I Dont Know What To Say.

I dont know what to say. 

bom and minzy left at the same time but only minzy was announced and she was basically used as a scapegoat… not only that but cl and dara knew since may but they still hinted and teased at the possibility of a comeback… and cl’s fucking ‘solo us debut’ tour was filled with 95% 2ne1 songs…

what the fuck

You should never ever end th " family " story in a sad ending ! Never do that coz it is only second part and im feeling hella sad so ! Only happy ending please I like it soooooooooooo much

It’s not finished yet, my original idea was angst to the max but apparently dear readers want a happy ending. hahaha I’ll try. Thank you for the support. 

My Debut Series : Family

Hello Tumblr, I suddenly became ambitious and wanted to start writting series. I’d never published or uploaded any official writtings, so this upcoming series will be first. It will be a Jay Park series. This series talks about family and the forever love given by your beloved parents, and how important your role is in the family. I hope you guys will express your criticisms after reading this. I will be forever thankful for your presence and support. 

Please leave a note, an ask , a message to show support. Reblog if you enjoyed it. Thank you so much.

ELO....😓

Family Part 2

After the small asthma attack just now, Jay decide to stay home and take care of the baby boy he claimed as son. Jay stayed by him. Played with him, bathe him , and even fed him breakfast. By the time he put Jayden down for his afternoon nap, I was already preparing lunch. I was cutting carrots…….carrots. Jayden’s favourite. I find this son of mine special. Children his age are not fond with vegetables, heck even I have no favouritism towards vegetables. The chopped up carrots were the added into the pot. As i was stirring it, I felt a Jay’s arms snaking itself around my waist and resting his chin on my shoulder. “the doctors said…” That’s it my body gave up. I started breaking down in his arms. He turned me around and gave me the most passionate kiss, followed by the tightest hug. Turning off the stove after that. “Shh…I’m not interested. i don’t wanna know. Knowing it makes me feel like it’s really going to happen.” “But Jay, he’s going to ….” “I said I don’t want to know, which part of that you didn’t understand?” Jayden’s asthma is going no where near the recovery line, only further and further away. His doctors already warned me to expect the worst. Jay have no idea. “Jay!” with tears streaming down my cheeks He deserves to know. He’s going to be Jayden’s dad after all. No, He is Jayden’s dad. He is the only father figure in Jayden’s life. “He’s getting worst day by day, Jay! Doctors already told me expect the worst, how do expect me to keep it to myself ” The reason I told nobody was beacuse it seems real if I talk it. “Babe.” Jay lifted my chin, forcing me to look at him. “ I swear with my life, I’m going to get the best doctors for him , no matter how much the cost is. We are going to get rid of Jayden’s asthma. He will grow up like other children in this world and do wonderful things for the society. He’s not going to die. Listen to me , Ok? He’s gonna grow me, get marry to a beautiful woman that he loves and have children. Yes, we are getting grandchildren.” he chuckled. Well that worked. a smiled was spread on my face. This is why I love this man so much. No matter what situation we are in, he always puts a smile on my face.

Dear God, I am so thankful for whatever you’ve gave me and made my life so special. I know I’ve asked for a lot in the past and did many sinful things, but I hope you’ll hear me out this time. Please don’t take Jayden away from me. I beg you, please…

Just dug my own grave.