Idk How Common This Is Among Trans People, Especially Nonbinary Ones, But... More Than Transitioning

Idk how common this is among trans people, especially nonbinary ones, but... More than transitioning from a gender to another, I feel like I've transitioned from cis to queer. I switched from cisnormative masculinity and femininity, to queer ones.

I feel more comfortable now wearing masculinity like a butch or a faggot. Displaying the feminity of a dyke or a femboy. They feel more genuine, fun, flexible. I can play with them, mix them up.

That's what my trans journey ended up giving me. And I love it.

dostoyevsky kinda ate with “your worst sin is that you have destroyed and betrayed yourself for nothing.”

Vincent van Gogh, 1853-1890 Drawings from the asylum May-June 1889 chalk, gouache, ingres paper

2024

WHEN THE PAWN HITS THE CONFLICTS HE THINKS LIKE A KING

WHAT HE KNOWS THROWS THE BLOWS WHEN HE GOES TO THE FIGHT

AND HE'LL WIN THE WHOLE THING BEFORE HE ENTERS THE RING

THERE IS NO BODY TO BATTER WHEN YOUR MIND IS YOUR MIGHT

SO WHEN YOU GO SOLO YOU HOLD YOUR OWN HAND

AND REMEMBER THAT DEPTH IS THE GREATEST OF HEIGHTS

AND IF YOU KNOW WHERE YOU STAND THEN YOU KNOW WHERE TO LAND

AND IF YOU FALL IT WON'T MATTER CAUSE YOU'LL KNOW THAT YOU'RE RIGHT

actually i love growing older and learning how i work as a person like realizing what kinds of fabrics feel best on my skin or what brand of yogurt i like best or how I want to be touched. watching myself change, enjoying brussel sprouts when I used to hate them as a child, understanding why I got angry in that one conversation 10 years ago… there are so many mysteries inside me that i have yet to unravel and there will always be more and sometimes i think maybe its all worth it

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