Please Pass This On.

Please pass this on.

If I could, I’d say any and all you needed to hear to you. So know that even if you can’t say them to yourself, I’d sincerely say any of them to you.

peace and quiet

you’ve got your peace and quiet now

no more having to hear me beg you for handwritten notes

no more having to listen to me hound you over helping around the house

no more having to feel me crying beside you while you’re trying to fall asleep

no more having to hear little 8-year-old feet running around the kitchen above you

          or down the stairs to hug you good night

no more having to be interrupted mid-game to hear “I love you daddy”

you’ve got your peace and quiet now

you’ve never had to hear me asking God why I’m not good enough for you to love

you’ve never had to listen to my racing thoughts tell me I’m not pretty enough for you to hold

you’ve never had to feel a little girl hyperventilating in your arms as she’s screaming for daddy

        to come back home

you’ve never had to hear a 9-year-old girl ask if she did something to make daddy leave and offer to

          “be better” if he came back,

                   but I have, and those sounds echo in my head every second of every day

you’ve got your peace and quiet now,

while I have the sound of her sobs harmonizing behind your voice saying,

          “No, I haven’t cried over this”

I hope you drown in all the tears you haven’t cried

you’ve got your peace and quiet now, and I hope it haunts you

kellycorin_

i always mean it when i say i love you btw

me listening to my hot bitch music pretending that everything is fine when in fact my mental state is rapidly declining