FEARS // Boldany Fears Which Apply To Your Muse. Italicise What Makes Them Uncomfortable. Cross Out What

FEARS   //   bold  any  fears  which  apply  to  your  muse.  italicise  what  makes  them  uncomfortable.  cross out what they're not scared of.

the  dark.  fire.  open  water.  deep  water.  being  alone.  crowded  spaces.  confined  spaces.  change.  failure.  war.  loss  of  control.  powerlessness.  prison.  blood.  drowning.  suffocation.  public  speaking.  natural  animals.  the  supernatural.  heights.  death.  dying.  intimacy.  rejection.  abandonment.  loss.  the  unknown.  the  future.  not  being  good  enough.  scary  stories.  speaking  to  new  people.  poverty.  loud  noises.  being  touched.  sex.  chains.  inner  demons.  hallucinations.  staring.  going  berserk.  betrayal.

Gabrielle Bates, from "Eastern Washington Diptych", Judas Goat

the urge to bite while feeling overwhelming affection is completely normal. sorry if you don’t experience that but it’s not my business. get help

☠ ― 𝑅𝑎𝑛𝑑𝑜𝑚 𝑆𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑒𝑛𝑐𝑒 𝑆𝑡𝑎𝑟𝑡𝑒𝑟𝑠. (𝐴 𝑚𝑖𝑥 𝑜𝑓 𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑡𝑒𝑚𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑠 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑞𝑢𝑒𝑠𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛𝑠.)

"What are you hiding from me?"

"Close your eyes. No peeking!"

"Hey, can you help me real quick?"

"I'm hungry."

"Seriously, could you be any slower?"

"I think we missed our ride..."

"Are you okay?"

"No, really, breathe louder. It's not at all annoying."

"Do you want to head up to the roof?"

"You know, your taste in music really sucks."

"Whoa, wait, how late is it now?"

"Look at you, you're so cute!"

"Do you think we'll ever be able to fly?"

"Uh... there's only one bed in here..."

"Do we even have enough money for this?"

"Hey, take a walk with me. We have to talk."

"What are you even talking about?"

"I'm about three seconds away from screaming. Just a warning."

"Do you need any help with that?"

"Put that back right now!"

"You really believe that?"

"I hate this SO much."

"This is for me...?"

"Sorry, I'm just... really upset."

"May I have this dance?"

"I didn't mean to..."

"Do you think we'll be together forever?"

"I didn't think I could hate you more, but apparently I was wrong."

"You didn't think I would just leave, did you?"

"What I wouldn't have given to be a fly on the wall for that."

"How did you even... manage this?"

"Everything is okay, don't worry about it."

"...Do I even want to know?"

receiver's muse has just heard of a disaster/emergency involving sender. they've called everyone they can think of. nobody has news.

send "voicemail" for an anxious voicemail receiver's muse leaves for sender

send "call back" for sender to finally have a means of contacting receiver (and receiver will pick up)

send "search" for receiver to find sender, potentially injured/still in danger, but at least they Have Each Other

send "danger" for receiver to find sender recklessly, and now sender and receiver are both in trouble, but at least they're together

send "reunion" for receiver to be there when sender comes to, safe and whole, and recovering well

or if it's sender who's just heard about receiver (reversed):

send "missed call" to see receiver listen to one of sender's worried voice messages

send "what happened" to learn what disaster/emergency it is that has got sender so worried

send "static" to see the ways receiver is trying to let sender know they're OK (and/or why those ways aren't working - broken comms, downed phonelines, etc)

send "location" to see where receiver is & what they're trying to do about it post-disaster: buried alive, trapped in a burning building, down in the amazon after a plane-related disaster, kidnapped, etc

send "collaboration" to see/meet NPC in receiver's life who will help sender to look for receiver. this is especially fun if it's an uneasy alliance etc

SENSES AND OTHER SPECIFIC HCs.

what  does  your  muse  smell  like  ?

mercury often smells like oil and gunpowder, sometimes with sweat and a metallic tinge of blood. he has unscented shampoo and body wash, but his deodorant is a fresh water type scent. when he does wear cologne or use candles, he likes darker foresty scents, but in his line of work he doesn't want to have any signature smell for people to associate with him or recognize him by.

what  do  your  muse’s  hands  feel  like ?

his hands are calloused (mostly on his knuckles and the tops of his palms) and scarred, often at least a little roughed up from battle or training. mercury has long and slim fingers, dexterous and strong. good for fixing things or handling weapons. his grip is firm and sure. he has a harder time with keeping things gentle, has to be a conscious action on his part.

what  does  your  muse  usually  eat  in  a  day ?

while working he tries to keep his meals as efficient as possible, eating regularly and more or less healthily to keep strength up. he was taught to avoid foods that could upset his stomach and distraction or illness later. he'll make most of his meals so he can keep a low profile and get things done on his own timetable. Also makes a lot of things he can eat on the go or pack with him. outside of work he likes to eat out more, he loves meat and likes to have slow cooked or bbq when he can. he's not too big on sweets, but he loves chips too, crunchy and salty.

does  your  muse  have  a  good  singing  voice ?

not the best, he can carry a tune but he doesn't really sing much. the most he'll do is hum along to a song or tap his foot or fingers to the beat. every once in a while he'll sing along to himself quietly in the shower if he knows the song and is in the right mood.

does  your  muse  have  any  bad  habits  or  nervous  ticks  ?

mercury really tries to not have nervous ticks. but he does go stiff if he's truly nervous and starts looking for exit strategies. he may often shift his weight onto one leg to be ready to use his boot greaves more quickly if needed. in general he tends to clean or work on his weapons and prosthetics more often when he's stressed or nervous over longer periods. busy work for his hands that he can try to distract or slow his mind with. as for bad habits: striking first when he thinks he could get hurt (physically or emotionally), hiding from his emotions because its easier, talking while he eats. there's more i'm sure.

what  does  your  muse  usually  wear  ?

generally some kind of baggy cargo pants to hide his prosthetics and offer plenty of pockets. a long sleeve top, whether that's with his vest and armored sleeves or compression sleeves or a regular long sleeve top. he'll say he gets chilly easily, but its really that he feels more vulnerable uncovered. he's most often going to be in blacks or greys/silvers. but tends towards darker clothes even if he does wear other colors.

is  your  muse  affectionate  ?  How  so  ?

mercury has a hard time being affectionate, or just trusting people in general. given his upbringing, he isn't used to affection and it can make him feel uncomfortable or just nervous because he isn't sure how to react to it in the moment. if mercury likes or cares for someone he shows that more by teasing them and finding reasons to be with them. he'll also be protective over them. but he doesn't often initiate physical contact or tell people what they mean to him. at most he'll give out a compliment for something skill related or angrily try to talk someone out of doing something stupid.

what  position  does  your  muse  sleep  in  ?

on his side, facing the room's entry point. he won't have his back to a window if he can help it and finds his side to be the easiest way to keep his arms mostly unhindered and have quick access to a weapon under his pillow.

could  you  hear  your  muse  in  the  hallway  from  another  room  ?

not often. in most spaces mercury has lived, it's not safe to be loud. or he's in a situation where he is trying not to bring too much attention to himself. the exceptions to this are if he's angry or working on his legs and getting frustrated. then there may be things thrown.

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