cardboard house I sent you?â
âShe already destroyed it,â Shouto admits. And Bakugo laughs, irritation split by a crooked grin.
âAtta girl,â he nods in approval, turning on his heel and starting toward a pair of towering doors. âOi. You cominâ? Or are you going to stand there all damn day?
Dynamiteâs office is anything but corporate. Professional, yes, but itâs also so plainly personal in a way that screams Bakugo. The setup is reconfigurable for days that he canât sit still, a folding treadmill under his large mahogany to keep him moving. Bakugo works better on his feet, a feat Shouto knows well. Built in shelves line the accent wall, filled with framed pictures of friends and family, newspaper clippings and awards. There are even fan creationsâmostly from his debut era, when being favoured felt far more significant, but Shouto finds it sweet all the same.
Walking ahead of him, Shouto approaches the desk. Bakugo lingers for a beat to holler something out the door before returning to his desk.
Two consult chairs face the head office chair opposite. Lowering into one of them, Shouto props his crutch up and takes his phone out of his pocket. Ever hopeful, he unlocks it, opens Enigmail and refreshes the chat list. There are new messages from a few other people he added in the beginning, but nothing from you. He tries not to sigh too obviously.
âWhatâs got you all fuckinâ mopey?" Bakugo leaned over to look down at the phone. Shouto hastily locked it and the explosive hero narrowed his eyes at the impassive veil Shouto pulled over his face.
âNothing. How did the first Herokind event go?â he asks, fiddling with his newly acquired Dynamite pen. âMidoriya always sugar coats things for meâ.
âWent fine. You didnât miss anything,â Bakugo waves off. The leather office chair creaks as he leans back. âBoring as all hell since it was just the kickstarter. Food mild enough for a toddler to eat and too much alcohol. The auction will be more interesting. That birdbrain partner of yours was hilarious, thoughâ.
âHawks?â Shoutoâs mouth twitches, failing to conceal his mirth. âWhat did he do this time?â
âSpent the night antagonising your shitty old man,â Bakugo pauses for a brief moment and rescinds his words. âOr aggressively flirting. Can't tell the difference with himâ.
Shouto keeps his thoughts to himself on that one.
âEnded with Endeavor triggering all the sprinklers at the after party though,â Bakugo ends, eyes crinkled under the weight of his wicked grin. Shouto pursed his lips tight. Amusement huffed through his nose. He imagines his father standing in the middle of the room, pathetically soaked through, wisps of smoke rising from his put-out embers, and he laughs.
Bakugo looks rather pleased by the reaction. But then his gaze flickers over Shoutoâs shoulder and his brow arches expectantly. âDidâya need something? I shouted for the egghead because I thought you were on your breakâ.
Shoutoâs laughter dwindles as he follows Bakugoâs line of sight. His breath catches. An employee stands in the doorway peeking around a tall box of paperwork. Wide eyed as they examine him.
Wrapped around their wrist is a familiar sliding knot bracelet.
âI justâuhâŠâ
His head spins. Thereâs a smudge on your finger where your pen's ink leaked, just like in the photo. Could this be you? You areâ
âWhat the hell has gotten into everybody today,â Bakugo tuts, pushing up from his desk and striding over to receive the box himself. Your shoulders slump when you are relieved of the weight. Bringing your hands to your chest and massaging the joints.
âstill looking right at him. Cute. He cannot help but think how cute you are, tripping over your words, losing your footing.
âOi, maestro,â Bakugo clicks his fingers in your face and startles you out of your stupor. âGet it together. I need you with a clear head when that sleepy bastard from the HPSC gets hereâ.
You glare at Bakugo, âMera-san is the least of your problems, Dynamite. Worry about yourself and the six unanswered emails I forwarded to you from the claims managerâ.
Youâre beautiful. And your voice, itâs soâhis lips part, and he tries to speak, to interrupt Bakugoâs incessant teasing, but words fail him.
âWhatever. Those insurance claims are bullshit and you know it,â Bakugo mutters. He turns and moves to shove the box of paperwork beside the desk. His mouth downturns into a smirk when he stands and notices your attention drawn to Shouto once again.
âIs that everything? Iâd appreciate it if you stopped gawking,â Bakugo drawls, a dry rasp to his taunting that seems to embarrass you further. Shouto isnât sure heâs breathing. Youâre right there. Youâre within reach and heâs rooted to his chair.
âYouâre such aâ! Yâknow what, no, Iâm leaving now,â replying harshly you start toward the open door where you come to an abrupt halt. Shouto feels the distance like the pull of a leash. You incline your head into a short bow, losing strength in your voice as you acknowledge him, âHave a good afternoon, Shouto-sanâ.
Then youâre gone. He stares after you dumbly. In all the years he has worked in the hero industry Shouto has never been more thankful for choosing to make his given name his brand than he is now.
Bakugou falls heavily in his chair and sighs.
Shouto swallows, âWho wasââ
âDonât,â Bakugo stresses the command, as though telling a dog to heel. Shouto can feel the heat behind his pointed glare. Undeterred, his eyes linger after you, stuck on the spot where you once stood, heart beating like a hummingbirdâs wing.
âI mean it, Halfie. Run off the only competent PA Iâve ever had with your pisspoor flirting and Iâll kill you,â Bakugo barrels on. Thereâs no true malice but it comes through gritted teeth, like he has resigned himself to the impending stupidity. Because Shouto is already looking back at him with that small, impish curl to his lips.
âIâm not that terrible at flirting,â he says.
âMaking eye contact for three uninterrupted minutes is not flirting,â Bakugo scoffs.
Shouto hums. âAnd what is? Pulling their pigtails for ten years?â
âWatch it,â Bakugo grouses, bottom lip jutting. He kicks the leg of Shoutoâs chair and he laughs; heâs missed this.
Hoping to get back on track then, Shouto asks, âWill you be attending the charity auction, then?â
The other man grunts an affirmative. âIâve put some memorabilia and shit up to be sold. Sparky somehow convinced Eijirou to auction himself off for a date,â Bakugo snorts and gives an amused shake of his head. âIâm willing to bet heâll rake in at least ten million yen. Minimumâ.
âWouldnât surprise me,â Shouto agrees. Kirishima had grown a lot since graduation all those years ago. Pair a stocky build with a big hearted guy like him and everyone is tripping over themselves to get a piece. âIs he nervous that he wonât make much?â
Bakugo clicks his teeth, interlocking his hands across his midsection and getting comfortable. âHe really hasnât got a fucking clue. The HPSC schmuck Iâve got to talk to today has already suggested extra security in case certain high profile guests get resentful,â he says. Crimson peeks through narrowed eyes, considering, calculating. âAre you gonna go? Youâre looking steady enoughâ.
The last Bakugo had seen of him was directly after the incidentâcrumpled into fetal postion and involuntarily spasming in six second intervals. Unable to speak, to walk, to turn his head. Worst case scenario presented on scene was that he could lose the ability to function at all and Shouto had been thrown into a pit of depression so oppressive that he withdrew from himself all together.
Thereâs an underlying relief in Bakugoâs question that comforts him in ways he wasn't aware heâd been seeking. Pleased, Shouto drags his crutch between his thighs and twists at the padding around the handle. âIâll be in attendance. I plan on bidding on a few things. David Shieldâs original design sketches maybe,â he admits. ââŠWill âmaestroâ be there?â
Bakugo seems to parse the response carefully, as if it cracked open a hole into Shoutoâs psyche. âIzuku is shooting for those, you know. Iâm the one thatâs gotta deal with him cryinâ if he losesâ.
âI know,â Shoutoâs mouth splits in a wry, intentional smile. âIf Iâm not outbid then Iâm happy to give him whatever I winâ.
âShill bidding? Ha. Izuku never believes me when I tell him youâre secretly a dick,â Bakugo smirks. A thought visibly crosses his mind. He props his elbow on the arm of his chair, chin resting in his palm and considering Shouto closely. ââŠMy PA will be there for the auction. Working. So if you show me upââ
âI wonât,â Shouto interjects.
ââI will see you to the pearly gates myself,â Bakugo continues, unperturbed. Thereâs no true malice to his tone, moreso fond resignation, and Shoutoâs chest bubbles with affection for his hard headed friend.
âThatâs nice of you,â he says sincerely.
âGet fucked. You want an update on the cases we opened this week or did you seriously come here just to annoy me?â
âTo annoy you, mostly,â Shouto ducks away from the hand that swiped at him. âHawks forwarded me the arrest report. Tremor ended up going for a plea deal?â
âYeah. Sold out the extras that helped him gather the hostages,â a forceful click of the keyboard; Bakugo slaps the spacebar to wake his monitor and makes clear his disapproval. âThey went too fuckinâ easy on him,â he sneers. âDeserved a longer sentenceâ.
âAs long as theyâre off the streets,â Shouto muses. He isnât one to hold a grudge against villains whoâve harmed him, but he can understand his friends' frustration. Had it been Bakugo or Midoriya, Shouto too wouldnât be so quick to accept this outcome.
The gentle light flooding through the office windows recedes a fraction as a dense cloud covers the sun. His visit to the Blast Zone is but a blip of time, cut short by the foreboding ring from Bakugoâs emergency pager. Heâs up and moving immediately, routine woven into him like muscle memory, and Shouto canât help feeling jealous.
Under the door to his office, Bakugo clears his throat. He cocks his head toward the impending rain, âYou need me to have someone drive you home?â And appears to regret it right away as Shouto smiles up at him, touched by the suggestion.
âNo, thanks but Iâll be fine,â he waves off. Bakugo departs with a grunt, demanding he take an umbrella from the receptionist, because who doesnât check the weather before they leave the house. The thud of his work boots reverberate off the walls as he disappears around a sharp corner, and Shouto shifts in the residual silence.
He takes out his phone as he pushes upright on his crutch; a habit rather than necessity. You havenât messaged him since before your paths crossedâthough you wouldnât know that. He sighs. A niggling guilt has burrowed into his chest but it remains largely outweighed by his impatience.
Employees greet him on his short journey to the lift he arrived in. Bowing their heads, evoking his name with appreciation and awe while heâs scanning the space for signs of you. Itâs a fruitless affair. Coming up short he steps inside, frown etched into his brow, and presses the ground floor button.
The speaker alerts him that the doors are about to close. He turns on his heel, leaning a hand on the support bar. Looking up from his shoes his eyes fall on your figure. Youâve stepped out from one of the closed off rooms, thumb tapping away at the phone in your hand. Shouto swallows, watching his own with trepidation.
Sensing a heavy gaze your eyes flicker to meet him at the last second, contact through the crack right as it shuts. He can hardly think. If this were a scene in Quirky Hearts he thinks he might just cast aside his dignity and sprint up the fire escape to confront you. The mere idea has heat simmering under his skin; it makes him want to fold himself into singularity. Shouto, a top five hero, a sword without ire.
Waiting dutifully, the receptionist hands him an umbrella from behind the staff desk. He squints at her name tag, muttering âThank you, Akiyama-sanâ while he tucks the umbrella under his arm, deigning to mention the murky blueish blush that floods her skin, those pupil-less eyes shimmering. Shouto pulls his mask up over his nose, breath warming his cheeks, and takes a moment to observe the street.
Throngs of people scurry along the pavements to get away from the unforgiving chill. Raindrops can become a thousand paper cuts when the wind wills it. Afternoon starters amble into the lobby with wet shoulders. In his departure nobody so much as looks his way.
Sooba â» Hope you didnât forget an umbrella today. Stay warm.
His thumb stopped mid-air, right above the âsendâ button. Sparing a lasting glance to the upper floors, Shouto quickly presses it, pockets his phone and opens up the umbrella. Stepping into the storm white noise fills his ears, tapping harshly on the PVC canopy over him.
Shouto tugs his jacket closer to his chest. The pavements are soaked, water fed into the uprooted cracks. He threads through the moving bodies back toward the station. With the streets overcast he feels better concealed.
The train waiting at the platform is decorated in yellow; the colour identifies it as a slow running train, taking the local stops route rather than the rapid one. He hides in his collar and stands in the corner of the carriage, umbrella collapsed and hooked over his wrist.
Six stops laterârather than threeâand Shouto is closer to home. In the time it took to reach his street the rain had thinned out, now a sparse sun shower as the clouds pushed eastward.
Nori yells accusingly the very second his key slots into the door. He turns the lock and pushes it open, holding out his foot to keep her from rushing past. âI know, I know. Iâm sorry sweet girl,â he scratched her head while bent to line up his shoes. âI missed you too. Bakugo said âhiââ.
She mewls and circles in place on her delicate paws, flicking her tail at him. Shouto takes it as forgiveness. âI think I met someone special today,â he recites to her, âThe one I told you aboutâŠâ
Stopping in the middle of his warm apartment, Shouto becomes unbearably aware of how damp his clothes are. He fishes his phone and wallet out from his pockets and sets them on the kitchen island before padding toward the bathroom.
A thorough rinse and bath later, Shouto sprawls himself across his couch, phone laid on his chest and arm hung loosely over the edge while Nori plays with his fingers. She clings to his forearm as he cups her full belly, lazily dragging her back and forth across the floor.
Heâs sipping on the mouth of his water bottle, mindlessly watching as Aki-or-something begs for Saeko-or-other to take him back after going on a date with another contestant, when your messages come through on Enigmail.
InsertNameHere â» Guess what happened today â» Saw Pro Hero Shouto at work. â» I think he might hate me? lol
Shouto inhales sharply, choking on his mouthful of water. Tears prickle behind his eyes as his diaphragm spasms, and he tries to catch his breath, fist thudding at his chest. Oscillating between mortification and delightâit really had been you.
Sooba â» Why would you think he hates you?
InsertNameHere â» I left an awful impression. And he looked at me like this (âïŒżââ) the whole time.
Heat burns at his nape; embarrassment spilling over into every crevice of his body. The air around him distorts and he exhales, steam curling from his lips. Nori watches on from the floor in fascination, sparing no sympathy. Maybe Bakugo had a point.
Sooba â» Maybe thatâs just his face.
InsertNameHere ⻠Maybe⊠⻠It is a pretty face though. Prettier in person.
Shouto feels all the air deflate from his body. He sinks into the couch, head lolling against his shoulder as he turns to press a grin into the cushions, gripped by a sudden rush of endorphins. It had been you. Youâre real. More importantly, you are attainable.
Now did he want to do anything about it?
Sooba â» You think so??
The typing dots bounce along the chat room border as you reply.
InsertNameHere â» I know so. I was there. Beautiful even when he is staring right through me (ïżŁăïżŁlll)
The memory of you speaking his name echoes like a broken record. He has yet to tire of it. Though heâs lightheaded and hazy, your features are still clear in his mind. The sure fire in your eyes, your sharp tongue and your pouty lips. A slow, warm tension trickles into his gut, swooping in anticipation and breathless longing as he imagines the face you might make if he touched you.
Sooba â» Thatâs presumptuous. He was staring at you. Why wouldnât he be
InsertNameHere â» I. â» Youâre so unfair you know that â» If you were here I would
His breathing picks up ever so slightly.
Sooba â» What would you do with me
InsertNameHere â» Are we veering into sexting territory right now
Sooba â» Unintentionally.
Shouto shifts his hips. The movement pulls his sweatpants tighter around his hips and a familiar tingling rushes below his waist. When was the last time he touched himself? He brings the phone to his forehead for a moment of clarity, peering up at the screen through his eyelashes.
InsertNameHere â» Is this the part where we come full circle and you actually send me a dick pic
He tucks his chin, a lazy smile playing on his lips. The gentle throb in his briefs pulses throughout his body and he answers, reaching to squeeze himself through the fabric, just for brief relief.
Nori sneezes. He falters, reminded of her presence and overcome by the urge to cover up. Proverbial tail between his legs, Shouto retreats to the privacy of his bedroom, shutting the door with a quiet click. Evening filters in through the windows, mauve and rosy. He kneels on the bed and it yields under his weight, frame silent while he crawls to the headboard and reclines back, phone in hand.
â» Shit, sorry. I was joking you donât have to do that if you donât want to
The message goes over his head. He opens the front camera and stares back at his flushed, disheveled face before tilting the device, angling it toward his body.
Frosted fingertips trail up his stomach and it jumps, laying the hem of his shirt across his chest. Down again to the fine dark hair below his belly button, goosebumps rising across skin, blood rushing to the surface. Hooks his thumb suggestively into his waistband, hand splayed across his hip, and takes the photo.
Sooba â» [IMG_628] â» I want to
Shouto. Shouto. Shouto. Abuzz with salacious apprehension he wonders what would it sound like above him? Under him? Breath knocked from your lungs, whining through the motions. He traces the outline of his clock. Covers his eyes with the crook of his arm and releases a shuddered breath, hips rising into the heel of his hand. A hand too big to be yours. Sweatpants pushed halfway down his thighs he pictured it anywayâyou laid on your side, at his side, loose fist stroking him root to weeping tip.
Shouto thumbs at the head, smearing precum over his sensitive frenulum. Panting heavier, he squeezes his cock and wonders, would you tease him? Lick into his mouth and tell him not to be quiet?
The phone in his hand buzzes. Anticipation grips his heart. He almost drops it on his face when he squints up to read the screen.
InsertNameHere â» Fuck. Youâre so gorgeous â» I canât concentrate
Sooba â» You like it?
InsertNameHere â» Iâll show you how much â» [IMG_447]
Heat races through him. Youâre in a loose tank top, touching yourself over pale boyshorts. The dark straps have fallen around your shoulders in an almost demure manner, collar slipping forward to reveal the soft cleavage of your chest. Youâve mirrored his position, albeit a little higher, enough for your mouth to be in frame. Wet and rouge, if he thinks hard enough he can imagine he left them kiss bitten.
Sooba â» I want to touch you
Heâs desperate to know what you like. The way you want to be touched, how you might yield under his wandering hands. Patterns dance behind his eyelids as he reaches to knead his pecs, pinching the pert nipple with a breathy moan. He smooths over his abdomen, corded muscle tensing beneath the added sensation, arousal coiling hot in his belly.
InsertNameHere â» Touch yourself for me instead, yeah? â» Gonna think about you too
âFuck,â he chokes. Shouto loses his phone amongst the sheets. Feet planted flat to the mattress, his knees spread until the waistband protests. âPlease. Please. Iâm so close,â he whispers to the image in his mind. His pace stutters, feverish as he fucks his fist. Your lips brush soft along the column of his throat to feel him swallow. He turns into the pillow, mouth parted for heaving breath.
âThatâs it Shouto. So beautiful for me,â youâll murmur, so at home in the crook of his body. Amidst the desperation youâll straddle his thigh, rhythm synchronized, chests rising. Your handâhis handâslips further, fingers curled to press up behind his balls. Heâs on fire. âCum for me, baby. Let me see you cumâ.
Shoutoâs head tips back into the plush of his pillow, every muscle clenched. Pleasure rockets through him. His cock twitches in his grasp. He cums with a strung out moan, breaking into short, wet pants as he catches his breath.
Riding the gentle aftershocks, his arm falls heavily to the side and hits his bedsheets with a quiet thud. The smell of old petrichor blows into his room with the draft draws his attention to the darkened window. Streaks of gold sunlight peak between the buildings across the street where it settles under the horizon.
The stickiness between his fingers is difficult to ignore. Drying steadily on his chest. Reality returns to him slowly as he stares at his soiled hand. After cleaning himself up with the wipes in his bedside table, Shouto tugs up his sweatpants and rubs at the pink splotches leading up his throat. With clarity comes a vague haze of shame and he is loudly alone; something vibrates and he is anything but lonely. He lifts his head, rummaging through the sheets to find his phone.
InsertNameHere â» Want you to feel good â» You there baby? â» Sooba? â» Hm. Thatâs not the sexiest of names
Shouto laughed through his nose. Endeared by your awkward jump from flirting to nervously making up for a perceived misstep.
Sooba â» sorry canât multitask â» shouldnt make fun of your house husbands name
Exiting his bedroom is uncomfortably close to a wall of shame. He drags his feet; gait unsteady for far nicer reasons than a near career ending injury. Nori has acquired his spot on the couch, retaining warmth in his absence. She observes him, all knowing.
InsertNameHere â» No capitalised letters? Punctuation? What have you done with my Sooba lol â» How are you feeling?
Sooba â» really good. sleepy
He wanders to the kitchen and dithers over his next message, leaning his forearms on the cool countertop. This fleeting, unintended conversation could change everything and that fact is starting to nag at him.
â» what about you
InsertNameHere â» I feel really good. And sleepy <3
The implication is not lost on him. He chews his bottom lip, flustered at just how pleased that makes him.
The next burst of chat bubbles appear in an instant, one after another. Typed hastily as though to outrun your own apprehension.
â» Can I ask you something? ⻠Did you mean it when you said youâd come to the event with me? â» I have a plus one. I want to see you. But you donât have toÂ
Shouto swallows. Oscillating between elation and fear. Youâve become all he yearns for and you could be just that, his, yet he panics all the same. Heroism had consistently been his lacquered shield. An excuse for his self isolation that people had to begrudgingly accept. Working himself to the bone afforded the luxury of never having to dwell on it.Â
Exhaustion aside he was content with the humdrum life he hid behind. Before you, Shouto rarely wanted for anything. He had his family, and good friends, and a job that felt rewarding; it didnât seem worth it to lay himself bare and be dissected on the off chance that someone new might love him.Â
Because his hectic work and risks aside. heâs profoundly aware of the ghosts he has yet to conquer. That somewhere, there is something fundamentally different inside him that you might find disappointing.Â
Unthinkingly, Shouto grapples with the courage in him existing on the fringes and replies in much the same way you had.Â
Sooba â» I meant it. I want to see you too. ⻠Iâd like to go with you ⻠Donât worry about a plus one. Iâll meet you thereÂ
InsertNameHere â» Wow, okay. That was easier than I thought. Iâm so excited ⻠And super nervous
As it turns out the impending date motivates Shouto like nothing before. Days pass without fault or interruption. The man-shaped dent in his couch rises without the constant weight. He sticks closely to the routine his physiotherapist drew up for him. Walks longer distances and soaks up the sun daily, to Tsutomuâs great delight.Â
Too wrapped up in his own coalesced anxiety and elation, he realises he hadnât found it remotely odd that you hadnât questioned his ability to get into the auction.Â
His train of thought is interrupted by a firm hand coming down on his shoulder. âMan of the hour!â A familiar sharp toothed grin blocks his vision. Shouto clenches under the sudden weight to keep himself upright as Kirishima gives him a shake, âWe missed you around here. Youâre looking good!â
The charity event is in full swing. An anticipatory lull permeates the atmosphere as the chosen guests, heroes and civilians alike, wait for the auction to finally begin. Shouto arrived fashionably late, as Mina called it, after spending nearly three hours on a group call with her, Yaoyorozu, and his sister.Â
The applause upon his entry had not been expected. His palms are still clammy.Â
Compared to Shouto's charcoal three piece suit, tailored to precision, Kirishima dons a charmingly loud burgundy blazer over a dark turtleneck, pulled together by a simple chain. The material pulls tight across his broad shoulders. âThank you, Kirishima,â Shouto smiles. He looks him over, âYou look good tooâ.Â
That signature grin grows weary. âYou really think so?â Kirishima lowers his voice into a hush, tugging at the loose hair framing his face. âI wasnât so sure about tying my hair back. What if nobody bids for me? Iâm dying inside just thinking about itâ.Â
Shouto turns away from the sea of vibrant clothing and chatter to pat his friend on the arm and level him with a serious look. âA lot of people are going to spend money on you tonight, Kirishima. But in the impossible event that they donât Iâll bid on you myself,â he tells him. âWe can go to mythoscape and try that new rollercoasterâ.Â
âBroâŠâ Kirishimaâs eyes are wide and glassy. While Shouto expects the firm hug, he is mildly surprised by the long, dramatic kiss to his cheek. His breath smells faintly of white wine. âYouâre the best,â he continues as he sets Shouto back on his feet. âBut is it really okay for you to do that?â
A flash goes off. Shouto frowns. He scans the crowd and rubs away the wet mark left behind. Yaoyorozu catches his attention with a delicate wave from her place beside Kendo and Uraraka. âWhy wouldnât it be?â he asks, smiling back, yet distracted. Youâre still nowhere to be found.Â
âWell,â Kirishima draws breath through his teeth. âBakugo kinda told me about your crush on his PA,â whatever he sees pass over Shoutoâs expression has him sheepishly rubbing the back of his neck and scrambling to explain. âNothing bad, man! You know he actually seemed pretty approving of it, in his own wayâ.Â
The evermoving mass of bodies sharpens around a few other familiar faces. Midoriya is excitedly gesticulating as he rambles to a visibly overwhelmed HSPC shareholder. Bakugo watches the interaction with no intention of concealing his amusement.Â
âIâm not sure about that,â Shouto rasps, narrowing his eyes at the man in question, like the pressure behind it might be enough to elicit his attention. Bakugo of all the people here would know where you are. The phone snug in his inside blazer pocket remains silent. A pout works its way onto his lips before he can stop it. âHe said Iâm bad at flirtingâ.Â
Kirishima stifles a laugh and clears his throat when Shouto directs the petulant glare to him. âYou are a little bad at it. But only when youâre actually trying! And even then thatâs part of what makes it charming, yâknow?â
âNo, I donât knowâ.Â
âYouâre the type to flirt without realising youâre doing itâor atleast people think you are, because youâre handsome and attentive and whatnot. But when you try itâs kinda obvious and bro, please stop looking at me like that,â Kirishima explains clumsily, tone pitching higher the longer he talks.Â
Shoutoâs lips thin as he tries to suppress a smirk. He rights himself as Kirishima nudges his side, catching a smile of his own, âWhat I meant is you have a chance. And Bakubro thinks so too. He wants you to be happyâ.Â
The sentiment warms him from the inside out. But it also makes apparent something trepid and cold in his gut. Regardless of his friends unfettered support there remains the real possibility that he will be rejected. That you will be disappointed or scared away by his status. That you could do as you please with the intimate parts of his life âSoobaâ gave you.
Scarier is the hope that you wonât.
âIâm going to get a drink,â Shouto announces, noticing Endeavor prowling around in his peripheral vision. Kirishimaâs brow furrows, mouth parted in confusion, no doubt seeking to reassure him. âIâm okay, Kirishima. I just need something to do with my handsâ.Â
âAlright,â the taller man murmurs. Shouto finds himself at the end of a gentle smile once more. âMake sure to say âhiâ to Denks if you see him. He misses you tooâ.
âI will,â Shouto nods, ducking away from the inexpressible tenderness that has clung to him since stepping into the hall. People part to allow him through. His left leg has already begun to feel weak, not enough to worry but enough to notice, and he hopes he can later blame his gait on the alcohol.Â
He reaches the bar and wrinkles his nose at the thick amalgamation of perfume, body odour and over-applied cologne. The bartender slides up to him. âUmeshu, please,â he says. âOn the rocksâ.Â
Another body settles beside him. He shifts to accommodate them but doesnât look; too distracted as he inhales deeply through his nose and exhales long out his mouth to allay his beating heart. Pulling his phone out from his inside pocket, the screen lights up and he finds it void of messages.Â
After the⊠sexting, things had been fine. Better in a lot of ways. You both felt emboldened to truly act on your feelings. Sharing more pictures, secretsâthough never your namesâand laughter. It is disconcerting that you would now go silent.Â
The bartender sets his drink down and Shouto quietly gives his thanks, bringing it to his face, briefly caught in the soft glimmer, cubed ice submerged in liquid gold, tasting the sweet aroma at the back of his throat. He tips it back and drinks.Â
As the glass hits the surface once more, the person next to him softly asks, âAre you waiting on anyone?âÂ
And his mouth goes dry.Â
Youâre bracing on crossed arms, watching him closely. Speckled in the warm low light reflected on the bar, you are more beautiful than he remembers, and just as nervous. Thereâs an air of uncertainty about you that shifts as your eyes meet, faint but palpable, encouraged by what he can imagine is the wonder on his own face.Â
Shouto wets his lips. The plum taste lingers on his tongue. ââŠI might be,â he murmurs. You brighten at his reciprocation, a more charged kind of nervousâthe kind that swoops low in your belly right before you take a leap.Â
âIf Iâm wrong donât laugh and donât tell Dynamite,â you turn to face him and smooth your hands over your hips. This allows him a better look at your attire. Silken fabrics that form gentle lines around the waist, loose but elegantly so, not in a way that the clothes wear you.Â
Your eyes dipped low, averted to avoid his stare. He cannot seem to direct it anywhere else. The auction has fallen away in its entirety. As far as Shouto is concerned thereâs only you.Â
âItâs me. Are youâŠSooba?âÂ
The tremble in your voice shrikes through him and it occurs to Shouto that you have always been the brave one. He leans into your space, enjoying the way you quickly draw breath at his proximity, forced to meet his gaze.Â
Rather than something remotely suave or cool, he dumbly asks, âYou knew?â
Part of him wants to tuck his shoulders to his ears as you begin to laugh. Theyâre warm, undoubtedly red. Amusement is not at all what he prepared for. He thought this might all end up in his scrapbook memory, to be taken out and pined over now and then.Â
âShouto-san with all due respect, you came to my workplace with your very recognisable crutches and stared at me like a deer in headlightsâ.Â
âShouto,â he says.Â
Your laughter simmers, âHm?â
âJust call me Shouto,â he tells you, equal parts relieved and embarrassed.Â
âShouto,â you smile at him with a fondness that derails his thoughts. He has the vague urge to whine when it wanes. âIâmâI really am sorry I didnât tell you. I swear I didnât know until after you visited the agency. It all made sense after I looked up your socials and saw some old pictures of Noriâ.Â
âItâs alright. I knew and didnât say anything either,â Shouto inclines his head, abashed. Then with a sudden sharp sort of clarity, he continues, âSo then you knew, when you asked for a dickâ?â
Words evade him under the warm press of your hand as you quickly cover his mouth. You glance around the room, closer than before, and you donât seem to realise. Cautious, he touches your waist; he puckers his lips to kiss your palm; he feels your stomach jump under the silky fabrics.Â
Your eyes darken, swallowed by pupil. âYouâre a menace,â you simper, and reluctantly pull away. âMaybe we should talk about this somewhere with lessâŠcamerasâ.Â
Umeshu abandoned, Shouto wraps an arm around your lower back and allows you to direct him through the crowd. You weave through the moving bodies like thread through a needle, at one point reaching behind to take his wrist, becoming his tether.
Bakugo meets his gaze from across the room. His eyes flit to you, widening in surprise. Shouto flashes a boyish grin before disappearing through the side door.Â
The door you choose next opens to a private bathroom. Shouto surges forward, taking you by the hips and crowding you against the bathroom counter, overcome by the need to feel everything that you are pressing into everything that is him.
He kicks the door behind him and settles in the clutch of your thighs as you scramble to balance on the marble edge. Your hands slide over his shoulders, splaying over each cheek. Youâre both breathing heavily despite having done nothing at all.
âI said talk,â you remind him with a tremulous smile. Shouto knows youâre being playful. He apologises anyway; rests his head in the crook of your neck, letting the moment simmer, and you comb through his hair with your fingers. A shiver rolls down his spine.Â
âDid you know it was me? Before you came to the agency, I meanâ.Â
He reclines from his crook to look at you. Eye level, silhouetted by the cheap bathroom luminescence. âWhen I saw you in thereâand put it together I was so scared,â you continued.Â
âScared?â he echoed with a frown, knuckles brushing your cheek.Â
âNot like that. I was scared of what you might think,â you turn into his caress and his pinched expression falls away. He canât stop touching you and he canât bring himself to be sorry about it. âI mean, I looked terrible that day, and you appeared out of nowhere and I wasnât mad it was you. I was justâŠâ
You swallow thickly, emotion swelling in your eyes. Theyâre crinkled at the corners. âYouâre so big and bright. I didnât want you to be disappointedâ.
You were unaware of itâthe profound cord you struck within him. How even in anonymity, your incorporeal fingers always seemed to find it. Even now, as you echo his own fears.Â
âMomo first mentioned you might work for Bakugo. I didnât know before I saw you that day. I still wasnât certain until tonightâ. You peer at him through your lashes then, listening intently. He brings your foreheads together and tells you, âThere is no way you couldâve disappointed meâ.Â
âOh? I couldâve been a villainâ.
âMy oldest brother was a villain,â he monotoned, wandering hands squeezing intermittently at your waist as though to make sure youâre still there. âMy capacity for love and forgiveness knows no boundsâ.Â
You snort. The sound is abrupt and the force knocks your skulls together. âOhâow,â he grins, insides melting. Together you dissolve into a warm fit of laughter.Â
âHey, Shouto?âÂ
He hums in acknowledgment, eyes fluttering as your thumb swipes over the red mark below his hairline. âI like you,â you murmur. âI like you so much itâs stupidâ. Â
Plunged into an ice cold realisation, Shouto freezes to process your words. âYouâlike me?âÂ
âYeah?â you said it like he was dense, like it was clear all along. âI canât help it when youâre soâŠyourselfâ
And isnât that all heâs ever wanted? To be loved without pretense, without a winner. To be special to someone for no special reason.Â
âOh,â he breathes. âMe too. I like you. I wantââ his fingers flex at your hips, grounding. He blinks. âI donât know your name yetâ.Â
Affection colours your features. Shouto likes you best like thisâsure of yourself, of his feelings for you. You recite your name. He repeats it endlessly in his mind and rolls it around his teeth. He calls to you even when youâre right in front of him.Â
âCan I kiss you now?âÂ
âYou were waiting?â you laugh, tucking his hair behind his ear. Itâs such a novel thing but it makes something monumental swell in his chest. âKiss me. I want you toâ.Â
Given permission, Shouto traces the curve of your jaw with a bold shyness, from the sensitive skin below your ear to your chin. His finger hooks beneath. Youâre lovely. He thinks he could spend an hour describing your demure half smile, how your lips yield under the light pressure of his thumb; your tongue darting out reflexively.Â
He shakes at the desire that fills him. Heâs not used to itâthis wanting. It feels like a thousand insatiable butterflies in his chest. Dipping into your magnetism, his heart beat faster and faster with the simple brush of your lips. He kissed you, innocent and honest, and then he kissed you again, licking the seam of your mouth, arms coiling around your middle as you cling to him.Â
You tip forward. Your thighs clench at his waist and drag him impossibly close. It brings you chest to chest. He tries to hold you steadfast as your hand wraps around his nape, softly scratching his scalp; he feels you smile against his lips when he shudders.Â
You break for air. Arousal shoots through him at your half moan, the sound tapering into a happy hum the instant his lips trail down your neck, tasting your pulse before making his way down to your exposed collar. He peppers kiss after kiss on every swathe of skin he can reach, sinking teeth into every little reaction you give him.Â
Big hands at your lower back arch your body into his. You yield, tension sapped from your limbs, grappling his shoulders to keep yourself from falling while you grind down on his lap. Shouto groans, grip slipping lower to cup your ass.Â
âWeâre getting carried away,â you gasp between kisses. That alone was obvious. His cock strains uselessly in his suit pants. But the light glints tantalisingly along your mouth, swollen and wet with saliva. Shouto kisses you again so you wonât have to tell him to attend to his responsibilities.Â
A warm breath scores his cheek as you huff through your nose, nipping firmly at his lower lip. âI mean it. I am technically still at work,â you try again, voice lacking strength. âDynamite will knock on every door in this buildingâdonât wrinkle your nose, you know Iâm rightâ.
âAlright. I know,â he rasps, barely an exhale. It takes all his willpower to pull away. He steadies you on your feet, smoothing out the creases in your formal attire while you are quite pleased to simply watch on as he adjusts himself in his pants. âIâm glad my suffering is funny to youâ.Â
âDonât be dramatic,â you murmur, pecking the corner of his mouth. âI'll hide with you in the corner like I promised I would. We can make up for lost time after the auction. You know. The one for charityâ.Â
Shouto hums and reaches for the door, knowing youâve won. âOh. I told Kirishima Iâd bid for his date night,â he recalls as he turns the handle. âWould that bother you?âÂ
âOf course not baby,â you reply and take one last look at your reflection, less disheveled than before. The endearment âbabyâ almost has him walking into the doorframe.
You straighten up. Shouto thinks he must look incredibly dumbstruck, if your concerned expression is any indication. âYou okay?â you ask, proffering your hand. âYou didnât bring your crutches tonight, did you?â
âDonât worry. Iâm fine,â he intertwines your fingers, dizzy as you squeeze around him.Â
âItâs just a few tremorsâ.Â
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They are so me wtf
Self deprecating but thembo reader is so sadly adorable. A kind, caring sweetheart who always has everyone's best interest in mind. but never fails to be shocked and in disbelief when everyone confessed too them-
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Attendee: Hey, Y/N - Noah called out sick. Do you think you can run the kissing booth tonight?
Thembo Reader: I'll try... sorry in advance in there's no sales
[As soon as they take a seat crowd rolls in. By the end of the night Reader's face and shirt is covered in hundreds of lipstick stains like they're a living canvas. People take out loans to kiss their love fool one more time.
Thembo Reader, looking at themselves in a mirror on the desk: ah.
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Thembo Reader: Everyone deserves to be loved!
Their yans: including you
Thembo Reader: đ¶
Their yans: especially and only you.
Thembo Reader đ¶
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Yan: We're going out to eat tonight. You decide
Thembo Reader: ah...I don't really have a favorite restaurant.... It's up to you
Yan: I forgot the name of the last one we went to. Can you point it out on this map?
[Reader points to their favorite restaurant]
Yan: then that's where where going.
Thembo Reader: ok...
Yan: And you're ordering everything you want as I'm paying and I do mean everything. I will buy the entire menu if I have to
Thembo Reader: ...can I at least tip the waitress? :'(...