Sometimes I Get Depressed About The Fact That Nobody Loves Me, Attracted To Me, Or The Fact That I Have

Sometimes I get depressed about the fact that nobody loves me, attracted to me, or the fact that I have hardly any friends but then I remember I’m unloveable and I’m fat lol

have i taught you nothing??

Pants getting loose is so fun but also unsettling like wdym I used to be fat enough to fit into those?

this is kinda just a rant for myself. seasonal depression has got me so fucked up, i've been masking it pretty well, but damn everyone's comments on my body have really been getting too me lately.

"you look so tired'

'you look like youre gonna burst out crying any minute from now'

'youre so fat, when are you gonna stop eating fatty'

idk i think imma start just wearing baggy ass clothes and try to 'hide' myself, like idc if the baggy clothes makes me look fatter. i just wanna sweat off as much water weight as possible aesthetics dont matter rn when i am this big. just gonna go around with no make up on and live my life. get my steps in. aad try to loose weight. loose so much weight that i have people asking me 'omg how did you do it?' 'omg are you okay, you look so sick!' idk maybe that's just wishful thinking i hightly doubt anyone would notice. but hey a girl ccan dream and i am gonna keep on going until i finally get where i need to be.

no literally, like if the number isn't going down, is it really an 3d?

sometimes I feel like my 3d isn't real lol. I feel that if I don't stop eating then It's not real, even when im fasting or only eating like 500 cals. It's not real, or at least i don't think it is

people really need to think before they speak